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Welcome to the our Romance of the Week free excerpt post: Who Needs A Hero? by Jennifer L. Hart

 

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Who Needs A Hero?

 

Maggie Sampson is a heroine in distress: In the span of one afternoon, she’s lost everything — her job, her fiance and her inheritance. The thing she’ll miss most though is her mind. What else could explain her vision of the handsome and enigmatic stranger who retrieved her engagement ring when she hurled the rock into the Atlantic Ocean? Normal people just don’t do things like that … but sometimes fantasy is better than reality.

 

 

An Excerpt from Who Needs A Hero?

by Jennifer L. Hart

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Chapter One

 

“Seriously Maggie, why does he want to marry you?” my younger brother asked with a mouthful of pizza, one eye on the Redskins game playing on the television. My family believed in multitasking. “You’re his secretary for God’s sake.”

“Don’t talk with your mouth full, you’re going to choke. And I’m his assistant, you weenie. We’re getting married because he loves me.” I replied with the utmost confidence. Sure, he hadn’t said the words, but why else would he want to spend the rest of his life with me?

“I’m moving in with Gloria next week and I don’t love her. How come this guy who supposedly loves you won’t let you live with him?” Marty raised one eyebrow, a skill I’d never mastered.

“He’s old-fashioned. He wants to wait until after we’re married.”

Marty snorted and some root beer shot out of his nose. “Old-fashioned guys don’t get it on in the backseat of a Camaro.”

I winced at the memory. “I never should have told you about that. It was a long time ago and how was I supposed to know the rocking car meant he was boffing his girlfriend? Can I help it if my warped little prepubescent mind thought a vagrant was stealing his car? I was only ten, for the love of grief!”

“Well you’re being naïve again, Maggie. Something isn’t right.”

I wiped up the root beer with a napkin. “Maybe I am naïve, but I’m happy. Can’t you be happy for me, too?”

Washington scored a touchdown and Marty yeah baby-ed the team before he answered my question. “I want to be happy for you sis, but I still think you should ask him about the money again. Get it before the two of you are married. Go over there now and ask him for it.” Marty pointed his pizza crust at the door.

“If it’ll make you happy, sprout, I will.” With a spring in my step, I went.

My fiancé only lived a few blocks to the southwest of my sublet condo. The Jetta-or the pee-pee mobile as Marty was fond of calling my ride-was on its last legs so I decided to walk. The leaves on the deciduous trees had a jaundiced look, pale yellow or light orange with brown flecks as they often did this time of year. Richmond didn’t boast the glorious fall foliage that some other parts of Virginia were known for. My one-point-five caret diamond sparkled with the colors of the setting sun and an early October breeze lifted my hair back from my shoulders. Life was good.

I reached his apartment building as the light faded and the doorman recognized me right away. “Good evening, Miss Maggie.” He greeted me with a slight bow of his stooped, arthritic shoulders.

“Hi Eddie, how are you feeling?”

“Can’t complain.” The dour faced doorman offered me one of his rare half smiles. “You look very nice this evening.”

“Thank you. Is he in?” I chucked my thumb at the second floor.

Eddie’s expression clouded over-he didn’t care for my fiancé. “I believe so, Ma’am.”

My spirits soared so high I didn’t even mind the Ma’am-ing. I thanked him and continued on my way into the lobby.

Wanting to burn off my second slice of pizza, I skipped the elevator and headed for the stairs. An elderly couple with a pair of wiener dogs made their way down and we exchanged pleasantries as I held the door for them.

 

The second floor hallway was empty, as most of the building’s inhabitants were the upwardly mobile sort who spent every evening out being seen. Upwardly mobile types, much like my boss.

 

Whose door I’d reached. Mentally calling up the office schedule, I gnawed on my lip and wondered if he was even home. Well if not, I’d wait, maybe call his mother and talk wedding details. All those colors and fabrics to choose from, all the time I needed to invest-never mind the money for something I’d wear once. Ick, not a chore made for a woman like me. Might as well get it over with, since I lacked female relatives to run interference and his sister, Justine, had emailed me from college to say my future mother-in-law wanted to talk turkey. I put the key in the lock, turned the doorknob and was about to announce my arrival when I saw it.

 

The tract lights over the entryway were dim and it took a moment for me absorb the significance of the lacy black bra draped over the barstool. I picked it up between shaking fingers and turned toward the cracked bedroom door, where Barry White crooned in dulcet sensuality. I stopped outside the door, fighting the urge to hurl, when his voice greeted me.

 

“That was great, baby.” The Jackass sounded out of breath. I closed my eyes in revulsion, knowing exactly how he looked as he said those words. After all, it had been my bra on the barstool often enough.

 

“You never answered me. When are you gonna ditch her?” The female voice sounded catty and I had no doubt I was the ‘her’ in question.

 

I heard a distinctly male grunt. “These things take time, sweetheart. You need to be patient.”

 

“I’ve been patient for over four years now, you jerk! You promised me you were going to tell her you lost all of her money and send her packing! Then the next day, you tell me you’re engaged to her!”

 

“Well, I couldn’t tell her I was paying for your breast implants with their inheritance! Really Darcy, how do you suppose-”

 

Darcy. I knew that name. The rat bastard had me cancel engagements with Darcy for him on a regular basis about six months before I’d started shtupping my boss. I had only seen her in person once and I could clearly picture her silky long blond hair and trim figure. Must have been before the breast augmentation.

 

“Besides, it’s just a phony engagement.” My heart ripped in two at his callous words.

 

“Watch your tone with me, Mr. High-and-Mighty! You were the one who wanted me to get that surgery! Besides, you told me you made nearly a million dollars with her investment. Where did it all go?”

 

I needed to sit down. Good question, Darcy. “Darcy, honey, calm down. You know I’ve had problems with the IRS-they froze my assets. I needed the money to keep me afloat while I straightened everything out.”

 

A million dollars. I had owned a million dollars and I never even knew it. Now the money from my father’s hardware store and the insurance capitol from my childhood home was gone, used to support the yuppie lifestyle of a scamming, no good rat bastard.

 

“I want her out of my condo. You told me it was only temporary, yet she’s still there, her fat ass leaving imprints on my sofa!”

 

That. Was. It.

 

I pushed open the door. “Don’t worry, Darcy; I’ll be out of your condo by morning.” I looked at The Jackass. “And I’ll be calling your good friends at the IRS to let them know what a considerate tax payer you’ve been.” I spun on my heel and marched out of the apartment with my dignity in shreds, held together with spit and phony pride.

 

“Maggie, wait!” The Jackass chased me down the hall, twig and berries bared for all to see. He grabbed my arm and spun me around to face him, but I didn’t think before I brought my knee up with all the force of a woman scorned. His face took on a deathly pallor before he crumpled like a sack of shit to the beige carpet. I didn’t bother to stick around to see if he would retch-though the thought held a certain grim appeal- just swung my ass out the door without a backward glance.

 

My brother was gone when I returned to the condo to pack my belongings. With shaking hands I called Marty’s girlfriend’s cell phone and left a voice mail to inform my brother I was packing up his stuff and I would get him a room at the Holiday Inn until he moved in with Gloria. I jogged down to the super’s door and asked him if I could borrow a Phillips head. Then I took some tuna steaks out of the freezer and used the screwdriver to remove the vent covers on the heating system. I dropped the fish in, reattached the covers and cranked the thermostat to eighty five. Welcome home, Darcy.

 

I returned the screwdriver on my way out to the car and bags loaded, drove over to the nearest motel, where I rented a room under Marty’s name. I could have stayed there, but I was wound up and needed to move. Put some distance between my body and my sham of a life. I dropped off the bags and headed east on I-64. The pee-pee mobile took a crap in the form of a busted alternator right at the 264 interchange. It was a struggle but the downhill momentum helped me guide it to the shoulder of the road. Without a moment’s hesitation, I left my bags in the car and started to walk. I hoofed it the next ten miles to the resort area of Virginia Beach fueled by indignation. Every step drove the point home.

 

Stupid, Stu-pid, STUPID!!!!

 

Fury burned through my system like acid. I was furious at The Jackass, at my parents for dying, my brother for being an ungrateful burden, but most of all with myself for being so gullible. Somewhere in my brain a voice shouted that I could be accosted, mugged, raped, left for dead in a gutter, but the rage blotted out fear and rational thought. At that point, I had truly hit emotional rock bottom.

 

Only when the sun rose directly in front of me, due east from my current location at Atlantic Avenue at Seventeenth Street, did I realize I’d been walking all night. Gulls cried out, eager to find a tasty treat in the churning ocean below. I broke into jog as I saw the first waves, and inhaled the salty tang of low tide. At least it was the end of October and there was nary a tourist to be seen. I really didn’t want witnesses to my meltdown. So focused on my goal, I crashed into a girl out for some early morning roller-blading on the boardwalk. Murmuring a very insincere apology, I helped her to her feet. She surveyed me for a second, eyes wide, mouth agog and took off in the direction she had come from at an unnecessarily fast clip.

