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“Outstanding start to a science fiction series…”

Will the human race have any chance
to survive?

At the end of the 22nd century, a young scientist experiences mankind’s first contact with an extraterrestrial civilization — a culture more advanced than we are — and no one knows what the future will bring.

The Contact Episode One

by Albert Sartison

4.5 stars – 2 Reviews
Text-to-Speech and Lending: Enabled
Here’s the set-up:
The book takes the reader to the end of the 22nd century, where he will experience mankind’s first contact with an extraterrestrial civilization along with the main hero Steve, a scientific assistant at a Chilean observatory. Finding itself in the position of the less developed culture, and realizing the danger of the situation, the human race tries with all its might not to let the situation get out of control. Does mankind have a chance, or is its fate pre-ordained?

Praise for The Contact:

“…combines scientifically plausible technology with realistic human reactions…”

“…Well developed characters…I especially liked Clive (reminds me a little of Sheldon Cooper from The Big Bang Theory :)…Fast pace, realistic situations….Worth a read even if sci-fi is not a particular interest.”

an excerpt from

The Contact
(Episode One)

by Albert Sartison

 

Copyright © 2013 by Albert Sartison and published here with his permission

Prologue

The spacecraft reaches Mercury at the intended time and begins sending signals to determine the precise orbit of the planet. The experiment begins that evening. A command is sent to increase the speed of Mercury from the Experiment Control Centre at the moon base. Three hours later, the International Space Station, scientists at the moon station and also many other groups of scientists on Earth, register an increase in the diameter of Mercury’s orbit round the Sun by two percent. Once the experiment is over, Mercury’s orbit is slowed down to its previous level.

Soon after, a Chilean observatory observes a space object moving from outer space which could potentially collide with Earth. Precise calculations of its flight trajectory are not yet possible because it is so far away, and the orbital telescopes, even those in orbit round the gas giants, are currently being used in support of an experiment testing remote manipulation technology. In view of the low speed of the object, the time for it to reach the Earth’s orbit is estimated as hundreds of years, so a low priority is given to clarifying its trajectory. Nevertheless, the instruction is entered into the central computer for a second observation of the object a week later, to confirm the low priority status.

At the next observation session, the object is not detected. The telescope control system probes the space sectors in the region of the assumed location. The unidentified space body is eventually detected, but its actual position differs greatly from that initially assumed. Following its programmed instructions, the telescope computer corrects the calculation data and raises the priority for finally calculating the trajectory. The third observation session is appointed for 24 hours later.

The third observation session reveals an even greater calculation error. The Chilean telescope’s automatic control system has to notify the scientific personnel…

Error

With his dirty trainers up on the table, Steve, a final year astrophysics student working as a junior scientific assistant at the observatory in his spare time, was fast asleep. A relay suddenly clicked, switching on the display of the main monitor, shining a broad ray of bright light oppressively on the sleeping Steve. He half-opened one eye and sleepily looked at the message:

UNIDENTIFIED OBJECT FOUND.

MAY COLLIDE WITH INNER PLANETS.

IMPOSSIBLE TO CALCULATE ITS TRAJECTORY.

In a hoarse voice (due to an excess of cold beer and loud serenades last night), Steve commanded:

“Give additional information.”

Columns of figures floated onto the screen. His head was working slowly, but his gaze automatically picked up the main information: the size of the object, the parameters of its motion, its brightness…

“So what’s the problem?” thought Steve.

He got up and went to pour himself a coffee. Opening the kitchen cupboard door, he discovered, with astonishment, that there was an amulet on his right wrist. It took a full minute for him to recall what had happened after he left the student pub “Minus Alpha” with his friends. They had been to a party there, nothing had come of it. He scratched the back of his neck, fetched a mug, filled it from the percolator and went back to his place.

The main screen was still filled with information about the strange object from the depths of the Universe. Steve sat down, took a gulp of coffee and grimaced, pushing the mug away, and began quickly leafing through the contents of the log file.

First observation more than a week ago. Trajectory… Speed… Direction… Second observation. Trajectory… Speed… Direction… Error correction… Speed correction factor twenty three and five? Somewhat high. Third observation, error correction factor seventy eight?

“Well, that’s way too much,” Steve thought.

He reached out for the mug, picked it up, but remembering how vile the contents had tasted, put it back. He had finally woken up.

Speed estimate error of seventy-eight-fold, why so great? The telescope had never made an error before at distances like that. When they measured Mercury’s orbit a fortnight ago, it was accurate to within one hundredth of a permille. But here… Yes, the object was at the edge of the Solar System, but…

Steve started the orbit simulator. The simulation program opened where it had ended last time – on “advanced collision model”. Steve, sitting at the computer, rolled up his eyes and sighed. ‘ADVANCED COLLISION MODEL’, what sort of an idiot would call his degree thesis that? The ACM was the brainchild of Clive, one of his fellow students on the same course, and probably the most famous nerd in the whole space science faculty. Steve remembered him from his very first days at the university. The first-year students, still wet behind the ears, gathered in the lecture hall and were given instructions by the entire teaching staff, including the Dean of the faculty. The Dean’s speech was interrupted by Clive raising his hand. The Dean, Mr. Shelby, well respected by the students for his informal and honest manner, broke off his speech, smiled and asked Clive what he wanted to know. Clive stood up, coughed, quoted a passage from the work of some theoretical astrophysicist and asked Shelby what he thought of it. The grey-haired old man looked round the new students and his colleagues, and then turned back to Clive, who was waiting in silence.

“Very interesting work,” replied Shelby, still smiling. “One of our research groups is studying this question. Ask Dr. Kubinski, he will be glad to answer all your questions.”

Clive, as cool as a cucumber, wrote down the group leader’s name, thanked Shelby and sat down.

Steve, observing from the sidelines, thought Clive’s behaviour was contrived. He thought at that time that he was just showing off to an audience. But over the past few years, having come to know him better, Steve realised that this was not a game. It was in Clive’s nature, he really was like that: rather inept in social relations, but a truly gifted person as far as science was concerned.

Steve’s thoughts returned to the computer. He selected “Solar System”. With its usual deftness, the computer simulated the Sun and the planets. He added the strange object, clarified its parameters and started the simulation. If the speed of the object was the same as for the previous measurement, the object should not be anywhere near where it actually was. Could the computer be in error again? Steve commanded:

“Assume object acceleration.”

The computer altered the parameters of motion of the object and assumed that the object was moving at a constant acceleration.

“Find acceleration value.”

If it was assumed that the object was accelerating, the trajectory anomaly disappeared. That was fine, but this object was not any kind of spacecraft. How could an object of natural origin accelerate so far from high-mass celestial bodies?

So. What could accelerate this object? Ejection of material? Highly unlikely, that could not impart so much force. Judging from its trajectory, it was flying in from outer space, from the direction of the Omega Nebula. The distance – Steve looked it up in the catalogue of celestial bodies – was about five thousand light years. He looked at his reflection in the switched-off monitor to his right and carried on thinking, “The body really is increasing its speed. It doesn’t appear to be an artificial object, though that will have to be checked.”

He waved a finger, and the virtual problem icon appeared on the main monitor. Steve, now under the spell of scientific curiosity, commanded:

“Try to identify object as human made artefact. Go.”

“Failed to identify object as human made artefact.”

Steve looked inquiringly at his reflection on the black display on the right. The reflection declined to comment. Steve absentmindedly took a gulp of coffee and immediately spat it out.

“Ugh, that’s vile!”

He tipped the coffee into Clive’s flower vase. The guy would be annoyed, but there was no time to think about that right now. Steve ordered the computer to check if any lost spacecraft could be on the course of the strange object. Taking account of fuel reserve and engine thrust, several craft were theoretically able to carry out the necessary manoeuvre and come onto such a course. Yes, but why? And how?

Four lost craft had the required fuel reserve: two of them were transports, completely automatic interplanetary shuttles. One was used for delivering materials for construction work on Europa, a satellite of Jupiter. The other was transporting fuel. They had both been lost in the vicinity of Mars. Assuming that they had begin this strange manoeuvre at once, there would theoretically have been time for them to become this strange intruder from space. The third lost spacecraft had people on board – a group of tourists, making a tour round the gas giants. The ship entered the shadow of Saturn and was never seen again. Unfortunately, communication with this spacecraft was impossible, because all the communication satellites in orbit round Saturn were out of radio visibility at the time. The fourth spacecraft was a military one. It had been on a routine patrol in the space between the inner and outer planets. All of a sudden it extinguished its position beacons, after which it too was never seen again.

Naturally, they were searched for. The transport shuttles were half-heartedly sought for the insurance companies, and soon written off. A long time was spent searching for the tourists, although anyone who had worked in the space industry realised that it was a hopeless case. Civilian ships have numerous position beacons. If a ship had come out from Saturn’s radio shadow, it would have been recorded at once by the Interplanetary Flight Coordination Centre. But this did not happen. The last pulse had been sent from one of its beacons minutes before it entered the shadow. Its course was known. After a little over three hours, the tracking computer sounded the alarm. Immediately on receiving the signal, the communication satellites were moved into position to probe the space close to the planet in the radio shadow region. But the ship was not found. It could not have emerged without being noticed, therefore it must have fallen onto the gas giant. As for the military patrol vessel, it was virtually impossible to find it without position beacons. Anyway, the search and rescue function was the responsibility of the military, who were well known for saying as little as possible.

His thoughts were interrupted by the wall clock, which beeped briefly, marking the beginning of a new hour. Steve lifted his eyes to the wall, then looked down at his watch, sighed and switched the computer off. It was already getting dark, the Sun was slowly sinking. It was time to go home and make up for the hours of sleep he had lost in the night-time party.

Steve got up, screwing up his left eye a little because of his headache (he really had had too much to drink the previous evening), and set off.

Something about the stars

Clive, the biggest pain in the neck in the astrophysics faculty, was patiently drawing a Hertzsprung-Russell diagram on the board. He could of course simply have called it up on the screen by lightly waving his finger, but no, as Clive liked to put it, food for thought is only digested when it is thoroughly chewed.

Completing the curve of the sub-giants, Clive turned to the class. The first-year students, who were already used to his little ways, were calmly copying the clumsy squiggles scribbled on the board by Clive. Earlier, the most daring of them would try to criticise Clive’s methods, but this hubris was soon stilled under the unyielding pressure of the Great Pain in the Neck’s logic. The Great Pain in the Neck possessed one very valuable quality: he knew how to explain even the most difficult material in simple language. It was for this reason that the first-course students preferred his lectures to those of the others, and were willing to put up with his grumbling throughout the entire semester. Their reward for this was outstanding knowledge and, as a rule, a good assessment – Clive was a pain in the neck, but he was an honest one, and if a student knew the subject, no power in the Universe could make Clive give him or her a poor assessment.

“So, we can see from the diagram that most stars are in the so-called main sequence. Stars in this category obtain their energy from nuclear synthesis reactions, converting hydrogen to helium. Now a question for the audience. How did the heavier elements form in the Universe?”

A suppressed whispering went round the hall, but no-one was willing to answer. Clive would not have been an outstanding teacher if he had not judged the mood of his audience correctly. The students had lost interest – heavy elements, light elements, who cared?

“As I can see, the importance of this question has not quite been understood.”

Clive did not mock their lack of knowledge of such elementary matters; after all, students attended his course to gain that very knowledge.

“Let us turn to the beginning of the Universe. We are on the time axis at the point of zero plus an infinitely small space of time. The Universe has just been created by the Big Bang. What do we see? Nothing. Space is opaque, it is filled with energy, seething with radiation. The monstrous temperature prevents the formation of material, all that exists is energy, compressed into an unimaginably small space to an unimaginably high density. And now the Universe begins to expand.” Clive noted with satisfaction that he had recaptured the attention of the hall and was holding it in his firmly clenched hand.

“Let a few instants elapse, allow the Universe to expand, and we find its temperature has fallen to such an extent as the result of its expansion that atoms can form. What is formed first? The simplest elements, naturally – those at the beginning of the periodic table. Hydrogen, my friends, hydrogen! What does a hydrogen atom consist of? This element has the atomic number One, therefore its atom contains only one proton and one electron rotating round it. You couldn’t imagine anything simpler. Free protons, scurrying around hither and thither in the Universe, each pick up one electron and form an atom of a certain substance. This process took place an incalculable number of times in the Universe, and as a result, even today, 14 billion years later, the most widespread substance is still this same hydrogen.

“But look at your hand.”

The students in the hall obediently began looking at their hands as if they had never seen them before.

“What do you see? You see organic material containing carbon, probably the most important building brick of life. Look at your fingers. Some of you will see rings of precious metals, silver, gold, platinum… Where did these elements come from, if initially there was only hydrogen?

“If we look at the diagram I have drawn, we will see that the majority of stars convert hydrogen to helium by nuclear synthesis. These two elements differ in their atomic numbers – One and Two respectively. As I said earlier, a nuclear synthesis process takes place in the cores of stars, as a result of which a new element is born in the periodic table. This is accompanied by the release of energy, thanks to which we can observe the luminosity of the stars. Sooner or later the time comes when a star has synthesised all the hydrogen in its core and turned it into helium. The hydrogen synthesis process still proceeds at the periphery, and the star enters the next stage of evolution. If the star is heavy enough, the process of transition from the first stage continues until all the material of the star has been transformed into iron. That is how the elements up to iron appear.”

At this point, Clive decided that the scientific material had been chewed thoroughly enough. With a wave of his hand, he called up a visualised mode of the transformation of a star into a red giant on the big screen in the middle of the hall. Against a black background, a yellow sphere appeared, ejecting impressive splashes of plasma from time to time.

“As we see,” Clive continued, “the star is now precisely in the stage of synthesising helium from hydrogen. Now let us see what happens when only iron remains. In stellar terms, iron is nothing other than ash. That which is left when everything is burned up.”

Clive gestured to the computer to simulate the process. The yellow star began to grow, and its colour changed to dark red.

“We see that the star has increased in size. The outer layers are beginning to move out from the core” – the red sphere on the screen continued to grow – “and to cool down as a result of their expansion. This explains why the colour changes from bright yellow to dark red. I must add that at this moment, the star is leaving the main sequence curve and passing into the giant category. Back to the outer layers. They are continuing to expand, and as a result, fly off into space and…”

The enormous red sphere grew to an incredible size, then the red shell became transparent, ceased to shine and merged into the vastness of space.

“…the star has thrown off its outer shell, and along with it the elements born within itself. The new elements are scattered in every direction throughout the Universe. Some of them eventually collect into a cloud from which planets subsequently formed. The planets then lay the foundation for biological life. And we, you and I, are no exception either. Our bodies consist of stellar ash, born by a star which exploded billions of years ago somewhere in the depths of the infinite Universe.”

Having finished this sentence, Clive fell silent, and looked up at the wall clock over the entrance. The second hand had only three divisions to go to the end of the lecture. The bell rang.

“Thank you for your attention. At the next lecture, we shall learn how the rest of the elements appeared. The task for today’s theme as always, can be found on my webpage.”

He was impressed but not surprised that he had managed to get through all the planned material in time. Such precision can only be achieved by few, only by those who plan their actions accurately and strictly adhere to their plan. Those like Clive.

Today’s studies had ended. With a feeling of deep satisfaction, Clive put his things in his briefcase and left the class.

The evening sun was no longer burning, but just giving a pleasant warmth. The sultry heat of the day had given way to the cool of the evening. Clive enjoyed every moment, walking unhurriedly in the direction of the observatory.

Steve was walking towards him, and wasn’t keen to stop and talk but Clive had already noticed him and Steve was reluctant to be seen deliberately to be avoiding a meeting. Yes, Clive was a nerdish sort of chap, but all the same, they were colleagues in their work at the observatory. And they’d been on the same course. And anyway, Clive wasn’t that bad, a bit of a nerd, but not a bad guy. When they were level with each other, they stopped.

“Hi, Clive,” Steve casually waved his hand in greeting.

“Steve,” Clive nodded in reply. “Is anything going on?”

“No, everything’s still as it was.” Of course, Steve could have told him about the interesting object, but not now. If he said a word about his discovery, Clive would bombard him with questions and add a couple of theories too, and he’d never get away.

“You look kind of tired, are you preparing for the seminars?” asked Clive.

“Uh-huh,” replied Steve. “Spot on. That’s all I’m thinking about.”

The thing Steve liked about Clive was that he did not understand irony, and it was very easy to make fun of him. Also, Clive rarely took offence, and if he did, quickly got over it, and although he didn’t forget it, he behaved as if nothing had happened.

“I’d better get going. Are you going straight to the observatory?”

“Yes I am, it’s my shift. And apart from that, I have to figure something out.”

“Oh yes, I saw that – Advanced collision model?”

“That’s right! And do you know what I found?” Clive’s face stretched into a smile as he prepared to talk to Steve at length.

“Something interesting, no doubt, but you can tell me about it tomorrow. Excuse me, Clive, but my head’s bursting at the seams from my own models. Not now.”

Steve certainly did not want to listen to Clive’s latest theory. He had theories for everything. For example, a crystallization anomaly theory. Or a theory of condensates. The first explained why ice cubes in Clive’s freezer did not form in order, but in some other sequence. The second threw light on why Clive’s spectacles always misted up more on the left than on the right when he entered the refrigeration chamber in the biology faculty to pick up his lunch pack. The most nerdish thing in all these flights of fancy was the fact that he backed up his theories with mathematical calculations and checked them experimentally. That was why it was so difficult to argue with him. He always had empirical data obtained strictly according to the rules of science.

“Well, it’s up to you.” Clive shrugged. “Till tomorrow, then.”

Clive went on his way to the observatory, where an extremely interesting evening awaited him, alone with his favourite model. A computer model.

Night

Steve woke up with a start. He opened his eyes. He looked up for a few seconds, then turned his head sharply to the side. He looked round the side of his room, still not understanding where he was. Then he raised himself a little, leaning on his elbow, and looked round the other part of the room. The window was open, letting in the cool, scented night air. A wind was lightly rustling round the room, blowing on one object after another. A book open on the table rustled as it was caught by gusts of wind, the open page turned forward and then unhurriedly back, which though it was somehow comforting, but at the same time creating a barely perceptible feeling of inexplicable anxiety. The room was slightly illuminated by the moon, shining through the trees.

Steve’s consciousness slowly returned from the world of dreams to the real world. A few minutes previously, Steve had had a very eventful dream. His brain was fully working, but now he couldn’t remember even roughly what it had been about. Finally he realised where he was – at home in his room, in his apartment. He was renting it from some guy he had never seen – he had only spoken to him once, on the phone. This guy left the key for Steve in the university front office in a yellow envelope. Steve paid his rent regularly, never raised hell (at least, not at home), and didn’t create any problems. The guy never bothered Steve either. He just never appeared at all. At one time, Steve even thought that he could have disappeared somewhere, and he need no longer pay for the apartment. But he decided not to check this theory, and went on paying his rent. Peace and quiet were worth more to Steve than money, more anyway than the money he was paying for what was basically a good apartment at a cheap rent, in a little house near a small lake.

In the evenings, shortly before sunset, when the sun was just disappearing over the horizon, frogs croaked on the lake, creating a real concert. It began quietly. First one frog would croak, then another would answer it, a third one would join in, and they were away. Having croaked all they wanted, the frogs gradually quietened down and presumably went peacefully to sleep. Steve liked this concert. These entertaining croaks alone were worth the money Steve was paying for the apartment.

Steve gradually dragged his thoughts together. He was fully conscious now. He lay on his back entangled in a light blanket. Steve glanced at the clock, which showed ten past two. Half the night over already.

On the previous evening, Steve had gone to bed early, as soon as he got back from the observatory. He probably lay down at about nine and dropped off straight away. He was no longer hearing frogs. And now he was lying eyes open in the middle of the night, with no desire to sleep at all.

Generally speaking, Steve did not like going to bed early, because if he did, he would wake up in the middle of the night and then toss and turn until he fell asleep again somewhere about four. This particularly applied if he had to get up early the next morning.

But he would not have to get up tomorrow, it was a day off, so he could lie in as long as he liked, and think. Steve loved moments like these – lying half asleep and half-dreaming about something, window wide open, wind blowing round the room, quiet, calm, pacifying…

Steve untangled the blanket, turned on his other side, covered himself properly and closed his eyes. Paradise…

He was lucky to have come across such a great apartment, trees all round, hardly any people in the area, a lake nearby, and then there were the frogs. On the whole, he had been lucky throughout his life. He had not been a favourite of the teachers in school, he was a bit of a rogue, but he graduated from school with good marks, particularly in the exact sciences, of which he had a very strong grasp. Then he applied to the university, to the astrophysics faculty. There were entrance exams, but Steve passed them without any particular problems. When the semester began, Steve found he had much in common with the other guys in his faculty. Many of them were very much like him. While he was at school, Steve had thought that the university would be full of nerds, but on the whole the students, in his faculty at any rate, weren’t bookworms, but they weren’t complete dimwits either. Just normal lads, knowing, in their spare time, what to say and what not to say to the female students, but also not forgetting that in a university, you also have to acquire knowledge. In short, the world surrounding Steve was very much like his own internal world, and a stable balance was established in a natural way. In general, life was going as it should.

On the other hand, his studies were coming to an end, and Steve had not yet decided what he would do after he had got his degree. Should he go into the private sector or go for a post-graduate degree? Projects in the private sector were less impressive than in science; however, they were well paid. Yet science gave you more opportunity to think and to work at a higher intellectual level, but you had to be content with less in the financial sense. Steve was still on the fence.

Humanity had managed to go far into space. The private sector had already totally assimilated the Solar System within the orbits of the inner planets, and was gradually extending further, beyond the asteroid belt, towards the outer planets. Leisure and educational tours round the gas giants, Jupiter and Saturn, had been going on for decades, and were now quite normal, and indeed practically mandatory for anyone with an interest in space. So normal that you could no longer surprise anyone by the fact that you had been to their orbits.

Steve himself had now twice viewed the rings of Saturn from a distance of only a few thousand miles. A fascinating spectacle, it must be said. The gigantic sphere of the planet and the even rings round it – Steve could not stop gazing at them for a long time. In the first moments, as their ship was approaching Saturn and the porthole covers were opened, everyone said “Wow!”, and Steve felt a lump in his throat, it was so moving to see the power of Nature.

Towards the end of the journey, on the way back to Earth, Steve had the opportunity to speak to the ship’s captain while sitting at the bar. The captain admitted that even after twenty years of space flights and more than a hundred opportunities to see other planets from close up, he was touched anew by the spectacle every time. According to him, his colleagues felt the same, most of them at least. But the captains of transport craft lost all interest after a while. There were even those who while waiting for a cargo in orbit, never even opened the hatch covers to take a glance at the planet in real life. Maybe transporting mundane things such as fuel or minerals dulled the senses. Maybe.

Steve thought about it, and decided he did not want to become like that. He loved stars, planets and comets. If he had a stone from another planet in his hand, Steve could study it from all sides for a long time, imagining that stone lying on the surface of Mars. A stone has no concept of “life”, it can lie for thousands, millions, billions of years, all the time in one and the same place, seeing the planet changing, the oceans evaporating, the atmosphere becoming thinner and thinner as Mars’ neighbour Earth came to life, changing from a red-hot rock into an azure pearl. Steve was enchanted by such thoughts when he was turning extraterrestrial stones in his hands.

Thinking, Steve opened one eye and looked at the table, on which there was just such a stone. Steve had won it at chess from one of his observatory colleagues who had a whole collection of such stones. After winning the stone, Steve had ordered a quartz sphere from the university workshop and sealed this stone inside it. It looked amazingly good. The stone contained iron, which gave it a reddish tint. It was smooth on one side and uneven on the other. Steve, examining it under an electronic microscope, came to the conclusion that the stone had been melted on the smooth side. The irregularities on the other side showed that the stone had been broken from a big rock.

Steve got up, opened the shutters, leaned out slightly and took a deep breath. The coolness of summer was pleasantly humid from the dew on the grass. There was a barely perceptible aroma from plants of some kind. Two steps from the window stood a mouldering tree stump with several fireflies fluttering round it. Steve took another deep breath and looked out at the night sky. His eyelids became heavy, he felt sleepy. Steve went back to bed, lay down and fell into a deep sleep almost at once. He had no more dreams that night.

… Continued…

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Genesis, Book I

by Aurelia 

Copyright © 2013 by Aurelia and published here with her permission

LINE 1

The conference was scheduled to begin at 11:11 PM, sharp.

The conference room would appear at 11:00 PM behind the old amphitheater.

Eleven minutes would be plenty of time to get the invitations out and for everyone to arrive with time to spare.

It wasn’t really an invitation though, it was more like a directive and no RSVP was necessary. Everybody just had to appear. It was a duty. It was non-negotiable. It came with the territory and no one had ever questioned it.

It was highly unlikely for unwelcome visitors to show up in the area at that time – the sites of a conference were always chosen with the greatest efforts to that effect and the old amphitheater lay abandoned in the middle of a vast ancient forest with huge virgin growth trees. Most of them were more than a thousand years old, beholders of events almost too fantastic to believe. They say that the occasions on which human beings stumble into their midst are rare. They reason that a few old stones arranged in a half circle with a big slab of rock in the center and by no means spectacular enough to attract attention is all someone would see. They conclude the site is ideal.

On this particular moonless night, the creatures of the forest were the only witnesses to what was going to happen.

At exactly 11 o’clock, a slight movement disturbed the calm of the scene. In fact, it was more a blur than a movement, really. The dark night air behind the amphitheater became alive, quivered, warped, wobbled, emanated a strange hissing sound – all in astonishing disregard for the laws of physics. To the uninitiated however, it was no more than the wind in the trees. You had to strain your eyes really hard to notice the conference room emerging out of the empty space between the amphitheater and the bordering trees. It blended so well into the landscape that it was hard to determine whether it truly existed or if the remote forest in combination with a black night triggered the imagination into seeing things. Therefore, despite the fact that the absence of any human being could not be totally assured, the chances of being detected were negligible.

Any of the twenty-two members of the group could summon a conference, and each of them understood that this privilege was never to be abused. It was an unwritten rule that without a good reason – genuine or subjective – no one was allowed to initiate a meeting.

Actually, there were twenty-three associates, but everybody thought of the Siamese Twins as one person. They were not twins exactly – Siamese or otherwise – they were a couple.

Nobody though could recall them ever being apart and that fact had earned them their nickname.

Today Theodore Cliffton had placed the call. He was known to behave foolishly at times, but all his colleagues would show up anyway and the conference would happen, no matter who sent out the invitation.

Here he was, a young looking man, dressed in a uniquely patterned colorful shirt, khaki-shorts and sturdy hiking boots, a safari hat lying next to him. He sat on the center rock of the amphitheater, very still with his eyes closed, in deep concentration. Not a muscle on his entire body moved. He could have been part of the landscape – that’s how still he was. Just before he opened his eyes, he nodded to himself as if affirming something in his mind. Then he stretched his legs and got up.

As he looked in the direction of the conference room, an opening appeared in the wall closest to him. He knew he had only a few seconds to enter before the building shifted sixteen and one-third degrees counterclockwise and the door would disappear. He picked up his hat and swiftly moved through.

The nondescript exterior of the hall gave no clue of what was inside. The structure was round with a diameter of maybe fifty yards but held only one room. There were no windows, yet the room felt wide and airy. It had a high dome ceiling with all kinds of strange symbols painted on it. The walls were a funny looking metal structure – they resembled a gigantic honeycomb. The metal gave off an iridescent glow, filling the whole room with a soft, shimmering light. There was not a single door.

In the center of the room stood a huge round table with twenty-two high-backed chairs evenly spaced around it. They were beautifully crafted, and each of them looked slightly different, including one as wide as a bench.

Aha! That’s where the Siamese Twins will sit, Cliffton thought, while he performed his duties as host, inspecting the room making sure that everything was as it should be. His dazzling blue eyes reflected the luminescence all around him as he looked up to the ceiling with its many symbols and a pleased smile crawled over his face.

That same moment, as if responding to his smile, a magnificent red and golden feather separated from the ceiling and slowly descended towards him. It stopped only inches away from his head – then moved horizontally towards the table. It circled the table three times and finally came to rest on the back of one of the chairs. Merging with the wood, it created the impression of a chair with a red and golden feather painted on its backrest. Cliffton approached the table, pulled back the newly decorated chair and sat down. All he needed to do now was wait.

Because he had closed his eyes again, he missed what happened next. Twenty-one more symbols began one by one to protrude from the ceiling, slowly gliding towards the table and attaching themselves onto the chairs. Just like the feather had. There was a golden wand with pointed tips on each end, a beautifully woven piece of fabric that seemed to be nothing more than a radiant beam of moonlight in one moment and completely opaque like a pearl the next, a rose, a crystal ball, a pair of keys – to name just a few. Each of them found its place as if directed by some invisible force.

Would there have been a clock in the room, it would have shown that this whole affair was completed in less than thirty seconds. But time was of no consequence in these surroundings. Everything happened in a special rhythm the way it always had, the way it always must.

Theodore Cliffton’s silent contemplation was interrupted by a low purring sound. He opened his eyes and saw exactly what he expected to see: The humming noise meant the mysterious mechanisms of the hall were getting ready to allow the next person in.

Sure enough, just a little to his left, a door appeared and his esteemed colleague, Doctor Chester Magnussen, stepped into the room. He was a tall, ordinary looking man of middle age and seemed a little bogged down by the black pilot case he carried in his left hand. The eye-catching, ankle-length crimson cape he wore, gave his appearance a certain old-fashioned dignity and suggested that he had either been on his way to the opera or to a costume ball, when the invitation reached him.

