A powerful story as seen through the eyes of an American veteran who in 2016 during the bloody civil war with ISIS flew alone to Iraq.

There, he was able to join the Kurdish militia, YPG as a combat medic sneaking into Rojava, Syria. These pages are his personal story and they take you to the front lines of battle in a way that will make you smell the dirt.

This book tears away the thin veil of war in a terrifyingly haunting way.

I was desperate.

It was the only reason I agreed to go.

Because competing on a reality TV dating show? Just the thought of all those cameras had me breaking out in a cold sweat. Plus, my truly impressive collection of emotional baggage made the very idea of falling for a guy, while being filmed for all the world to see no less, laughable.

But to help my dad, I needed money. And Ever After had plenty.

All I had to do was play along for a few weeks. Smile for the cameras, go on a few dates, then get out with my money. Easy.

Falling in love was never part of the plan. But you know what they say about best laid plans…

Enter Ethan Miller.

The moment I laid eyes on him, I knew he was going to cause me trouble.

His quiet confidence, his effortless charm, that sexy smirk. It all became a frustratingly irresistible distraction, pulling my focus from my one true objective.

But that wasn’t even the worst part. No, the most problematic thing about falling for Ethan Miller was that it all happened while I was competing for another man.

With an audience of millions, I suddenly had to choose: love or money?