 

I trudged through the sand and went to the water’s edge to remove my ring. It bounced in my palm a few times before I pulled back my arm and hurled it with all of my strength into the sea. My purpose achieved, I felt…empty. My legs wobbled as I staggered back a few feet and collapsed into a fetal ball, crying all the tears held in check since my parents’ death. I cried for them, for Marty, but mostly for myself and the waste of my youth. I ignored the bleat of seagulls and the taste of sand and briny morning air. I never wanted to move again.

 

And that was where he found me.

 

****

 

“Nice throw. Hell of an arm you got there.”

 

I looked up through my tears to see a man staring at the spot where I had pitched the ring. His mouth curved in a bemused smile, but when he turned and met my gaze sharp intelligence and concern lit his hazel-green eyes. An unbelievably handsome man, giving new definition to the term sculpted. A long sleeved gray T-shirt clung to his upper body; his shoulders looked like they could carry the weight of the world and the fit of the fabric showed off an awe-inspiring six-pack. His left hand had been shoved into one of a zillion pockets in his tan cargo pants that rode low on lean hips.

 

Dream or hallucination? It had been a brutal night, maybe my psyche had snapped like a dry twig. I started the perusal over. He wore his dark brown hair a little shaggy but oh so boyishly charming. Streamlined nose and high cheekbones were in perfect symmetry and deeply tanned skin covered lean muscle that he didn’t exactly advertise but became evident none the less. The lightening sky over the crashing waves of the Atlantic contrasted his profile, casting him in sharp relief against a soft focus backdrop, a living, breathing specimen of male perfection.

 

Great. Just what I freaking needed.

 

“Look.” I narrowed my eyes on Mr. Gorgeous. “I’m kind of in the middle of a nervous breakdown and after that I plan on having a very festive pity party, table for one, so unless you are here to put me out of my misery I suggest you scurry on your way.”

 

He flashed me a whiter than Vanna White smile, which only succeeded in making me feel like dweeby Pat Sajak. I guess that meant God was Merv Griffin and He was laughing His ass off. The handsome stranger held his hand out to me and for some bizarre reason, I took it.

 

He pulled me to my feet and then turned to walk away. I stared at his backside, wondering if I had hit my head at some point, sure this couldn’t be real because Merv Griffin only knows-actual people weren’t so glorious. He looked back when he realized I hadn’t followed him.

 

“It’s best to keep moving, that way the demons can’t catch you.”

 

“That’s easy for you to say, you were never the fat girl in gym class who couldn’t outrun her own shadow,” I snipped at him. Gesturing at the roaring surf, I continued, “Besides, I’ve hit the Atlantic. Running is no longer an option.”

 

He strolled back over to me, locks of hair tussled in the early morning sea breeze. If possible he appeared even more magnificent in motion. Something in the way he moved choreographed lethal intent, a dangerous predator, lying low, waiting for the right moment to spring at his unsuspecting prey.

 

“Then you’ve got to swim for it,” he informed me, before he did just that. His easy gait morphed into a determined sprint and he crashed against the oncoming waves-one awesome force of nature against another.

 

I think a crab crawled into my mouth when my jaw hit the sand. Stupefied, I watched him swim in the cold water, a steady crawl full of power growing smaller as he neared the horizon. And then he vanished.

 

“Okay, Maggie, you’re officially psychotic,” I murmured to myself and sat down hard on the sand. My gaze trained on the spot where he had disappeared and I wondered what Freud would say about my vision. Probably something like I hated my mother and needed to get laid.

 

Maybe he was a merman, returning to his home beneath the sea where he could shag Ariel and tell tales about the chemically unbalanced woman he’d met on the beach.

 

“If she is an example of the people above, the land is ripe for the picking!” he would announce to his fellow mer-folk as they dined on lobster before a roaring fire in the great hall. Although how the fire stayed lit underwater, or how they cooked the lobster for that matter…

 

“Hey!”

 

I looked up for the second time to see my dripping wet merman-sans fins-holding out his hand to me. He held my one-point-five carat solitaire, which looked none the worse for wear. I took it from him with a shaking hand.

 

“Oh my God.” Water dripped from his hair, eyelashes, nose and chin and I shivered in sympathy as the cool wind cut through my denim jacket. “Are you insane? You’re going to catch hypothermia!”

 

He winked at me. “Not likely. The water temperature is in the low fifties. I’ve been in much colder water for longer periods of time. It’s not exactly comfortable, but I’ll pull through.”

 

Master of the understatement.

 

“Come on.” This time he strode back up the beach without checking to see if I tagged along. Only and idiot would, but follow I did. He stopped short of the boardwalk where he retrieved a fraying blue towel and a small white card, which I instantly recognized as a hotel room key.

 

“You leave your hotel key sitting in the sand?” My tone sounded incredulous. “Where are you from, Mayberry?”

 

He didn’t look at me as he dried his stylishly unkempt brown hair. “It’s a magnetized card. If I’d lost it, I’d go to the front desk and they’d issue me a new one.”

 

“Yeah, but someone could steal it, go through your stuff.”

 

He shrugged. “Whatever, it’s just stuff. Nothing irreplaceable.”

 

I remained silent as he slipped on a pair of leather sandals and headed up the ramp to the boardwalk. He made no concession to the wind as it slapped his wet clothing, just strode along at a steady pace with me trailing behind him like a bitchy lost mongrel hoping for a good belly scratch.

 

The princess cut diamond bit into my palm. I wanted to ask his name and how he had retrieved my ring, but even despite his assurance that he wouldn’t freeze to death, I wanted him to get warm and dry as soon as possible. Answers could wait.

 

We were the focus of more than a few raised eyebrows as we entered the hotel lobby, not one of the pricier ones along Atlantic Avenue, but a nice little five story place with quite a bit of charm. My haggard appearance might have drawn notice if I’d been alone, but my companion commanded all the attention. I figured the men were astonished by his sodden clothing while the women were checking out his magnificent bod. He dripped into the elevator and I paused, unsure if I wanted to go all the way. Into his room. Where he would get naked.

 

A low growl rumbled in his chest as he reached for my arm and propelled me into the elevator. I didn’t resist, glad to follow a little while longer and study every detail of the merman. He pushed the button for the fifth floor. Coffee colored hairs were visible on his forearms, along with thin white stripes, possibly old scars. He didn’t shift or fidget, just gazed as the numbers on the elevator lit up with the car’s progress. I tried to think of something to say, but my mind had gone out to lunch. He seemed content to absorb the Kenny Logins Muzak and drip on the floor. The door dinged open all too soon.

 

He ambled halfway down the hall as if he didn’t have a care and inserted the key card. The light turned green and he gripped the handle, pushed open the door. My brain chose that moment to reappear and panic gripped my lungs in a vice.

 

“I’ll just wait for you here.” I toed at the carpet like a lost child.

 

He gave me a hard stare, allowing the silence to amplify my statement. A flash of something that might have been disappointment came and went. Or maybe it was just my severely battered heart, making me see things not really there. Wanting to be wanted. Hazel green eyes bore into me and it felt as if he sized me up, like he could read my thoughts as easily as he had found a diamond in an underwater sand dune.

 

“You’ll be all right.” His deep voice sparked something in me, something totally unfamiliar that I craved with rabid desperation. I nodded even though he hadn’t phrased it as a question.

 

Without a backward glance, he entered the room and shut the door. I stared at the brass numbers, 517, trying to jumpstart my brain. What the hell had just happened? Who was this guy?

 

I gazed at the ring in my hand through new eyes. When I had started driving last night, my only intention had been to exorcize The Jackass from my heart and get rid of this final reminder of him in one grand gesture. And I had. The ring had been cleansed in the ocean, a materialistic baptism which wiped the remaining vestiges of sentiment from my mind. I saw it now not as a reminder of The Jackass, but as the means to a fresh start. The gorgeous merman had known this, and had given me a new chance.

 

“Thank you,” I whispered at number 517. I touched the door, but jumped when I heard footsteps inside. I ran and only Merv Griffin knew how fast.

 

 

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The mage lay on the earthen floor inside the circle he’d warded with runes, clad in a simple woven robe embroidered with spells of focus, of strength, of protection for his physical shell as his essence cast outward.

One last time, he sought the Light. The Song that would lead him to the Soul Star which animated the amulet he’d once sworn to protect.

The Eye of the Magos, gone twenty years now.

He was the last of the Light Walkers, a people descended from the star voyagers and older than the Romany they favored.

But his skills had faded with his faith. He could still see the starbursts, but he could no longer separate them into the ribbons, the hues he had once Walked as his father had done before him. As he’d done so easily in his youth.

Before. When he’d believed in the legend.

The Eye of the Magos heals when honor defeats hate, when love vanquishes lies

Love breeds Light

Light grants Power

Only in Darkness does the Eye lose the True Path

Before he’d lost his only love, watched her die as he stood helpless.