“Hello Avi,” he said cordially, placing his bag on the table. He pulled out the chair next to Cliffton’s, the one with the golden wand on it. “Nice job you did selecting this site. Must have found it on one of your travels I reckon?”

Cliffton smiled. Avi was what his friends called him, and it was short for his nickname, The Adventurer. All of The Twenty-Two had known each other for what felt like eternity and with a few exceptions, they hardly ever bothered to use their real names.

“Hi Mac, good to see you again. How have you been?” Cliffton replied with his smile now reaching all the way to his voice. “I stumbled across it, while investigating some rumors about a Bigfoot living in these forests. Made me really curious. Only, then I got sidetracked with – oh listen,” he interrupted himself as the low humming sound started up once more.

“I know Avi,” Magnussen mumbled to himself, “of all your wonderful traits focus surely is not one of them.”

But Cliffton was no longer listening to him. He watched the door reappear just a little bit to the left from where it had been before, and a spectacularly beautiful woman, covered from head to toe in a long flowing gown, made of some shiny silver-blue material, walked in. Despite the fact that she was carrying a sizable ancient looking book, she moved with such easy grace that it seemed as if her feet didn’t even touch the ground. It was impossible to guess her age – one moment she looked like a young girl and then, only an instant later, as ancient as her book. But looks were of as little consequence in these surroundings as was time.

“Good evening MaDame” Magnussen welcomed the new arrival with greatest reverence. “May I help you with your book?”

“Oh come on Mac, don’t treat me as if I was an old grandmother.”

Mirra Prestessi shot Magnussen an icy look, as she threw the book on the table. “Besides, I know you know that I would not let you or anybody else handle the book even if I was feeble which I am not so thank you very much.”

“Ah Mirra,” Magnussen answered, an expression of alarm on his face, “it just makes me nervous to watch you throwing the book around the way you do. I think of all the things that could happen if – “

The arrival of more people interrupted their dispute, and soon the hall was filled with the humming of the appearing doors and the laughter of old friends.

Most of them were loosely in touch at any time, but for all of them coming together for a conference was a big deal nevertheless. They clearly enjoyed this opportunity to catch up. A beautiful lion with an impressive dark mane walked around the room greeting everyone by rubbing his gigantic head against their hips and was purring with pleasure like a kitten. He belonged to Leona Strong, and in her presence the big cat was usually well behaved.

At exactly 11:11 o’clock, everyone had taken their assigned seats according to the symbols on the backrest of the chairs, and the conference could begin. An anticipatory silence fell over the room.

Cliffton cleared his throat and got up.

“My dear friends,” he said, opening his arms wide in a gesture of warm welcome. “Thank you all for being here tonight.”

Then, true to his style, he jumped right to the heart of things without noteworthy preamble. “I must introduce a matter of great urgency. I was contacted by a girl. She is thirteen years old, her name is Julia and she is in dire need of our help. She is not aware of her reaching out, yet the emotional intensity of her wish to have a different life is so strong that I even lost interest in chasing that Bigfoot I have heard about. And there is no need for me to tell you how much Bigfoots mean to me. They are the sweetest creatures and they – “

Chester Magnussen realized, as did everyone else, that Cliffton was dangerously close to losing sight of the proposed subject and, finding his friend’s leg under the table, he gave him an as he hoped discrete, yet firm kick to the shin.

Thankfully, today this nonverbal suggestion was enough to bring Cliffton back to his proposition. He was filled with childlike curiosity and it was quite natural for him to explore any new situation at the snap of a finger. As consequence of such behavior, he lost himself as quickly in a labyrinth of stimuli. Needless to say, keeping up with him posed quite a challenge for his friends.

“Er – where was I? Er – yes, Julia. Her parents recently separated and a few months ago her Grandfather died. Her world is upside down and she suffers deeply. She wants to change but aside from getting her parents back together doesn’t know what and if she knew that, she wouldn’t know how. She is not aware of the fact that the emotional intensity of her sincere wish to have a life without pain and full of happiness is like a prayer. I can’t explain why but I strongly feel we must let her see that every prayer is answered and that reaching out is never ignored! So I invited you here to look into her case and to get your valued opinions, as to how we should proceed.”

Regardless of his little deviation into the world of Bigfoots, it had been an unusually lengthy speech for Cliffton, and this fact was enough to convince the group of the validity of his claim. Even before he sat back down, the group was already discussing the information. Everybody talked at once – someone even yelled across the table.

“Please please my dear Ladies and Gentlemen,” shouted a stern looking man over the noise. “Let’s have some discipline here.”

His steel-gray hair lay so tight around his head that it resembled a helmet. In combination with a beard that covered almost all of his face and a pair of bushy eyebrows, he looked as though he wore a visor. His piercing gray eyes rested briefly on each of the members as he glanced around the table. He radiated an aura of unmistakable authority. As if muted by remote control, there was instantaneous silence.

“Er – yes – thank you, Herr Kaiser,” said Cliffton, noticeably relieved that the burden of restoring order had been assumed by someone so much better suited to the task. “I shall gladly answer all of your questions regarding the case. However, I was hoping Mirra would be kind enough to help us get some clarity, by affording us a glimpse into her book first.”

Mirra Prestessi, at the moment wearing her young-girl-look, had not participated in the general conversation. She sat with her eyes shut and seemed to stare at the closed book in front of her. Any stranger would have thought it very odd at best, that someone could actually stare with their eyes closed, but the people in the room had long become accustomed to Mirra’s way of looking. A common joke among them was that she really possessed a thousand eyes and that she used her physical ones only as a show of social graces. Despite these efforts to not intimidate with her eccentricities, by far not everybody felt comfortable looking into her eyes.

Half the time they were of an unclouded dark blue that bordered on purple and inflicted a sensation of being pulled down into the frightening unknown of the deep sea on a calm day. The rest of the time, they changed to a silvery blue, reminiscent of a sheet of arctic ice or the smooth panel of a mirror. On these occasions, there was no way to penetrate their glassy surface and everything they looked upon was reflected back in a threateningly clear way. Whichever color they were, caught in the path of their gaze, even the most carefully projected mask, pretense or wall was stripped away. In the presence of those eyes was no room for any perception other than truth. Mirra Prestessi was a strange woman indeed.

Without anyone touching the book, it suddenly flew open. As if by magic its pages started to turn; slowly at first, picking up speed with every turn of the page, creating a delicate breeze that made Mirra’s dress move in patterns resembling the concentric circles of a stone thrown into a pond.

Everybody in the room watched the process with fixed attention. It always was such a treat to snatch a peek into Mirra’s book, and it was by no means certain for the book to comply in all cases. The level of excitement in the room could not get any higher without becoming audible even to human ears, when Mirra finally opened her eyes and the book came to a stop.

Anyone unfamiliar with the workings of the book might have wondered why it had stopped at two blank pages – but then again, said person could have flipped through the whole book without finding so much as a single dot of ink in it. To the uninitiated, the book contained nothing but innocent blank pages – page after page after page. Such a person might have thought the book an unused journal perhaps and his guess would not have been far off the mark. Just some journal he never dreamed to exist.

Although the members of the group were aware of the special powers the book possessed, Mirra was the only one able to obtain information from it without the help of Chester Magnussen. By nature of her being, she practically was the book. With those weird eyes of hers, she had seen everything that ever has happened and stored it in the book. And – as if this was not fantastic enough already – her eyes had seen everything that ever was going to happen and stored it in the book, too. And alongside everything that ever has happened or ever will happen, the book stored all the things that could have happened but never did and maybe never will, too. In short, Mirra’s book contained every imaginable possibility as well as every unimaginable probability – past, present and future.

No member of the group however, found this particularly noteworthy. After all, time was of no consequence in these surroundings. And in an environment where time is of no consequence, anything is possible.

“Well,” said Mirra while aging slowly and not minding it a bit, “looks like the book thinks there is something to Avi’s claim. Mac, would you please?”

Chester Magnussen was already on his feet, fiddling around in his pilot case. He was obviously looking for something.

“Somebody tell me what we want to accomplish here. Visual only? Tactile? The whole shebang?”

Although his questions were not addressed to anyone specific, everyone respected that this was Cliffton’s call – so he was in charge. For now, anyway.

“I suggest we first go into visual-audio-sensory-mode, Julia only, time vector alpha-457.9-present with some explanatory narrative for off-screen goings-on if necessary,” Cliffton answered, reading the numbers off a scrap of paper he had taken out of his shirt pocket. Aside from a pouch around his waist he never carried any baggage, but seemed to produce everything he needed miraculously from the depths of his shirt. “Based on what the book shows, we evaluate the data and then take it from there,” he continued, looking around the table for response. Everybody signaled agreement.

“Then this is all I need,” said Magnussen, pulling a bizarre looking object out of his bag. On first glance, it might have been no more than some ordinary stick; colorful and round with smooth edges on both ends, about twenty-two inches long.

On closer observation, the colors came to life; swirling shapes, moving in a dark-violet medium of peculiar viscosity bending and contorting with the motion of the shapes. So, although the idea seems extreme, it looked as if the wand contained a condensed version of the universe.

Magnussen removed his crimson cape to reveal the floor-length toga of dazzling white he wore underneath, held together by the most awesome belt in the form of a snake biting its tail. With a movement of his galaxy wand as swift as it was elegant, he touched the book, and one segment of the honeycomb-structured-wall lit up like a screen.

He slowly lowered himself back onto his chair, as if not to disturb the swirling motions of his wand. Mirra closed her eyes again – not out of any necessity, she just preferred to look with her eyes closed – and the honeycomb-wall-monitor displayed some static. From the metal frame around it, bright-green flashing characters indicated the marker ‘alpha-457.9-present-Julia-VAS/n’.

Magnussen adjusted the position of the wand with the tiniest tilt of his fingers, the static cleared, and the face of a pretty girl with light brown hair cascading in smooth curls just below her shoulders appeared on the screen. Her eyes had the subdued blue-green color of the ocean on a cloudy day. Specks of gold, scattered around the iris like motes of dust in a ray of afternoon sunlight, matched the healthy golden glow of her skin perfectly. Framed by long thick lashes, those eyes were the most outstanding feature in a face otherwise obscured by traits partly still belonging to the face of a child and partly already to that of a woman.

“May I introduce Julia,” said Cliffton, his voice vibrant with a tinge resembling the pride of a craftsman presenting his masterpiece.

His remark was quite superfluous, because as far as anyone could tell, Mirra had always been accurate in finding the proper blank page in her book.

LINE 2

Julia was in her room, staring into the mirror above her dresser, moving her head this way and that while studying her face critically. With a pleased smile she turned around and grabbed the phone from the side table next to her bed. Sliding it on, she quickly speed-dialed the number she would have remembered in a coma. She sat down on her bed, one foot tapping impatiently on the floor.

“Finally! What took you so long? I miss half my life waiting for you to pick up the phone.” She listened intently to the voice of her friend on the other end of the line – her tapping foot picking up speed.

“Ok, ok. I see. Just why you think we have those scientist geeks inventing all this micro stuff if you don’t take it with you everywhere?” The impatiently tapping foot seemed to have infected her free hand. “Listen, all I wanted to tell you is, the stuff we bought at the mall yesterday is fan-absolutely-tastic! I put it on before I went to bed and it wiped this pimple completely!”

Phone pressed against her ear, Julia got off the bed and started dancing around the room.

“Yesss! Another victory in the battles of adolescence! My life is totally changed! Now I’m so ready to go to camp and face Miss I’m-so-Wonderful and her homies.”

She stopped her spinning in front of the door and put her free ear against it.

“Sorry Kellie, gotta go. I hear mom coming up the stairs. Probably because I didn’t respond when she called. Keeps her in shape,” Julia giggled. “Twenty stairs less on the stair-stepper at the gym tonight. Talk to you later. Sure. Bye.”

With her usual display of excess energy, which she tried to work off in the daily gym routine her daughter had hinted at, Julia’s mother knocked at the door, and by the time Julia had a chance to answer, she was already sitting on the bed. She wore a dark two-piece suit and pumps of the same color. Her auburn pageboy hair, beautiful enough for shampoo commercials, bobbed around her made up face. No doubt, she was all geared up to go to work.

“Wow mom,” Julia exclaimed, closing the door behind her mother, “sometimes I think you’ll be the first one to break the faster-than-light-speed-barrier.”

Under normal circumstances, Julia did not allow her mother to violate the fragile structure of their mother-daughter-boundaries by rushing into her room without being properly invited in. But this morning, she still carried that glorious sense of well-being, originating in her triumph over that nasty pimple and consequently, she felt rather generous towards the world. As a sign of just how deep this generosity reached, she surprised herself by extending it to include her mother.

“Julia I have to talk to you,” said Elizabeth, dropping her shoes on the floor and pulling her legs under. “Why don’t you sit with me for a minute.”

“Sorry but that sounds way too serious for the space I’m in right now. Whenever you start without saying any of those nice things mothers are supposed to say – you end up saying something I don’t want to hear.”

Julia walked towards the mirror, scanning her smooth, unblemished skin in an attempt to hold on to the blissful feeling, which now was fading fast. “I’m in such a great mood and I won’t let you spoil it with your mother-daughter-intimacy stuff.”

“Oh come on, darling,” her mother sighed, fighting for composure as she recognized the dreaded if familiar feeling of tears pushing behind her eyes, her usual emotional response to harsh words. Julia’s in particular. “It’s never the right time for you. You’re either depressed about something or too busy talking on the phone or off solving mysteries with your nose in a book and we hardly talk at all anymore.”

“See, now you’ve done it. Thank you very much. This is exactly the reason why I don’t want to talk to you. It’s all about you and your needs.”

Julia turned around, the golden specks in her eyes shooting phasers in the general direction of her mother.

“First you come busting into my room with no regard for my privacy whatsoever, then you lay that speech on me, guiltying me for the failure of our relationship, when the truth is that you’re jealous because I have a life and you don’t.”

She tried to read her mother’s expression and decided to top her speech with some authority. “Doctor Kline told me I have a right to my space.”

“I’m glad your therapy is working,” Elizabeth stressed every word. She was torn between sympathy for her daughter’s plight, resentment for her daughter’s behavior and self-pity for being a single-mom stuck in a disintegrating situation, “but if you think I pay a thousand a month to support a conspiracy between you and your therapist to abuse me, you are mistaken.”

“Great! Now it’s a conspiracy. What’s it gonna be tomorrow? Voodoo? I think you’re paranoid. No wonder dad couldn’t stand living with you any longer.”

Horrified, Julia listened to the words as they tumbled out of her mouth.

Mothers do have a way of driving innocent young adults crazy with their stuff, claimed a furious voice inside her head. Yet, underneath the soothing warmth of her anger, she felt the notorious, spindly finger of the guilt-monster reaching for her conscience, causing a throbbing sensation somewhere in the back of her head. You’ve gone too far this time, it suggested, hooking her, trying to reel her in.

Ultimately, this time her anger won. She stomped her foot on the floor in an effort to scare the guilt-monster away as much as giving emphasis to her next words, and in the hidden landscape of her mind, she transformed into Stepmother telling Cinderella that she couldn’t go to the ball. Throwing her head back while at the same time rolling her eyes towards the ceiling, she managed to give her voice a haughty pitch. “I’ll be so glad to be rid of you for a while when I’m at camp.”

There was a moment of silence that could not have stretched more than a second yet seemed to last way beyond the tick of a clock.

Finally Elizabeth’s sigh broke the spell. “I’m glad you mention it – because you’re not going.”

The way it frequently happens in situations that extend normal perception into slow motion, Elizabeth noticed that, in spite of her feelings of frustration, she was able to speak in a fairly calm voice. She attributed that fact partially to shock at Julia’s hateful words and partially to relief that at last she was able to inform her daughter of the changed situation. Some of it anyhow.

“Grandmother called yesterday. She wants us to visit and the only time I can get off work with that big project and all is during the time you’d be at camp.” Elizabeth spoke fast now, eager to get it over with. “I informed Ms Vabersky already and she promised to make the necessary arrangements. She said she’ll even try to get us a refund for the retainer.”

She watched Julia with some trepidation. Waiting for her daughter to respond, she started picking the cuticle of her thumb with the nail of her index finger, something she did whenever she needed to keep it together in situations beyond her control.

Julia tried to absorb what her mother had told her. It didn’t make any sense. Her mouth fell open as if to take the information in that way – it was no use. All of her senses screamed that what she had heard was bad, yet the meaning eluded her, as though the synapses in her brain had stopped firing before she was able to interpret the message. She stood paralyzed. With her anger spent in the quarrel preceding this fatal blow to her summer plans, she began to cry.

“Oh no Mom,” she sobbed, “you can’t do that to me! You tell me all the time I don’t take enough interest in my school friends, now I do and I really want to go. I worked so hard to get on the all-star team to make this happen. Please, can we talk about it? I didn’t mean what I said about you and Dad!”

In an attempt to turn the situation around, she moved towards her mother and threw herself on the bed next to Elizabeth.

“But of course we can honey,” Elizabeth answered, gently stroking her daughter’s back. “We’ll talk about it tonight. I gotta run. I’m late as it is and I have this important presentation today.”

The second she heard herself talk about the presentation, she remembered that she would take her clients out to dinner and would not be home until late. Unable to deal with more of Julia’s disappointment at the moment and afraid that Julia would notice her annoyance, she added quickly: “Why don’t you call Grandma and tell her how excited you are to spend some time with her?”

She got up and kissed Julia lightly on the back of her head.

In a balancing act, Elizabeth put on her shoes, as she advanced towards the door. She always struggled to cram as many things as possible into a single moment. She called that managing time. One hand on the doorknob, she looked at Julia and announced in a voice a touch too chirpy to reflect her true feelings: “I’ll leave you some money on the counter. You can go to the mall and do something fun.”

Julia listened to the sound of her mother’s footsteps disappearing towards the garage. As soon as she heard the door bang shut, she reached for her phone to call Kellie.

“Something terrible has happened, can I come over? Thanks. See you in a minute.”

For a brief moment, she considered just slipping into her sneakers and rush over to Kellie’s without bothering to wash her face or brush her teeth – then decided against it. No matter how big a crisis she was in right now, her getting another pimple or, god forbid a cavity, surely wouldn’t help the situation. She trotted into the bathroom and took care of her morning routine.

Back in her room, she pulled on her favorite jeans and T-shirt to band-aid her bruised self-esteem, slipped into her shoes and went downstairs. In passing, she snatched the money off the kitchen counter, stuffed it into her jeans pocket without even counting it, grabbed her keys off the hook by the garage door and left the house.

A big gray cat with a fluffy fur coat got up from his sunny place on the front lawn to greet her. Yawning, he gracefully stretched each of his limbs separately – the way only cats know how to do – then walked right in between Julia’s legs. In a major effort to stay on her feet without stepping on the cat, Julia bent down to scratch him behind his ears.

“Hey Twinkle Toes,” she purred, “something terrible has happened this morning. I’ll fill you in as soon as I’m back. Gotta run now. Kellie is waiting.”

She opened the gate carefully as to not let Twinkle Toes out – a bit in denial about the fact that a waist-high fence is no real obstacle for a cat.

LINE 3

The members of the conference watched Julia stroll down the street, and Mirra opened her eyes as if bored with the lack of action.

“What do you think of her?” Cliffton asked anxiously, addressing everyone in the room at the same time and of course, everyone shared their opinion at once.

“Please please, let us not start this again,” Herr Kaiser’s voice thundered above the din. “I am sure we can discuss the matter in an orderly fashion.”

As before, the commotion ceased immediately. He looked around the table and noticed several raised hands.

“Now now, this is much better,” he growled his approval.

With a slight bow of his head, he prompted the regal looking woman to his right to speak. Despite her majestic poise, she radiated a motherly quality of warmth, kindness and understanding. Her words carried the simple grace that comes from a benevolent heart full of love for all there is.

“I think Julia is a nice enough little girl. She’s merely going through a normal adolescent separation phase.” Her wonderful smile brightened the whole room, her breath smelled like roses. Everybody was mellow and relaxed as she continued. “I recall that Julia recently had her first menstruation, so of course she will be in conflict with her mother. Let us not forget that this is a necessary step in growing up for a girl. How else would she be able to define herself as a woman of her own? I can help her with that easy enough. Let me just –”

“Regina I warn you! Don’t you dare mess with the situation before we all reach an agreement,” Herr Kaiser interrupted her sharply. “We all appreciate and respect your desire for harmony but there are certain rules even you have to follow.”

“Of course my dear, rules made by you and your kind,” Regina retorted without changing her expression. “However, I guess you’re right for now. Because your vision is not tainted by desire, you do excel in an indisputable kind of clarity. And no, you don’t have to remind me of what happened the last time I interfered without your consent. Just promise me to return the favor and not discipline her without consulting me first.”

“I’m sure King Arthur still remembers too, what happened on that occasion,” Mirra chortled under her breath.

Herr Kaiser, missing Mirra’s comment, seemed pleased at Regina’s relenting so quickly. In his presence no one was entirely without reason. And there was definitely no need for him to promise Regina anything. Actions caused reactions. If this indicated punishment to her, there was nothing he could do. He turned to the woman sitting at his left.

“Counselor what is your opinion? How do you read the situation?”

Dora Bell, The Counselor, was a tall thin woman. Her already longish features were augmented by the way she wore her hair. It was of a deep orange red and must have reached all the way to the floor. This of course was pure speculation, as no one had ever seen it undone. She always piled it up on her head in three tiers like a wedding cake, causing the impression of her wearing a pointed hat. In between layers, she had stuck decorative golden and silver pins with three-leaflet ornaments dangling from them, creating a most delicate tinkling sound whenever she moved her head. She must have spent hours every day to get it done just so. But because time was of no consequence in her surroundings, that didn’t really matter.

Her neck was long and slender, providing ample room between earlobes and shoulders for dangling earrings, which repeated the three-leaflet pattern of the ornaments in her hair and echoed their sound. Her dress, in the same color as her hair, was unadorned as not to take away attention from her head.

Her fingers played with a pair of enormous old-fashioned keys on the table in front of her. Their clinking added another score to the symphony played by her jewelry.

“Nobody likes to admit failure but let me be frank. I have tried many times to get Julia’s attention, to no avail.”

Her lovely melodic voice chimed right in with the rest of the tune. “Julia is only one of many children of this generation, whose imaginary capacity is swatted by this overload of sensory input so readily available to them through modern technology. Just remember what we saw in her room: a telephone, a computer, a TV, a sophisticated sound system. At times when I tried to contact her, I even resigned myself to using these devices. But there is just too much going on for her to notice. Sometimes she talks on the phone, while looking at something on the Internet, with the TV blaring in the background. And now with her grandfather dead, who was the only person in the family with moderately evolved senses of intuition, I don’t see how there’s a chance for my being heard at all.”

Dora slumped back in her chair, raising her arms above her head to signal the group her utter helplessness in the situation. The sudden motion provided her ornaments the opportunity of jingling into a crescendo.

“Maybe we could contact her through a dream,” Mirra suggested. “Luna, what do you think?”

Moni Lunaluna, a round-faced woman with short silver-blond hair and shimmering complexion, answered: “Dora asked for my help in the matter a while ago and so I tried. But Julia likes to wake up to her music-alarm-clock set at a bothersome loud volume, which instantly produces more information for her senses to absorb. There is simply no time for the subtle vibration of the dream to float to the surface and to penetrate her waking mind. Therefore my efforts have been lost as well.”

Cliffton thought it wise to say something in Julia’s favor. The discussion was not at all going in the direction he had hoped it would.

“I monitored Julia on and off since she reached out and asked for our help, so I am aware of the place she’s at,” he offered, doing his best to communicate competence in the matter. “This is exactly the reason why I summoned you. What I am about to propose needs to be sanctioned by all of us.” He looked as if he had been asked to jump off a cliff and as he continued he did not sound quite so reassured anymore. “Er – there’s only one way to say it so I say it: er – I was thinking, maybe – er – we could make direct contact with her?” His voice trailed off as he cast a timid glance at his colleagues, then he added hastily: “I admit this is unorthodox but she is in this phase of transition and I am convinced it could work.”

The level of tension in the room was high. All of The Twenty-Two seemed to hold in their responses in a combined effort to avoid another one of Herr Kaiser’s reprimands.

Finally, Brian Liebermann, the male half of the Siamese Twins, broke the silence.

“What you’re suggesting is risky business,” he argued, looking grim. “I realize it has been done before, but never with someone so ill prepared as this Julia. What is your feeling about it, Helena?” he inquired from his wife.

Helena Liebermann tilted her head as if the space above held the answer to her husband’s question, a mannerism her friends were quite familiar with. It was like a pavlovian response – you asked for her opinion and her head turned upward. At last she spoke.

“I agree with Avi insofar as Julia definitely needs some guidance. I suppose she would not feel so lost if her father were still living with them. She trusts him. She listens to him. Perhaps we could do something to get her parents back together.” She casually glanced around the room, seemingly with no intent other than reading the expressions of her colleagues. When her eyes reached Regina, the slightest movement of delicately chiseled eyebrows provided the response she was looking for.

“They are such a nice couple,” she continued her assessment, “what a shame they lack the insight necessary to grow together as husband and wife. I suggest we –

But no one heard what Helena suggested nor if she made a suggestion at all, because Regina had left her seat and moved towards Chester Magnussen and his wand.

The proximity of Regina and her rose-scented breath sent a pleasant shiver through his body, and for a fraction of a second he lost his focus, causing the wand to lift off the page. A fraction of a second does not sound like much, yet in surroundings where time is of no consequence, it presented just the opportunity needed for Regina to carry out her plan.

Before anyone had a chance to intervene, she exhaled deeply and the page in the book turned. The wand settled back down, and the screen showed Julia and her parents in the kitchen.

Julia and her father sat at the table, ready to start eating breakfast. Elizabeth stood at the stove, impatiently tugging at a strand of long auburn hair that had come loose from her ponytail. As she had done many times before, she asked herself silently, whether she would ever find the courage to cut it off.

She had always thought she would look great in a pageboy, and short hair would be so much easier to deal with. But Peter just loved her mane. In endless arguments fought out inside her head, she unfailingly succeeded in convincing herself that it would be unfair to show up with short hair when he had fallen in love with a woman who had locks right down to her waist. Yet deep down the feeling persisted that her whole life would be completely different, if she could just get rid of that hair. With a sigh she took off her apron and put the last batch of pancakes on the table.

“Mmmh honey,” Peter said, smiling appreciatively, “breakfast smells delicious as usual. Surely I’m the luckiest man alive to enjoy a gourmet breakfast in the company of the two most gorgeous girls on the planet.”

Sitting down while pouring herself a cup of coffee, Elizabeth returned his smile with an expression full of love and contentment. Gone were her thoughts of a different life.

“Thank you darling,” she said, “you know how much I enjoy our mornings together.”

Peter took his wife’s hand into his, squeezing it gently.

“And how about you, princess?” he asked, addressing Julia. “You seem unusually quiet this morning.”

Julia, startled, looked around the room. It was filled with an almost unnatural brightness but aside from that, everything appeared to be quite normal – no different from any other morning, as far as she could remember. Yet she felt weird. It was hard to put her feeling into words; a vague sensation in the pit of her stomach, maybe a faint idea of something being out of place…

“Must be the aftershock of that terrible dream I had,” she said when she finally managed to speak. “I dreamt you guys were separated. Dad, you had moved out and Mom, you were some sort of big deal in corporate world. I think you owned one of those environmental companies. You took care of the planet but left me home alone all the time with lots of cash to throw around for comfort and all I’d do was hang out at the mall. I was terribly unhappy and wished with all my heart for my life to be different.”

Speaking these words, the knot in her stomach tightened, but Julia chose to ignore it. “And there was a fight I had with Mom and I said awfully hurtful things to her. I think there was more, but it’s all slipping away so fast now, I can’t remember clearly what else was going on.”

She took a sip of orange juice and let out a deep breath. “Boy, I’m sure glad it was only a dream though. I never want to feel so lousy again – ever!”

Both her parents had listened attentively to her story. Peter opened his mouth to give a – no doubt – comforting reply, but no one in the conference room paid him any attention. In fact, since Regina’s intervention no one had bothered to watch the screen at all. The inside of the circular hall with its beautiful decorations bore no resemblance to the well ordered meeting it had housed just a fraction of a second ago.

Everybody had left their seats, frantically trying to move towards Regina, shouting and gesturing wildly. The very instant Chester Magnussen’s wand had reconnected with the book, the metal structure around that segment of the wall, which served as monitor for the book, started to blink furiously on and off – a deluge of neon-red light, emitting a penetrating beeping sound. In between beeps a computerized voice announced “Reality Breach at vector alpha-457.9” in endless repetition, as if to communicate the urgency of the matter to the members of the conference.

That was of course entirely unnecessary. Everyone of them was painfully aware of what Regina had done: she had single-handedly altered Julia’s reality while Julia was in her normal, waking consciousness, a measure strictly reserved for only the most exceptional situations. However even then, all of the twenty-three had to agree unanimously that all other options were exhausted and a shift in the individual’s chosen reality proved necessary and beneficial not only to the individual involved but was to the highest good of all life everywhere. To ensure the least impact on the psyches of all concerned, it was only done after careful planning and preparation. Full compliance with predominant systems of belief provided a strict frame of reference for every action that needed to be carried out.

Of course those extra precautions merely needed to be put in place since humans had abandoned their belief in magic, and incidents of this kind had either been banned to the land of fairy tales or diminished to the world of horror stories.

And because all of them longed for the time when it was normal to be in direct contact with the outer world, no one was totally innocent of the kind of trespass Regina had caused. In the course of eons every one of them had been tempted to interfere and some of them had tried. This fact, however did not justify the violation in the least. The situation was serious.

“Everybody, everybody take their seats and Chester, turn that thing off before I forget myself!” Herr Kaiser roared, face red, bushy brows a straight line. His voice sounded like a sonic boom and the cacophony of outrage subsided quickly into silence with everyone tiptoeing back to their seats as ordered. No one wanted to see Herr Kaiser forgetting himself!

“Of course Willhelm … at once … what was I thinking?” Chester Magnussen answered as if coming out of a trance. With visible effort he pulled his galaxy wand away from the page. The alarm stopped and the metallic structure reverted to its usual opalite glow. The screen went black with a small, slowly blinking red square in the lower right corner as the only visible reminder of the fact that the very structure of reality had been upset.

The book jumped a few inches into the air as if violated by this sudden disconnection and shut the moment it hit the table.

“Hey Mac, whoa!” Mirra’s voice as cold as her glare, so cold it felt like icicles reaching for Chester Magnussen, “how often do you think I have to ask you to not pull your wand without proper shut-down on my part first! You pull that thing so fast you shape-shift into a torturer pulling toenails. Now there’s an unbecoming identity if there ever was one! And FYI, you weren’t thinking at all! As usual you just couldn’t resist Regina, now could you? All she ever needs to do is to get close to you and you lose focus. If I had it in me to feel disgusted about such behavior, trust me I would!”

“Thank you Mirra, thank you, but this is quite enough,” said Herr Kaiser, still trying to compose himself. “We are all more than capable of imagining what that must feel like for you and I’m sorry for your inconvenience but,” his voice gaining volume as his speech gained momentum, “we do have a reality breach at hand and we have to find a solution to that mess. You all know the longer it goes on the more difficult it becomes to re-instate the proper time-line.”

“Be assured you have no idea about my feelings at all,” Mirra unimpressed. “And honestly Willhelm, I don’t quite understand your fuss. It’s all in the book anyway – so it’s all the same to me whether they’re back together or not, whether they’ve ever met or not, whether they –

“Of course it makes no difference to you,” Herr Kaiser cut her off. As much as he generally enjoyed a neutral perspective, on occasions that required action he had very little patience for Mirra and her philosophical detachment. “It does make a big difference to them though and you know it. Just to refresh your memory,” his sarcasm as sharp as a samurai sword, “in the time-line where Julia’s waking consciousness is right now, she didn’t even reach out to us for help!”

“Hurray to that!” Mirra unbothered in her knowledge that she was pushing it, “I’d say the meeting is adjourned and we all go home.” Then as was her nature, reflecting Herr Kaiser’s sarcasm right back to him, she added, “Please Willhelm, enlighten me, what was it again that happens in the time-line where she did reach out?”

Herr Kaiser, engulfed in his anger, was blind to her provocation and charged right ahead. “Great that you should mention it, because as you very well know, if we would not be blessed enough to operate within surroundings where time is of no consequence, we’d all be transported back to who knows where the moment the wand hit Regina’s turned page. And nobody but your blasted book knows exactly what happens in that other time-line. So why don’t you do me the favor and shut up.”

Taking a deep breath he turned towards the Twins. “And Helena you of all people know better than trying to eliminate choices from people’s lives. It is their birthright to figure out truth and consequences of their decisions. Did you forget that this is how they learn? I will have no more of this interference business. Do I make myself clear?” His voice reverberated off the walls, creating a sound like rolling thunder.

“Crystal clear, dearest,” Regina Green exhaled slowly, sending another whiff of roses through the room. The energy changed instantly back to peace and calm. “Julia asked for a different life and in a way, she got it. And all this rehashing of what we already know does not bring us any closer to a solution of the problem. I suggest we look at the facts and then decide what we can do.”

“Oh blast! I don’t want to hear another word from you!” Despite Regina’s attempt at restoring harmony, Herr Kaiser was still mad at her. “Of course Julia has gotten a different life but we don’t know whether this is the life she would have chosen, never mind that not a single being in her environment – and that does include her cat – had a choice in what happened. And as much as I would like to explore all the different vectors that could possibly grow out of this incident, we do have to take responsibility for our screw up. So let’s get on with it. How much time has passed in the outer world since the breach?”

“That would be 92 seconds and counting,” said Mirra after consulting the index of her book, which of course, to everyone else was nothing but another blank page.

“Good, good! Then we’re well within the limits of our 5 Minutes reversion rule,” said Herr Kaiser. “Get ready! Mirra, Chester, please. Let’s get her back to vector alpha-457.9 with a 94 second reversal extrapolation to make sure she’s not missing anything there. Come on now, do it!”

Mirra, looking not older than fifteen at the most, went into silent communication with her book once again. As soon as it opened to the appropriate page, Chester Magnussen inserted his wand. The metal frame displayed ‘alpha-457.9-ex94r-Julia-VAS/n’. The blinking red square disappeared as the image of Julia leaving the house emerged on the screen.

A big gray cat with a fluffy fur coat got up from his sunny place on the front lawn to greet her. Yawning, he gracefully stretched each of his limbs separately – the way only cats know how to do – then walked right in-between Julia’s legs. In a major effort to stay on her feet without stepping on the cat, Julia bent down to scratch him behind his ears.

“Hey Twinkle Toes,” she purred, “something terrible has happened this morning. I’ll fill you in as soon as I’m back. Gotta run now. Kellie is waiting.”

As she opened the gate carefully to stop Twinkle Toes from leaving the yard, a feeling of familiarity rushed through her body. For a brief moment she felt disoriented. She shook her head as if to clear her mind.

“Wow Twinkle Toes,” she said, “did we not do all that just a few moments ago? What a weird day this is.”

This remark brought a total recall of the argument with her mother, and the emotional impact of her personal tragedy pushed any memory of everything else that had happened this morning into the depths of her subconscious mind.

Thus, as the members of the conference watched Julia stroll down the street, her consciousness was safely restored to the here and now.

The synthetic voice streaming from the shimmering metal frame informed the members of the conference that ‘particle beam download at vector alpha-457.9-present-Julia’ was complete and the room echoed with the sound of applause.

LINE 4

In the big city, in another dome shaped structure, another conference room. Very different in more than one way from the conference room of The Twenty-Two, it towered over the city at a staggering height of 1500 feet. The pitch-black interior didn’t give any clue as to what it might look like and the only source of light was a large screen that seemed to hover suspended in mid air, displaying the bigger than life-size face of a man. An artificial voice announced “Constellato for Mr. Oten” – “Constellato for Mr. Oten” increasing the volume and thereby the urgency of the message with every repetition.

At last, a disembodied sound from the darkness suggested, “Go ahead.”

“Mister Oten,” the face on the screen came to life, “I just noticed a random particle beam download at vector alpha-457.9. It caught my attention because it has an overlap of 94 seconds in real-time. I thought I better let you know.”

Niem Vidalgo Oten stepped closer to the screen. Staying in line with the black theme of his surroundings he wore a black suit and black turtleneck sweater. With his black hair, thick black eyebrows and dark eyes the dim light of the monitor upgraded him from disembodied voice to disembodied face. “And what exactly does that mean?”

“I cannot be sure,” Constellato, rubbing his right eyebrow with the middle finger of his right hand, “do you want me to speculate?”

“No, your simple opinion will do,” said Oten, adding the feature of disembodied hands to his physique. Judging by the movement of those hands he pulled a black chair towards him and sat down. He looked like a spooky pantomime in a black box performance.

“Someone at this vector has experienced a déjà vu of 94 seconds.”

“A déjà vu?” white hands patting back a stray strand of black hair on white face. “How can that happen?”

“Like I said I honestly don’t know,” Constellato’s voice showed signs of unease.

“Then use your million dollar brain and speculate. And you better don’t waste my time.” The hidden threat in Oten’s answer provided a perfect explanation for Constellato’s apprehension.

“A tiny rupture in space-time is the only logical conclusion. Created by a moderately high-energy wave and it’s not coming from our side. I already checked.”

“Can you give me a visual?” asked Oten, leaning forward in his chair.

Without answering, Constellato’s hand seemed to reach out of the screen into the room pointing at a three dimensional holographic version of Julia carefully opening the gate and leaving the yard. They watched how she shook her head telling a big gray cat with a fluffy fur coat, “Wow Twinkle Toes, did we not do all that just a few moments ago? What a weird day this is.” And as Julia strolled down the street Constellato pulled his hand back from the room into the screen.

Oten let out a suppressed sigh as if to mask his relief. “Thank you C. I don’t think we have to worry. Some random energy fluctuation, no more. If she would have powers she would have been more excited but she seemed rather depressed to me.” And emitting a scary snorting kind of laugh he added, “In any case we have her readout and should it happen again we know how to tag her. For now we just leave it be.” Unaware of the fact that symbolically speaking, his decision to leave the girl’s identity unchecked boosted the trouble-factor of his life by the power of twenty-two, Oten snapped his fingers, the screen turned black and the room returned to impenetrable darkness.

LINE 5

Back in the conference room of The Twenty-Two everyone was cheering, clapping their hands and dancing around the room in demonstrating their relief at a disaster averted. Even Herr Kaiser showed the pleased victorious demeanor of a job well done.

“Alright! Alright,” he said at last, “now let’s not forget the reason why we assembled here to begin with. Avi tell us what you had in mind.”

“Er – yes – thank you Willhelm, er – Herr Kaiser, er – thank you all for your input,” Cliffton stammered in a nervous attempt to gather his thoughts. He cleared his throat and took a deep breath. “As I was saying, I am aware of Julia’s disposition and I realize the risks involved for us to seek direct contact, yet I strongly believe the attempt would have great merit. Especially now with the – er – incident – er – I feel we have a lot of explaining to do.” He swallowed hard. “My original idea was to establish some support for her. There is a boy, John, a childhood friend who lives by the Lake. He is sensitive and very interested in all things out of the ordinary. Mirra, maybe, if you would?”

Mirra sighed and closed her eyes focusing on the book. The familiar process of the book turning its pages started once more. Because the wand was still plugged in, a multitude of images flickered across the screen.

“How would you like it, Avi? Same time-vector? Same mode? Some of Mirra’s omnipotent viewpoint if it helps with clarity?” Magnussen asked.

“Yes please, if no one has any objections?”

Magnussen interpreted the ensuing silence as consent.

“All right, then I’m all set.”

The very instant the pages came to rest, the metal structure framing the lit up section of the wall read: ‘alpha-457.9-John-present-VAS/n’, and the figure of a boy became discernible on the screen. The twenty-three watched curiously…

LINE 6

… as he entered the kitchen of his parents’ ranch-style home. Bare feet a little bit too big for his height stuck out from pajama pants a little bit too short. His blond hair reaching in curls below the chin, still tousled from sleep, added to the impression of innocent clumsiness so adorable with puppies.

His mother looked up from her morning paper – her love for her son oozing out of every pore. She was well prepared for John’s first words – they had hardly varied since he was a baby. And even then most time

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Prologue

The curse giver slithered out of the basin and glided among the counter wares, surveying the tidy kitchen. Tonight, she favored the serpent’s sleek shape. When she was sure she was alone, she grew herself into a watery semblance of the human form that defined her current existence. Her face’s reflection, coalescing into something tangible on the windowpane, might have been considered beautiful if one cared about such things.

She didn’t. Beauty implied good and good entailed virtue, all spoilers to the evil she practiced.

The evening storm agreed with her mood. It had been a busy night. She was on the last leg of her three-part errand. First, she had paid a visit to the arrogant fool who had provoked her wrath nearly ten years ago. Why had he been surprised to see her? He should have known that she would be back to avenge his treachery. Nothing could protect him from her rage.

True, he had provided her with a rare opportunity. Betrayal was rare when one was a recluse of gods and mortals. Revenge was an elusive treat. The man’s misdeeds were unforgivable and yet his offense had freed her to indulge in her greatest compulsion.

A curse was serious work, precision’s highest aim. A curse was challenge and duel, battle and victory, the maker’s highest praise. And this night, after ten years of careful planning, she had returned to cast the perfect curse, a layered trap of death, suffering, ruin and catastrophe; a cruel, complex, and horrific work of art.

Her best and most satisfying creation yet.

Had the proud lord really thought he had avoided retribution? Had he expected any less than what he got? He must have, because he pleaded with his eyes and wailed like a pathetic fool while she wrote the curse with his blood.

The pleasure she got from casting the curse was so obscene it should have been forbidden. The enjoyment she would get in the years to come thrilled in advance. She had been meticulous in her preparations, deliberate in her provisions, fierce like the Goddess herself.

That’s why prior to traveling to the kitchen, she had visited a second victim that night, lulling the young woman to sleep with a peaceful lullaby, cursing her with a kiss on the shoulder, where a tiny mark would grow over time to play a small but entertaining part in the curse’s expanding evil.

Practicality was a sign of genius. Diligence upfront saved time.

And now, to the last part of the plan. The need for preemptive action had brought her to this orderly kitchen, where a thousand scents mingled to entice the nose, including the lingering perfume of sweat, toil and exhaustion.

What would it be like to live in a place like this? How would it feel to welcome guests every day, catering to their needs and listening to their stories? How would her life have turned out if she had devoted her talents to cooking, tending to the gardens, laundering the linens, mixing this, testing that, catching a few hours of sleep only to begin the same backbreaking routine all over again the next day?

She shook her head, knowing the answer—it would be boring, tedious and dull. A waste of time, a squandering of her creative genius. A dreary existence that no one could possibly relish, let alone want.

Destroying a life condemned to such a fate could have been seen as merciful, if one believed in such a thing as mercy. But she didn’t. Good was to bad as seed was to sprout. Mercy was a waste of time.

She went about the kitchen, lighting the lamp, stuffing it with drying rags, until a nice little fire burned on the tabletop. She felt quite diligent as she fed the fire more kindling, a bundle of dried flowers, a bunch of rushes from the floor, some logs and twigs from the stack by the fireplace, and a jug of oil, which she splattered liberally over the place, until the fire was large enough to lick the ceiling beams and ignite the walls.

How simple it was to ensure the curse’s future with a little forethought and the roaring flames. Nobody in this place would survive the fire. She wasn’t about to leave anything to chance. Call it overkill, because the casting had been done and death was the only possible outcome.

With the smoke growing thick and the curse’s loose ends firmly knotted, she splashed back into the basin and, making the quick trip home, returned to her lair. She was in a mood to celebrate.

She sat at her desk and smiled. After rubbing her hands together, she dipped her precious quill in the ink pot and pressed it against the vellum. The realms needed to beware. Her best curse was now loose upon the world. A warning, that’s what she needed to compose, the opening for a new masterwork, a battle cry and a victory song.

And so, she began.

I am the curse giver.

Spawn of the fickle gods’ whims,

Scorned by virtue, spurned by faith,

Shudder when you hear my name.

Chapter One

Dread stared at Lusielle from the depths of the rowdy crowd. Concealed under a heavy hood, only the stranger’s black eyes dared to meet her gaze among the growing throng. The man’s eyes refused to flinch or shift from her face. His stare was free of the hatred she had gotten from the others, but also devoid of mercy. He held on to her gaze like an anchor to her soul, testing her fortitude, knowing full well her fears’ vast range.

She had always been meant for the fire. Even as she had escaped the blaze that killed her parents and burned the inn to the ground, Lusielle had known that the flame’s greedy god would return to claim her life. But she hadn’t expected it to happen after days of torture, surrounded by the raging mob, found guilty of a crime she didn’t commit, betrayed and condemned.

The town’s cobbler, one of her husband’s best customers, tightened the noose around her neck until it cut off her breath. She had waited on him countless times at the shop, and had always padded his order with a free measure of coriander to help with his wife’s cough.

But none of the town’s inhabitants seemed to remember any of her kindnesses as of late. On the contrary, the crowd was booing and jeering when they weren’t pelting her with rotten fruit. They treated her as if she were a common thief.

The brute who had conducted her torture shoved the cobbler aside, tying her elbows and wrists around the wooden stake. Orell. She remembered his name. His bearded face might have been handsome if not for the permanent leer. Like the magistrate, he wore the king’s burgundy colors, but his role had been more vicious. Had he been granted more time, he might have succeeded at extracting the false confession he wanted, but the magistrate was in a hurry, afraid of any possible unrest.

Orell yanked on the ropes, tightening her bonds. The wound on her back broke open all over again. She swallowed a strangled hiss. It was as if the thug wanted her to suffer, as if he had a private reason to profit from her pain.

But she had never seen him until three days ago, when he and the magistrate had shown up unannounced, making random accusations.

Lusielle couldn’t understand any of this.

She knew that the king’s justice was notoriously arbitrary. It was one of the main reasons why she loathed living under King Riva’s rule. But she also knew better than to express her opinion. Ruin and tragedy trailed those who dared to criticize the king. That’s why she had never mentioned her misgivings to anyone.

What had she done to deserve this fate? And why did they continue to be so cruel? After all, she wasn’t fighting them anymore.

True, she had resisted at first. Out of fear and pride, she had tried to defend herself. But in the end, it hadn’t mattered. Her accusers had relied on the testimony of the devious liar who had turned her in—Aponte Rummins—her own husband.

The mock hearing had been too painful to bear, too absurd to believe. Aponte swore before the magistrate that Lusielle was a secret practitioner of the forbidden odd arts. It was ridiculous. How could anyone believe that she, who had always relied on logic, measure and observation to mix her remedies, could possibly serve the Odd God’s dark purposes? And how could anyone believe Aponte’s lies?

But they did, they believed him as he called on his paid witnesses and presented fabricated evidence, swearing that he himself had caught her at the shop, worshipping the Odd God. In the end, it had been her husband’s false testimony that provided the ultimate proof of the heinous charge for which Lusielle was about to die.

Burning torch in hand, the magistrate stepped forward. Still in shock, Lusielle swallowed a gulp of bitter horror and steeled for the flames’ excruciating pain. She didn’t want to die like a shrieking coward. But nothing could have prepared her for what happened next.

The magistrate offered the torch to Aponte.

“The king upholds a husband’s authority over his wife in the kingdom,” the magistrate shouted for the crowd to hear. “There can be no protests, no doubt of the wisdom of royal justice if a husband does as he’s entitled to do by his marital rights.”

Aponte could have forgone her execution. Considering the magistrate’s proclamation, he could have chosen a different punishment for her. Instead, he accepted the torch and, without hesitation, put the flame to the tinder and blew over the kindling to start the fire.

“Go now,” he said, grinning like a hog about to gorge. “Go find your dark lord.”

Lusielle glared at the poor excuse for a man who had ruined her life many times over. She had known from the beginning that he was fatally flawed, just as he had known on the day he claimed her that she couldn’t pledge him any affection.

But Aponte had never wanted her affection. He had wanted her servitude, and in that sense she proved to be the reluctant but dutiful servant he craved.

Over the years he had taught her hatred.

His gratification came from beating and humiliating her. His crass and vulgar tastes turned his bed into a nightmare. She felt so ashamed of the things he made her do. Still, even if she loathed him—and not just him, but the slave she had become under his rule—she had tried to make the best of it.

She had served him diligently, tending to his businesses, reorganizing his stores, rearranging his trading routes and increasing his profits. His table had always been ready. His meals had been hot and flavorsome. His sheets had been crisp and his bed had been coal-warmed every night. Perhaps due to all of this, he had seemed genuinely pleased with their marital arrangement.

Why, then, had he surrendered her so easily to the magistrate’s brute?

Aponte had to have some purpose for this betrayal. He was, above all, a practical man. He would not surrender all the advantages that Lusielle brought to him—money, standing, common sense, business acumen—without the benefit of an even greater windfall.

Lusielle couldn’t understand how, but she was sure that the bastard was going to profit handsomely from her death.

The scent of pine turned acrid and hot. Cones crackled and popped. The fire hissed a sinister murmur, a sure promise of pain. She didn’t watch the little sparks grow into flames at her feet. Instead, her eyes returned to the back of the crowd, seeking the stranger’s stare. She found him even as a puff of white smoke clouded her sight and the fire’s rising heat distorted his scarred face’s fixed expression.

The nearing flames thawed the pervasive cold chilling her bones. Flying sparks pecked at her skin. Her toes curled. Her feet flinched. Pain teased her ankles in alarming, nipping jolts. Dear gods. They were really going to burn her alive.

Lusielle shut her eyes. When she looked again, the stranger was gone from the crowd. She couldn’t blame him. She would have never chosen to watch the flame’s devouring dance.

A commotion ensued somewhere beyond the pyre. People were screaming, but she couldn’t see through the flames and smoke. She flinched when a lick of fire ignited her shift’s hem. A vile stink filled her lungs. Her body shivered in shock. She coughed, then hacked. Fear’s fiery fingers began to torment her legs.

“Come and find me,” she called to the God of fire.

And he did.

Chapter Two

Dressed in a common laborers’ garb, Severo leaned against a market stall at the back of the rabble, keeping watch. It was a testament to his lord’s dire plight that they had stolen deep into Riva’s kingdom, into yet another Twin forsaken town, running with filthy gutters and crammed with these wretched people who were braying like mules trapped in a pen.

What a miserable crowd it was, mostly baseborn churls with a taste for morbid spectacles trying to gain favor from the king’s minions. It made him sick, all of those pathetic people willing to lick the sons of whores’ filthy asses for a shot at royal favor or a handful of debased coins.

But such was the yoke of Riva’s rule. It made Severo proud to hail from one of the last bastions standing against Riva, the Free Territory of Laonia.

For a man who had spent the last few years of his life chasing ghosts and always on the run, blending with the crowd was hardly a challenge, even if the king’s guards were sniffing at his balls like a bunch of hungry mutts. Stealth was the scout’s crucial trait, the difference between tidy or messy, free or caught, breathing or stiff cold.

Severo was damn good at sly and sneaky. The others always joked he blended so well ‘cause he was so common-looking. They only said that ‘cause they were jealous of his burly looks. The truth was he had the Twin’s gift—plus a lot of years of practice with his nose to the ground and his paws on the trail. He was as good as invisible in a crowd.

The floppy cap and the ragged mantle he wore made him look like every other goon in the square. The tattered trousers and the crutch helped disguise his stiff gait, which was caused by the sword he had strapped to his leg. His knives were tucked in the back, under his belt, all seven of them. Three tubes of dazzling powders were strapped to his chest beneath his shirt.

Severo’s full attention remained on his lord, standing but a few paces away among a wall of towering thugs. How a man as brave and strong as the Lord of Laonia had netted such a grim fate was beyond Severo. What vicious force had claimed his life? And why had he been punished with such a grim legacy?

The Twins knew, the Lord of Laonia needed answers to those questions and much more, because his time was running dangerously short.

Which explained why Severo and his lord were here, on this filthy square, sticking out their necks like geese for the cook, flirting with the noose of Riva’s hangman.

His lord was also in disguise, wearing the only garment remotely capable of providing a small measure of anonymity and protection from the King’s men. Severo stifled a laugh when he remembered his adventures in the laundresses’ quarters. What a night that had been. Stealing the prized uniform hadn’t been easy, but Lord Bren looked good in the King’s colors.

The night was dark, his lord cut a striking figure as a royal guardsman, and the crimson and gold mantle might defer passing inquiry. Still Severo worried that Lord Bren’s highborn bearing could betray his presence among the common folk.

Even more dangerous was the scar on his face. It was now concealed in the depths of the hood’s shade, but should something change, it would be easily recognizable, especially to that whoremonger, Orell, the king’s man.

Severo had begged the Lord of Laonia to stay out of sight, to wait at the rendezvous point. But, true to his character, he had refused. Despite the danger, he never shied away from an opportunity to trounce Riva or to outwit and outmaneuver Orell.

Severo smirked in the darkness. His lord might be cursed and fated for tragedy, but he was fierce, tough and iron-willed. He would not surrender to his plight. He fought with both his sword and his wits, and beyond the oath, that’s what kept men like Severo by his side. Most importantly, the Lord of Laonia didn’t want his men to do his dirty deeds. He hunted his own prey.

Severo’s job tonight was to keep Lord Bren alive, not an easy task to accomplish. Since Severo had been the one who had generated the lead, investigated the prospects, and scouted the town, it was his right to look after his lord. It was a job he cherished, not only because it required focus and skill, but also because it was considered the highest honor among the Twenty.

It was also a job he abhorred. The price of failure would be catastrophic, for his lord, the Twenty and Laonia.

They’d had little trouble infiltrating the square, mostly because they had sneaked in ahead of the guards and hidden in the market’s cellars the night before Orell cordoned off the square. The plan tonight hinged on preparation, stealth and speed.

With hooded eyes, he glanced over to his right, where old Petrus splayed by the south gate, disguised as a drunkard. He might have overdone it a little. Every once in a while the breeze carried a whiff of his rank scent. He reeked of cheap ale.

Somewhere to his left, Severo made quick eye contact with Cirillo, who mingled with the beggars by the well. He found Clio already in position, high atop a tree among some local lads, hovering over the north entrance. The rookie looked nervous. Severo hoped he’d keep from shitting his pants.

That made a total of only five men in the square, too few; but his lord favored wits over numbers and smarts over brawn, and the balance of the Twenty would be ready.

The Twenty were the best that Laonia had to offer, even if glory and the gods shunned them these days. They might look like a ragged pack of mangy wolves, but they were a fine-tuned unit, a prime collection of prized hunting dogs.

Severo’s vigilant eyes scanned the square once again. He might not be able to fight fate’s cryptic ways, but flesh he could slash and blood he could spill. He wasn’t going to allow any common man to harm his lord.

His stare fell on that ass licking weasel, Orell, who was amusing himself by torturing the woman, this time in public. He was a dangerous foe. Snaring Laonia’s clever lord was Orell’s greatest ambition. Severo smirked. Not tonight. The damn cur dog was gonna get his ass whipped.

To be fair, Orell had taken fitting precautions at the market, archers on the wall, fighters in plainclothes, guards at the gates, around the pyre and along the square, plus reinforcements outside the south gate. The north gate merited little attention. It had been broken in days past, and despite the efforts of men and beasts, it couldn’t be opened. Severo estimated the Twenty faced a force roughly four times their size, and that number didn’t include the sentinels posted at the crossroads and at the guild’s tower, which was the town’s highest point.

Those sentinels were going to be useless tonight. Severo had spotted them early on. By now, they were probably dead at the hands of Lord Hato and the handful of men he commanded.

The agitated rabble began to chant. “Burn her, burn her!”

Severo joined in the savage chorus. He didn’t envy the woman on the pyre. Whether or not she died today, she would die; and whether she burned or perished from an even worse injury, who cared? Her death was bound to be terrible either way.

That was as much pity as Severo could muster for the wench, because as far as he was concerned, women were the Lord of Laonia’s bane and he shouldn’t be here, in this cramped square that felt a lot like a death trap, right beneath Orell’s filthy nose. Severo didn’t like that his lord was skirting catastrophe, risking his life for a baseborn wench with no fortune, merit or real promise to her person.

He had tried to tell Lord Bren that the woman wasn’t worth the danger. He had even mentioned that she wasn’t particularly beautiful or distinguished. Severo was absolutely sure that she wasn’t what they needed. She was but a tradesman’s wife, for the Twin’s sake, the meek daughter of a modest innkeeper, a remedy worker, hardly any better than a common mountebank.

Severo had also mentioned the charges. So what if they were true or false? Anybody with eyes could see that there was something to the claims. The wench had the bewitching stare of a sorceress.

He winked at the plump girl giving him the eye. If only he had the time to take a dip under her skirts. The crowd cheered. A plume of white smoke rose from the pyre. The fire began to burn.

Time for the Lord of Laonia to make his choices.

Like every man of the Twenty, Severo lusted after a good fight, but this time, the woman wasn’t worth a single drop of the Twenty’s blood. He would follow his lord to Riva’s damn salt mines if he had to, but tonight he hoped that Lord Bren would recognize the woman as just another fake.

It would be a lot easier to keep him alive for a little while longer if he did.

The tension in Severo’s body ebbed when his lord walked away from the crowd towards the south gate. There would be no fight today. The Lord of Laonia would live another day. Severo exhaled a long, quiet breath.

Then it happened.

Abruptly, Lord Bren changed course, dropping a scarf on the ground, entering the leather shop at the edge of the market and disappearing behind the counter.

Damn the Twins and all the stinking gods. Severo started the count in his head.

The plump maid who had been looking his way screeched, pointing to the sky, towards the guild tower, from where a cloud of red smoke rose in a spectacular, shape-shifting puff.

Severo scratched his beard’s dark stubble. “Pretty, eh? Wanna give me a kiss?”

The woman stared at him as if he were mad before returning her attention to the sky. She wasn’t that pretty anyways. The silhouette of a sinister figure swelled against the night, a monster wearing a crown and clawing at the feeble stars. The next puff of smoke came in the shape of a crooked sword. It punched through the crowned monster, scattering the image, which wilted into nothingness.

The images struck fear into people’s hearts. Women cried, men shouted, children wailed. Orell commanded some of his guards to the guild tower. Still keeping count in his head, Severo made a mental note to ask Lord Hato how he had managed to conjure such a hackle-raising, ball-shrinking distraction, even though it was highly unlikely that the old master would give away his secrets.

As he reached the end of his count, Severo pulled up his scarf and covered his mouth. At the same time, old Petrus struck, disabling the guards and hacking the ropes that held up the south portico. The portico dropped, dividing Orell’s force and isolating the men inside the square. The contest was about to start.