Before his birthright had been stolen, and his heart had grown colder with each passing year, his powers diminished.

His father had told him of the existence of a Prism able to separate Light into its colors, that could, in times of great need, show the Protector the path of the Song that would lead to the Soul Star. He’d searched the world over for the object, investigated every belief system, every religion, every rite, however obscure, hoping that somehow one would lead him to the Soul Star and onward to the stolen amulet.

Here in these high desert mountains, studying the Ancient Ones, was his last stop…and he’d found nothing.

You will be a powerful mage, possibly the most powerful of all, his father had told him.

You were wrong, Papa. I have failed all the generations before me, father to son back in time to the first of our people. The grief he’d thought to be done with, once more assailed him.

One more time, he would try, but this would be his last. Slowly he slipped from this world into the Other Sky as he slowed his breathing, as he began to chant in a tongue few would recognize. He floated, searching even as faint hope waned…aimless, every direction the same to a man gone blind, rendered deaf…

The world cracked.

Abruptly he plummeted. Spiny, poisoned tentacles slithered around him. Stung him until his skin burned. Grime and filth swirled through the opening, covering him, drowning him…

Gasping, he awoke on the hard-packed earth, the hem of his robe stained, his feet smeared with unspeakable filth.

And in the dark recesses of his lost soul, the Eye of the Magos screamed.

The amulet was found, and Evil had claimed it.

The mage shuddered, but inside him, hope was born. At least he knew that the amulet still existed.

He was its only Protector. There was no time to waste.

Chapter One

Crisp morning rays sliced through Santa Fe’s high desert air, painting the alley just off the Plaza with clean lines of light and shadow. Above them, the crystalline blue bowl of sky was streaked by wispy cotton clouds. Against a backdrop of golden adobe walls, deep in the cool shade that would vanish by midday, newly-minted Detective Jace Carroll stood over the body of Sam Sunshine.

She jittered like a racehorse, poised just before the gate opened.

Not that she didn’t feel a little shame cast a pall over the thrill of being there. Sam was a grizzled old drug addict who’d been a fixture on the Plaza, panhandling with a funny, harmless grace for as long as she could remember. Jace had liked him—everyone did. He was a piece of an older Santa Fe being lost to the influx of money and bored socialites searching for a new playground.

The crime scene techs kept working, oblivious to anything but measurements that needed taking, photos to be shot.

Earl Ramsey, the veteran detective who’d let Jace accompany him on this first case, stood beside her, hands shoved into his pants pockets, head lowered and voice soft. “I could never reach him.”

She glanced up in surprise. “You knew him?”

Earl, a shambling big bear of a man, shrugged. “I was a young cop; he was a flower child. I’d never seen anything like them. They lived in teepees just outside of town. New Buffalo Clan, they called themselves.”

His gaze peered into the past. “Sam tried to convince me to change my way of thinking. Make a new world.” The creases around his eyes deepened. “I couldn’t see what needed changing. I married Martha, and life went on.” Voice heavy, he continued. “For Sam, life stayed suspended somewhere in that haze.”

“He never harmed anyone that I heard.”

“Sam reserved all his harm for himself. He couldn’t come to terms with the world as it existed, always wanted some new excitement, some cause to pursue.” He stared at his friend’s body. “In between times, he killed the pain of reality with whatever was handy.”

Jace winced. He could be describing her younger brother Jimmy. “Think that’s what happened here?”

“Probably. No sign of a struggle, no visible body trauma.”

“We’ll know after the autopsy.”

The older man gazed into the distance. “His body’s been abused enough just by living. Doesn’t seem fair to subject it to more.” Earl’s jaw hardened. “But the law’s the law.”

“I’m sorry, Earl.”

He shrugged. “It’s part of the job.” He looked over at her. “You really want this gig? Violent Crimes?”

“Oh, yeah.”

“Why?”

“Why?” she echoed.

“It’s a simple question, Jace. You’re going to figure out others’ motives—how about your own? Why are you so all fired-up to get a piece of the action?”

“I—” Jace had never tried to put it into words. She wanted to be there at the core of it, the dark heart of evil. To take it into her fist and feel it, taste it, smell it. Then maybe she’d comprehend a lot of things that had baffled her for years—why her mother drank, then slapped or ignored her children, why the only good part of her life had died with her father. Why at twelve, she’d had to fight so hard to keep body and soul together for the family left behind.

“To make sense of death, I guess. Balance the scales.”

“Justice is a pipe dream, kid, and most deaths are pointless.”

She didn’t know how to respond.

“Forget me.” He waved her off. “I’m old and jaded—been at this longer than you’ve been alive.” He nodded at the gathering crowd. “But we need eager beavers. You can help me canvass the area.”

Action. Her pulse sped. She turned toward the nearest knot of people.

“Jace?”

She halted. “Yes?”

“Don’t give up on making sense of it. Sometimes that’s all that holds the darkness at bay.”

Jace nodded, elated that he was giving her a chance, no matter how insignificant the case, to work with him. She’d been itching to move into the Violent Crimes section, and she’d take anything she could get, any means to show Captain Gonzales that she was up to the job.

Her dad had been a cop, a good one. She’d nurtured the dream for years of being one, too, though the need to care for Jimmy had delayed her. She’d always had to work hard for what she got, be patient and cunning, look for her chance.

She’d make the most of this one.

* * *

“Unnh…” The figure on the cot groaned and struggled to rise.

“Don’t sit up too fast.” The Keeper of the Chalice held out a cup of water to the man cradling his head in his hands.

“What—what happened? Where am I?”

“Drink this.” The man guzzled the water. “Take it easy. Your stomach might rebel.”

Too late. The man fell to his knees, retching helplessly.

The Keeper’s hands fluttered, then clenched. Casting a glance toward the rusty sink, the Keeper picked up the dingy cloth hanging on the edge and dampened it, then returned to the figure now sunk back against the cot, eyes squeezed shut in agony.

The Keeper proffered the cloth with unsteady fingers. “Take this and clean yourself.”

The man opened his lids a slit. Suddenly they widened. “You.” His eyes darted from side to side as if trying to understand where he was. “Wha—I don’t remem—” He clambered to his feet. “Sam—where is he?” Unsteady legs buckled.

The Keeper studied him, waiting to see what he remembered.

The voice hoarsened. “Where’s Sam?”

“You don’t remember?”

Long moments passed. “No,” he whispered. “We were—” He shook his head as if trying to jolt his thoughts back into place. “The Magos…” His voice trailed off as his frown intensified. “We’d ended our fast. Sam was ready for the Priestess, for the Sacred Waters—” Anxious eyes rose. “I want to see Sam. He’s my friend. He might need help.”

“Sam’s dead, and you were the only one there. Tell me what you did to him.”

With a cry of anguish, the figure collapsed to the floor.

* * *

Back at the station, Jace strode through the squad room, headed for her desk to type up her notes.

“Rough night, Justine?”

He knew better than to use the fancy name given her at birth. The nickname Jace symbolized her new life, her freedom from the past, but Detective Emilio Cardozo was no fan of hers ever since he and she had had a run-in when she was on patrol and had caught him making a lazy mistake. His presence was the only downside to being on Violent Crimes. “Maybe you look so tired because you need something to help you sleep, Blondie.” He leaned closer. “Or someone.”

Jace’s comeback was on her lips when Earl caught her eye and shook his head. He was right; hazing rituals had to be endured. She’d put the jerk on the spot, instead. “What’s new on that rape case?”

Cardozo snorted. “We don’t even know we’ve got a rape on our hands. Girl waits a month, then reports it? No evidence, she can’t remember nothin’, she expects it to stick when she can’t even give us a clue so simple as where she was?”

“But what about that other girl, a few months ago? She couldn’t remember, either. We could have a serial rapist.”

“What I got—” His emphasis made it clear she was excluded “—is some girls looking to get laid, playing with fire and somebody slips ’em a rophie or something. Or maybe they just had too much fun and feel bad, but they waited too long to come in. No chance to trace rohypnol in the blood now.”

God, he pissed her off. “That’s what you like, isn’t it? Easy explanations so you don’t have to work too hard.”

Cardozo took a step forward, forearms bulging, fists clenched. Barely taller than Jace, he was all muscle.

Including his head.

“Jace.” Earl called out a low warning before turning to answer the phone on his desk.

She subsided reluctantly. Damn it, you shouldn’t be a cop if you weren’t going to do it right. Remembering her father’s pride in his uniform, how tall and straight he’d stood, his stern insistence that a cop’s integrity was everything, Jace burned at the injustice. Her father was long dead at the hands of a cheap thug, and Cardozo stood here, the antithesis of everything her dad had believed in and died to protect.

“You watch yourself, Blondie.”

“Cardozo, get back to work,” Earl ordered.