Severo sprinted along the north wall, deploying all three of his powder tubes as he ran. Bang, bang, bang. He kept track of Cirillo in his peripheral view, who, methodical as always, retrieved his bow from the well where it had been concealed the night before, loaded it, and fired, eliminating the archers on the wall—one, two, three, four.

The air sparkled with iridescent crystals. The crowd began to cough, fleeing from the explosions, clearing the way, moving towards the south side in unison like a wild herd.

Severo heard the hoofs of a horse clattering on cobblestones before he spotted his lord atop his steed. The beast cleared the leather shop’s counter with an extraordinary leap spanning not just the counter and the merchandise piled atop it, but also the startled shopkeeper and his frightened apprentice. Unsheathing his sword, Severo turned around to keep the path open, clashing almost immediately with two plainly-dressed guardsmen, whom he dispatched without hesitation.

From the corner of his eye, he caught the familiar movement of a guard on the ground putting an arrow to the bow, aiming for the Lord of Laonia.

Severo threw his knife.

It plunked into the archer’s chest like an arrow itself. Anticipating Lord Bren’s trajectory, Severo threw three more knives, eliminating the threats in his lord’s path.

By then, Clio had opened the north portico. It had been Severo himself who had stolen into the market square three nights ago and applied a coating of Lord Hato’s especially prepared jamming glue to the portico’s hinges.

At that time, Severo had been doubtful that anything could make those hinges move again, but it seemed that Lord Hato’s thinning solution had worked and the second phase of the plan was about to begin.

The rest happened very quickly.

Clio’s swift bow sent Orell and his men diving for cover. For sure, the kid could shoot. Several members of the Twenty scaled the walls and joined Clio in providing cover for those on the ground.

As the Lord of Laonia spurred his whinnying steed into the burning pyre, Severo teamed up with Cirillo and Petrus, forming a semicircle around the pyre, fighting with their backs to the fire, engaging the few defenders who dared the arrows and the powders with their swords. Severo stood his ground despite the heat singeing the hair in the back of his head, until he heard the rustle of ropes breaking under a blade and his lord’s triumphant shout as he goaded his horse towards the north gate.

Covered by the friendly archers, Severo followed, bolting through the gate, along with Petrus and Cirillo, before the effect of the powders dwindled and the crowd and the guards recovered. As soon as they were out, the portico dropped down, the archers scrambled down and Clio rushed to reseal the portico’s hinges with more of Lord Hato’s glue.

“They won’t be coming after us now,” the kid said as he leapt down from the wall and ran with the others into the forest, where their horses were hidden.

Severo mounted his horse and raced down the track he’d scouted the day before, chasing after his lord. He whooped. The plan had worked, just as his lord had said it would! Only three of the Twenty had sustained injuries and they were all minor.

Sure, they were on the lam again, but the Lord of Laonia was alive and that pile of crap Orell was stuck in that stinking market for a while. With a little luck, the woman had made it as well.

Poor wretch. If she was indeed alive, she had leapt from one kind of execution to another.

Chapter Three

The sound of the sword’s blade rustling against the sharpening stone soothed Bren. The sinuous sequence of the long sword’s curves was a familiar rhythm to his hands. Up and down, the blade offered a wild ride as three curves of perfectly balanced metal ended at the well-honed point, accounting for the blade’s singular course.

The weapon was perfectly built to fool the bone’s hard protection and infiltrate the densest parts of the human body, where the essence of life was meant to be kept intact. Wielding the sword was something Bren did well, with skill, conviction and honor. And so it was that whenever his mind was restless he resorted to sharpening the blade, for it was—and would always remain so—by far a fairer executioner than he would ever be.

The sword belonged to his noble line, the house of Uras. It was beautiful, and not just to his warrior’s trained eye. By all accounts, the ivory-carved hilt was a work of art. On the hilt, the black stone of the house of Uras presided over all his killings.

It was an heirloom of death, a weapon worthy of his cursed fate.

“Well?” Bren said, unable to contain his impatience any longer.

Hato replaced the bandage on the woman’s back and covered her with a blanket. His sharp features were grimmer than usual as he delivered the bad news with a sigh and a nod.

The cave where Bren had set up camp seemed darker than before.

It was just like Hato to ask, “Have you—?”

“No,” Bren said, turning the blade on his lap. “She’s too sick.”

“It’s been four days since you fetched her from the pyre,” Hato said. “The men are eager to steal out of the kingdom before Orell finds us. She’s slowing us down.”

“I know,” Bren said, dabbing his whetstone with a wet sponge.

“My lord,” Hato said gravely. “You might as well get the trial over with.”

“She doesn’t stand a chance, sick as she is.” She wouldn’t stand a chance if she was healthy either, but that was beside the point.

“Theoretically,” Hato said, “that’s not true.”

“But practically, we know it is.”

“Either way,” Hato said stubbornly. “We need to know.”

“She’s getting better,” Bren said. “She’s stronger every day.”

“So what?”

“Why put her through all of that if we know what’s going to happen?”

“‘Cause it’s your damn duty.”

Leave it to the old man to say the things no one else would say aloud. Leave it to Hato to state so casually the wretched legacy he had been birthed to uphold.

“You’re a beaming beacon of hope,” Bren muttered, holding up the sword, closing one eye, and inspecting the blade’s edges against the light of the fire.

“Hope, you say?” Hato flashed his long teeth in a bitter smile. “I’ve been at this since your father’s time. For you, I’ve toiled the length of your adult life, so that Laonia can survive. Forgive me if I give you truth instead of falsehood.”

Damn Hato. He wasn’t giving up. And why should he?

Bren returned the sword to his lap and, applying the whetstone to the blade, reassumed the long, even strokes necessary to sharpen the edges. The sound of the whetstone grinding against the metal filled the cave. The repetitive motion calmed his anger and focused his thoughts.

“What if the mark is just a coincidence?” Bren said.

Hato shook his head. “I’d be remiss to think that Orell and his men went to all this trouble for nothing. You saw what those fools tried to do. They tried to burn the mark off her, and when that didn’t work, they tried to hack it off. Had it been a fake, it wouldn’t have resurfaced.”

“Yet your tests have proven inconclusive.”

“That’s because the mark has been so savagely attacked.”

“Hato,” Bren said, steeling his tone. “I won’t kill her unless you’re sure.”

“Would you like me to test her a third time?”

“As if she hasn’t endured enough torture already,” Bren said. “If you were sure, you wouldn’t be itching to test her again. But you’re not sure, Hato, and I’ll have more than just hesitation to sanction murder.”

“She has the mark,” Hato said. “On that we agree.”

“But she doesn’t fit Robert’s riddle.”

“I thought you didn’t trust the riddle.”

“They’re the words of a dying man, a madman there at the end. We don’t even know when and how he found it.”

“I, for once, won’t dismiss the riddle as a madman’s raving,” Hato said. “Your brothers were determined to save the line of Uras. They died for you, so that you could continue their work.”

Bren winced, remembering his brothers. He wanted to do well by the house of Uras, but his was a deadly inheritance, and he refused to take it lightly.

“Think about the riddle,” Bren said. “There’s no might or wealth to this wench. She’s baseborn, the wife of a mere merchant. Inasmuch as we could use a break in our venture, she’s not it.”

“We can’t afford to ignore any leads,” Hato said, logical as always. “Don’t forget, she bears the mark. Get to the trial, so we can move on. Just do it, my lord.”

The whetstone ground to a halt with a jarring screech. Bren’s fingers tightened around the sword’s hilt. He had an urge to slip the blade between the old man’s ribs, to thrust it up and break through the solid encasement of a heart that failed to feel anymore.

But Hato had given up his life to serve the house of Uras. No matter how hopeless or terrible, he had always told Bren the truth. And when defeat had overtaken Bren’s soul, Hato had been the only one able to wrench him away from despair’s crushing hold.

Bren eased his grasp on the hilt and set aside his sword on the folded pad on the ground. Then he took a deep breath, trying to temper the raw fury coursing through him.

The old man didn’t deserve to die for speaking the truth. He couldn’t slay his friend and mentor just because Hato reminded Bren of the beast he was.

On the other hand, it was he, and not Hato, who had to do the terrible deed, and he couldn’t just slay an innocent because time was running out and they were desperate.

“Don’t overthink the matter,” Hato said. “Riva is bound to catch up with us soon. We have little coin and low supplies. The tribute is almost due. Teos will call soon—”

“A few more days,” Bren said. “Perhaps some of the other leads will bear fruit.”

“I commend you for your decency, my lord, I really do, but practicality takes precedence in our case and time is not on our side. Orell is on our tail. You’ve got nothing to gain from a delay and everything to lose. Will you at least consider my advice?”

“I always do.”

Hato squeezed Bren’s shoulder as he shuffled out of the cave to join the others camping outside. Bren heaved a frustrated sigh. The old man was right again.

But what about the woman?

Bren didn’t know her. Her life might not be meant for rule or greatness, but was it any less valuable than his?

Dam the Twins. The house of Uras was fated to become extinct if he continued to think like this. He knew he couldn’t afford to be weak. He had to be strong—for his people, for his house. He had to finish it.

He knelt next to the woman’s pallet. Lusielle. He had learned her name when he scouted the lead. After four days on the run, an attractive face was beginning to emerge from beneath her yellowing bruises. The small, straight nose was sprinkled with freckles and underscored by a set of generous lips that enhanced her features’ harmony. The tiny line between her brows betrayed a hint of character. A trace of red streaked her brown curls, a touch of the fire that had almost killed her.

Her body might have been pleasant to look at if she hadn’t been so brutally battered. Not only had Orell tried to hack the mark off her back, but he had beaten and even flogged her in the hopes of extracting a confession. King Riva liked confessions—even if they weren’t true—as long as they served to justify his lies.

Bren knew that Lusielle’s wounds would mend if festering could be avoided. The blisters on her legs and feet had begun to heal, especially as Bren had cooled them with packed snow and oiled them with Hato’s balms. In a week or two, she should be able to walk again.

He pushed a curl away from her face. It was silky between his fingers, strong and resilient. Her face was flushed with fever. Even so, she smelled good, like fragrant bread—a rich loaf, fresh from the oven.

Why did he have to kill her?

Bren guessed the woman must be in her middle twenties. He thanked the Twins for the small favor. At least she wasn’t a child or an old woman past her prime. This woman was young enough to have a full life ahead and old enough to look forward to enjoying it.

She was brave too. He had admired the courage he had discovered in her eyes, even as she had been about to die. In the depths of her mossy green gaze, he had tangled with her will as if fighting a duel.

But considering what he’d do to her—what he had to do—he should have surrendered her to the fire. Her death would have been kinder.

Enough of this. He wasn’t born to heal. He had been spawned to destroy. No mercy. It was the house of Uras’s motto. No self-pity, either, as he couldn’t afford the luxury.

He reached for the sword, craving its strength, but an odd sense of longing tugged at him. Damn it, why not? It was his curse, his right. On impulse, he pressed his mouth against the woman’s lips.

A wave crashed over him. His breath felt drawn from his lungs. A force he’d never felt before rumbled inside of him, like a beast awakening. It was astonishing, improbable, incredible. He had to fight like a drowning man to return to reality.

Then he realized that a pair of steely green eyes stared up at him. “Who are you?”

Chapter Four

It wasn’t the man’s scarred face that had alarmed Lusielle. It wasn’t his proximity either, or the feel of his lips on her mouth, or the tingle swelling her lips. It was the shock that she spotted in his eyes, along with the loathing and the misery she saw there, followed by the instant hardening of the dark stare she had caught undefended.

Who was he?

A memory of fire and pain flared in her mind. The high heat running through her veins muffled her thinking. Dread. She had survived the torture and the flames. Despair. Was it about to start all over again?

She scrambled out of the pallet like a rat dashing out of a trap.

“Don’t!” the man said, grabbing for her leg but letting go as soon as his fingers came in contact with her bandages.

She scooted backwards on her hands and elbows. A solid wall of rock slammed against her back. Pain shot through her body like a rain of arrows. Out. She had to get away from this man. Fast. She looked around in desperation. Was that a sword lying on the ground?

Mustering whatever little strength she could, she dove for it. Her fingers wrapped around the sword’s hilt as she forced her voice past her bruised throat.

“Stay back!”

“Easy now,” the man said, standing up slowly, displaying his empty palms, motioning for her to calm down. “You’re going to reopen your wounds.”

No more pain. No more torture. She was done with King Riva and his random courts of so-called justice. She was done with the magistrate, Orell, and Aponte. She wasn’t going to let it happen again.

She scoured the place for an exit, swallowing great gulps of smoke-scented air. Her feet throbbed. Her legs ached. Her arms quivered under the heavy sword’s strain. It was an odd weapon, curved instead of straight, unwieldy to her untrained hands, foreign and wild. She clung to it with all the grit she could muster.

He took a step towards her.

“If you come any closer,” she said, “I’ll have to kill you.”

“That’s a mighty big boast,” he said. “Do you really think you can hurt me with my sword?”

Shaking as hard as she was, she could barely keep the heavy sword aimed at him, let alone manage a thrust. If she hadn’t been so weak, maybe she could have edged her way out of the cave. As it was, he looked very strong and daunting standing between her and the way out.

“Listen, Lusielle,” he said. “That’s your name, right? Lusielle?”

She nodded reluctantly.

“Lusielle,” he repeated her name, almost kindly. “You’ve been through a lot. I understand that you’re scared, but you’re safe at the moment, and you’re not doing your wounds any favors. For your own good, do you think you could lower the sword and try to settle down?”

Her mind was spinning in too many directions. The pain wasn’t helping either. But Lusielle forced herself to think.

Where was she? In a cave of some sort, not in a place she recognized. How had she gotten here? She’d have to come back to that. Was this man friend or foe?

Lusielle willed her frantic heartbeat to slow down. Her arms quaked with the effort of holding the sword. She recognized that she was ill and not just physically. She was also sick with fear. She had been hurt and could have died, but someone had been taking care of her.

Him?

She could barely get the words through her parched throat. “Did you—did you tend to my wounds?”

He gave a curt nod.

“A-Are you one of Orell’s guardsmen?”

“I’m not with Orell or the magistrate,” he said. “We’re no longer near your town.”

“Then why are you wearing the king’s colors?”

“Oh, this.” He tugged at his sleeve with a measure of embarrassment. “It’ll be off as soon as we’re out of the Kingdom. It was a ploy. To get to you. Without getting killed?”

“Oh.” She wasn’t sure she could believe him—or anyone else—ever again, but she decided to give him the benefit of the doubt because she wasn’t feeling well or thinking straight and he had kept her alive, at least until now.

She fought a bout of dizziness. “W-Where are we?”

“We are in hiding, in a cave, away from those men. I got you from the fire. Remember?”

She had a memory of his black eyes, holding her stare; of his curiously scarred face lit by the fire’s hot flames. She recalled the crowd’s snarling faces, flames flaring all around her, a commotion beyond the pyre, and something else, right at about the time she lost her senses… a horse, galloping through the flames?

The world blurred. He got there just in time to catch the sword as it slipped out of her grasp. Resting the back of her head on the wall, she laughed. There was no amusement to her chuckles, only bitter surrender.

“Don’t you go mad on me,” he said, enfolding her in a warm blanket. “Hang on to your wits, girl.”

Easy for him to say. His life hadn’t been destroyed in three terrible days.

He picked her up from the ground and lay her down gently on the pallet. His words came through muted and distant, but the masculine murmur was pleasant to the ear and calming to her nerves. His lean face occupied the full space of her vision. His mouth was firm, like the expression on his face. His nose was also stern, matching the grimness in his black eyes.

Shame about the scar, which was so deep that it had burned through skin and muscle. It was a dark blotch on the cusp of his chiseled cheekbone, an oddly round patch, intricately roped around the edges where the mangled skin rose above the rest. The seared flesh pulled on the man’s lower eyelid, warping his right eye into a fearsome expression. Her sight was still blurred, but when she squinted, she thought she spotted a tear-shaped outline within the blackened edges.

She shook with fever. Flashes of cold and heat traveled through her bones like caravans of rattling wagons. Her lips were as dry as cracked leather. She knew what she needed; liquids, lots of it, preferably infused with some of her healing herbs. But her arid mouth couldn’t quite make out the words.

The man must have sensed that she was thirsty, or else he had tended to the wounded before, because he braced her carefully against his chest and leaned the rim of a pewter cup against her lips. Lusielle swallowed the lukewarm tea eagerly. It restored moisture to her throat and revived her senses.

The man’s essential scent enveloped her, a fusion of heated metal, worn leather and fresh rain. It also wafted from the blanket and scented the air she breathed. It was strange, but despite the darkness she spied in his eyes, she wasn’t afraid of the scar or the man anymore. She reached out to touch him.

He flinched, but that didn’t stop her.

She ran her fingertips through the dark bristle of his closely cropped hair, allowing her hand to slide down to his clean-shaven cheek, caressing his chin and crossing over to the other side of his face, until her fingers tripped over the scar’s leathery edges.

Had it been a dream? “Did you . . . kiss me?”

“No,” he said harshly, but then the light changed in his eyes. “Aye, I did.”

By the gods, he had kissed her, with tenderness, she remembered, with passion. “Why?”

He frowned. “I—I don’t know.”

What a strange man he was. Perhaps she was hallucinating and he wasn’t real. Perhaps he was her mind’s odd creation. At least he had admitted to kissing her, which was her most recent memory. Or maybe she was making that up too.

She traced the scar on his face. “Were you kissed by the God of fire?”

Surprise flashed in his eyes. “I guess you could say that.”

“But you survived?”

He offered a reluctant nod.

“And yet you dared the fire again? After you knew how bad it burned? To get me out?”

He gave her a curious look, but said nothing.

The world spun violently within those black eyes, but she managed to keep her senses. “What’s your name?”

“I’m Brennus.”

“Brennus.” She mulled over the word. “He who comes with the darkness. In the old tongue. Why did you fetch me from the fire?”

“We’ll talk about that later.”

“Was it an act of kindness?”

A sneer twisted his face. “Hardly.”

“A feat of courage?”

“I was pissing in my saddle.”

“A charitable deed?”

He scoffed. “I gave up on charity a long time ago.”

It was odd. It must be the fever. She was having trouble distinguishing between humor and sarcasm, bitterness and rage. There was nothing soft about his face, no trace of joy or friendliness. Still, she wasn’t afraid of him. She thought perhaps she should be.

“Why did you act as you did, Brennus?”

“Would my reasons make any difference to you?”

The question hung in the air like a promise about to break. She tried to read his eyes and found nothing but blackness in his stare. Her mind was flickering like a sputtering candle. Her thoughts were fading. But she could have sworn he was about to say something when a tall, gaunt man rushed into the cave.

“They’re onto us,” he said. “We’ve got to move.”

Chapter Five

The next few days were lost to Lusielle. Her life was a jumbled sequence of snippets, blurry images breaking up long periods of dense darkness, triggered by a sudden jostle or a twinge of pain, cold, heat or thirst. She spotted glimpses of a gray sky, spitting out rain, and campfires burning deep in the woods. There was more rain, and a face—his face—hovering just beyond reach.

Occasionally, sound trickled into her muffled world from a distant place. The wind rustled through the trees. The horses’ hooves pounded on dirt, gravel, and mud. Men spoke, snorted, muttered and snored. A low, measured voice—his voice—echoed very near, urging her to drink, eat or sleep, accompanied by the pervasive masculine scent that was her constant companion.

There were times when she came to just enough to realize that she existed in the world in-between, where gods and mortals met in dreams, where dreams and reality were one and the same. In those moments, she realized that she survived only because of someone else’s will, that if she wanted a future, she had to wake up and seize it. She kept trying, even though it required great effort, like swimming against a colossal tide.

“This way,” the voice said.

She felt listless as a corpse, but she grabbed on to that voice and followed it to a semblance of consciousness. Fighting her heavy eyelids, she managed to glimpse the man’s stern face, outlined against a background of pewter clouds.

Brennus.

She rode with him on his horse, wrapped in an oiled mantle, mostly protected from the rain. His strong arms kept her from slipping off the massive beast. His armored chest offered a hard but steady pillow. The beat of his heart echoed through the copper plates, strong, vibrant, and enthralling.

He must have realized that she was awake, because his stare swooped down on her like a hawk on the prowl, even though his voice was gentle. “Hush,” he said. “We won’t be too much longer on the road today.”

His eyes were lined with worry and exhaustion. So were the faces of the other men who rode with him. All of them were wet, tired and miserable, picking their way up a steep mountain track as the relentless rain continued to pelt them. That same rain was dripping from Brennus’s face, drenching his hair and trickling down his neck.

“The rain,” she whispered. “It’s making you wet.” She reached out to dry the water from his face, but the wound on her back protested with a pang of pain.

He caught her hand and tucked it back into the blanket. “It’s no use,” he said. “You can’t keep me dry.”

“One can try,” she said.

And he actually smiled.

“Where are we?” she asked.

“South of nowhere and north of wherever,” he said. “Far from the usual routes. We’re seven days out.”

Seven days was an awful long time to be senseless among strangers.

“Don’t worry,” he said. “Riva’s not going to find us.”

She winced when the horse missed a step.

“Hato!” Brennus called.

Why was he barking like that?

There was splashing, the sound of hooves clattering and then, “My lord?”

“We’ve got to stop. The fever’s back and she’s hurting again.”

“No place to stop around here, my lord,” the other man said.

“Send Severo and Cirillo ahead,” he said. “Tell them to find a decent camp and get a fire going. She’s got to rest.”

“My lord,” he said, “we have pressing business. We can’t slow down to accommodate her comfort—”

“Do you want her alive or not?”

The other man sighed. “As you wish, my lord.” He rode away.

She tried to tell him that she was fine, but ended up whimpering instead.

“Shush,” he whispered in her ear. “You need to sleep.”

And by the Thousand Gods, off she went, at his command, into the darkness again, following his heart’s steady rhythm as it sang a lullaby to her heart.

Chapter Six

Lusielle’s eyes opened to reveal yet another unfamiliar setting. She lay on a wide and comfortable bed in a lavishly appointed chamber. She was fairly sure there was a feather mattress beneath the fine linens. Her head was propped on a pile of pillows. The fire’s chatter announced a crackling hearth in the room. Had she died and been reborn to one of the gods halls?

She tried to summon some kind of order out of her jumbled memories. Rain. She recalled the endless drizzle. Gray. It had been the sky’s color for many days. And something else. Him.

She sensed more than saw a presence leaning over her. Her eyes focused on the intricate patterns of finely spun blue silk. Golden ribbons edged the ends of a dangling sleeve. Someone was trying to look at the wounds on her back. The expensive gown rustled when Lusielle stirred, announcing a quick retreat.

A woman with a goddess’s face and a temptress’s body stood above her. Her elegance matched the chamber. The pristine planes of her face served as the perfect background for her exotic blue eyes. Shrewdness sparkled in her stare, but the smile blooming on her face dispelled all traces of fear or caution.

“You’re awake,” the woman said.

Lusielle cleared the cobwebs from her throat. “And you are?”

“I’m Eleanor. You might know me as the Lady of Tolone. You’re in my house.”

Dear Gods. She was in the presence of a ruling highborn. She was in Tolone, one of the Free Territories bordering King Riva’s kingdom on the east side of the river Nerpes. Lusielle had never been out of the kingdom before, but she had heard many rumors about the Free Territories, including stories about Tolone and the fair lady who had come to rule it.

Lusielle took another look at the plush chamber, making out a third person in the room. A tall, dark-haired woman stood behind the lady with a hand poised on her dagger’s hilt. She was either a nicely appointed servant, or, more likely, the lady’s bodyguard. Well, the bodyguard could be well at ease. Lusielle had a hard time pushing herself up on her elbows to sit on the bed. She wasn’t any threat to anybody at the moment.

The Lady of Tolone’s shrewd eyes settled on her face. “You’re not exactly what I was expecting. You look like you’re healing well enough, but you are… well, a little mousy. I suppose that’s to be forgiven, given your circumstances. But on the whole, you’re not bad for a baseborn wench.”

The woman’s condescension was hard to take, but Lusielle was wise enough to let it pass. She was in the lady’s house, in a precarious, maybe even dangerous situation. Better to let the lady think she was slow-witted while she found her footing and figured out her surroundings.

She focused on the facts. “You said you were ‘expecting’ me?”

The woman exchanged a guarded look with her bodyguard. “I suppose we’ve all been expecting you in one way or another—not you, not exactly, but someone like you.”

The woman wasn’t making any sense to Lusielle, but then again, highborn hardly ever did. “Where is he?” she asked.

“Who?”

“The man who brought me here.”

“Oh.” She clasped her hands together. “You mean the Lord Brennus?”

“Is he a highborn also?”

“He might not always look the part, but he certainly is.” She tilted her head to one side and smiled sweetly. “He rode out for a few days. He said something about having some business to attend to. But he’s on his way. My scouts report that he crossed the border and should be back anytime now.”

Lusielle’s impossible situation was looking stranger by the moment. The Lady of Tolone seemed beautiful and nice, and yet warnings were ringing in Lusielle’s mind like fire bells. She didn’t trust the lady. First, she was a highborn. Everyone knew about them. They were rarely truthful and always engaged in intrigue. Second, the lady’s eyes shifted like a flowing river with too many undercurrents, and her gestures were a little too precise and schooled for Lusielle’s taste. Lusielle wagered that the lady could make anybody believe anything.

But if trusting the lady was out of the question, collecting as much information from her was absolutely necessary.

“Why did Lord Brennus bring me here?” Lusielle asked.

“He told me he wanted to give you time to heal.” The lady gestured to the tray of remedies on the night stand. “Believe me, child, in the last few days, I’ve put my best healers on you. A man like the Lord Brennus is always unpredictable. He has only a few friends, but if I had to guess, I’d say he needed a safe haven when he brought you here.”

“A safe haven from what?”

“Aren’t you a curious one?” The lady clasped her hands behind her back and paced to the foot of the bed. “Well, if you must know, the Lord Brennus is a wanted man in the kingdom and has been outlawed in most of the territories.”

“Outlawed?” Lusielle’s voice quavered. “Why?”

“Because—well, you know—this.”

Lusielle looked around. “This?”

“You.”

“Me?”

“Yes, you,” the lady said, betraying a hint of exasperation. “Aren’t you going to ask?”

“Ask what?”

“Why he fetched you in the first place?”

“I’ve been wondering—”

“Oh, that’s easy,” Eleanor said. “It’s because of your birthmark.”

“My birthmark?”

“Well, you must have a mark,” the lady explained. “You see, the noblemen of Uras are trained to chase the Goddess’s mark. They hunt. Baseborn. Females. With the mark.”

How Lusielle managed to repress the sudden need to wretch was a mystery to her, but she did, because now more than ever she was going to need her wits.

“So?” The lady stared at Lusielle expectantly. “Did you understand what I just said?”

“Yes.” Lusielle stomach was heaving to and fro.

“You must be so scared.” Lady Eleanor’s eyes widened with compassion. “But now you know. That’s why the Lord of Laonia is a wanted man in the kingdom. Ask anybody. Ask the servants. Ask Tatyene here.”

The lady’s bodyguard nodded.

Lusielle felt numb all over. “But . . . why?”

“Who knows the minds of wicked men?” the lady said. “It doesn’t matter. A woman mustn’t allow the world of men to destroy her. We’re allies, you and us. We must mind each other.”

The lady motioned to her bodyguard, who fetched and deposited a small pile of clothing at the foot of the bed. Tatyene’s smile might have been soothing if her canines had not been so sharply filed. She spoke in a gently accented voice that managed to suggest and command at the same time.

“You’ll find a proper shift and a decent skirt with a shirt among these,” she said. “You’ll also find wool stockings and a pair of sturdy boots. A traveling wench needs reliable footwear.”

A traveling wench?

Lusielle considered the women carefully. She had just learned a terrible lesson. It was more than fresh in her mind. It was seared into her scalded flesh. These two were deep and twisted, definitively plotting something. She had to proceed with caution.

“Does the lady think I should travel?”

The Lady of Tolone smiled and stepped aside to look out of the lead and colored-glass window, where the rain tapped a torrential beat against the panes. Her bodyguard sat down on the bed and clasped Lusielle’s hands as if they had known each other for years.

“You should listen to your instincts,” Tatyene said. “Freedom is a woman’s only assurance. Should you decide to part ways with the house of Uras, you’ll find the back gate behind the kitchens. Don’t follow the main road. It’ll be an easy hunt if you do. Take the shepherds’ shortcut through the wood. You can pick it up at the road’s bend, after the fenced plots.”

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Chapter 4

The light that carried through the sea into the Serpent’s Eye from outside was fading as the tide rose. Phen cast a spell. A small sphere of light the size of an apple appeared in his open palm then slowly rose and hovered at a point about a foot over his head. He looked around the cavern. Oarly was standing with his feet planted. He was weaving slightly to and fro with the slack bow line of the dinghy held loosely in his hand. Most of his bulbous face was buried in his tangled beard.

“Oarly,” Phen said a little loudly. “Tie the line around that stalagmite and let’s make ready.”

The dwarf jumped at the mention of his name, as if he’d been in a daze, but after a snarl he settled back into his standing stupor. Phen huffed with frustration and then bent down and picked up a loose pebble. He threw it rather hard and it bounced off the side of Oarly’s head. The impact sounded like the thump of a ripe melon. Oarly rubbed the spot absently and sneered at Phen. Three heartbeats later the hairy stump took a step back and yelped loudly. “By Doon, lad,” Oarly rubbed his head briskly now. “What was that for?”

“You’re drunk,” Phen returned. “Now tie off the skiff.”