Jace was about to tell Earl she could take care of herself, but Earl had already picked up the phone. Motion in the doorway caught her eye. She looked up into the vivid blue eyes of Assistant D.A. Gabriel McMullen, the impact of his gaze palpable across the crowded, noisy room. After a quick, solemn nod, the prosecutor broke the connection and spoke to Cardozo. Studiously avoiding any evidence that she’d even noticed him, Jace ducked into the hallway, then veered into the alcove where the drink machines were located.

A young woman barreled right into her. “I’m sorry—” The woman, in her late teens, maybe early twenties, juggled the soft drink she’d just opened. The can bounced, then rolled across the floor, spewing sticky fluid over their feet.

Hunched over, shoulders shaking, the young woman gazed helplessly at the mess around them.

Jace squatted beside her and righted the can. “Are you all right?”

“I’m fine. Sorry, I didn’t mean to—” Her voice caught on a sob.

“Hey, everything I own is washable. No sweat.” Jeans and boots were tough to destroy. Jace hailed a passing secretary. “Colleen, would you please call the janitor up here?” Drawing the young woman to her feet, Jace put an arm around her. “Let’s get you cleaned up.”

Once inside the ladies’ room, Jace dampened paper towels and handed them to the young woman. “I’m Detective Carroll.”

“Detective?” The young woman looked more stricken than ever.

“That a problem?” She didn’t seem the criminal type, but appearances seldom counted for much. Jace had arrested angelic-looking grandmothers. With a smile aimed at disarming, she busied herself cleaning the sticky liquid off her boots. “I didn’t get your name.”

Fresh tears spurted from the young woman’s swollen eyes. To save her embarrassment, Jace faced her own pale green eyes in the mirror and ran her fingers through the short cap of blond hair that might as well have had a mixer run through it.

“Valerie. Valerie Turner.”

Bingo. The second rape victim. Easy to see why she was upset.

“You know, don’t you?” Valerie Turner asked. “Who I am.”

Her poker face must be slipping. Jace shrugged. “I’ve heard a little about the case.”

“Detective Cardozo doesn’t believe me.”

“Should he?”

Fire sparked in the girl’s eyes. “I’m not lying.”

“Why did you wait so long to report it?”

“I wasn’t sure what to do. I—I wasn’t supposed to be there.”

“Where?” Cardozo had said that she couldn’t remember anything after accepting a drink in the bar.

“The Club,” she whispered.

“What club?”

“Never mind.” Fear darted through Valerie’s gaze.

She was halfway to the door before Jace stopped her. “What club?”

Valerie stepped back, drying her hands. “Listen, it’s not your problem. I—I’m sorry about the mess.”

“We can’t help you if you don’t come clean. Are you under age, is that it?”

“No,” Valerie shook her head. “I’m twenty-one.”

“Then it doesn’t hurt anything for you to tell us what bar.”

“Not a bar,” Valerie whispered. “The Club.” The door swished, and she was gone.

Jace charged out into the hall after her. They’d been hearing rumors about a roving nightclub, but no one had a good lead yet. “Valerie, wait!”

Not even a glimpse of the girl remained.

A smooth baritone voice intervened. “I wasn’t aware you’d been assigned to the rape case, Detective.”

Jace whirled. Despite her height, Gabriel always made her feel small. Looking at his rugged face, his twice-broken nose a souvenir of college football and his years as a cop, she clenched her fingers against the urge to touch. “I haven’t.”

“Then what are you doing, terrifying the victim?” One dark eyebrow lifted, his eyes cool. Sable-brown hair was neatly razor-cut well above his starched collar. Studying the expanse of white cotton over his chest, she stood very still.

“I didn’t scare her off. Cardozo’s doing fine by himself.”

Firm lips quirked at one corner. “Surely you couldn’t be accusing one of Santa Fe’s finest, Detective?”

She snorted. “Has she mentioned The Club to you?”

“Which club?” Then his eyes widened as her meaning registered. “Tell me.”

“Get me assigned to the case, and I will.”

“From what I hear, you’ve already got your first case.”

“Sam Sunshine. Big deal.”

“Know the autopsy results already? You should put your newfound psychic abilities to work, Detective. His body’s not even in Albuquerque yet.” He leaned closer. “What did she say?”

Jace felt the heat of him all across the front of her body. “Not much. Just that she wasn’t supposed to be there. Cardozo could have found out the same thing if he’d just listened.” She turned on her heel.

“Jace.” His voice vibrated in the air between them. “The moon.”

She halted. Despite her best intentions, she felt their code words low in her belly.

“Gonna shine brightly tonight, I think.”

Barely glancing over her shoulder, she challenged him. “Yeah?”

“Count on it.”

Licking her lips slowly, Jace met his gaze.

Message received.

* * *

Cassandra Sabanne was sick of seclusion. At eighteen, she’d been a prisoner for six years, orphaned to the care of her much-older brother Dante. Her last escape from the Swiss convent school three weeks ago had paid off—sort of. She’d been liberated from the nuns, but backwater Santa Fe was hardly what she’d had in mind.

Action, that’s what Cassie wanted. Sins of the flesh, glamour, adventure…all that she’d been missing while the world danced on without her. Everything her jailer brother would deny her.

She grimaced at the sunshine gilding the firs, dancing over the fluttering aspen leaves, the brilliance of the day doing nothing for her mood. “Even Switzerland wasn’t this boring.”

Melinda, the housekeeper’s granddaughter, looked at her new friend in horror. “Easy for you to say. You’ve lived in Europe most of your life. I’ve never been outside of New Mexico.”

“But I’ve been locked away in a Swiss convent school.” Cassie evaded her friend’s too-seeing eyes and sighed. “I guess you’re right. It’s just…” With a shake of her head, Cassie turned to pick out a new CD. “I’m tired of being in jail. I want some action.”

“Some jail. Four families could fit in this house and never cross paths.”

Her eyes crinkling at the corners, Cassie burst out laughing. “Okay, maybe I’m spoiled. But I’m still bored out of my skull.”

“So change it.”

“You don’t have a warden.”

“He’s scary, all right.” Melinda chewed on her lip again. “What do you want to do?”

“Go to The Club.”

Melinda gasped. “Where did you hear about it?”

Cassie arched an eyebrow. “Do you know how to get an invitation?”

“Are you kidding me? We’re too young for that crowd.”

“Says you. In Europe they don’t treat eighteen-year-olds like infants.”

“Cassie, that’s a dangerous place. You don’t have any business going there.”

“Afraid? I’m not. And I’m going to The Club, believe me.”

“How?”

“You’re going to help me.”

“Oh, no. No way. My grandmother would kill me. Right after my father locked me up for the rest of my life. Besides, he wouldn’t agree—” Melinda cut a glance toward the door. “if he knew.”

“Dante will never find out.”

“How are you going to make sure of that?”

“If I can break out of that convent he put me in, I can escape from this place. Mark my words, Melinda. We’re checking out The Club.”

Melinda pulled her shoulders in closer. “I don’t know if I want to.”

Cassie’s lip curled. “Then I’ll go by myself.”

“No, I can’t let—” With an elaborate sigh, Melinda gave in. “All right. If you can wangle an invitation and if we can get in, I’ll go.”

Cassie clapped her hands in delight. Curling Melinda’s equally long dark hair up into a twist, Cassie turned her toward the cheval mirror standing in the corner of her room. “We will. Just leave it to me. One look at us, and they won’t know what hit them.”

Seeing her friend chewing her lip, Cassie pulled her away from the mirror and toward her closet. “Come on, let’s figure out what to wear. My clothes should fit you.”

“But Cassie, I can’t—” Eyes round as saucers, Melinda entered the closet as though she’d been given the keys to a magical kingdom.

“I have all these clothes Dante bought me and nowhere to wear them. It’s the least I can do for my partner in crime.”

With a tremulous smile that grew wider by the second, Melinda turned toward the contents of Cassie’s kickass wardrobe.

GREECE

Thirty-two years ago

“This is cinquefoil, Papa?” Five-year-old Dante Sabanne frowned fiercely as he pointed to the dainty plant.

The man beside him smiled with pride. “Yes,” he murmured. “And what are its uses?”

“A de—”

“Decoction,” his father supplied.

“Decoction,” Dante repeated. “The root is for toothache and fever. The bark can stop nosebleeds. The tea…” He halted.

“Go on,” his father urged.

Dante’s mouth pursed. “I don’t like the part about scaring witches.” He craned his neck to look upward. “We are magos, Papa, and Light Walkers. You said we carry the blood of ancient sorcerers in us. Aren’t sorcerers and witches friends?”

A fond smile crossed his father’s face. “Often they have been.”

“Witches can be good, right?”

“Many of them are, yes. Healers and protectors.”

“Like the amulet,” Dante said. “Please, may I see it, Papa?”

His father reached inside his shirt for the unnaturally green stone set in a silver disc carved with runes so ancient that the original language had been lost to all but the fathers and sons chosen to guard it through countless generations. “Do you want to touch it?”

Dante nodded and brushed back the dark hair falling into his eyes. One finger uncurled from his palm. “The Eye of the Magos,” he whispered, closing his hand around the amulet.

The stone glowed. Power crackled.