“I’m not even close to drunk, lad,” Oarly boasted as he finally tied the line. When he stood back up he pulled his axe from his back and puffed his wide chest out. “Now where’s this serpent?”

Phen made an expression of pure terror and pointed beyond Oarly into the darkness. “It’s… It’s right behind you.” His voice was trembling with fear.

Oarly looked at him for a long moment and then let out a huff. “Bah! You’ll not get this dwarf that easily.”

Phen smirked and grabbed a burlap sack out of the boat. Oarly glanced back over his shoulder, just in case.

The natural-formed cave looked much the same as it had the last time they’d been in it. The large, rough chamber had two passages leading up and away from the sea pool that took up nearly half of its rocky bottom.

Phen started down the smaller right-hand tunnel. As soon as he was a dozen paces ahead, Oarly pulled a new flask from his boot and took a deep swig. Phen just laughed at him and carried on. A wave made a loud smacking-sucking sound against the rocks as the tide side seal broke in a wave’s valley. Phen laughed because the sound sent Oarly stumbling quickly to catch up with him.

The narrow tunnel was about a hundred paces deep. Phen knelt at the end of it, looking curiously at the ancient skeleton on the floor. It was that of the elf he called Loak, whose ring and journal had helped Phen track down and destroy the Silver Skull of Zorellin.

He thought about all that had led to his being turned into a statue. Only Claret’s powerful magic had prevented him from remaining an immobile monument for eternity. He and the dragon had more or less saved the day at the battle of O’Dakahn. Phen achieved his goal of becoming a hero like Hyden Hawk and King Mikahl, though he hated passionately the name he’d earned for himself. He hadn’t ever intended to be known to the people of the realm as the Marble Boy. Oarly wouldn’t let him forget the title.

Phen couldn’t wait to get his pigment back. He hoped that Claret’s suspicions about the pool in the Giant Mountains were founded. It was a long and treacherous journey to undertake, and there was no certainty it would help, but it was a risk he was willing to chance. He would do anything to rid himself of the stony skin, and the title Marble Boy, and besides that, he just wanted to be plain old Phen again.

“All right, ease back to where we can see the entry chamber,” he said. “Once the serpent slithers out to feed, I’ll put on the ring and go get the emerald. Then I’ll come back here.” He squeezed past Oarly and started back out of the tunnel. “All you have to do is warn me if the serpent returns.”

“I’ll do more than warn ye, lad,” Oarly bragged drunkenly. “I’ll have that sea snake on the fire when you get back.”

“Aye,” Phen laughed. “Fight the beast, if you want to, just be sure and warn me if it returns.”

Back near where the tunnel opened onto the main chamber, Phen dropped the contents of his sack out onto the floor. A small bundle of dried meat, a wheel of cheese, and a cord of dried wood spilled out of it. Oarly snatched up the rations while Phen used a flaming finger spell to start the dwarf a fire. Once he was done, he extinguished his magical light. Unlike the dwarves who had returned from the underground cities to aid in the recent battles, who could see as well in the dark as they could in the sun, Oarly had been among the dwarves who’d stayed on the surface and lived in Xwarda. Without the fire’s light, or Phen’s orb, he wouldn’t be able to see at all.

With the fire lit, Phen stood at the mouth of the tunnel, waiting for the serpent to leave.

“Here,” Oarly handed Phen a long dagger. “Take this, just in case.”

Phen looked at it. It reminded him of the dagger Hyden Hawk had given him before they went into the blue dragon’s lair. He took the weapon with a nod of thanks. If he hadn’t lost Hyden’s dagger on a zard ship, at least a thousand lives could have been saved. He could have run it through the Dragon Queen’s heart before she let loose all those demons into the world.

He made to slip this new knife into his belt, but realized that his clothes, and his belt, were as stony as he was. There were only two things on his person that he could remove: Loak’s ring, and the medallion that held Claret’s dragon tear, and even they looked made from marble.

A scraping sound drew his attention to the other tunnel.

“What is it that I’m supposed to do?” Oarly asked with a blank expression on his face.

Phen turned and looked at him severely. The dwarf grinned devilishly back at him.

Phen shook his head and went through the motions of sucking in a breath. A green phosphorescent glow was wavering at the mouth of the larger tunnel. Soon, the large viper-like head was hovering above the floor as the thing’s bulk slid out of the opening. The room was filled with the strange green-tinted glow. The head darted instantly toward the mouth of the smaller tunnel, where Phen stood. Only the fact that the opening was smaller than the thing’s skull kept it from snatching Phen up and swallowing him. Its milky, pupil-less eyes narrowed peevishly. A forked tongue shot out and flickered across Phen’s face. Oarly was holding his battle axe’s blade up over his face to keep his eyes from settling on the creature.

Phen felt the tingling of the dragon tear medallion around his neck. He could see it in the reflection of the serpent’s eyes, showering out a fountain of prismatic sparkles. The flickering tongue shot out at the dragon’s tear and tasted the air around it. For a long moment the serpent held its head there, as if it were deciding what to do about the intruders. Then it finally eased back. Phen glimpsed the rows of palm-sized suction cups that ran the length of its undulating body as the triangular head moved away. Only when the thing was over the pool did the serpent take its strange gaze off of Phen. When it did, it slithered right into the water and its glow eased quickly out of the cavern and through the now submerged opening. It had to be a hundred paces long from tip to tail. Phen let out the breath he’d been holding and slipped Loak’s ring onto his finger. Immediately, he faded from sight. He glanced at the dagger in his hand to make sure it had vanished too. It had.

        He turned to see Oarly still hunched behind his axe blade. As quietly as he could, Phen crept over to the dwarf’s side and let out a loud yell. He was rewarded with a new fetid stench. He almost gagged and vomited as he laughed his way across the entry chamber and down the other passage to the serpent’s lair. Behind him, Oarly was cursing and swearing, and trying to regain the wits that had been scared out of him.

***

As Phen walked cautiously down the long, winding tunnel, Oarly braved the water of the main chamber and washed out his britches and small clothes. He’d done the exact same thing last time they were here, only then there had been no fire to dry his things with. He wasted no time wringing the filth out of his garments and hurrying back to the safety of the smaller tunnel. He was glad he’d brought that last flask, for he was shivery and cold. After laying his clothes by the fire, he took a deep swig and sat back with his axe. The stone floor was so cold on his arse, though, that he jumped up. The fire was too small and he was getting cold. After another long pull from the flask, he began hopping and pacing around.

***

Phen was finding the major flaw in his plan as he neared the darkened serpent pit. He couldn’t see. If he cast his magical orb of light, it would hover over his invisible head and throw his shadow. He decided that, up until he snatched the jewel off of its pedestal, it didn’t really matter if he was seen. He was immediately thankful for the light. A few more steps would have carried him tumbling down into the shallow pool that ringed the unnaturally formed chamber. He took in the room and felt a deep sense of awe at the beauty of it. Wicked stalactites hung down from the ceiling, dripping water into the pool full of wiggling two- and three-foot miniature serpents. They were identical, save for size, to the one that had just left.

Phen had a theory on why these little serpents stayed so small and guarded the glittery egg-sized emerald, if in fact that was their purpose at all. The water in the moat probably wasn’t sea water, and there wasn’t any food. They only ate what the larger serpent brought back, so they couldn’t grow. He slipped down from the edge of the opening and felt his heavy feet go into the water. He couldn’t tell the temperature of the liquid due to of the condition of his nerve endings. He cupped a handful of it, though, and brought it to his mouth. Tentatively he touched his tongue to the water. It wasn’t salty, and he decided that he needed to investigate if he could still taste. As he waded across the waist-deep pool to the island of coins and jewels, he studied the metal statues. He didn’t notice, when he was there before, the wide, curving swords at their belts, nor the ruby eyes that seemed to follow him. He looked down and saw that the little serpents were furiously snapping and biting at him. If a normal man attempted this, Phen mused, he wouldn’t make it across before he was stripped to the bone. Some of them were attaching themselves with their suction cups. He would have to have Oarly burn them off. He was certain that if they escaped into the salty sea water they would grow to be as big as the other one, and he didn’t want to be responsible for loosing a bunch of serpents along the coast. There were enough stories already of such beasts attacking ships and wrestling them to the bottom of the sea.

Phen’s feet found the base of the mountain of wealth and he started to climb up it. By the time he was standing amid the skeleton guardians, at least a dozen of the little serpents were clinging to him. He took a few calming breaths and decided that the light didn’t matter anymore. If he could see the serpents clinging to his invisible skin, then so could anything else. He could burn them off with a flaming finger but he’d just pick up more of them on his way back across the moat.

So much for planning, he thought as he shook his head. He tried to force the jittery excitement and fear from his mind. He needed another way to keep the skeletons off of him after he grabbed the jewel. Phen’s confidence always seemed to override his better judgment, but even as he realized this he spoke his next spell, stopping at the last word so that he could loose its effect at the desired moment. Then, without another thought, he grabbed the emerald from the pedestal and gave the nearest skeleton a good shove toward the other two. He stepped back across the moat as quickly as he could. There was no doubt the skeletons were now going to come for him. The one he’d toppled had wriggled and tried to gain its balance on its way over.

The great weight of Phen’s body, and the growing number of serpents sucking onto him, was making his crossing slower than he’d hoped. He could hear the coins and jewels sliding into the water as the iron skeletons took up pursuit. Phen felt like he weighed a ton. He was nearly covered with the eel-like things. The added bulk threatened to drag him down, but he pushed himself onward. Finally, just as he felt the thumping tink of one of those curved sword blades across his hardened shoulders, he made it to the other side. He heaved himself up and back-kicked at the cherry-eyed thing. It went sliding back into the moat.

Phen pushed his way into the tunnel floor. Only two of the skeletons were crossing. The other was trying to get its footing on the loose mound of coins. Phen had hoped to have all three of them in the water, but this would have to do.

As the closest skeleton reached up to pull itself into the tunnel, Phen booted it back. He felt the dragon’s tear medallion at his neck tingle as its power flowed into his spell. He’d expected it, but the amount in which it magnified his casting was surprising. Slowly at first, the moat’s water stilled and clouded as the surface iced over. Within moments it was frozen solid. The eels were trapped in place and the two ice-locked skeletons were thrashing their arms and making silent faces as their eyes burned in anger. The other skeleton started across the ice. It kicked and took two steps, then fell hard as its metal feet lost all traction. Phen dropped to his belly and rolled back and forth across the cavern floor, crushing the dozens of flailing little eels that were stuck to him. Most of them let go, but not all. Without bothering with the last few, he tore off down the tunnel. Oarly and his axe were better suited to deal with the remaining skeleton. The sudden thought came to him that it was still several hours until the tide receded, and that the pool wouldn’t stay frozen that whole time. Phen was trying to think, but when he darted into the narrow passage all thoughts left his brain completely. He couldn’t fathom what he saw.

Oarly was standing naked from the waist down, tipping a flask back while swinging his free arm round and round for balance. After he gulped his sip, he started humming and dancing a jig.

Chapter 5

Borg was correct. The whole city of Dreen decided to celebrate the death of the demon that had stormed through. Since the head was far too large to post on a pike outside the castle, Borg jammed it down onto the castle’s highest flag pole. People all over the city came to see it, and the pure-blooded giant that killed it. During the private feast, which was held in one of the castle’s many stableyards, the number of spectators outside the castle walls began to grow. Borg, holding a full-size loaf of fresh baked bread that looked like a dinner roll in his hand, and a wide-necked floor vase full of ale in the other, announced that later he would recount the doing of the deed for them all.

Servants and castle staff spread the word, and by the time the feast was finished there were thousands of people gathered outside the castle. Luckily, General Escott and his troops were at hand to keep the gathering from getting disorderly. Many people were drunk, or trying to get that way, but most were just curious and happy to be hearing something besides the dire news of post-war horrors.

Mikahl made sure the great wolves were fed. Three does, freshly killed by the Royal Huntsmen, were laid out for them. Mikahl didn’t want to hear Borg’s story; he wanted to read the scroll from Hyden. He took a lantern and the rolled parchment out to where the wolves were. It had been several months since he’d been forced to leave his friend, who’d been deathly ill from hellborn scorpion venom. He’d left Hyden in the depths of the Dragon Queen’s dungeon and had thought him dead for a long time.

The oohs, awes, and gasps from the crowd as Borg strode up to the castle’s palisade and leaned his elbows on it drew his attention. The giant’s warm laugh rumbled through the cool evening air. Mikahl smiled, knowing that the citizens of Dreen were about to be entranced by a wonderful tale. Giants were the very best of storytellers. Mikahl wished the people from Westland could be present too, but most of all he wished King Jarrek’s people could hear.

Already the giant’s voice was building the tale. Never had so many people gathered in the streets been so eerily quiet. Only the panting of Oof and Urp at Mikahl’s side could be heard. He gave them each a pat on the neck then reached down and scratched Huffa behind the ears. Huffa shivered and made a circle. Her toothy maw opened wide into a tongue-curling yawn. The grazing pen they were in was well kept. Mikahl found a workbench under an old gnarled oak and sat down. The great wolves gathered around him, as if he were one of them. Even the wolves he didn’t know seemed to accept him as one of the pack.

Once he was comfortable, he broke the seal on the scroll and looked it over. The writing was neat but far from carefully scribed. It made Mikahl laugh. Hyden had grown up in the mountains, illiterate. He was the best archer in the realm, though, and a self-proclaimed master wizard.

Mikahl took a deep breath and began to read:

High King Mikahl Collum,

Mik, I am alive and well, recovering from the poisonous bite of that thing. I am with my people in the mountains, learning from the goddess and preparing for my destiny. I ask that you keep this quiet. A few others will have to be told, as this missive will explain. I know that I can trust you to carry out my requests directly, and efficiently. I will, as soon as I can, return to the kingdoms and grace you with my presence as payment.

Mikahl laughed at that. He knew Hyden wasn’t egotistical in the least. The man thought he was a jester, though. Mikahl couldn’t help but smile as he read on.

Firstly, the long bow Vaegon gave me is still in the dungeon at Lakeside Castle. Please have it retrieved and given into Phen’s care. As you know, it is priceless to me.

Secondly, Talon has found me and I understand the condition he and Phen share. Please inform Phen that I will accompany him into the Giant Mountains to seek the pool Claret told him of. Have Lord Gregory give him directions to my clan’s village, and ask Master Oarly to come as a personal favor to me. At your choosing, a small escort should be sent with them as there are still several stray demons about, not to mention the other hazards of the mountains. A few capable swords, and an archer or two should do. If Phen can bring the bow at that time, I would be grateful.

Thirdly, and most importantly, you must be made aware of some things. The thing that used to be my brother is still loose in the planes of hell. It has grown into an enormous power and has assumed the role of Abbadon, the Master Warlord of the hells. He will relentlessly try to find a way into our world. He saw you dispatch Shaella. I believe he will seek vengeance for the death of his love. You aren’t in any immediate danger, as there are no open gateways in existence that I know of. The goddess of my people has told me of a device that will allow you and me to banish the Abbadon to a deeper, darker place, where he won’t be able to travel the world of man any longer. This artifact lies beyond the Giant Mountains, and after Phen and Talon have been revived in the Leif Repline fountain, we will seek it out. Please choose the party well – no family men, as some of them will not return.

Xwarda must be guarded at all times. The foundation of the city is pure Wardstone, as you know. If the Abbadon, or any of his minions, managed to manipulate that substance, he could breach the barrier between the worlds permanently. This must never be allowed to happen. Queen Willa and General Spyra must be told of the threat as well. Proper defenses must be manned. It may be tomorrow or it may be a dozen years from now, but my brother, the Abbadon, will come. We must be prepared. Below is a list of scrolls and texts I need Phen and Master Oarly to bring to me.

Finally, I do not know what became of the staff Queen Shaella used to communicate with my brother. She held it in her right hand as you took off her head. You must find it and lock it away in a vault, or have Master Amill, or another qualified wizard, spell it powerless. If there is a force that will help the Abbadon find another gateway, or a flaw in the barrier that exists, the Spectral Orb atop that staff is it.

Now all of that is out of the way, I’m happy for you, and pleased that you somehow managed to save Princess Rosa. Tell the Lion Lord that Tylen sends his regards, as do my mother and father. Sadly, my grandfather passed away. Tell Lord Gregory that my Uncle Condlin has assumed the position of Eldest, and that you and your wife are forever welcome here. He asked me to tell you to make sure that the Summer’s Day Festival is crowded next year. My people depend on the trade there. Even you could’ve gotten your name on the Spire this year.

I must close this missive. Borg is growing impatient, and his stinking sack is offending the womenfolk. Once Phen arrives here, I’ll have him contact Dreen’s mage with a sending. Give my respects to Willa, Jarrek, and the dwarves.

Your friend,

Hyden

Mikahl just stared at the parchment for a long while.

General Spyra was now Lord Spyra. The man was trying to reorganize Westland with the help of Lady Able. Master Wizard Amill had been killed fighting alongside the dwarves at the Battle of O’Dakahn. Hyden Hawk must not have heard.

Borg was well into his second tale. He was now telling the story of how his people once killed a rogue dragon without the aid of magic. Mikahl could hear the giant’s booming voice carrying through the otherwise silent night. At his feet the great wolves had fallen asleep, save for Huffa, who kept a watchful eye over the rest. Through all the dire warnings and talk of magical artifacts, Mikahl’s mind kept coming back to the same strange fact. Neither Phen nor Master Oarly were at the feast earlier. As he thought about it more, he decided that he hadn’t seen either of them for a few days. He began to worry about them. He could only imagine what they were up to.

***

Oarly saw a glowing ball and three little serpents dangling as if they were trying to swim through the air to get at it. He stopped his advance and looked at the flask in his hand, then back at the scene. Phen’s voice startled him so badly that he dropped the container into the fire. When the flames flared from the alcohol he stepped back.

“Oarly,” Phen yelled in a panic. “Get your clothes on. No, forget it, get your axe. There’s a skeleton coming, and two more back at—”

Oarly’s eyes went wide and locked onto something behind what he now realized was the invisible Phen. The boy whirled around and Oarly saw a shiny sword come sinking down at Phen’s chest. It hit Phen with a clank and it appeared that the hardness of the boy’s condition startled the thing wielding it. Suddenly the skeleton went stumbling backward, the result of an invisible fist, Oarly assumed.

Oarly came charging out of the tunnel with a yelp and bounced off of Phen. The half-naked dwarf went careening off at an odd angle with his axe held high. His battle cry faded into a cry of dismay. It looked as if the axe were too heavy for him and he was having to run to stay under it. He righted himself as Phen pulled Loak’s ring off of his finger and became visible again.

***

Phen didn’t know whether to laugh or cringe at the sight of the hairy naked dwarf. The skeleton stepped heavily into a swing of its silvery blade. Oarly met the blow with his axe and cleaved the thing’s sword arm completely from its body. Phen felt the wave of relief wash over him. When the skeleton bent down to try to get the sword with its other hand, he strode up to it and kicked it with a heavy marble boot. The skeleton’s legs crumbled, and it half fell into the pool. For a long time it thrashed about menacingly, but it was obviously no longer a threat.

“Where are your clothes?” Phen asked.

Oarly looked down and realized that he was naked from the waist down. “Bah!” he growled and stalked off toward the narrow passage.

“There are two more of those skeletons back there,” Phen said. “We’d better hurry, before the ice I put them in melts.”

“Aye, lad,” Oarly said. “If ya hadn’t scared me shitless, I wouldn’t be needing to get my clothes back on now, would I?”

Phen took a step back. He didn’t think he’d ever seen Oarly so mad before. He had to fight to hold in his mirth.

“Look,” he said, holding up the egg-sized emerald for the dwarf to see.

Oarly looked at it, gave a nod, then continued his tirade. “We got buckets full of jewels left over from that blasted dragon’s lair. I got scars from getting that treasure. What good is one more jewel, lad? I just don’t understand.”

“This one is magic. You played like you were dying in that lair, Oarly. You made me cry when I thought you’d died.” Phen turned toward the larger tunnel. He could hear the skeletons’ loud, scraping approach. “If I made you shit yer britches a dozen times, we still wouldn’t be even.”

Oarly’s anger vanished. He even barked out a laugh. He knew he’d made the boy cry like a babe. He pulled his boots on and grabbed the flask he’d dropped. Most of it had indeed spilled onto the fire. He still drained the last few drops.

“All right, lad, let’s see what you’ve stirred up, then.”

Together they charged off into the larger cavern. One of the skeletons had pulled itself in two, and the torso was trying to drag itself along the floor by its arms. Seeing that, Oarly gave it a wide berth. Phen took a long stride and planted his heavy foot on its rib cage. The thing rattled and then grew still. Phen leaned down for a closer look at its jeweled eyes. The rubies looked like onyx pebbles now that the power in them had been extinguished.

“You don’t even need me, Marble Boy,” Oarly chuckled. “That blade that slashed across your body didn’t even scratch your robe.”

“Stop calling me Marble Boy,” Phen yelled. He hated that. He hated that he sounded like a little child in a play yard over it, too. “I won’t be Marble Boy for long, Oarly. You can wager on that.”

“Awww, lad, you just don’t know,” the dwarf replied, pointing down at the serpent-covered third skeleton lying still at the bottom of the moat. Somehow the little eel-like creatures had survived the freeze. They wiggled and squirmed through the melting slush as if nothing had happened. “You will be Marble Boy forever.” Oarly laughed heartily and clasped Phen around the waist in a brotherly hug. “As long as you live, you’re doomed to be remembered as the boy made of marble who rode the red dragon and saved us at the Battle of O’Dakahn. Only if you somehow manage to magic yourself into a king, or a god, can you shake such a nickname.”

Just then a loud splash erupted from behind them in the entry cavern. Both of them turned and started quickly back toward it. If it was the serpent then they were possibly trapped between it and all the little ones in the pool. As they ran, Phen gave the emerald to Oarly and fumbled for Loak’s ring. It was hard to get it back off of the medallion chain and onto his finger while holding the dagger. He almost dropped it. Finally he put the dagger between his teeth and slipped on the ring.

The opening of the big tunnel wasn’t blocked off yet, but they could see that the entry cavern was filled with the slithering green glow of the serpent.

“I’ll look,” Phen said.

“Extinguish your light, fool,” Oarly hissed. “It’ll see you, if it hasn’t already.”

“Oh.” Phen had forgotten about the light spell entirely.

Suddenly the place went dark save for the continuously moving glow that radiated off of the serpent. Phen eased down to the big cavern and looked. The serpent was in front of the smaller tunnel, intently flicking its tongue as far as it could reach. Phen felt the jewel on the medallion around his neck begin to tingle and knew instantly that the serpent would sense it.

“Out of the tunnel now, Oarly,” he yelled. “Stay against the wall. We can’t let it trap us inside.”

The great head of the serpent lunged at Phen’s fountaining jewel, its huge, toothy maw opening wide as it came. Phen realized then that being invisible before this sinuous monster did absolutely no good, but by the time the thought finished in his head, he was covered in a cloud of fresh fishy smell, and the serpent’s mouth was closing down over him.

“For Doooon!” he heard Oarly scream, but Phen was yanked off his feet and the world turned into a dark, spinning frenzy.

… Continued…

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Day 1

I dash out the front door, tossing a dozen supermarket roses on the backseat. I gun the Toyota. Claudia’s flight is due in an hour, and I’m ninety minutes from the airport. I stop at the exit 12 rest area for a double espresso, down it like a whiskey shot, and hop back on the highway. Midday traffic is light, and I push the car to its eighty-five-mph limit, backing off when the steering wheel shakes like my washing machine in super-spin mode. I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m always this way when I haven’t seen my wife in months.

The espresso jolts my senses. Hyperalert, I scan side and rearview mirrors. I weave through traffic pretending to be a fighter pilot. The a/c is busted and the windows are down; humid air swirls. I turn on the radio to cut the roar. It’s Mike and the Mad Dog debating the opening day losses of both the Giants and Jets. It makes no difference to me. I’m a diehard Philly fan. Tonight the Eagles make their debut on Monday Night Football in the first regular season game at our new stadium, Lincoln Financial Field.

The George Washington Bridge is clear, as is the turnpike. I zip past the Meadowlands, and twenty minutes later I’m juking through the International Arrivals lounge, dodging and feinting like O. J. Simpson in the old Hertz commercial, back when his claim to fame was as an NFL rusher. I’ve got to hurry because Claudia’s flight landed forty-five minutes ago and I don’t want her waiting.

I burst through the line of limo drivers holding signs with passenger names. I sidestep immigrant families waiting for loved ones. I spin around janitorial crews. I cover the entire arrivals lounge in record time. Claudia must not have cleared customs yet.

My wife is returning from another twelve-week archeological dig, this one in Denmark. The separation is never easy, and her first week back is always awkward. Like quarterbacks and receivers at an offseason minicamp, we need time to rediscover our rhythm, but it rarely takes more than a few days. My brother says most men would kill for a three-month vacation from their wives, and if it was during football season he might be right, but at forty-nine and still single, Jimmy’s hardly an expert.

Friends often ask how I get by without Claudia. Some wonder if I just shut down. Do they really want to hear that I beat off to Cheerleader Sex Addicts III? Still, there’s nothing like the real thing. In our early days, Claudia and I couldn’t keep our hands off each other, but today she’ll shower, eat, and hit the hay, zonked from the flight. At least tonight I’ve got the Eagles game. I’ve been looking forward to it since that devastating NFC Championship loss back on January 19, which incidentally was our eighteenth wedding anniversary. Claudia’s still sore that I went down to Philly for the game, but we were favored. We should have won and gone on to the Super Bowl. How could I have missed that?

In the arrivals lounge, passengers leak out of customs in a slow trickle. Clusters of dark-haired Spanish-speaking people come out, followed by a ragtag collection of Eastern Europeans with suitcases wrapped with duct tape. In the waiting area, kids run around making loud obnoxious noises. Families chat as if they’re at a backyard barbecue. Finally, fair-skinned Nordic types parade down the ramp neatly dressed in casual wear, even the children looking like they’ve stepped out of a Nordstrom’s catalog.

I met Claudia backpacking across Europe in 1982. Most guys brought back photographs and souvenirs, a beer stein or an ashtray. Not me. I was the luckiest man alive coming home with the British-born, twenty-year-old Claudia. She wore a tie-dyed dress and Birkenstock sandals the day we met; now she emerges from customs with a Barbour jacket draped over the handle of her luggage cart, blue eyes peering through Gucci frames, her long chestnut hair tied back in a ponytail. I enjoy seeing her like this from afar, as if noticing her for the first time, falling in love all over again. After her nine-hour flight, men’s heads still turn as she passes.

Claudia takes the left ramp, forcing me to bob and weave through the crowd. “Hey,” I say, touching her lightly on the shoulder. I bend to kiss her but she twists away.

“Don’t you still have that cold?” she says. “I can’t afford to catch anything.”

I know she’s a germ freak, but this is beyond even her obsessive self. She steps aside and I push the cart, squeezing the handle until my knuckles turn white.

Derailed in less than ten seconds, a new record.

A lump settles in my gut as if I’ve swallowed a football. Why, when I try to make things right, do they turn wrong so fast? Do I unconsciously undermine myself? Just like the Eagles? In last year’s championship game, they scored a touchdown in fifty-two seconds, but after that it all went bad. They never scored another, blowing lots of opportunities with unforced errors. What might my next unforced error with Claudia be?

She and I silently walk to the car. I toss her suitcase into the back, feeling like a limo driver.

“Can you turn on the air?” she says, fastening her seat belt. “It’s hot.”

“Still broken.”

She hits the passenger window button hard. She takes a map from the glove compartment and fans herself. I point to the roses in the backseat next to my gym bag. “For you.”

She waves a hand in front of her uptight English nose. “How long have those dirty clothes been in there?”

“A few days.”

We weave through the maze of airport ramps and onto the turnpike. The traffic north is thick and greasy.

“How was the dig?” I ask. “Were those animal bones you found significant?”

Claudia continues to fan her face with that map. “The temperature was far more pleasant there.”

“Actually it wasn’t a bad summer,” I say. “And I made great progress with my book, got a solid draft, start to finish.”

We chug past oil refineries, and the stench hits the car like a tidal wave. “Ugh,” she says as if I’d just farted. She puts the window up and rolls her eyes.

I inch the Toyota forward and reach for Claudia’s hand, hoping physical contact will ease the tension. “We’re always a bit on edge when you come back,” I say. “Was it a rough flight?”

“Actually, it was. I didn’t get much rest because—look, there’s no easy way to say this. I met someone on the dig. I have a job in Wisconsin. I’m leaving Thursday.”

Day 2

I wake up in a fog on the futon in my basement studio. I dimly hear Claudia rustling around upstairs. Is she packing? I pull the covers over my head and shut my eyes tight. I want to restart this morning as if yesterday didn’t happen.

The rest of the ride home from the airport was a blur. Things came back into focus at the house. I carried Claudia’s suitcase to the bedroom. She disappeared into the bathroom. When she came out I was on the bed, head in hands. She touched my shoulder. “It’s for the best,” she said.

I wiped my tears with the back of my hand and looked into her eyes. I saw the same azure sparkle I’d fallen for in Europe all those years ago. I pulled her toward me as I’d done a million times. There were tears in her eyes too.

At first it was like any kiss, warm and soft, our tongues gently touching, almost playful, but hers stiffened. She pushed away. “This isn’t a good idea.”

Part of me wanted to put a fist through the wall, smash a guitar, or throw her out the window, but there was no risk that our household would make the eleven o’clock news. My anger simmered, but I wouldn’t let it boil; a rash act could let her off the hook. I had to answer her betrayal with kindness and understanding. It was the cruelest response I could muster.