He shuddered but held on, his eyes squeezed against the longing and grief and wild, reckless joy surging through his veins. Behind his eyes rushed a river of lights, all the colors of the rainbow and more…singing to him, a harmonic both terrifying and achingly sweet, power singing in his bones, his breath, his belly…calling to him, luring him—

“No, son.” His father reclaimed it.

The connection snapped. Dante’s eyes fluttered open. “Papa, not yet—”

His father’s eyes held both love and sorrow. He tucked the amulet back inside his shirt. “You are not yet strong enough to protect it.” He gentled his tone. “But one day you will be.” His eyes grew distant, but Dante was too caught up to notice, grieving for what had been taken from him.

“I am only small, not weak, Papa. I can Walk the Light. I hear the Song of the Soul Star.”

His father’s gaze warmed. “I know you can, and one day you will, my boy, but the amulet and its power would harm you now. To wield it requires a wisdom that comes only with time.

The Eye of the Magos—” he began the chant. “—heals when honor defeats hate, when love vanquishes lies—”

Dante joined in, his childish voice twining with his father’s deeper one. “Love breeds Light. Light grants Power. Only in Darkness does the Eye lose the True Path.”

His father smiled and pressed him close. “For generations, we have guarded its might. Ours is a sacred duty. I will carry the burden for a while longer. Even a Protector is allowed to be a boy first. Play and laugh and grow, my son. Your time will come soon enough.”

Dante’s mother entered, her face gone stiff. He knew it meant his father was going away. “Your driver is outside.”

“Papa, why must you always leave?” He looked up to his tall father, but Papa was watching his mother.

He flicked a glance down at Dante, summoning a smile that did not reach his eyes. “I’ll be back, my son. Very soon.”

He knew he wasn’t supposed to ask, but it wasn’t fair. They could be so happy. His mother wouldn’t have to spend the rest of the day crying. “Why can’t you stay with us? I’ll be good, I promise.”

His mother’s eyes welled with tears. His father took his face in both hands. “You are already perfect. I wish…” His father sighed, then kissed his forehead before stepping away. “You are young yet. Someday I will be able to make you understand.”

“Liar.” Dante’s mother turned her back.

His father’s face looked scary. His mother’s shoulders were rigid. Dante longed to go back to the moment when his father was happy, telling him about the potions and magic.

He stood very straight. “When you return, Papa, I will show you that I know other plants as well.” He bit the inside of his cheek hard so he would not cry. Papa might not come back if he cried.

His father’s face was sad. He dropped his hand to the boy’s hair. “Son, I—”

Dante shook his head. “I understand,” he said, though he didn’t, not really. Mama had told him last time about the other family. Papa had another son, but Dante didn’t know why they couldn’t all live together. He would like to have a brother, but Mama told him he could never, ever ask or Papa might not return.

More than anything in the world, he wanted Papa to be with them, so he smiled and stepped away so that his father could leave.

As he thought about the spells his father had told him were in his blood, Dante wondered if there was a spell he could use to make his father stay.

But the only person he could ask was the man getting into the big black car to leave him behind.

Chapter Two

Jace headed up the mountainside toward her cabin after a bitch of a day. Pulling to a stop in front of her door, she leaned back against the seat and rotated her head, groaning at the tight muscles in her neck.

She wanted a hot bath, soaking for a little bit of forever. She wasn’t even sure she cared if she ate. Oh, for a nap before Gabriel arrived…

Gabriel. Their paths had crossed a year or so back when she’d testified in one of the cases he’d prosecuted. Gabriel understood her ambitions and the demands of her job, as she did his. He was divorced with no interest in another marriage, and they shared an appreciation for the pressure relief valve of good—make that very good—sex. Beyond that, they lived separate lives, and it was exactly what she wanted.

She relished the solitude, the independence she’d waited so long to have. From the day her father died, the family’s survival had depended on her, and a dreamy-eyed girl had been slammed into reality. She’d learned hard lessons about the price of being soft, of feeling too much, of counting on anyone but herself.

Jace emerged from her jeep and picked up the sack of groceries that would keep her for days, as seldom as she cooked.  Then she paused for her nightly ritual.

After a year, she still hadn’t tired of the view, the crisp, clean tickle of high-country air…the stillness so complete that you could hear your own blood pulse. She spent most of her time on the job, always promising herself a day off to do nothing but drink in the beauty. Instead, she got this one brief burst of mountains every day. If she got home before dark, that is.

It’s the life you wanted, Jace.

True. After years of being a parent to her own mother and Jimmy, after an endless line of nothing jobs to keep body and soul together, she’d almost lost everything in a car accident five years ago—and she’d resolved not to put off her dreams any longer. She’d taken that disaster and put it to use. A scar on her hip and a limp when she was too tired served to remind her that she’d wanted to be a cop forever.

Now she was. If it meant twenty-eight-hour days and little time to smell the roses, so be it. She didn’t care about flowers much, anyway; one glance at the plants on her porch was proof. She kept meaning to water the gifts from her landlady, Myra, but she did as little on the domestic front as possible. She’d been cook, laundress, mother and father, provider for her family since she was twelve. Dad’s benefits hadn’t covered much, and her mother still was no help; left to her, every cent would go to Southern Comfort.

Once Jimmy had moved away, Jace had left her mother to a boyfriend and her own devices. She’d done all the caretaking she ever wanted to do, except that Jimmy kept showing up and needing more. She and Gabriel had argued more than once over that.

Gaze traveling over the half-dead plants lined up on the steps with begging bowls out for the summer rains, Jace consigned her regret to the four winds. “You’re on your own, guys. I don’t have it in me anymore.”

The job was enough. She might feel the occasional gnawing for more, but life had taught her it wasn’t likely to happen. She could barely remember the little girl who’d been such a dreamer.

Unlocking the door, Jace shoved it open, wincing as it stuck halfway. Got to tell Myra

The bag was torn from her hands, dropped to the floor. A muscled arm grabbed her from behind, hand clapped over her mouth.

She jerked straight, leg lifted to smash her foot down on his arch—

—until she caught the familiar scent.

And smiled.

One quick shove against the wall, face first, hands lifted above her head, wrists trapped in one big fist. With a whoosh, the air left her lungs as a big body pressed against hers.

Jace pushed back, brushing her bottom across his groin.

Gabriel growled and fastened his mouth to her nape.

Arousal stirred, deep and low. Her nipples hardened in a rush, gooseflesh peppering her skin. A guttural moan forced its way up her throat.

Heated, silken tongue slicked a path up her neck, fastened on her right ear lobe. Sucked gently. Nipped.

Jace rocked against him, all but purring.

Gabriel chuckled. Relaxed against her.

Jace seized the advantage. Yanked down her arms, punched her elbow into his stomach, whirled. Doubled over, he couldn’t straighten quite fast enough before she hooked one foot behind his right knee and wrenched his leg from beneath him.

With a thud, he landed on the floor, instantly coiled to rise again.

Jace dropped, straddled his belly. Laughed when air whooshed from his lungs. “Losing those cop reflexes, Counselor?” She gripped the opening of his expensive white shirt.

“Oh no, you don’t.”

Jace lifted her eyebrows, then jerked the panels apart. Buttons popped to the floor like hailstones.

“Don’t what?” she asked in her silkiest voice, eyes wide. “Can dish it out but you can’t take it?”

Faster than she could blink, she found herself on her back, a great deal of man blocking out the fading sunlight slanting into the room. Strong thighs bracketed her waist while big hands each circled a wrist. “I wasn’t through.”

Jace studied the firm, muscled chest, dark curls bisected by the thin white scar from long-ago shoulder surgery. Her gaze zeroed off to the side.

He glanced over to see what she was staring at.

Jace bucked to topple him.

He chuckled. “Not so fast, slick.” He pressed her down. “Uncle?”

Jace narrowed her eyes. Shook her head.

“Tut-tut. Guess you need more…persuasion.” His mouth fastened just below the right ear lobe still wet from his tongue. Then marked a tingling trail down her neck, inside her blouse and into the valley between her breasts.

She tensed to resist him. Moaned instead.

His fingertips drifted over her curves. Mirrored her earlier grip on his shirt.

Jace grabbed his wrists. “Oh no, you don’t.”

“Should have thought of that before you made free with mine. I just hope you’re good at finding buttons.”

“Don’t you dare—”

Too late. With one clean yank, he separated the halves, the second shower of buttons on wood floors as loud as the first. “I’ll buy you a new one,” he muttered, lowering his head to the lace covering one breast.

Jace drove her fingers into his hair and gasped.

All teasing fled.

She fumbled at his belt; opened his zipper. Plunged fingers inside his briefs and closed around him, her thumb teasing the tip.

God. She’d had limited sexual experience before Gabriel, but he’d helped her make up for lost time. For all his sharp mind, his hard-as-nails courtroom manner, there was within this man a willingness to throw away all pretense and play with her. However she wanted, hot and dirty, slow and dreamy, any fantasy she had and several she’d never even imagined.

The swollen head wept one perfect pearl at the tip; he pulsed in her hand. Jace shoved at his shoulder, twisted her body to get closer to his shaft while his lips slid across her belly on the way to—

“Sis?” The front door, still open, squeaked as it was shoved wider.

“Shit!” Gabriel kicked it closed. A yelp sounded from behind the door.

They scrambled to fasten their clothing.

“What the—?” Curly auburn hair came first, then a hand rubbing the man’s forehead, followed by hazel eyes sparking with anger.

“Damn it, Jimmy,” Jace shouted. “What does this look like, Grand Central Station?” Chest heaving, she glared at her brother.

Then at Gabriel for snickering.

Jimmy Carroll’s eyes widened as he studied his sister, clasping her blouse together. “Sorry, Sis.” One corner of his mouth quirked. He stuck out his hand to Gabriel. “Jimmy Carroll. I’m—”

“Jace’s brother. She’s told me about you.” Gabriel returned the gesture. Stood, pants zipped but belt unbuckled, shirt hanging open, gaze direct and challenging. “Gabriel McMullen.”

Clamping down hard on the adrenaline, Jace surveyed the red-rimmed eyes, the shadows lining his face, the dust-streaked clothes. “Give us a minute, will you?”

“Sure.” He stepped toward the door with a smartass grin. “Nice meeting you.”

Gabriel glanced at Jace and frowned. He smoothed at the line she knew must be carved between her eyes.

She blew a puff of air that fluttered her uneven bangs. “I’m sorry about that.” Dealing with Jimmy made her tired, and she’d been doing it so long. Would he ever grow up?

“Want me to stay?”

“No. I can handle it. I’ve had plenty of practice.”

Gabriel tilted her chin up and studied her eyes. “I didn’t let you get much sleep last night.”

A pang of longing shot through her, a spike of need for what had been snatched prematurely by Jimmy’s arrival. She’d been primed for Gabriel ever since he’d spoken their code words in the hall. She just hadn’t expected to find him lying in wait.

“Where’s your SUV?”

He smiled. “Out back. Like the surprise?”

“You don’t wrestle so bad, Counselor, for a soft lawyer type.”

“Nothing about me feels soft right now, Detective.”

“His timing sucks.”

“Ain’t it the truth? Want me to come back later?”

Regret pressed in on her. “I don’t know why he’s here, but I’ll come to you later if I can.”

He slid one hand into her hair. Delivered a scorching kiss, then released her. He stuffed in his shirt and buckled his belt, hooked his tie and jacket over his shoulder. “I’ll leave the light on, Detective.” With a two-fingered salute, he waved goodbye and strolled to the door.

In a minute, she heard his car start, tires crunching on the gravel.

Running the fingers of one hand through her hair, Jace sighed, squatted on the floor and picked up scattered buttons. She carried them across the room to place them on the bar that separated the small living room from her kitchen, then adjusted her bra and tied her blouse together beneath her breasts.

“Come on in, Jimmy.”

Jimmy entered, whistling. “Well, well…”

“Shut it,” Jace growled.

“Now, Sis, nothing to be ashamed of, just ’cause you’re doing the nasty barely inside the front door.” He lifted his palms. “No complaints here. Nic

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When I look back now on those days, I find it takes a great deal of effort for me to re-enter the mind and spirit and body of Alicia, myself at seventeen and eighteen, and to make any immediate sense of her. It is not that I am wiser now, although certainly I hope and believe that I am. It is not that that woman-child Alicia seemed foreign to me, because she does not: indeed I look back on her now with compassion, with sympathy, with love, and yes, with the very strong conviction that she is a kindred spirit, my child — my young sister, almost. I feel so much in common with her, in all things that ever go unspoken between two people. The vivid picture that for some reason comes back to me again and again when I think of young Alicia’s brief time in prison is that we are sitting, facing each other, on either side of the kind of glass separator that one often sees in movie versions of prison visiting rooms. We are spreading our fingers and holding up our hands on either side of the glass, palm to palm, and her hand, my hand, then, seems always much smaller, more childlike, than my hand, today.

My hand, today, is rougher, raw, somewhat chafed, dry skinned. It is strong. Each Sunday morning in front of my white wood frame church on the town common of this town, not so far from Concord, I shake hands with a couple hundred members of my congregation as they head back home after the service. It is almost always the high point of my week. They thank me for helping them guide themselves in their lives. They thank me for helping them to find simple paths through complex situations. They thank me for helping them stay connected with their families and engaged with their daily work and the practical details of their lives. They thank me for helping them remember how wonderful and important love is, and how much we must cherish its presence, and the presence of what we take to be sacred, in our daily lives.

I do not work with my hands in the conventional sense in which one might use that phrase. I am not a carpenter nor a sculptor, not a massage therapist nor a surgeon. And yet I find it immensely meaningful and real and worthwhile to connect with these people, young and old and in between, with my hands, each day in my work. A young person will come to visit me in my study at the church on a Thursday evening, troubling over her decision about whether to join the church. I find I cannot speak to her without touch, without covering her hand with mine as I try to help us move toward some worthwhile, if not overwhelming, conclusion. A dignified, somewhat stiff elderly gentleman, a widower, will call and ask if I might be able to visit him at his home, and when I am seated there with him he will break into silent, tearless sobs as he tries to ask me, what is left for him to live for. I take his hand in both of mine, as much with my own desperation as to comfort him as I impel myself to find some words that will engage him sufficiently to give him a real and sustainable lifeline, and it is in this touching, as likely as not, that there comes to me a ray of light. Hands. Touch. I am lucky, I often feel, that I have found work that brings with it an expectation of my likely trustworthiness, so people may be less likely to be put off when I reach out to touch them.

I do not expect, in my own life any more, the intensity of sexual love. Sexual love, the two words together. I have found it to be rare, and indispensable only if one dwells upon it.

Instead, I have made it my work and my life to be a friend to the people of my congregation. I take their hands in mine. I embrace them, and I embrace their lives. I am worthy of their trust, I think, and I encourage that trust, but I also try to find small and incidental ways to communicate my own imperfection to them, to let them know that all we can ever expect of one another is our humanity.

Sometimes I wish there were a way to go further, to let them know my own, all our own, capacity for hot, rutting lust, and for all the most animalistic behavior that goes with that, or that went with it, for me. To let them know that they should never think themselves less human because they also find such lust at the core of their being. But I settle for holding their hands, for giving them hugs sometimes, for being their friend.

When I was that Alicia, seventeen or eighteen, long ago, I did not have anyone like me, the me of now, to hold my hand. I had looked for connection with my parents and found nothing. I had bumped against a few boys before I met Teddy and just found them well, mostly bumpy. I had girlfriends like Nicole and Bébé who, aside from having their own issues and their own neediness and probably not very much wisdom, seemed mostly concerned with the bumpiness of boys. And then I found Teddy.

For a few weeks, at a time when I had no real basis of experience and judgment for being sure about anything, I was sure that Teddy was the real thing, even though I didn’t know what “the real thing” meant. And my hunger for what I took to be that sacred possibility was so great that I lost all capacity to make sound judgments about anything else in the world. I was drunk.

Drunk. And I suppose that’s why that Alicia makes no immediate sense to me today. We don’t expect to be able to make sense of ourselves, our behavior and our judgment or lack of it, when we are drunk, do we? We can look back, bewildered and bemused, and perhaps even find it entertaining if the costs were not too high, but everything seems to have occurred on a different terrain, doesn’t it? Maybe even a different planet.

So that was part of it.

The other part of it was the sheer joy of belief. Events then and since have made me a bit of a skeptic, but for those ten days my belief in Teddy, in Teddy and me, was total. You may call it puppy love, you may call it hot monkey love, you can call us sluts or a bimbos, I don’t care, you weren’t there. We had no inhibitions, and no restraints but those of the clock, and — although I would never have admitted this during my several years of divinity school — it was the most sacred experience of my life.

The fact that it seemed, for a while, to ruin my life, was a risk I might well have accepted had I allowed it into my thinking. But I am grateful that I was sufficiently secretive that I never afforded my friends or family or teachers the chance to talk me out of it. They might have succeeded, because despite my recklessness I was not particularly brave.

So I thank God for my lustful, furtive, feral secrecy. At no time before or since would I have been even remotely capable of it all.

And then just where would I be?

I don’t know. I am quite sure I would not be a chain-smoker like my mother, but I might well have chosen a husband on the basis, absent all else, of his “intellectual honesty.” No doubt he would have come from an old Chicago family like my own, and we would have to decide between Deerfield, Lake Forest, Libertyville, or perhaps even Lake Shore Drive or the Hancock Center. We would have sent our children east to school, and we would probably have cancelled out each other’s votes in national elections. Maybe there would have even come a time when, like Lina, I would find myself combing the beach looking for a young body to pass the time.

Maybe the joke is still on me.

Q: Why did the girl break into prison?