Claudia’s big announcement had put a damper on last night’s game.

Still, I kept half an eye on the TV flickering in the corner of my studio. The Tampa Bay Buccaneers were trouncing us in this much-anticipated rematch after January’s NFC Championship upset by these very same

Buccaneers. The Eagles were laying a fat goose egg on national television.

I eyed the joint I’d rolled earlier, sitting unlit in the ashtray. One of our cats, Guinevere, the calico, rested on my chest. Arthur, the black one, was upstairs snug in bed, asleep with Claudia.

The first half of the game came mercifully to an end with Tampa Bay up 10–0. The score should have been worse. Guinevere was still on my chest, our breath moving in tandem, in, out, in, out.

Guin suffers from cardiomyopathy, a hardening of the heart. She was diagnosed at the same time I got laid off five years ago. The vet said she’d be dead by now. She requires pills three times a day, but with me at home working on a novel, it’s not a burden. Perhaps my love for her has slowed the hardening. If only she could return the favor.

In the third quarter, the Eagles still looked like a high school team. It was embarrassing after that last beating by these guys, but it was something Eagle fans expected—bearing the cross of failure was part of the job.

Claudia could never understand why I stuck with them. “I don’t know anything about your American football,” she said shortly after we were married, “but I do know they will lose. Why don’t you support the Niners?”

At the time we were living in San Francisco. Montana had already won two of his four Super Bowls. It was a reasonable question, given that all our friends were SF fans. I explained that it wasn’t that easy. I’d followed Philly for over three decades. She laughed and said something that resonates today. “I guess you’re destined for heartache.”

The Eagles haven’t won a Super Bowl, but I remain hopeful.

I should have shut the game off, but I watched to the bitter end. Tampa won 17–0. I caught the postgame interviews and the subsequent recap on ESPN’s SportsCenter. Another cycle of football news rolled by, and I forced myself to witness every replay. Then it was on to celebrity poker. I know Gens X and Y love the cards, but I can’t think of anything more boring on television besides bowling, yet there I was at four a.m. watching B-list TV stars playing Texas Hold’em as if they were the Eagles in the Super Bowl.

September 8, 2003: a day that will live in infamy.

Day 4

Claudia used to complain that there wasn’t enough space in our bathroom with only one sink, the vanity crammed with her bottles, lotions, and whatnots. I rifle through the drawers. All that’s left is a single tampon. But her smell lingers—the eucalyptus shampoo, the jasmine facial cleanser, her aloe vera skin cream. These scents have embedded themselves in the tile the way smoke settles into fabric; no amount of scrubbing or disinfectant will remove them.

I join the cats in the kitchen. Guin is on the countertop licking her paws. Arthur prances back and forth by the water bowl, meowing. I crack open a can of organic cat food. Four furry ears perk up. If only Claudia and I could have lived in the moment the way they do. Look at Guin, she’s not worried about her heart. I chug the remaining half a pot of coffee, ignoring the bitter taste of the brew I made three hours ago, the last pot Claudia and I would ever share.

I’ve spent my first hours as a separated man cleaning the house. I’ve swept the porch, trimmed the hedges, and raked the leaves. These chores cleared my mind, cleansed the wound of betrayal, but each time somebody drove by, I glanced up hoping to see Claudia’s green Mazda 626. I’m back in the house now, vacuuming the living room, an eye still on passing cars.

A Ford Taurus pulls into the crescent driveway. A bearded man in a baggy dark suit exits the vehicle. Admittedly, I’m a paranoid wreck, but anyone can see that this is a man carrying a summons. Claudia’s lawyer is having me arrested. I’ve got to run, gather the cats and head north for the border. I ricochet around the house, ending up back in the living room. I gape through the bay window. The bounty hunter is now halfway up the drive, his walk slow and confident, his black wingtips shining. I kneel down behind the window shade. With a better angle I realize this is no representative of the law, it’s Simon Godfrey, the rabbi I met at an open mic last month. My heart slows. Simon hired me to help him make a CD. I forgot he was stopping by. The suit threw me. I open the front door, much relieved.

“Shalom, my friend. I’m on the way to synagogue.” He loosens the knot of his red-striped tie. “I promised to drop off these CDs.” He hands me a plastic bag filled with his favorites. “Listen to this first,” he says, pulling out a Rebecca Levy CD. “She’s the daughter of the famous Rabbi Mordecai Levy, you must know him.”

I know little about contemporary Jewish music, but I smile as if I do. Rebecca’s wearing a low-cut evening dress, her long blond hair cascading across her left shoulder. She looks more like a Victoria’s Secret model than the offspring of a religious luminary.

“She’s hot,” Simon says. “Yes?”

I don’t know what to say. Is this a values test? My hesitation betrays me.

He slaps me on the back. “We’re not Catholics, for chrissakes.”

“Right,” I say, still feeling awkward in the way I felt when my father gave me the birds-and-bees talk. Simon’s clearly not your typical rabbi, but I’m in no mood for jocular humor. I’m in mourning, sitting shiva, as the Jews do when someone dies. Good thing Simon has to be elsewhere. Before he leaves he asks if we’re still on for next week. “Sure,” I say, but I can’t see past the next five seconds, let alone the next few days.

Back in the house, I set the CDs aside and unload the dishwasher. The cats join me in the kitchen, eyes wide, meowing. Their bowls are empty. I can’t remember if I’ve fed them. I open a can and dole out half to each. They eat as if they haven’t seen food in a week.

There’s another knock at the door. This must be Claudia. I rush to answer it, but it’s Siobhan, my Irish neighbor, holding a covered dish that smells heavenly. “Strawberry-rhubarb,” she says with her emerald accent.

Last night, Claudia went over to say good-bye at my insistence. Siobhan and Paddy moved here five years ago. He works for an Irish bank and does something with derivatives. They were one of the few couples we’d socialized with, and I was hoping that seeing them might bring her to her senses. When she returned, she said nothing. I was dying to know what happened, but now it doesn’t matter, I just want to sulk in solitude. Still, the pie does smell delicious.

“That wasn’t necessary,” I say, feeling obligated to invite Siobhan in.

On this warm, muggy day, Siobhan stares at me through bookish glasses, wearing a frumpy sweater, a long skirt, and stockings. She’s pale, like Irish cream, and sprinkled with freckles. I offer to make fresh coffee. She insists that I sit and serves me a slice. The pie has a glazed, crusty, homemade shell. The filling is sweet and tart.

“This is fabulous,” I say. “Claudia never baked.”

“The English rarely do.”

I swallow another mouthful and feel more in the mood for company. “Tell me everything.”

Sitting beside me, Siobhan whispers as if Claudia is still upstairs. “I couldn’t credit the nonsense coming out of her mouth. She told me that you’ll never finish the book, that you made a mistake leaving the business world. She said she couldn’t wait to get out of here.” Siobhan removes those thick-rimmed glasses to rub a few tears from her freckled cheek. “I told her she was mad.”

I grab a Kleenex from the box by the sink and hand it to her. She sniffles. “I came to console you.”

I force a smile. “What made Claudia lose faith in me?”

Siobhan pats my arm; the warmth of her touch is comforting. “Have you filed for divorce?”

I look at my brown boat shoes. The frayed leather laces need replacing. “Yesterday. Claudia’s being fair, I’m keeping the house.”

“You must be relieved.”

“Well, my lawyer says I’m lucky, but I can’t say or do anything that might upset her until the judge approves it. Can you imagine? I have to be nice while she’s off with him. Bartholomew. What the hell kind of name is that?”

“It’s all terribly unfair,” Siobhan says. “Here, have more pie.”

It’s a hot, sticky September afternoon. The sky is low and purple, like a fresh bruise. I sit in one of our Adirondacks, staring like a zombie into the backyard. We got a great deal on these chairs in Lake Placid two years ago. We’d gone camping over the Labor Day weekend and picked them up on the way back. Now the damn armrests have splinters.

The cats are chasing birds and voles in the yard. The trees are still mostly green, only the chestnut by the pond is bare. I shut tired eyes and drift away.

Someone is shaking my arm. I must have dozed off. It’s the first real sleep I’ve had since the big announcement.

“Mommy wants to know if you’ll come to dinner,” says Erin, Siobhan’s seven-year-old.

“Sure,” I say, wondering how long I’ve been out.

Erin drags me from the chair, her ginger braids swaying. “Come on, sleepyhead.” She leads me past the azalea bushes and into their garden. “I never liked Claudia.”

“Oh,” I say, surprised that she knows. “Well, she wasn’t used to kids.” Erin shrugs. “What’s there to get used to?”

We go up the back steps and into the kitchen. Two columns of steam rise from the stovetop. The air is heavy with garlic chicken. Declan, the five-year-old, sits in a booster chair at the dining room table. “Hi, Chucky Cheese,” he says, laughing, his Ninja Turtle T-shirt already splattered.

Paddy is working late. Siobhan sits me at the head of the table next to Erin, Declan to my left. “Wine?” she asks, pouring red into a glass.

The kids devour french fries and poke at the chicken and peas. I joke around. We laugh. We talk about the Scooby Doo movie they just saw.

After supper, Erin does homework in her room. Declan sits in Siobhan’s lap, sucking his thumb. “You’d make a fine dad,” she says.

“Really?” I sip my wine. “Not sure why we didn’t have kids. Guess it doesn’t matter now.”

“Funny,” Siobhan says. “I was a lot like Claudia, not interested, and then I got pregnant, and now I wouldn’t change things for the world.”

This was news to me, Claudia not wanting children. Whenever we discussed it, though it hadn’t been often, she’d never dismissed it, and yet she’d told Siobhan she didn’t want kids.

“Do you have a therapist?” Siobhan asks.

I swirl the wine in my glass. “Why? Do you think I’m crazy?”

“It couldn’t hurt to talk to someone who can provide objectivity and guidance.”

Siobhan pours more wine. Declan yawns, revealing a missing front tooth.

“Paddy and I saw someone this summer,” she says. “I was tired of him working late. It was as if he were looking for reasons not to be home. He promises things will change.”

I squirm, wondering why she’s telling me this. Is it because she has a front-row seat to the most humiliating experience of my life? Or is it because her marriage is headed for disaster and she sees possibility now that I’m available? A weight settles in my gut. It never crossed my mind, me and Siobhan, but now that I’m single, I guess I’ll have to pay attention.

Declan pouts. “I’m hungry.”

“You just ate,” she says, plunking him back in his booster seat. She goes into the kitchen and returns with a mini ice cream for her boy and the number of that therapist for me.

Back home, slightly buzzed, I head downstairs to my office in hopes that Claudia has sent an email: nothing. On the wall is a picture of us on our Hawaiian honeymoon. We’re standing on the beach at the end of the Na Pali coast’s Kalalau trail. We’d just completed the twelve-mile, two-day hike. I’m looking at youthful faces shining with belief that together anything is possible. There’s no hint of the huge fight we had about pushing back our honeymoon a day. It was just one day. What was the big deal? We eloped Saturday in Reno, I caught the Super Bowl on Sunday in Palo Alto, we left for Hawaii on Monday. But it was a big deal for Claudia. If I could have scored a second ticket, I would have.

I take that Hawaiian picture down and shove it in a drawer.

Siobhan is right, I probably do need help. We’ve lived next door for years, and tonight was the first time the thought of screwing her came to mind. Is this how it will be from now on? A woman speaks to me and I’m gonna think, Does she want to fuck?

Well, I might be in desperate need of assistance, but so might Claudia. She could be anywhere at this very moment. What if she’s in trouble, then what? I grab the phone and punch in the first three numbers of her cell, then hang up. Someone needs to make sure she’s okay, but that someone’s not me. I’d like to think that it’s my last shred of dignity that keeps me from calling, but really it’s the fear that she’ll say, If I was in trouble I’d call Bart, you idiot.

Day 5

Guin paws my face and I wake. Arthur is still asleep on Claudia’s side, his furry black head resting on her pillow. For a moment it’s as it has always been, my wife is simply overseas, but that feeling fades fast.

I trudge downstairs. It reeks of cat. I can’t remember when I emptied the litter box last. It’s a warmish day and I open the windows. I fill their bowls with dry food. At least I don’t have to go to work. I used to scout bands for Stella Records. My claim to fame was discovering Primo, and in some circles that’s still considered cool. It would’ve been cooler if Pyre Mint, the lead singer, hadn’t died shooting up in the bathroom of a Concorde after their album went gold. Those in the know said Primo would’ve been as big as Nirvana, but there was no followup after Pyre’s death, and the demos that did exist got tied up in lawsuits. When the label was sold, I lost my job and started writing a novel about my grandfather’s escape from Russia. I’m too old now to crawl around bars looking for bands; MySpace, the latest music craze, for me is anything but.

During this five-year post-Stella period, my wife and I were either together or apart 24/7, and that’s like a car balls-out on the highway for half the year, in the garage the other half. It’s no way to treat an engine, and it wasn’t ideal for a marriage either.

Thank God I don’t have to deliver a divorce update to an office full of colleagues, but there are family and friends to inform. It’s the last thing I want to do, but at some point I must notify this inner circle. Perhaps I can put something on the answering machine.

Hi, you’ve reached the former home of Claudia and Chuck. She moved to Wisconsin with some asshole she met on a dig, but I’m still here, so if you want to leave a message, speak after the beep.

Or I could pretend nothing happened. Odds are I’d make Christmas. Then I could put a brief note in the Xmas cards.

Dear Friends,

Hope you had a great year. Mine was shit. Claudia moved to Wisconsin with some archeologist, but I’m still in Connecticut depressed and incoherent. I don’t have their address, so don’t ask.

I eat a bowl of cornflakes and down a cup of coffee. I’m in no hurry to tell friends, but I’ve got to call Mom. We speak once a week and I’m several days overdue. I pour another coffee and spike it with whiskey. I bring the mug and the wireless phone out to the deck. I dial Florida.

“The new condo is wonderful,” Mom says. “You should see the view of the golf course. We’re by the lake. It’s spectacular.”

“That’s great, Ma.”

“Marty said he’d put new bookshelves in the den, but he’s not like he used to be. He doesn’t realize that once you turn seventy-five—well,

it’s no good to get old, Charles, no good at all.”

“I’ll try to remember. Ma, look —”

“Have you heard from your brother?”

“No.”

“Progress on the book?”

“I’m still writing—”

“Nothing from your brother?”

Jimmy’s been her favorite since divorce number one back in 1970; nothing to date has changed that. It doesn’t help that I look more like my father—apparently it’s the teddy bear eyes. I was ten when Dad took off with that hippie chick. Jimmy picked up the slack while Mom worked. He cooked, cleaned, did laundry and odd jobs. I was too young to be of much help, and on top of that, Jimmy always got good grades, excelling all through high school while I collected Cs and smoked pot.

Dad reappeared twelve months later claiming he’d been abducted by a cult. He said someone had spiked his cocktail with LSD and he’d temporarily lost his mind. Mom wasn’t that dumb.

This week I’m feeling as if someone had spiked my Kool-Aid.

“No, I haven’t spoken to Jimmy in ages. Look, Ma—”

“It’s been over a month since he called,” she interrupts. “Mr. Real Estate in Dallas is too busy for his own mother.”

“Ma, Claudia got a job. She’s moving to Wisconsin with some guy.

We’re splitting up.”

“Oh my.”

I hear a match strike, an inhale, and another. “I thought you quit.”

“I’m starting again.”

“You’re blaming me?”

“Of course not, Charles. Are you okay? I can be on the next flight.”

Her voice grows muffled. “Marty, get the pink suitcase out of storage.”

“Mom, please, don’t.”

“I’m sure there’s a flight leaving tonight.”

“I don’t want you to come.”

“At times like this family sticks together.” “I’m fine, really.”

She takes a long drag off that cigarette. “How about flying down? There’s plenty of room. Marty’s got new clubs. There’s an extra set. You two could play.”

Marty is husband number three. They met on a Jewish singles cruise two years ago, got married six months later.

“Mom, I want to be alone.”

“So you’re Greta Garbo now? Do you have a lawyer?

I’m not about to admit that I hired a guy from my gym, Richard Krupp, who shares a receptionist, conference room, fax, and copier with three other lawyers in downtown Putnam’s Landing. That’s so like your father, Mom would say, choosing some shmuck from the weight room rather than hiring the best guy in the county.

“We’ve negotiated a settlement,” I tell her, “but it’ll take time to finalize. Claudia’s being reasonable because I put her through all those years of graduate school. I’m keeping the house, she’s getting her car, insurance, and a hundred and fifty grand.”

Mom takes another drag. “You have that much cash?”

“I’m happy to sell stock so that I don’t have to move, even though the market hasn’t recovered. The house took a hit too.”

“Okay,” she says, “but be careful. She’s never worked a day in her life. I hope this guy she’s found has money.”

I’m usually okay with Mom speaking her mind, but today I’ve got no time for honesty. “Let’s not go there.”

“Say you’ll come for the holidays. Promise? It will be nice. If you hear from your brother, tell him to call.”

Over the years Jimmy and I grew further apart, speaking only on birthdays and major holidays. We have little in common except football. As kids we were Eagle fans, and before Dad left, the three of us watched a lot of games. We were both too young to remember the Eagle championship of 1960, but Dad waxed poetic about that team, Chuck Bednarik in particular, one of the toughest guys of his day, and the last of the NFL’s sixty-minute men, playing both offense and defense. After Bednarik retired, Dad sold him a color television, and in ’71 Dad bought a Thunderbird at a Ford dealership on Route 38 where Bednarik was making an appearance. The great man actually remembered Dad, and I’ve still got a picture of us with him and that car on the wall in my studio, next to the shot of me and Bruce Springsteen backstage circa ’92.

Jimmy moved to Texas in the late seventies and switched his allegiance to the Dallas Cowboys, the archenemy. The bastard now has fifty-yard-line seats at Texas Stadium. He and Dad didn’t speak much after that, and I’m sure Jimmy’s defection to the Cowboys had something to do with it.

Jimmy hit forty without a significant relationship. I suspected he was gay. He loved Italian designer suits and casual Ralph Lauren on the weekends. He talked about women like he was trying too hard, slipping pussy into conversation where it wasn’t needed, but on the two occasions I did visit Dallas, I couldn’t miss the babes clinging to him like the gold chains draped about his salon-tanned neck.

My brother was sure that when Claudia went on a dig I had women on the side. I told him I’d been faithful, and that was the truth. “It’s all right,” he’d say, like a priest offering absolution. Jimmy thought I was bullshitting, which would have been okay in his book, but if he’d known the truth, he would have told me to get my head examined.

I’m no saint, but I am loyal. Yes, there were temptations, especially these past years when Claudia just wasn’t interested. I had thoughts, but I never acted on them. And yet now I’m feeling like a fool. Perhaps Gandhi felt this way as he was mowed down by his assassin, although from what I know about Gandhi, he was probably forgiving that asshole as the last ounce of life drained from his body. I’m certainly not enlightened enough to forgive Claudia. In fact, looking back, it breaks my heart to think about all that lost opportunity, the women who came on to me when I was at Stella. It’s easy now to wonder what on earth I was thinking or how I could have loved Claudia that much, but that’s just asking for trouble.

The phone rings. I don’t feel like talking, but the receiver sits on the armrest and the caller ID winks at me like my last secretary often did. The caller is my brother.

“Fucking bitch,” he says. “My baby bro, the one honest man on the entire frickin planet, and his old lady cuts off his balls. It just goes to prove what I’ve been saying all these years, there’s no pussy worth making a commitment for. Don’t worry, my man, there’s plenty of other poontang in the sea.” “It’s okay,” I say.

“Bro, I just wrapped up a deal. I’m on the next flight, already have my ticket. I’ll grab a car at the airport, be there by seven. I’m gonna fix us up with something mighty fine, promise.”

“Jimmy, don’t.” But it’s too late, he’s hung up.

Day 6

Jimmy called around six o’clock last night to say that the deal he’d been working went south. He promised to come in a few days once things got sorted. I told him not to bother, greatly relieved. He protested, but I know him well. Odds are I won’t hear from him for weeks.

Saturday morning I wake with the cats, sun streaming through the bedroom skylight we installed our second year here. That inaugural evening Claudia and I had a picnic in bed, looking up at the stars like teenagers. On this warm September morning, light filters through blistered Plexiglas, aged from years of sun, rain, and ice.

I get out of bed and throw on jeans and a brown T-shirt, both purchased at an outlet center on the way home from last year’s Vermont vacation. Claudia insisted on choosing my clothing. She had a great sense of style, color, and fit. She upgraded me from Levi’s to Diesel jeans and made me throw out my grunge flannel. She wasn’t girly in the sense of wearing lots of makeup, getting her hair done, or needing a weekly pedicure—she was a natural beauty and required little touch-up—but she did enjoy browsing Cosmo and other fashion magazines in line at the supermarket.

After feeding Art and Guin, I brew coffee with the espresso maker my mother-in-law gave us. I drink from a mug we bought at the 1999 Putnam’s Landing Arts and Crafts Festival. After a third coffee refill, I realize I’m surrounded by Claudia memories. A photograph of the Grand Canyon hangs over the sink, from a trip we took in ’88. Even the cordless phone is smothered in Claudia: the first three speed-dial numbers are her mother, her brother, and her best friend, Jill.

I touch the phone and recoil as if stung by a wasp. I stagger dizzily. The walls and ceiling close in on me like I’m in a scene in a James Bond film. I hear Claudia’s voice on the television—she’s laughing evilly. Steel daggers shoot out of the approaching walls. The air is sucked from the room. I grab my throat, gasping for breath, and everything goes dark.

I wake covered in sweat. I open my eyes and the kitchen is as it should be. On the TV an ESPN reporter in an expensive suit talks football. My shirt clings to my chest, soaked in sweat. There’s a small bump on my forehead. A sour taste lingers in my mouth. What the hell?

I get up and wipe my brow. I grab the phone and delete those three speed-dial numbers. I yank the little card with Claudia’s handwritten notations off the receiver. I rip the photo off the wall and shove it in a drawer. My head throbs. I pop three aspirin. I’ve got to get out of this house.

I hop in the car and fire up the engine with no idea where I’m headed. Nowhere, apparently, because the driveway is blocked by a massive yellow bulldozer. My neighbor David DePolis tore down his house last year, and it’s been a construction nightmare ever since. A new McMansion now occupies what was once a pleasant wooded acre. I’ve suffered through a barrage of jackhammers, saber-tooth saws, and cement mixers. The end is still nowhere in sight. I drum my fingers on the dashboard, knowing better than to confront a man wearing a fully loaded tool belt. I search under the seat for a CD and come across Sheryl Crow’s Tuesday Night Music Club, not my favorite, but one of Claudia’s top ten. Now I’m crying.

Finally the driveway is free and I’m off.

We moved from the city to Putnam’s Landing eleven years ago because Claudia wanted to get her Ph.D. from Yale in New Haven. I was at Stella then, and though I had mixed feelings about leaving Manhattan, I leveraged the commute by listening to prospective bands on my Walkman, discovering Primo on one such day.

Over the years, I’ve lost my city legs. I prefer beaches, blue sky, and deer in the backyard to city parks, pigeons, and traffic. Besides, Putnam’s Landing had a lot going for it when we moved here in ’92.The town had a rich cultural tradition dating back to 1920, when F. Scott Fitzgerald spent a drunken summer here with Zelda. Main Street attracted lots of visitors because of its classic New England feel and unique merchants, its two bookstores and a funky soup place well worth the wait, but chain stores soon sprouted like weeds, and today the street is little more than an outdoor mall with cobblestone sidewalks.

The neighborhoods changed too. The DePolis project is just a part of a teardown movement aimed at obliterating the taste and character of the community, but our house at 17 Turnstile Lane still stands. It’s a cape dating back to the thirties, with a cozy entrance, a brick fireplace, and a Jacuzzi on a redwood deck off the kitchen. There are no fourstory atriums or expensive chandeliers; the kitchen doesn’t have the latest stainless-steel Viking appliances or granite counters. Anyone who might buy our house would knock it down, but it’s home, and I still love it, Claudia or no Claudia.

It’s only a few minutes to the interstate. I roll down the windows, and the freedom of the open road licks my face with wet, sticky air. Claudia and I took many road trips, including several cross-country excursions. We’d share the driving, the passenger navigating, providing snacks and beverages and the occasional neck massage too. Those days are over.

Somehow the wide-open road leads me to the house of my good friend Jake Gamache, a music professor at Fairfield University. He lives in Black Rock, a gentrifying area of Bridgeport. He bought a Victorian only a few blocks from Long Island Sound, for a lot less than something comparable in PL.

His wife Beth, a fourth-grade teacher, is on her knees in the front yard, garden shears in hand, trimming a patch of bright orange mums. “Howdy,” she says, slipping off her gloves. Beth’s a beauty, and if she lost thirty pounds she’d be TV-presenter material, even in HD. She’s also one of the friendliest people I know. Maybe it’s because she wasn’t born in Fairfield County, known for its wealth, prep schools, and country clubs.

“Don’t get up,” I say. “Is Jake around?”

“Still at school. How are things?”

I provide the Reader’s Digest Condensed version.

“My God,” she says. “Let me get you something to drink. Coffee?

Tea? How about something stronger?”

“Do you have a sledgehammer?”

The Gamaches’ two Dalmatians, Treble and Bass, gallop toward me. They’re big dogs. I hug them and they slobber all over my face. Beth herds them into the backyard.

The kitchen is cozy. She sits me at the table with the checkered plastic cloth. She offers whiskey and I splash a shot in a cup of coffee.

“Tell me everything,” she says. “Absolutely everything.”

I do until I start crying. I wipe sweat from my forehead, feeling beady-eyed and incoherent. “Do I look like a man who’s just slammed into a brick wall? Tell me, please.”

“Considering what you’ve been through, you look fine. But what happened to your forehead? You’ve got a bruise.”

I’d forgotten about my morning panic attack. The aspirin blunted the pain, and I had no idea there was physical evidence. “I accidentally hit my head in the basement,” I say. “I didn’t realize I’d hit it that hard.”

Beth goes to the freezer, puts ice in a plastic bag, and returns to apply the pack to my head. The cold feels good, but I’m struck by the oddest of sensations with Beth this close. Her perfume has hints of vanilla. Her breath warms my skin. I’ve always thought her attractive despite the extra pounds, but I’ve never had these sorts of feelings for a friend’s wife.

My thoughts scare me. They repulse me. They excite me too.

I stand up. “I better be going.”

“Are you sure you don’t want to stay for dinner? Jake will be home soon.”

“Nah,” I say. “The cats need feeding.”

Beth steps up on her tippy toes, wipes my forehead with a cloth, and gives me a hug. “You come over anytime, okay? We’ve got the guest room if you want to sleep here.”

Day 7

I wake Sunday to Guin licking my face. Her tongue is prickly, like sandpaper. She’s purring, hungry. Arthur’s affectionate too, but not so much as in winter, when he’s cold. I love these guys and so did Claudia. Maybe getting them eight years ago was our substitute for children. We both understood that cats were roughly a fifteen-year commitment. I was at Stella, and Claudia nursed them through kittenhood. Sometimes she’d call in the middle of the day, excited over something only a proud parent would care about. Once it was simply that cute little Arthur had crawled into her fleece pocket. Claudia was in Turkey when the vet discovered Guin’s heart murmur. I called with the news and we cried for almost an hour at the international AT&T dialing rate.

It would be easy to say that Claudia was incapable of love, that she used me to get a green card and finance her education. That may be true, but I have no doubt she loved Arty and Guin. How she could walk out on them is beyond comprehension.

Lying here beneath the covers, I suddenly feel violated, emotionally raped. It must be this king-sized mattress. It has absorbed everything that passed between Claudia and me: the sex we had, the fights we had, the sex we didn’t have too. All these memories shoot through my veins in a blood-red collage. I have to get rid of this fucking bed.

I devise the perfect plan. The Eagles take the field this afternoon for redemption after that Monday night debacle. I need them to redeem themselves to soften the blow of my wife’s betrayal. In honor of today’s game I will tailgate with a bonfire fueled by this classic Chamberlain bed, one hundred percent Vermont cherrywood, which cost me over two grand.

I disassemble the bed and drag it down the stairs into the backyard. The mattress and box spring go to the curb for trash pickup. Good riddance, sheets and all.

Dressed in Eagle green, I light a match. The bed burns hot and fast. I dance around the fire. To get Arthur and Guin in the mood, I toss a little catnip on their scratching post. I smoke a joint, I drink Irish coffee. I hope the Eagles are more clear-headed than I am at game time. I need this diversion, the thrill of seeing the Eagles pound a quality outfit like the AFC powerhouse New England Patriots, but the game quickly turns. Thank God the fire went out before I got too blitzed.

It’s difficult to imagine, but the Eagles look worse than last week. So do I.

I wake the next day with a serious hankering for Claudia and my bed—this goddamn sofa futon is nothing but lumps. I smell lavender, her shampoo, and it reminds me of the silky feel of her wet hair after a shower. Part of me believes she’ll be back any minute; the rest of me knows better.

I walk into the kitchen and turn on the small TV by the microwave. When Claudia was here, she tuned the set to the History or Discovery channel, but now it flickers on to SportsCenter. One of the ESPN anchors is talking about the Eagles. Rush Limbaugh says our quarterback, Donovan McNabb, is overrated because he’s African American. Limbaugh claims no NFL team can win with a black quarterback. According to the report, Philly fans aren’t happy with McNabb either, but nobody is stupid enough to go where Limbaugh has gone. I’m sure McNabb is disgusted at his performance too. The team’s off to a horrendous start, but he’s a professional, it’s his job to deal with pressure. My guess is, Donovan isn’t looking to the critics or fans to give him a hand, but I’m sure a few kind words from those who once heralded him as their hero would be welcomed. I too would appreciate a call or note from the one person who once thought of me as her shining knight.