A: So she could avoid living a life of wealth and privilege, driving (or being driven in) a Jaguar or a Bentley, summering by the Lake and taking winter vacations at Aspen and Palm Beach.

It’s a strange punch line, I will grant you that, and I can’t think of anyone I knew then, among my family or friends or the girls I went to school with, who would get it.

I don’t even know if Teddy would get it, or I should say if he would have gotten it back then.

Teddy.

My drink of choice.

Occasionally on Tuesday evenings these days, I drive over to the church and spend some time within earshot of the weekly Alcoholics Anonymous meeting. I don’t sit in on the meetings in a visible and obvious way, because to be there without being specifically and physically an alcoholic would be, I suspect, too gratuitous a co-optation of the anonymity of some members of my congregation, and I don’t wish to complicate my usefulness to them in the role for which they have hired me, as their pastor. So, while of course I know generally who is there, I try to keep my mind clear of that sort of identification, and they never see me. I enter my study from the other side, always having been careful to leave a door opened beforehand between my study and the AA meeting room so that my hearing will not be obstructed.

And I sit, and I listen, and I seem to learn as much about myself and my thirst for Teddy, back then, as I might have learned from an expensive series of psychotherapy appointments. Of course Teddy was neither a beverage nor a drug, but my desire for him, or more precisely for what I became in his presence and for the heights of sheer ecstasy and honesty that we reached with one another, was surely an unquenchable thirst. And in giving myself up totally to him to feed my hunger and my thirst, I hit, as they say in the halls of Alcoholics Anonymous, a true bottom.

My bottom did not come the night they took Teddy away from me and lugged him off to The Hole. That night I performed with great virtuosity (if little virtue) in my effort to, in effect, get him back. All well and good that I had the presence of mind to win Teddy and Michael their freedom, but the truth was that I was a junkie that night, and my only real preoccupation was with getting my next fix, my next dose of Teddy’s body.

No, I hit bottom the next day, and it came over me in waves, beginning even before I found out I was pregnant as David steered me out of the hospital and I tried to imagine how I could deal with the claims and complications of a world on which I had already tried to turn my back. I know that, if I found it necessary to explain myself to my mother and to Miss Sharp, if I could not even figure out how to deal with where and when I wanted Teddy in my post-prison life, then my “break” from my old worlds had not only not been clean, but it had been woefully inadequate. If Teddy and I had imagined a future where we would swim together like sleek dolphins in the warm, blue water, the sensation I had as soon as I walked out of the meeting that David Beaudry and I had with Superintendent Finnerty that morning was much more like that of a hooked and bleeding fish, still alive but trying futilely to flip itself free from the deck of a boat. The breathing, of course, was difficult.

And then I got the news of my pregnancy from Dr. Cutler. When I told David Keyser this entire story — it came out much later, in bits and pieces, of course, over several years — he told me that I was wrong to think that all of my strength and cleverness had simply vanished as soon as we walked out of the meeting with Bruce Finnerty that day. I had thought that, for a number of years.

“No,” said David. “It’s just that you had fought the fights that you needed to fight. To keep fighting at that point would have been very self-destructive.”

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Excerpt from The Fairy Letters:  Letters from Prince Kian to Queen Breena (A FROST Series Novel)

By Kailin Gow

 

Letter 1

 

My Dearest Breena,

They will remember us. Long after these wars have been mourned and then forgotten, long after Summer and Winter fairies lay aside their rancor for one another and forget that they have ever tasted hatred, they will remember – Summer fairies, and Winter too – of a fairy king who loved his queen. They will remember that the war ended, and after there was peace at last there came a time of glory, a golden age, in which Winter and Summer stood united: one powerful Feyland. And they will remember too the love that brought the Summer and Winter Courts together – a love so great that it shattered the very boundaries of magic – and they will think of us and our love not as a danger, not as an ill, not as a transgression, but as the force that saved our world.

I have to believe this, Breena. Every day that goes by, I force myself to imagine a world in which there is not only peace between the two kingdoms, but peace in my heart as well. I know what my duties as Fairy Prince are. I know what my duties are to the land of Winter. And yet – despite all this – I know that my heart will never truly be whole unless the treaty that unites my land with yours is followed by the promise that unites your hand and heart with mine. Perhaps you are stronger than I am, Breena. You were able to put aside our love and work for peace. That was something that sometimes, in my most anguished hours, I am afraid that I would never be able to do. If I were forced to choose at this very moment between the peace we strive for and the future with you of which I so often dream, I know that my heart would be torn – the right answer, the unselfish answer, would perhaps not be the answer I would be able to give.

Funny, isn’t it? I spent my whole life learning how to be a Prince – what a Prince wears, how he moves, what he thinks, what he eats, what he drinks, what he does. I was trained from an early age to rule Feyland – much to the dismay of my sister Shasta, for she so longed to wear the crown that had been forced upon my head (before, alas, her love for Rodney clouded that earlier ambition). I learned early on that what I wanted, that what my heart wanted, was of no matter: all that mattered was the good of Feyland. My mother the Winter Queen taught me these lessons, lessons that – I knew – she wished that my father had been alive to teach me. When I first met you on your sixteenth birthday, all I could think about were those lessons: it was my duty to capture you, my duty to take you hostage, to use you as a pawn in our war against Summer.

And look at me now. Once, I was willing to forego all my desires, my attractions, to cast aside my fairy intended in order to serve the interests of the Winter Court. But now you are the strong one, Breena. You are the one able to make the hard decisions, the ones I cannot make, because when the thought of being without you crops up in my mind I can focus on nothing but taking you in my arms, kissing your shoulders, stroking your soft hair and kissing each wispy strand. We are apart now because of your strength, your courage, your wisdom. You did all this without the benefit of any fairy lessons – any upbringing at court. You never had a Queen Mother locking you in the dungeon overnight because you had failed to show sufficient humility when playing games with fairy squires. You never had a fencing-master engaged to chase you over miles of tundra to ensure that your arm did not tire in a fight. You never spent hours poring over the annals of past rulers of Feyland: great kings and queens whom you admired, and whose bravery you were told to exceed. And yet you proved yourself a great Queen nonetheless.

I am writing these letters to you with a twofold purpose. One is a selfish one – to assuage my own pain, my own loneliness, by writing to you, by sending a little figment of my soul to you in every stroke and every curve of this blueberry ink.  I feel that, by writing to you,  I am keeping that ephemeral and gossamer thread that connects us alive – I am igniting the magic that unites our souls. If I do not write to you, if I do not find some receptacle for all the words and pains and passions that gush forth like the Arctic Waterfalls of the Far North from  my soul, then I fear that I – like poor Shasta – may go mad.

Yet I have another purpose. I am afraid – I do not fear admitting it – that in this long absence you will forget me, forget us, forget the words and worlds we have shared. Not at first, of course, but over time your memories will dim, as all memories do. I fear that one day you will be unable to recognize the sound of that sweet melody played for us at our first dance in Feyland, that you will be unable to remember that first meal we shared in my hunting lodge, the conversations over my paintings, the first time we kissed. If I cannot be there with you physically, to remind you of these moments and to create new ones, then I will, at least, do what I can: I will write you a series of letters, one each week, and tell you stories about Feyland. I will tell you all that I remember of you – even those childhood impressions you likely have long since forgotten – and I will tell you too about all the things I never told you when we were together – myths and stories of Feyland, memories of my upbringing at the Winter Court, legends of fairies who fell in love before love was banned in our kingdom – anything that can bring a smile to your face. It is only in our separation that I realize how much there is that I wish to say to you, how much I never said to you. I pace the walls and corridors of my castle and grow angry with myself because I never told you the story of my mother’s favorite courtier, or because I never laughed with you about the drawing-lessons we took together, lessons I doubt you even remember. There is so much of my life, my memories, I have not shared with you.

This is my offering, then. I have told you many times that I would give myself for you – utterly and totally. If I cannot sacrifice my life for you in other ways, then at least I can give myself thus: sending you a piece of me, and of my love, with each letter that goes forth from this palace.

And perhaps one day, in the dream I have described, when we are remembered as King and Queen of a beautiful and peaceful land, and our love is recorded in the annals of Feyland, these letters will be discovered by some clever-minded fairy historian, and my passion quoted and recorded in dry history-books. Children will read in school how Prince Kian pined for his beloved fairy queen – and they will laugh because they know how the story ends: of course it has ended for them, as you say in the human world, happily ever after. But you and I don’t know this yet. We are caught in the middle, you see – we cannot look back, as I hope and pray that these children will do, and say of course – of course it all turned out right in the end.

We just don’t know.

But because if I let myself rest on that uncertainty my mind would collapse within itself, I will not dwell. I will think of those children whom I imagine reading our love-story in the history books, and pretend that it has all been decided already. We will prevail. We will survive. We will remain together – in love.