    From:    writerchuck@earthlink.com

To:    Guinevere7@aol.com Subject:     Scorched

Dear Claudia,

I’ve wandered aimlessly since you left. It’s like a desert here. Burned by a blazing sun, I’m dying of thirst, incapacitated. There’s still time to breathe new life into what we had, but we’ve got to slow down this divorce, take the emotion out of our actions. It must happen soon or it’ll be out of our hands.   I should’ve insisted that you stick around one more week. We could have talked more, seen a counselor, perhaps gone to Vermont or even Venice, if that’s what it took to remember what held us together all these years.

I know things haven’t been perfect, but even last week there were moments, like when we went to the movies. I’m sure I can do better and I accept responsibility for everything. Please, Claudia, give this one more chance. Don’t we owe it to ‘us’ to make sure?

Love,

Chuck

It took me three hours to compose this drivel. I sit at the computer now debating whether to send it. An emotional appeal won’t penetrate Claudia’s reserved British upbringing or relax that stiff upper lip. She’s unflappable. She doesn’t care that our marriage has faded like an old Polaroid. I stare at the screen and realize there’s no point in trying. I hit Delete.

The Limbaugh/McNabb story balloons over the next few days into national headlines. Rush looks like a moron. This should boost McNabb’s confidence, make him want to prove Rush wrong. I should get back to rewriting my novel too, prove Claudia wrong, but I can’t. I wish I could say it’s because of the rage, that I’m still on the edge, frazzled, freaked, and teary-eyed, but I’m none of these things at the moment. If only I could explode, binge-drink, or make an ass out of myself. This is the one time I could get away with almost anything. I hold a Get Out of Jail Free card, but I have no courage to be bad, bold, or naughty. All I do is compose feeble letters to my wife.

    From:    writerchuck@earthlink.com

To:    Guinevere7@aol.com Subject:     Dying Days Near

Dear Claudia,

Remember that time we camped in Denali National Park? We were seventy miles from the nearest town, on the tundra with only what we could carry on our backs. Wolves howled through the night. Grizzlies lurked. It dipped below freezing and we zipped our sleeping bags together for warmth. After we made love you told me this was as good as it gets. We even talked of retiring six months in Alaska, six months in Hawaii, and we still could. I can only imagine you’ve walked out because you think I’ve done something so horrible that you cannot give voice to it. Please talk to me. Give me a chance to defend myself.

I reread this email ten times. Inside my head it’s clear what needs saying, but when I try to write it, the words collide in a jumbled mess.

I hit Delete and head to the kitchen for whiskey and weed.

Days 11–15

I’ve been a member of the Fairfield Gym for over ten years. When I was at Stella, it was difficult to get here during the week, but since I started writing, I go often. Mostly I play squash, a sport I’d never heard of until I met Claudia. Her dad played. When we moved to PL, the gym had squash courts and I took lessons. Whacking a small ball around an indoor shoe box is great fun.

As a kid I played the typical sports and was decent at them, but once things got bumpy with my parents, I found more comfort in music. Late at night I dreamt of being a Monkee or a member of the Partridge Family. I listened to Dr. Don Rose, a deejay on WFIL, Philly’s number-one Top 40 station, but it was Iron Butterfly, the Beatles, and the Stones that got me to pick up a guitar. When Dad disappeared, I found solace in Neil Young’s album Everybody Knows This Is Nowhere. By the time my folks got officially divorced, I was heavy into Ed Sciaky on WMMR, 93.3 on the FM dial. Most kids my age were still listening to AM. Soon my brown hair shot past my shoulders, I started smoking pot, and I learned power chords on electric guitar.

If Dad had hung around, I might have become a jock instead of a freak, because I sure can hit a squash ball. Today I’m playing Rose Callahan, a former woman’s champion, on court number one. She and I have great games despite the extra pounds I carry, but I haven’t hit a ball since I picked Claudia up at the airport last week. I’m sluggish from lack of sleep and too much booze and weed. Odds are I won’t give her a game, but competition forces you to forget the outside world—perhaps visualizing Claudia’s head as the ball will provide an advantage.

Rose is already on court practicing her drop shot. She’s gymnastsize, small, trim, and muscular. Tendons flex when she swings. Her manicured brows narrow underneath protective eyewear. I enter the court and we shake hands.

“I heard,” she says. “I’m sorry.”

“Word spreads like wildfire.”

“My divorce with Allan was the worst, but it gets better, trust me.” She hands me the ball. “I’ve got some really cute friends to set you up with.”

“Jeez, I don’t know, I haven’t given that much thought.”

“When you’re ready.”

The match begins. Rose controls the court from the start, but I retrieve her shots, focusing on accuracy instead of speed to keep her moving. I play with verve and hustle, but in the end she’s in much better shape and wins easily.

As we head to the lockers, Rose hands me a slip of paper with the phone number of her friend Joan. “Call her when you’re ready.”

I should get back to working on my novel, but I can’t face the blank page, so I hop on the freeway and head to Jake’s. I’m half hoping he’s not there, but his truck, with the Jerry Garcia bumper stickers, is in the left bay of the two-car garage. Part of me, the sensible part, is relieved. His son Charlie is in the driveway with three friends, each holding a skateboard and sporting a fresh crewcut.

“He’s out back,” Charlie says.

Beth’s in the kitchen shucking corn in a red-striped apron, her hair tied back with a barrette. She gives me a hug and asks how I’m doing. She still smells of vanilla, and I do my best not to focus on her bosom against my chest. I turn down a beer, opting for a Diet Coke in a frosty mug. Our fingers briefly touch as I take the mug.

“Jake’s in his spot,” she says, smiling.

I go out to the yard feeling guilty. The dogs charge me, barking madly. “Knock it off,” Jake hollers, lumbering out of a hammock strung between two old chestnut trees. He tosses the newspaper on the white netting. His beer belly hangs heavy in a navy tank top. “Buddy, he says,

“I’m so sorry. I can’t believe it.”

“Neither can I.”

“Want to get stoned? I just scored.”

We head to the far end of the yard, behind the maple tree. We smoke the joint in silence. We walk back to the patio and sit on the plastic chairs. I look at the cloudless sky. Jake bends to tie his high-top sneaker.

“How’s school?” I ask.

“Going great, got some real good students this semester.” Jake tugs on his peppery ponytail. “She’s moving to Wisconsin?” I nod. Little else is said.

On the way out I say good-bye to Beth. Jake walks me to my car, handing me a slip of paper, just like Rose did. This one has the phone number of a girl he’s known since high school. “She’s cool. You’ll like her.”

“I can’t imagine dating right now.”

He shrugs. “You will.”

    From:    writerchuck@earthlink.com

To:    Guinevere7@aol.com Subject:     Vultures, voodoo and medicine men

Dear Claudia,

You’ve been gone over a week now and I’m walking on burning sand with blistered feet. The vultures stripped what remained of our marriage to the bone. Perhaps there’s a Haitian voodoo woman or a Cherokee medicine man that can revive our love, but it’s a long shot. Besides, if you’d had an inkling of change in your heart, even a solitary drop of doubt, wouldn’t I have heard something by now?

    From:    writerchuck@earthlink.com

To:    Guinevere7@aol.com Subject:     Black and White

Dear Claudia,

The leaves are about to turn, our favorite time of year, but it’s a dreary autumn, the color muted. Even sunny days are overcast.

These Hallmark notes make me want to puke. I can’t even write a simple few lines asking what the fuck happened. I hit Delete.

I have another squash game on Monday, with Craig, a guy I’ve played numerous times. We’ve never spoken of anything other than the game. I have no idea what he does for a living, but I do know that he’s divorced, and I suspect he knows of my situation because he’s careful not to look at me when I enter the court. We have a close match and I win. In the locker room he asks if I want to grab a beer even though we’ve never socialized before. Why not? I’ve got nothing better to do.

We end up in a Southport bar popular with middle-aged bikers who ride expensive custom Harleys. Craig’s clean-shaven, and his short-cropped hair looks professionally colored and styled. He wears khakis and suede shoes; he drives a Lexus. I assume he’s in banking or real estate.

“I’m an investment banker,” he says once the pitcher arrives. He pours for both of us. “Got my own company now, but I used to work in the city.”

I nod. He talks.

“I made good money but put in long hours. My wife had an affair with the fitness instructor.” He leans forward. “Can you imagine? I was paying him a hundred bucks an hour to screw her.”

Craig’s been divorced four years, but his anger, his disappointment and sadness, is all very much present at the table with us.

“Children?” I ask.

“Three, all in college. They cost a fortune, but they’re good kids.”

Craig has a girlfriend, but he’s keener to talk about his ex, the plastic surgery and boob job, the weekly shopping excursions into the city. By the time we’ve ordered a second pitcher, he’s told me that the affair with Mr. Fitness was short-lived, but that he was inattentive and worked too much. His wife grew resentful raising the children on her own. I want to say it’s not worth beating yourself up over, but all I do is pour another glass for both of us. It’s unnerving to see a man years into a divorce in a worse state than I am on Day 15. We talk a bit about Claudia, but it’s a lot easier to keep the focus on his failed marriage.

Craig offers to pay the bill. I object, but he insists and I yield. After he settles up he says, “You might try the Internet. It’s more legitimate than it used to be.” Winking, he adds, “You’d be surprised at how good-looking these online women are.”

He scribbles the site address on a napkin. “It’s free to look and only a hundred bucks a year to sign up—that’s the cost of one bad blind date.”

I can’t imagine Internet dating, but then again, two weeks ago I couldn’t have imagined any sort of dating. I’m sure I won’t pine for Claudia in four years the way Craig does for his ex-wife, but today there isn’t a single cell in my body that doesn’t long for her.

Day 17

Since leaving Stella, I’ve produced several local artists. I enjoy keeping a toe in the water, but these are very different projects from what I did in my last days there. Yes, I had access to the best studios and producers, but the focus was on music that could sell immediately. With few exceptions, artist development has gone the way of vinyl. Today Bruce Springsteen would have been dropped before he recorded Born to Run.

I met Simon the rabbi at the Georgetown Saloon several months back. His cantor’s baritone made him stand out amongst the general riffraff that typically plays an open mic. We got to talking, and when he learned that I was in the business, he told me about his interest in a recording project. Though Simon has talent, I would’ve politely passed if he’d finagled his way into Stella for an audition in my day. But he’s a rabbi, and I feel an odd sense of obligation to the tribe even though I’m about as Jewish as a slab of bacon. He’s also got twenty thousand dollars to produce a CD, and with that budget we can make something both of us will be proud of.

When he arrives, I lead him downstairs to my basement studio. He’s got an unruly crop of black hair and a bushy beard. He’s round and bearlike, with a voice that has the gravitas of Charlton Heston’s Moses. Simon picks up my acoustic guitar and plays a new song he’s written called “Harvest.” He sounds better than I remember, but Neil Young’s got nothing to worry about. I smile as he sings, tapping my foot to the beat, and when he’s done, I tell him it’s good.

Simon’s the spiritual leader of a small congregation in Merritt Town, about thirty miles north of here. This project will legitimize his music and help him get gigs. He can also sell CDs at bake sales, festivals, and holiday events; hopefully he’ll get some airplay on local public radio. It feels good to help a rabbi, though I’ve got no plan to attend synagogue or study the Kabbalah, as Madonna and other Hollywood trendsetters have done.

Working with Simon has nothing to do with Claudia’s leaving, but having a rabbi around is comforting in an unexpected way. It’s not so much that Simon is a spiritual crutch as that he reminds me of my youth. Hunting for the matzo during Passover, determined to find it before Jimmy, or spinning the bottle with a dreidel in junior high, hoping for a moment in the stairwell with Gail Parker, the girl who introduced me to Neil Young and FM radio.

My official religious studies came to an end when my parents got divorced. Jimmy was bar mitzvahed before the breakup and made out like a bandit; I did the work but missed out on the loot because the ceremony was canceled. I figured it was my fault Mom and Dad got divorced and that was God’s way of punishing me. Pop Pop, my grandfather, didn’t believe in God, which was understandable since the Russians destroyed his childhood and the Germans killed his wife, but he was still attached to Jewish tradition and he was furious at Mom for pulling me out of Hebrew school. “He can never be a man,” Pop Pop declare

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O! Jackie

by Mercedes King

 

Copyright © 2013 by Mercedes King and published here with her permission

CHAPTER  THREE

“This book would not have been possible without the encouragement, assistance and criticisms offered from the very beginning by my wife, Jacqueline, whose help during my convalescence I cannot ever adequately acknowledge.”  ~  JFK, Dedication page of Profiles in Courage

August  1956

The results were in. After an admirable campaign and a close vote, Jack Kennedy had lost the Democratic nomination for vice president. To soothe his bruised ego, Jack left for the French Riviera. His parents and youngest brother, Teddy, tagged along. Jackie, now eight months pregnant, recuperated from the convention at Hammersmith Farm, her family’s estate in Newport, Rhode Island.

           Situated on seventy-eight acres along Narragansett Bay, Hammersmith Farm belonged to Jackie’s stepfather, Hugh D. AuchinclossHughdie to family and friends. He had inherited the mansion from his mother, and it served as the primary home for Jackie’s mother, Janet, Hughdie and their blended family. The gardens also held a claim to fame since they had been designed by Fredrick Law Olmstead, who had fashioned Central Park in New York City. The house itself, with its brown shingles, clustered gables and Victorian style, looked uptight and uninviting to Jackie, but she loved the scenery in every direction. Because of the estate’s sizeable grounds, Jack and Jackie had used the site for their wedding reception.

            Lounging on the veranda, Jackie soaked up the sun with her eyes closed. She was having trouble relaxing, and the sultry August weather threatened to chase her indoors.

           “It’s a complete embarrassment. A total insult. There’s no telling what people are saying.”

             Jackie sighed slowly at the sound of her mother’s ranting and kept her eyes closed.

             “Who’s ever heard of a man leaving his wife while she’s on the verge of having his child?” Janet Auchincloss lamented. Seated beside her daughter, Janet frantically fanned herself and dabbed her face with a wet washcloth. Despite her efforts, and in spite of the summer whites she wore and parasol she held, Janet found no relief from the heat.

          “Hmph,” Jackie said, though not loud enough for her mother to hear. Secretly, Jackie knew that the Kennedy men brought a distaste to her mother’s mouth. However, if one were wealthy enough, Janet, being the unabashed society matron she was, could easily overlook character flaws and shortcomings.

            Jackie did her best to ignore her mother, but it proved impossible.

          “He hasn’t left me, Mummy. He’s only gone on a vacation.” Jackie wouldn’t admit it, especially not to her mother, but Jack’s abrupt departure made her angry. After all of her support for the campaign, the last thing she had expected was to be abandoned. Jack put no thought toward what his wifeand unborn childhad been through.

           “After all he put you through at that convention…”

           Jackie glanced at her and worried that her mother had peeked inside her mind. That would be the last thing she needed.

            “…and then to run off like a.…like…oh, I don’t know what.” Janet fanned herself even faster, but her shimmering summer whites grew moist underneath. “You should’ve insisted that he stay. You know there are times when a wife must put her foot down.”

             As if it were that easy, Jackie thought. She gave little regard to much of anything her mother said. After all, she had no desire to duplicate Janet’s life and the mistakes she had made.

             “Oh, Mummy. The baby isn’t even due for another month. Besides, Jack needed some time for himself.”

              Jackie’s abdomen pinched. Something else she didn’t want to admit to herselfshe hadn’t felt well since Chicago. She had rested and even eased up her smoking, but nothing helped. Her energy stayed depleted, and her stomach weighed on her. Feelings of bliss and expectation had abandoned her, much like Jack.

             “Time for himself, indeed. He’s with his parents and that younger brother of his. Supposedly.”

               Jackie shot her mother a look but made no remark.

              “Besides,” Janet continued, “the man has never spent five minutes alone in his life.”

               Jackie couldn’t argue. Even if her husband was simply soaking in a hot tub to relieve his back pain, he preferred an audience. He appreciated having men around to bounce ideas off of and to share cigars, and he never knew when he might need a pal for sailing or playing golf. Former classmates, Navy pals, advisors and the like made up JFK’s scenery and had earned the nickname Irish Mafia.

            “I think you should seek a divorce,” Janet said, leaning into Jackie’s ear.

            “Mummy, how can you say that? I’m not going to divorce Jack because he needed to get away and clear his mind.”

            “You know what we’re really talking about, dear.” Janet tossed her daughter a stern look with an upturned nose. “You have a child to think about now. You might want to reconsider the kind of man you’ll be raising that child with. He hasn’t changed one bit since you married him, and I think you know what I mean.” She nodded firmly.

              “Yes, I do know what you mean, Mummy, but the fact is, I’m never getting a divorce. I’m not like you.” Her stinging words surprised her, but she hoped they would make Janet back down.

              Janet looked away from her daughter and swallowed hard. “Well, in any event, your condition is rather delicate. A husband shouldn’t be running off at a time like this. God only knows what he’s doing right now, and with whom.” Janet was more than familiar with the pangs brought on by an unfaithful husband. Unlike Jackie, she had refused to tolerate the constant degradation for a lifetime. She divorced the infamous, debonair Black Jack Bouvier in 1940. Two years later, she had found the perfect man. Perfect in that Hughdie was an enormously wealthy man she could control. Debonair, Hughdie wasn’t.

              “Mummy, please,” implored Jackie. It was bad enough that she had to bear her own thoughts and imaginations; she didn’t need her mother’s as well.

                Except for the fluttering of Janet’s fan, they sat in silence for a moment.

                “All the same, it just isn’t proper.” To ensure that she had the last word, Janet excused herself and went into the house.

                 On her way inside, Janet passed Lee, Jackie’s younger sister, who was visiting from New York. Lee rarely had the chance to see Jackie anymore. Married to Michael Canfield, adopted son of Harper and Row president Cass Canfield, Lee had a social calendar that would make any jet-setter quake in her stylish clothes.

                  Some people considered Lee the beauty of the two. Yet others would have trouble distinguishing them because of their similar features. Thick, chocolate-colored hair, slender figures, wide-set eyes and supple lips defined them both.

                 “You look dreadful,” Lee said. She handed Jackie a glass of lemonade and took over Janet’s lounge chair.

                  “Sometimes talking with Mummy can do that.”

                  Lee laughed, then became serious. “Jack was an idiot to make you campaign with him. People have died from the heat in Chicago.”

                  Jackie knew that her sister cared less for the Kennedys than her mother did. In fact, Lee had opposed the courtship from the start. Watching her sister fall for the wiles of the charismatic senator, whose reputation as a womanizer was grand, stellar even, had made Lee cringe. Yet Jackie had ignored warnings from Jack’s colleagues, and Lee’s pleadings, and married the man anyway.

                  “He didn’t make me go.” Jackie checked her voice, felt her patience grow thin. She longed for peace and rest, not another round of defending Jack. Her back ached, and that heavy, dull feeling in her stomach wouldn’t leave her alone. She took a deep breath. “But considering that he lost the nomination, I guess it was a bit of a waste. And we hardly saw each other the whole week. He worked so hard.”

                  “I’m worried about you, Jacks,” Lee confessed.

                  “Oh, Pekes, don’t bother,” Jackie said.

Their father had nicknamed them when they were little girls. The names held no particular meaning but represented happy times from their childhood. They adored the names, although they never said them in their mother’s presence.

                    Jackie squirmed and masked her growing distress. Her mind raged with thoughts of her husband. How would he be once he got back? When would he come back? Did she have the energy to coax him out of his brooding? How could he have left her? What exactly was he doing, and with whom? She couldn’t quell her questions, or the nagging sensation that something was wrong .…

                    “So what’s next for the senator?” Lee’s flat tone carried an edge of disrespect.

                    “Reelection, I suppose. All Joe ever talks about is seeing his son in the White House. Jack’s getting the same way. I’m sure he couldn’t bear to disappoint his father, but I have my doubts about the whole thing. Can you imagine, me, the first lady?”

                     Jackie giggled and knew her remark would irk Lee. No matter how well the two got along, Jackie kept her guard up, fully aware of Lee’s underlying jealousies toward her. Lee’s hasty marriage to Cass, for example, conveniently occurred five months before Jackie’s nuptials. Petty, Jackie thought at the time, but she refused to make a fuss over the matter. Now several years into the marriage, Lee and Cass were unhappy and childless; Jackie felt no satisfaction knowing her sister was headed for an ugly divorce.

                “I don’t know how you stand it,” Lee said. “All the publicity… and all the rumors… How can you let him crawl into bed with you?”

                  Jackie met Lee’s eyes with a dead stare. Color had drained from her face, but she mustered up her dignity. “Things will change once the baby arrives.”

                  Lee placed her hand on Jackie’s abdomen. “I hope you’re right. For your sake and the baby’s, I hope you’re right.”

                  Jackie put her hand on top of her sister’s. She wanted to tell Lee everything right then. She wanted to hold her and weep and tell her how awful things had been. She had felt so used by Jack and Joe, as though she were nothing more than a political asset to advance Jack’s career. She hoped against hope that Jack would hold her in esteem once she finally gave birth to his child. Yes, she had to believe a baby would change everything.

                   A servant interrupted to inform them that an aide from Jack’s office had arrived. He claimed to have important information he needed to share with Mrs. Kennedy, immediately, concerning the senator.

                   “An aide? You mean to tell me that someone has traveled all the way from Washington?” Jackie glanced at her sister. Lee’s face shared the same look of disbelief as Jackie’s. Then, a thought struck Jackie. “Oh! What if something’s happened? What if Jack’s been hurt, or injured his back?”

                    Lee considered this and hesitated. “Let’s not jump to any conclusions. I’m sure Jack is all right. Any number of things could’ve come up in the Senate, though.”

                    Jackie breathed easier, yet her abdomen cramped. She kept her clenched fist at her side, mindful that her sister might notice. Pain crawled over her body. She tried to believe that the aide had good news, and that such news would soothe her. Holding up her chin, she ignored any distress.

                    With Lee next to her, Jackie walked into the sitting room where the aide waited.

                    “Hello.” Jackie shook hands with the man.

                     Wearing a navy suit and black tie, the man hardly looked old enough to be working as an aide to a senator, Jackie thought. He held a large envelope. Jackie suspected it contained legislation for her husband to read and sign. She dreaded having to explain JFK’s whereaboutsand admit, in her robust condition, she had no idea when he might return.

                    “Mrs. Kennedy, thank you for seeing me. I have some information here I’m sure you’ll find interesting, and I’d like to get a comment from you.”

                     “Comment?” Jackie looked at Lee, then back at the young man.

                      He poured photos into his hand from the envelope and spread them out on the coffee table.

                      Peeking back at Jackie and Lee were black and white photos of Jackwith Marilyn Monroe. They were outdoors, frolicking near a swimming pool on a bright and sunny day. Other people littered the background, people Jackie didn’t recognize. Some were young, buxom beauties; some were topless. A few shots captured Marilyn in the nudeand in Jack’s arms.

                       Jack’s involvement with Marilyn Monroe was no longer a lingering doubt or a juicy bit of gossip. It was fact, laid out in black and white.

                       Jackie gasped. Lee grabbed her sister by the arm. Their eyes boggled.

                      “Were you aware, ma’am, of your husband’s affair during the recent convention?” asked the young man.

                      “These were taken during the Democratic convention? In Chicago?” Jackie nearly choked on the words. Lee looked at her and shared her expression of blindsided disbelief.

                     “The very one. Now has the senator been unfaithful to you before, or is this the first time it has come to your knowledge?”

                      “Where did you get these?” Lee demanded.

                       Unable to take her eyes off the photographs, Jackie felt suffocated. Her world shattered around her. How could Jack have betrayed her so?

                      “Well, actually,” the man said, “I took these myself.” He flashed an awkward grin. “I’d heard rumors about these two at the convention, so I tailed them one afternoon and slipped into their party. With all the alcohol and antics going on, no one paid much attention to me, and I knew how to blend in.”

                        Jackie glared at the man, the so-called aide. She noticed his wrinkled dress shirt. His too-long hair and unshined shoes also betrayed him. Such an appearance would never be tolerated in the office of a United States senator.

                       “Who are you?” Jackie demanded.

                       The man’s eyes darted between the two ladies before he confessed. “I’m a reporter. Trying to be. I’m working on this piece about corrupt men in politics. Being the son of Joe Kennedy makes the senator a logical target, and he’s made my job easy.” He nodded toward the pictures.

                         “What are you doing here? What do you really want?”

                          His eyes narrowed. “I’ve gotten word that Senator Kennedy is out of the country. Are you and your husband separated now, ma’am? Will there be a divorce?”

                         “How dare you come into my home with these false accusations!” Jackie’s body throbbed. Her heart threatened to burst out of her chest. “This is all a horrible scam!”

                          The young man motioned to the photos once more. “Pictures don’t lie, ma’am. I was there. I saw them. Hell, I saw everything!”

                          “I don’t believe any of this!”

                          Lee turned Jackie away from the images. “You should leave this instant,” she said sternly to the man.

                          Jackie’s breathing became labored. She felt overpowered by disgust. Vomit quivered in her throat. Confusion reeled her mind. Her stomach which cradled her precious, precious infant contracted mercilessly.

                         The reporter stepped closer. “Look, Mrs. Kennedy, I don’t mean to seem unkind,” he shrugged his lanky shoulders, “but I’ve got bills to pay. This is a break-out piece for me. I’m giving you a chance to offer your side of the story, to comment. I could really play up your humiliation, get the readers to feel sorry for you. We could do a feature, call it ‘The Abandoned Wife.’ I’d even let you use these pictures in your divorce, for a fee. Heh, a guy’s gotta eat, you know.”

                  Jackie screamed and overturned the table with the snapshots. She lunged at the imposter and banged his chest with her fists. The man fell onto the couch. Horror struck his paled face. Lee jumped in and pulled her sister away from the imposter.

                  “Jackie, calm down,” Lee said. “Get out!” she yelled at the man.

                   He tried to scrape up a few of the pictures, but Lee wouldn’t have it. She released Jackie and  threw the man out of the house, empty handed.

                   Jackie grabbed her pregnant belly. Pain struck her like lightning. She winced and fell to her hands and knees. Her eyes lost focus. She began to hemorrhage.

                   “Jacks!” Lee rushed to her side.

“No. Not my baby,” Jackie pleaded.
Seconds later, she collapsed.

… Continued…

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In 1453 Constantinople is the impregnable jewel of the East. It has stood as the greatest Christian city for a millennium as hordes have crashed fruitlessly against its walls.

But Mehmet II, the youthful Sultan of the Ottoman Turks, has besieged the city. His opponent is Constantine XI, the wise and capable ruler of the crumbling Eastern Roman Empire. Mehmet, distrusted by his people and hated by his Grand Vizer, must accomplish what all those before him have failed to do: capture Constantinople. To prove that he deserves the throne that his father once took from him, Mehmet, against all advice, storms the city. If he fails, he will not only have failed himself and his people, but he will surely lose his life.

On the other side of the city walls, the emperor Constantine must find a way to stop the greatest army in the medieval world. To finance his defenses, he becomes a beggar to the Pope, the Italian city-states, and the Hungarians. But the price for aid is high: The Pope demands the Greeks reunite the Eastern and Western churches and accept the Latin faith. If Constantine wants aid for his people he must choose between their lives and their souls.

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Copyright © 2013 by James Shipman and published here with his permission

CHAPTER ONE

Sunday, September 3, 1452

    Mehmet held the twisting adolescent tightly while the dagger drove deeper into the boy’s throat.  Blood was pumping from the wound but Mehmet was behind the body and most of the hot liquid splashed onto the cobblestones.  The boy’s muscles convulsed beneath his hands, trying to break free, but Mehmet kept his left arm wrapped tightly around the boy’s waist while his right hand gripped the knife.  Soon the body went limp, and he let it slide gently to the ground.  He knelt down and wiped the dagger clean on the boy’s robes, then walked on casually into the darkness.

    Mehmet waited a moment in the shadows, listening for voices or footsteps, then continued prowling the midnight streets of Edirne, capital of the Ottoman Empire.  He was dressed in simple clothing that hung loosely on his frame.  He was tall with dark features, a thin hooked nose and full, almost feminine lips. He was twenty-one, although he appeared older, particularly his eyes that held a cautious wisdom.

    He enjoyed his walks in the dark.  He liked Edirne.  The former city of Adrianople still contained a large Greek population but also an increasing number of Ottomans.  The narrow stone streets ambled through mixed neighborhoods with closely huddled residences, opening periodically to the large churches and cathedrals now largely converted to Mosques.  Edirne had served as the capital of the Ottoman Empire since its capture in 1365, when it was moved from Bursa, in Anatolia.  Bursa continued to serve as the religious center of the empire, and contained the tombs of the Ottoman founding fathers, Osman for whom the empire and people were named, and his son, Orhan.

    As Mehmet walked through the sleeping city he let his thoughts wander, trying to relax.  He loved the night—his quiet time to escape.  He could let his mind mull over the questions and issues he had experienced during the day without the multiple interruptions and problems he was typically forced to address.  He needed peace and quiet.  He did not trust people, particularly those closest to him.  Out here he could let down his guard.  He also liked to eavesdrop, seeking information in the shadows that he would never learn otherwise.