I am thinking back now, as I write this, to the very first time I heard your name mentioned. It is a hazy memory, glazed over by time. I must have been five years old, a small toy prince wearing clothing I had not yet grown into, fumbling with a sword that reached at least two feet over my head. I was in the hills around our palace with that fencing-master of mine – for five years of age was not too young to learn to fence. He was not at this point strict with me, the fencing master (the severity came later, after my father’s death, when my mother’s grief was so great that she imagined she could resurrect my father from my unripe bones), and we were playing a game that, while ostensibly a duel, had ended up something rather more like a particularly high-stakes game of tag.

And then I saw my father coming up over the hills, wearing his enormous fur pelt (it hangs on the wall of the Great Hall now) and his silver crown shining and glinting in the light of the white winter sun.

“Kian, my boy,” he said to me, enveloping me in his great pelt as he knelt to my level. “I’ve got some news.” He sighed. “The scion of the Summer House…is a girl.” He gave a great laugh of relief. “Bet you’re relieved to hear that, eh, my boy?”

I nodded, but in truth I had not remembered that there was to be a scion of the Summer House at all. I knew vaguely that if we headed west past the Autumn lands we would arrive in a land of ripe oranges, and that my father spoke of these people admiringly, though with some wariness at their power, but if my father had mentioned to me that the consort of the Summer King was with child, I had completely forgotten it in favor of more enjoyable childhood pursuits like riding and fencing.

“Just as well,” my father said to me. “If she had given birth to a boy, he would have been your greatest friend or your greatest enemy. But instead she’ll be something else entirely!” Of course, I didn’t know then what he meant – the closest I had come to understanding girls was an inchoate sense that my sister Shasta was not quite like me – but the words have a bitter meaning now.

For my father was wrong. You may be a woman, Breena, but you are my closest friend.

And yet – curse this war! – you are still my greatest enemy.

 

Letter 2

My Dearest Breena,

The last time I wrote to you I told you about the very first time I heard your name – on the lips of my father. If only I had known then about the magic that sparked in the air at that incomparable sound – my Breena, born in the Summer Court! But the name still meant little to me – the idea of a princess, born in some faraway tower, swaddled in the golden silks of the Summer Court, meant as little to me as the lessons in the language of Ancient Fay my tutor tried in vain to make me memorize. No, I was still a young lad, and girls were in my mind a race at once infinitely stranger and yet infinitely less interesting than the giants of Coburn Causeway in the far northern territories of Zaphon. How I blush to think of those days, when my youth and my stupidity did not admit a female presence to my mind or to my activities – even Shasta, much to her consternation (and to my mother’s!) was excluded from my boyhood games. But all that changed, Breena, the moment I met you. I was a child, and you were a child, and yet that very first sight of you – your shimmering eyes staring with the wisdom of ages out at mine – convinced me.

It was at your christening. Of course, when my father announced to me that a Royal Christening required the presence of all noble fairies in the land – the Autumn vassals and the Winter kings alike – I was far from pleased. I remember distinctly that I had planned a rematch with my fencing-master, who had (I am ashamed to say) beaten me rather decisively on the previous occasion, and I had managed to convince myself that, despite my small statue and my laziness in practicing, I would prevail upon the morrow. And so I objected to dragging myself away from the tundra plains behind the castle for something so irrelevant, so foreign, as a princess’s christening. “But Father!” I pleaded. “Who cares if some girl has been born? She’s only a baby. She isn’t interesting yet. Shasta’s already almost two years old and she’s still dull! What could a baby possibly do that’s interesting?”

“Hush,” my mother’s voice was low and strong. “Don’t trouble your father so. He has far too much on his mind as it is.” Her gaze grew dark – a darkness that would come to be familiar to me in later days – and I know now that she must have been thinking of the first seeds of tension which had begun to crop up in those days between Summer and Winter, for the first Spring Rebellion had occurred some months prior. (At the time, of course, I simply attributed her gravity to one of those maternal mysteries well beyond my juvenile grasp).

“But she’ll be even stupider than Shasta!” I (I am ashamed to admit) whined. Shasta, toddling over from her miniature throne, let out a convenient wail – though barely able to walk, her eyes still had the same sapphire ferocity that you, my dearest Breena, know so well. She fixed her babyish glare on me and I felt a bit chastened.

“There is nothing to discuss,” said my father, his voice as gruff as the wolf whose pelt he wore. “These are dangerous times. Diplomacy is more important than ever. We cannot risk offending the Queen. Redleaf is known to be less than merciful with those whom she deems an affront to her…ahem…rigid schemes of etiquette.”

“But why should what the Queen says matter?” I persisted. “After all, isn’t the King the one who’s in charge? What do Queens do that’s so important?”

My mother gave a wry smile. “I can’t think of a thing,” she said – her  almost smooth enough to hide her sarcasm.

“Now, now,” my father said, “there have been plenty of great Queens in Feyland in the past. In the absence of first-born sons – or when those sons proved unworthy – there have been instances in which Queens ruled alone, and held all the power. Remember the story of Queen Tamara – she who built the mysterious Ice City in Zaphon.”

“Ugh, girls having power! I don’t see any girls in my fencing lessons” (Forgive me, Breena – but I am bound to report this anecdote in all honesty. I may have not been the most enlightened of toddlers – my mother, after all, had not yet come into her own as leader. She was far quieter then, hiding her strength and power like a lamp under a bushel, and I could not have known from looking at her then that she would prove to be as great as the fabled Tamara.)

“Don’t be so cocky,” my mother gave my father a soft smile. “I seem to recall that many a marriage was made when a young girl defeated a rather arrogant lad in a match or two with the scimitar.”

My father chuckled and returned her grin. “Funny…such a tale just might have slipped my mind!”

“What are you talking about?” I asked, but before I could receive an answer Shasta let out another bellowing wail, and my mother rushed to attend to her.

“Girls get all the attention,” I mumbled to myself, putting my hands in my pockets. “It isn’t fair.”

“Don’t grumble so.” There was a twinkle in my father’s eye. “One day, my lad, you’ll be giving that attention, and not resenting it.”

I responded with a self-important harrumph.

On the carriage-ride over I eavesdropped on the gossip that my mother and father were sharing – albeit in hushed tones, so as not to wake the sleeping (at last!) Shasta. Apparently the child, though recognized by Flametail as his own and – at least provisionally – his heir, was not the child of Redleaf, but rather of the king’s favorite concubine, a fact that had caused no small amount of chatter in Feyland. The Autumn people – humiliated that their favored princess would not be the bearer of the heir to Summer – had begun rioting outside the palace. Indeed, my mother noted sagely, it was the revolt of Autumn that had sparked the similar revolutions in the Spring lands, which were but tenuously under Summer’s control.

“The Spring denizens have seen what happened to Autumn,” my mother said. “The Autumn Kingdom gave up its autonomy to become a vassal to Summer under the expectation that the heir to both kingdoms would have both Summer and Autumn blood – and look what has happened! The queen’s infertility was a travesty, I know, but for him to spawn an heir from a human! Spring will no longer trust Summer to protect their interests.”

“The first rebellion may have been put down,” my father mused, “but the next one  will not be so easy to quell – especially if we choose to support the Spring lands, and offer them our protection.”

My mother raised her head. “A dangerous proposition,” she said in a low voice. “If you support Spring, you risk Redleaf’s wrath.” She scoffed. “Flametail may not be much of a threat – he cares more about wine and womanizing than he does about running the kingdom; if he’d been more careful about where he put his heart he would never have offended Autumn so. But Redleaf…if she causes war, it will not be by a hapless accident. It will be dangerous.”

“Nonsense,” said my father. “The Spring lands are an important source of revenue – we can’t feed Winter on lily-blossoms and snow cream alone! If we had control over the Streaming Meadows, let alone the Orchards of Saturn, we’d be able to double or triple the rations we give out.”

“And if we get into a war,” my mother said sharply, “there won’t be enough fairies alive to eat them.”

Oh, my Breena! What foolishness! Your father’s love for your mother – my father’s pride in war! Your stepmother’s jealousy! It falls to us now to correct the sins of our parents’ generation. They have led us into war, not by malice but by simple errors, simple sins: selfishness, lust, pride, avarice – and now it falls to us to deny ourselves not only these errors that arise out of “human” nature – but also the good. We must be strong – but we must also suffer. We may not cause wars, but we also may not love. Are we destined to suffer for the sins of our parents forever?

And yet I digress. For it is only when we arrived at the Summer Court, scented with bergamot and gleaming before us – its great golden dome like another Feyland sun – that my story really begins. For there it was that I first caught sight of a bassinet – piled high with gold and lilac and lavender silks, so ornately bejeweled that I at first had to shield my eyes from the light. Before me I saw, decked out in all his majesty, Flametail your father, wearing a cloak of bright phoenix feathers, his gold chain mail lustrous in the noonday sun. I gasped with admiration. My own court was beautiful, in its way, but it was cold, silvery, as misty as moonlight. This place was bright and shining, full of life. The warm sun on my face, so much more pleasing to my skin than the wintry sun of my own court, brought a smile to my face.

 

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