At a crossroad, he came across a street sweeper who growled at him to move aside.  As he did the sweeper looked into Mehmet’s face and gasped, falling to the ground in prostration.  Mehmet sighed in annoyance and again drew his dagger, plunging it deeply into the sweeper’s neck.  The man struggled in surprise, blood gurgling from the wound.  Mehmet held him to the ground with his knee until he stopped moving, then wiped his blade clean on the man’s clothes and continued on.  Two tonight.  More than typical.  He hated these interruptions.  Why wouldn’t people simply leave him alone?

    As he walked, he strained his ears to pick up conversations that would sometimes emanate from the thin walls of the closely crowded houses.  He was searching for the thoughts of the city.  He paused at a number of locations to pick up conversations, but he heard nothing of interest.  As he passed the outside courtyard of a wealthy merchant’s home, he found what he was looking for.

    “Times have changed,” stated a deep voice, speaking Turkish.  Mehmet could speak Turkish and Greek, as well as Persian and Arabic.

    “What do you mean?” answered another man, with a slightly higher voice.  Both spoke the educated Turkish of the middle and upper class.

    “Murad is dead.  I think our days of glory are over.  At least for now. For a hundred and fifty years our sultans have expanded our empire at the expense of the infidel Christians, but we can hardly expect that to continue.”

    “Yes, Allah has favored our people.”

    “Until now.  Now what do we have?  We have conquered Anatolia and driven our way far in to Europe.  We have defeated the Italians and Hungarians and every crusading army sent by the infidels.  How can we hold these gains?  Not with a young sultan who twice had to give power back to his father?  Who could not win control of his own household guard?  I am afraid he will be driven from power and we will return to the bad days of civil war among our people.”

    “Come now Ishtek, you are hardly being fair.  He was only ten or eleven when he was made Sultan the first time.  Murad should have kept the Sultanate until the boy was ready.  I do not agree with you.  I think he will do fine.  Perhaps he will even be greater than Murad.”

    “Bah!  You are ever the optimist my friend.  I will be content at this point to live out my life in Edirne, without being driven back to Bursa or further by the Hungarians.  Can Mehmet stand up to John Hunyadi?  Murad hardly could.  I would not be surprised if Hunyadi’s armies were massing in the north right now, ready to strike against us.”

    “Truly Hunyadi and the Hungarians are a threat.  But we have not lost a major battle against the infidels.  I do not think we will start now.  Even under a weak Sultan.  We still have our Grand Vizier Halil.  He practically led our empire during the last few years of Murad’s reign, particularly when Murad relinquished power to his son.  He will know what to do.”

    “Ah yes, Halil.  Allah bless him.  If only he were our Sultan.  He is wise and holy, and cares for the people.  He practically is the Sultan.  We must put our trust in him.  He will lead us even if Mehmet cannot.”

    “Mehmet.  How can he come from Murad?  We have had such good fortune.  We have had such great leaders.  Now we are left with an arrogant boy.  We must pray for our salvation.”

    Mehmet, Sultan of the Ottoman Turks, walked away from the home, having heard what he sought.  He continued his walk, turning over carefully in his mind the words of the overhead conversation.

    He was angry.  He had almost burst through the door and killed the men right then and there.  How could he though? They were right of course.  Mehmet had failed terribly when he first became Sultan.  He had wanted to do too much, too fast, and his father’s counselors and viziers worked against him.  They had embarrassed him, let him make foolish mistakes, and then had called his father back, not once, but twice.  Mehmet remembered the burning anguish when his father took the sultanate back the second time, chastising Mehmet with bitter words and sending him to govern a remote section of the Empire.

His father!  Mehmet stewed when he thought of him.  His father had never shown him any real affection or spent significant time with him.  He was not, after all, originally the heir to the Sultanate.  He was a second son and only became heir when his older brother died.  Mehmet had been forced from then on to endure a frantic and often harsh tutoring process.  He was just beginning to grasp his responsibilities when at the age of 12 his father had retired and named him Sultan.  He had done the best he could to govern, but in short order Grand Vizier Halil had called his father back to take over the throne. The Sultan felt Halil should have helped him, should have supported him.  Instead he had watched and reported Mehmet’s shortcomings to his father, betraying him and leading to his humiliation.

    From then on Mehmet had bided his time.  He had learned to keep his thoughts and emotions to himself, to trust no one.  He had studied everything: military art, languages, administration, and the arts.  He had worked tirelessly so that when he next ruled he would not only equal his father but also exceed him.  He would be the greatest Sultan in the history of his people, Allah willing.

    His chance came when Murad finally died only two years before, as Mehmet turned 19.  Mehmet quickly took power, ordering his baby half brother strangled to assure there would be no succession disputes, and set to organizing his empire.  He had learned to be cautious and measured, leaving his father’s counselors and even Halil in power to assist him.  From there he had slowly built up a group of supporters.  They were young and exclusively Christian converts to Islam.  These followers, many of whom now held council positions, were not nearly as powerful as the old guard, but they were gaining ground.  They were the future, if Halil did not interfere.

    Halil.  His father’s Grand Vizier and now his own.  He had always treated Mehmet with condescending politeness.  He was powerful, so powerful that Mehmet could not easily remove him.  So powerful it was possible he could remove Mehmet in favor of a cousin or other relative.  Mehmet hated him above all people in the world, but he could not simply replace him.  He needed Halil, at least for now, and Halil knew it.

    This dilemma was the primary reason for Mehmet’s nighttime wanderings.  He needed time away from the palace.  Time to think and work out a solution to the problem.  How could he free himself from Halil without losing power in the process?  He could simply order Halil executed, but would the order be followed or would it be his own head sitting on a pole?  The elders and religious leaders all respected and listened to Halil.  Only the young renegades, the Christian converts who owed their positions to Mehmet were loyal to him.  If Halil was able to rally the old guard to him, Mehmet had no doubt that the result would be a life or death dispute.

    Mehmet needed to find a cause that could rally the people to him.  The conversations he had heard night after night told him this same thing.  The people felt that his father was a great leader, and that he was not.  If he could gain the people’s confidence, then he would not need Halil, and the other elders would follow his lead.

Mehmet knew the solution.  He knew exactly what would bring the people to his side, and what would indeed make him the greatest Sultan in the history of the Ottoman people.

    The solution however was a great gamble.  His father and father’s fathers had conquered huge tracts of territory in Anatolia and then in Europe, primarily at the expense of the Greeks.  Mehmet intended to propose something even more audacious, to conquer the one place that his ancestors had failed to take.  If he succeeded he would win the adoration of his people and would be able to deal with Halil and any others who might oppose him.  If he failed . . .

    The Sultan eventually made his way back near the palace, to the home of his closest friend, Zaganos Pasha.  Zaganos, the youngest brother of Mehmet’s father in law, had converted to Islam at age 13, and was Mehmet’s trusted general and friend.  He was the most prominent member of the upstart Christian converts that made up the Sultan’s support base.

    Zaganos was up, even at this late hour, and embraced his friend, showing him in and ordering apple tea from his servants.  Zaganos was shorter and stockier than Mehmet, a powerful middle-aged man in the prime of his life.  He had receding dark brown hair.  A long scar cut across his forehead and down over his left eye.  He looked on Mehmet with smiling eyes extending in to crow’s feet.  He smiled like a proud uncle or father.

    “How is my midnight vagabond?  I trust you didn’t depopulate the entire city tonight?”

    Mehmet smiled.  “I was recognized only twice.”

    “Good thing, because we’ll need people for our armies and this habit of yours is thinning the population too quickly.  I can’t say I entirely approve and in any case, why kill them?”

    Mehmet flushed in irritation.  “I don’t need to be recognized.  That is my time, the only time I have to myself.  It is not too much to ask that I be left alone.”

    “Well it would seem at some point the population would get the message.  Just remember, we may need some of those people for our army.”

    “I heard more talk this evening.  More talk of my father.”

    “Random killings aren’t my only problem with your evening wanderings.  Listening to this gossip is no good for you.  You are the Sultan, it doesn’t matter what these people think or say about you.  You are their ruler by Allah’s will.  You should kill a few of the people spreading such rumors.  And quit listening to them.”

    “Ah my friend but they speak the truth.  Why should I punish those who simply speak what everyone is thinking?  The people have no love for me.  That much is very clear.  They only remember my father, and they remember my past failures.  They think I’m a child.  They think I will bring them to ruin.  I need to do something that will unite the people.  Something extraordinary.  I know what that something is.”

    Zaganos stared at Mehmet for a moment before responding.  He breathed heavily, clearly weary of a topic they had discussed too often.

    “Constantinople?  You make my head ache with this talk.  Over and over you go on about taking that city.  Constantinople is a curse to Islam.  The cursed city has not fallen in eight hundred years despite our faith’s many attempts.  Your father and his father tried again and again.  How would failing again before the city’s subjects improve your position?  You will give Halil all he needs to usurp your position, or replace you.”

    “That city is a thorn in our side.  It sits in the middle of our empire.  The Greeks are through.  Their empire now consists only of the city.  Why should we allow a separate state hundreds of miles within our empire?  A state of despicable infidels?  We can never be a true empire while Constantinople remains in the hands of the Greeks.  We must take it!  I was born to take it!  It is Allah’s will.  Did not the blessed Prophet, peace be upon him, predict its fall, and that the people who captured the city would be blessed?”  Mehmet could feel himself growing angry and his hands shook.

    “It is true.  But remember that your ancestors have built their empire step by careful step.  Osman began in Anatolia with just a few hundred warriors, a leader among many leaders.  He carefully built your territory up, as did each Sultan one after the other.  Your father Murad shored up the empire’s power against Hungary, and in Anatolia.  He would have taken Constantinople if he could, but he could not.

Your father was powerful, beloved by his people, with the full confidence of all his advisors and in the prime of his life.  Still he could not take the city.  You must place yourself in the same position if you wish to try.  You are not ready for that task yet Sultan.  You have so many summers ahead of you.  I advise you to take your time.  Win some small victories against the Serbians, or the Bulgarians.  Build up your forces.  Win the confidence of the people slowly.  Then you can try Constantinople.  Too many empires and armies have died at those city walls.  Do not add yours to the tally.”

    Mehmet stared hard at his friend.  “You have known me all my life Zaganos.  Do you think I am less than my father?  Do you think I cannot take Constantinople if I want to?  I will not waste my life under Halil’s boot.  Every day he questions my authority.  I see him whispering among the elders.  I know he works against me.  I will not continue to tolerate this.  I must act decisively.  I will take the city and then I will end that traitor’s life!”

    “You’ll never get to the city.  As you know, these sieges require months of preparation and the full resources of the empire.  You cannot simply order the attack.  I know that Murad could and did, but if you do, you risk Halil making a move against you now, when you are the weakest.  He would have far too much time to maneuver against you.”

    “Then I will call a council and win the full approval of my advisors.”

    “A council?  Nothing could be worse my friend.  They won’t approve the plan, and you give Halil power to voice his concerns in public.  He can defy you openly, while acting as if he simply is trying to give you advice.  Please do not do this.  Please follow my advice and start with less ambitious projects.  You know I will follow you no matter what my friend.  You are my Sultan, I am your servant, but I am afraid you try too much too quickly.  Remember the lessons of your youth!”

     “I remember them well.”

    Several days later, Mehmet sat on his divan in the presence of the council.  The Ottoman Council, an informal group of the top advisors of the empire, was made up of the Sultan, Grand Vizier Halil, the religious leader known as the Grand Mufti, and a number of lesser Viziers, generals, and members of the religious and civil community of the empire.  In all, nearly thirty men assembled to hear the Sultan out regarding his proposal. Many of the men came from established Ottoman families, with just a few of Mehmet’s first generation Christian converts.  There was a crackling air of tension in the palace room, with the two factions eyeing each other distrustfully.  Zaganos and the younger members stood together and slightly apart from the senior council, emphasizing the divide.

    Mehmet rose to address the council.  The murmuring of greetings and small talk fell and soon it was quiet with all eyes focused on the Sultan.  “My friends, I speak to you today of Constantinople.  Since the Prophet himself, peace be upon him, walked among us, it has been our destiny to capture Constantinople. His standard bearer himself was slain before the city walls almost eight hundred years ago.  For a hundred years now we have bypassed the city. We have attacked it without success.  We have worked around it.  We have had great victories in Europe.  We own all of the land for hundreds of miles in each direction from Constantinople.  The Greek Empire is all but a memory.  We have brought our blessed faith to hundreds of thousands of converts.”

    Mehmet paused, looking around the room to gauge the faces of the council.

    “This success means nothing.  All of our triumphs mean nothing while this city sits in our midst.  This city is an infidel mockery of our faith, of our people.  If we cannot take the city, we cannot be a true people, a true empire.  The Prophet, peace be upon him, predicted that a blessed people would take the city.  We are that people.  And the time is now.  I propose that we make immediate preparations for the siege and capture of the city.  We will take the city for Mohammed, for Osman, for Allah!”

    There were mixed cheers and murmurs from the council.  Zaganos Pasha quickly rose to respond to the Sultan.

    “My Sultan.  You speak with wisdom beyond your years.  It was your father’s great dream to capture the city.  Alas, he could not do so before he left for paradise.  But you will fulfill his dream.  As a general among you I report that we have the forces necessary to capture the city.  We need only the will of our leader, our Sultan, and we will prevail.  Let it be done.”

    More cheers accompanied Zaganos’s response, although Mehmet noticed these came almost exclusively from his Christian/convert faction.

    Halil now came forward to speak, first bowing before the Sultan.

    “My dear Sultan, and assembled council.  I humbly speak as Grand Vizier.  I appreciate our Sultan’s enthusiasm for this project, but I must respectfully disagree.

    “I certainly agree that capturing the city would do wonders for our empire, for our people, for our faith.  However, our Sultan tells us these things without addressing the obvious problem:  how to accomplish the task?

    I would point out that it is not the will of his ancestors that prevented the capture of the city.  Certainly it was not the will of Murad who desired this above all things.  It is the city itself that prevents this.

    How is the city to be captured?  Is not Constantinople surrounded on three sides by water?  We have no fleet to speak of my Sultan.  We have difficulty enough ferrying a few troops back and forth across the narrow waters of the straights without interference from the Greeks.  And the Greeks possess their Greek fire, the terrible weapon they use to burn our ships and kill our sailors.  The only time the city has ever fallen is by sea, and then only to the Venetians and other Latins, who did possess a great fleet.

    Should we defeat the city by land?  We outnumber the foolish infidel Greeks ten or twenty to one.  But they have the walls.  As you know my Sultan, the city is only exposed by land on one side.  A triple network with a moat protects the land approach to Constantinople, with two huge walls surmounted by scores of defensive towers.  The city can be defended against our hundreds of thousands by a tenth of that amount. The walls have not been breached in a thousand years.

    And that is just to speak of the Greeks.  What of the rest of the West?  Time and again our attacks on the city have served as a lightning rod for the Pope and the kings of Europe to rise against us.  We have fought battle after battle to preserve our territory in Europe.  When will we prod this hornet’s nest too greatly?  Our strength is in the petty squabbling of the Christian kingdoms.  Can we afford to unite them?  We may lose more than Constantinople; we may lose Europe in the bargain.  Think of John Hunyadi my Sultan.  He is perhaps the greatest Christian warlord we have faced.  We have a truce with him now, but if we attack the city?  With our forces diverted to the center, what will stop him from attacking the north?  We could lose everything gained in the last hundred years in a single winter.

    My Sultan, I advise caution.  Do not repeat the mistakes of your youth.  Accept the advice and guidance of this council.  In time, you will have the support you seek in these things.”  Halil bowed again, a slight smirk on his face.  He stepped back amidst several elders who placed supportive hands on him.

    The Grand Mufti, religious leader of the Ottomans now came forward to speak.  Mehmet felt tense.  Much would ride on the opinion of the Mufti, who he hoped would support him.

    “My Sultan, I agree that it is the will of Allah to capture the city.”

    Mehmet smiled, with the Mufti’s support, he would not fail.

    The Mufti hesitated.  “However, there is of course the question of timing.  With all respect, you are still young in years, my Sultan.  We have many enemies, including not only John Hunyadi but also the White Sheep of Anatolia.  These enemies but wait for an opportunity of advantage to attack us.  I agree with Halil: if we rob our borders of forces to embark on a lengthy siege of the city, then we leave ourselves open to attack.

    Also, think of what a failure would bring.  You have not won any great victories as Sultan.  The West watches you closely, perhaps considering you the most vulnerable Sultan in many years.  If you fail at Constantinople, you will have lost the faith of your people.  We will have expended our treasury, depleted our troops.  We will be vulnerable.  I agree with Halil.  We could lose everything.  That is certainly not what Allah intends.  We are his keepers on this earth.  We cannot gamble recklessly with our duty.  I cannot support this plan my Sultan.  I too urge caution.”

    Halil came forward again.  “My Sultan, you have our support and advice for so much.  Please do not react recklessly to our response.  It is intended only for your own good.  We will be here to assist you in all your endeavors.  Forget Constantinople for now.  I have many suggestions for you that I believe you will find promising and will assist you in your future rule.”

    Mehmet could feel his blood rising.

    “I see no reason to wait.  We have waited long enough to take this city.  My father should have captured it when he had the opportunity.  These Greeks have nothing left to fight with.  He had Constantinople in his grasp, and he let it fall through his fingers.  I won’t make this same mistake.”

    “Your father was very wise.  He didn’t make a mistake in not taking the city.  It was his choice.  If he didn’t choose to take the city then with all respect, Sultan, you should heed his actions.  He had the love of his people, a lifetime of experience, and the trust of his council.”

    “And I do not have that trust!”

    Halil bowed.  “Of course I do not claim that.  However the more time you are in power the easier it will be to accomplish what you wish.  You have already had a revolt while you were in power.  I certainly would not wish for that event to be repeated.  Let your people see you leading them wisely.  Listen to the advice of those who advised your father.  In time you will have the people’s trust, and when the time is right we can consider attacking Constantinople again, if appropriate.”

    Mehmet was incensed.  He wanted nothing more than to draw his sword and behead Halil right here and now.  He let the anger burn through him without showing any emotion, simply staring thoughtfully at the council.  He saw that almost exclusively the old guard backed Halil and the Grand Mufti.  Only a few of the younger members surrounded Zaganos and obviously supported him.  His hands were tied.

“Very well,” he conceded finally.  “I will wait for now.  But this decision will not be long delayed.  It is my destiny to take the city!  I will take Constantinople!  I suggest you all reconcile your position with this and begin working toward a solution.  I am the Sultan!  I will not be denied what I want!”

He was losing control and he hated it.  He sounded like a petulant child.  He couldn’t afford to show weakness before these men.  He saw a slight smile on Halil’s face, and the Grand Vizier looked around knowingly, making eye contact with several other council members.

He had heard enough, and showed too much.  He dismissed the Council, waving even Zaganos away.  As the servants extinguished candles the room fell into darkness.

Despite his orders Zaganos held back.  He approached his Sultan carefully.  “I admire your courage and your enthusiasm, but I caution you again to be more patient.  You are letting your emotions govern you.  You cannot afford to show weakness, particularly to Halil.”  With that Zaganos bowed and left Mehmet alone.

    Mehmet sat in the blackness in impotent rage.  Why was he not loved and trusted like his father?  Was he not Allah’s shadow on earth?  Was he not ordained to lead his people in triumph against the infidels? Why did his father place him in charge before his time?

    Could he even trust Zaganos?  He seemed to be on his side but so had Halil before he betrayed him and sent for Murad again.  He could trust no one.  He must rely only on himself.  He could use Zaganos and count him as a supporter.  However, he must never trust another again.  They must all be watched, spied on, checked on.

    Mehmet felt himself boiling up again.  They would pay.  All of those who had laughed at him, threatened him, who had sat smugly on the sidelines while he lost his throne and was sent away in humiliation.  First he must obtain true freedom of action. The key to his freedom was taking the city.  He must convince the council to allow him to proceed with his plans.

    As for Halil, he may have felt he won and stopped Mehmet’s plans.  He was wrong.  The council had presented their concerns.  The council feared the walls, the sea, and western aid.  They did not believe the city could be taken because of these problems.  Mehmet believed in one thing.  He believed in himself and his destiny.  If the council needed assurances to proceed then with the help of Allah he would answer these fears, and he would lead his people in his rightful destiny.

He spent the night in the darkness, in prayer, and contemplating the solutions to these seemingly impossible obstacles.

    With the dawn, he rose and pulled out a number of maps, spreading them out on the floor.  One particular map, inherited from his father, was immense.  The map showed the city and the immediate surrounding area.  He paced back and forth over the map, studying the lay of the land, the surrounding seas, and the ever-imposing sea walls.  He would take the city. He just had to decide how to convince the council.  He wasn’t sure how to accomplish that yet, but he was beginning to formulate some plans.

One thing he knew for sure, he would keep these foolish Greeks busy while he made his decision.

CHAPTER TWO

Sunday, November 26, 1452

    Constantine wept.  He wept quietly, facing away from the city and looking out over the broad blue expanse of the Sea of Marmara to his right and the Bosporus Sea to his left.  From the heights of the extreme northeast corner of Constantinople, near the ancient Acropolis, Constantine could survey the waters leading both directions into the ancient city, meeting at the end of the peninsula and flowing into the natural harbor of the Golden Horn.

    Constantine XI Palaiologos, Greek Emperor, successor of the Roman Emperors, was in his late middle age, having turned 48 in the past year.  His black hair was peppered with grey now, his beard even more so.  He was tall, well built and still in excellent physical condition.  His face was careworn.  The weight of the world had sat on him for too long.

    As he looked out over the serene waters of the Bosporus, gateway to the Black Sea beyond, he felt overwhelmed.  Overwhelmed by the impossibilities before him.  He ruled an empire that had once encompassed all of the Mediterranean and in ancient times, when the seat of power was Rome itself, had ruled most of Europe as well.  Now the empire, if it could be called that, extended barely beyond the walls of the city.  Constantine could claim to rule a few scattered islands in the Mediterranean, the Peloponnesus, and a few villages and fortresses near the city itself.

    Constantinople itself was a mere shadow of its former self.  Built by the Roman Emperor Constantine in 330 AD, on top of the ancient Greek city of Byzantium, the city became the capital of the eastern half of the Roman Empire.  After the fall of western half of the empire, Constantinople carried on the legacy of Rome.  With a population of more than 500,000, the city was the largest and most opulent in the Christian world for a thousand years.

    The city and the empire fell into decline gradually, and in the thirteenth century Constantinople was captured and sacked by crusaders from Europe who were supposed to be attacking Egypt but were diverted to the city by the Doge of Venice.  The Latins controlled the city until 1260, when it was recovered.  However, Constantinople never truly rose again.  The city was a ghost town, with fewer than 100,000 inhabitants and the vast wealth of the city stripped and carted off to Venice and the west.  Constantine wondered what it would have been like to rule during the Golden Age of his empire, with a bursting city and legions of warriors to command.

    What would his life have been like if he wasn’t constantly having to scrounge and beg for a few resources to battle the impossibly powerful Ottomans?  Would he hold his borders or expand?  Build up the treasury?  Build great works in the city?  He often dreamed of leading the once great empire of the Romans and the Greeks, not the feeble shadow over which he presided.

    How much longer could he hold on to even these remaining scraps?  His few territories were surrounded for hundreds of miles in each direction by the tremendously powerful Ottomans.  He was forced into the humiliation of serving as a vassal to the Ottoman Sultan, and paying a tribute each year for the protection of the Ottomans, a tribute he could not afford and that made it impossible for him to invest in food stores, or arms, or to hire mercenaries, or even to perform the necessary maintenance to the essential city walls.  What hope did he have to change anything?  He was doomed. His city was doomed.  Rome would finally fade into the oblivion of the past.

    Constantine felt a hand on his shoulder.  A gentle but firm grasp from slender fingers.  He turned and smiled.  Zophia was here.  He looked into her dark eyes, smiling at her youthful, beautiful face and long black hair.  Zophia, his love.  A daughter of nobility, she was only 24, but so wise.  Wise and beautiful.  She smiled too, just for him.  Knowing. Understanding. Caring.

    “Do not weep Lord.  I know you weep for our city, for our people.  Do not weep Lord.  God will protect us.  You will protect us.  You have always protected us.”

    Constantine felt her warmth flow over and through him.  He closed his eyes as she embraced him.  He felt immediately calm.  He felt the warm day, the sound of birds singing nearby and the rustle of the light wind against the trees.  He always noticed the little things when he was with Zophia.  All the problems of the world would flow out of him.   She could always keep the world away, if just for a little while. She was so beautiful.  Not tall, yet her powerful presence made her seem taller.  She had dark long hair and skin as pale as marble.  She was dressed in light blue robes flowing down to delicate sandals on her slender feet.

    How could this young woman have such an effect on him?  No person ever had before, woman or man.  Constantine prided himself on his control, his ability to keep his emotions in check, and to present a strong leadership persona to his people, even to his close friends.  He had developed this talent during his exceptionally difficult youth and early adulthood, when he was constantly at risk of kidnapping and even death—not only from the Ottomans, but even from his own brothers, who constantly conspired for the throne.

    Somehow Zophia saw through all this.  Even worse, he couldn’t seem to even make the effort to try to present this front to her.  After she mocked him a few times, he gave up trying to do so.  Now he craved the moments when he could be alone with her and let down, let her cradle his head and tell him it would be all right.  He knew this peace could not last forever.  He was pushed from every direction to marry, marry quickly, and marry for the greatest possible political advantage.  The city needed allies, allies that could provide money and troops to defend against the Ottoman attack that must come at any time—that was threatened and had been constantly attempted for more than a century.

    Already Constantine had received marriage feelers from several eastern kingdoms, including Trebizond and Georgia, concerning potential princesses for his consideration.  He knew that eventually he would have to give up his darling Zophia.  He could not bear to think about it.  He would enjoy her, breathe her in, experience every part of her, until he was forced to let her go.  They had discussed his fate many times.  She did not like it, did not agree that it was worth compromising for a few soldiers or a little gold.  This topic provided their only source of conflict, the first scars in an otherwise perfect relationship.  Eventually they stopped talking about the issue.  Their love was like the city itself:  ignoring grim realities and holding on until whatever inevitable end God had in store.

    For now, for this moment, it was only Zophia.  Zophia and his city.  The two things in the world he lived for and would die for.  They mounted their horses and rode through the city, trailed at a discreet distance by Constantine’s personal guard.  They rode down the gently sloping hill of the acropolis, past the crumbling palaces of the former emperors to the Goth’s column and then to the sea wall itself.  The sea wall of Constantinople, a single but formidable barrier wrapped continuously around three sides of the peninsula, connecting finally with the massive triple Theodosian land walls.

    They rode west above the sea wall, along the Golden Horn, passing the two inner walled harbors of the city.  They could look out north across the Horn, barely 500 yards to the walled independent city of Galata, granted to the Genoese in 1273 by the Greek Emperor.  Galata was much smaller than Constantinople but contained an important port and the stunning rounded tower Christea Turris (Tower of Christ), which dominated the skyline, built in the fourteenth century.  Most of the sea trade now stopped at Galata instead of Constantinople, except for the portion that interacted primarily with the Venetians in the city.  The Greeks had lost their commercial power with the decline of the empire itself.  They still had a few ships plying the waters of the Mediterranean and Black Sea, but they had been first challenged, then completely surpassed, by the Italian city-states.

    This loss of sea trade further weakened the city, as there was only a trickle of new money into Constantinople.  This meager income hardly paid the cost to feed the city, and left nothing for building new ships, paying soldiers, or maintaining the vital sea and land walls.

    They continued riding west, coming to the Hagia Theodosia, a lesser but important church nestled near the sea walls.  They then entered the Petrion district of the city, where Zophia’s home was located.

Zophia lived in a simple house near the middle of the district.  At one point this area had bustled with homes and population, but now there were abandoned buildings and open fields everywhere.  Zophia’s home was covered in foliage and a large gated courtyard, affording her and Constantine privacy and the ability to come and go without constant attention.  The home was built of sandstone and was large but one story.  The interior was warm with furs and carpets spread liberally around the floors and warm fireplaces kept constantly stoked by Zophia’s servants.  Constantine loved Zophia’s home, a retreat away from the busy demands of his office.

    They had dinner within, protected from the eyes and sounds of the city.  They drank wine near the warm fire, holding each other, enjoying each other’s comfort and support.  Usually they talked about the day, or Constantine would share his frustrations or concerns but tonight they say quietly, thoughtfully.  They kissed deeply and fell among the blankets, making love, more desperately and passionately than usual.  They both sensed something coming, something they could not predict and could not control.

As the city fell into twilight they could linger no longer.  Today had been a beautiful day of peace.  A perfect day.  A rare day without all of the busy details of the city and the empire raining down on Constantine.

As they lay in each other’s arms, in the darkness and the flickering firelight, they heard a hard banging on the front door.  Constantine dressed quickly and drew his sword.  He did not keep a constant guard when he traveled the city.  His people loved him and trusted him, but there was always the possibility of an assassin.  He cautiously opened the door and smiled. It was Sphrantzes.

George Sphrantzes wore simple courtier clothing with no armor.  He was short and thin, almost frail, with brown hair and blue eyes.  He looked older than his 42 years, his face weathered with worry.  He smiled crookedly to his Emperor and nodded to Zophia in the background.

Constantine laughed and welcomed Sphrantzes in, clapping him on the back and joked with him.  “Well my friend, so nice of you to visit today.  Perhaps tomorrow would have suited as well.  I am trying to enjoy a day of relaxation as I think you can see.”

Sphrantzes did not return his smile.  He seemed to hesitate and then began.  “My lord, it is grave news.”

… Continued…

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