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JUMP

by Stephen R. Stober

JUMP
4.5 stars – 45 Reviews
Text-to-Speech: Enabled
Here’s the set-up:

Jeremy Roberts is suddenly a stranger in his own body with no memory of his life. When he discovers he’s entangled in an unsolved tragedy, he must mount a high-stakes investigation to rescue someone he can’t remember.

Jeremy Roberts’ life is reset one morning in Boston’s Quincy Market when an inexplicable event leaves him a stranger in his own body. He quickly relearns his name and his place in the world, but can’t explain the heavy feeling of grief that pervades every moment of his day.

Hiding his complete lack of memory about his life, he sets to work finding the source of his emotional anguish. Uncovering files from his own computer, he learns that a terrible tragedy has befallen his family and its mystery remains unsolved.

Calling on a crack private investigator and a computer security expert, Jeremy delves deep into the case. After piecing together a startling theory, he plunges into a daring plan to rescue a woman he can’t remember… before it’s too late.

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an excerpt from

Jump

by Stephen R. Stober

Copyright © 2014 by Stephen R. Stober and published here with his permission
I do not know who I am;
I do not know
what I am.

 

Chapter 1 – Jeremy

    This time it happened without much warning. I had to jump quickly in Quincy Market, at a shoe store. The switch was much faster than usual. I didn’t have much time to choose.

    It’s been about a minute since the transition. I feel dizzy and a little off balance as I stand among shoppers who are focused on a man lying on the floor. Damian Murdoch had lost consciousness and collapsed. His wife, Carrie, is frantic and screaming for someone to call 9-1-1. There’s chaos in the store.

I feel something in my back pocket; it must be a wallet. The distraction gives me time to quickly take it out and look through its contents. There’s a Massachusetts driver’s license in Jeremy Roberts’ name with a home address shown as Heath Street in Brookline. There are some credit cards, cash, a few business cards, and an emergency contact card with a name, Jennifer Roberts, her phone number, and an e-mail address containing the name Jen.

The ambulance arrives in minutes, followed by the police. The woman standing beside me must be Jennifer, or maybe she calls herself Jen. Before the switch, she and Jeremy were talking to each other in a way that couples do in stores. I had sensed a profound grief within them.

The paramedics ask for everyone to clear the area as they tend to Damian. As he starts to come to, he mumbles something to Carrie, who is bending over beside him, crying. I had loved Carrie deeply. Damian will be okay.

Jennifer whispers to me, “Come on, let’s go home.”

I hesitate. I don’t want to leave Carrie. I won’t see her again. Jennifer takes my numb hand and starts to lead me away. I stumble, almost falling to the floor as I experience initial coordination problems. Jennifer tries to grab me as my hand slips from hers. She calls out my name with a gasp. I regain my balance and reach for her hand.

“What’s the matter?” she asks.

“I’m not sure, I feel a little dizzy.” In actual fact, much of my body has no feeling. As usual, for the first few moments of a transition, the neural messages being exchanged between my body and brain are not fully engaged.

“Do you want to sit down for a bit?”

“No, it’s ok, I don’t think it’s anything, Jen. Maybe that guy falling to the floor got me a little woozy.” Hopefully, she is Jennifer.

“Why are you calling me Jen?”  She seems surprised.

I have nothing. I often have nothing at the beginning. I’ve learned that silence gets filled with information. Silence is powerful. Moments pass. Jennifer gives me more information.

“You haven’t called me Jen for years. What’s with you?” It is her.

I remain silent. Jennifer continues. “Are you okay? Do you think another migraine’s coming on?”

The opportunity. “Yes.”

“I better drive home,” she says firmly.

I’m relieved. At this point, I wouldn’t know where to go. She puts her arm around my waist, trying to give me support as we start to slowly walk out of the store. With each step, the neural pathways are connecting and I’m beginning to feel sensations in my limbs.

“I think I’m okay now,” I say as we reach the street. I concentrate on each step as I awkwardly place one foot in front of the other, trying to keep my balance.

I take her arm from my waist and hang on to her hand as she walks slightly ahead of me. As she proceeds, she looks back at me struggling to walk in a straight line.

“Jeremy, what’s wrong? You look drunk!”

“I’m just a little woozy. Let me sit down for a bit.”

We go to the curb where I sit. As the moments pass, I can feel sensations growing throughout my body. A few more minutes and it will be complete.

“The paramedics are still in the store. Do you want them to have a look at you?”

“No, I’m sure I’ll be all right in a minute or so. It’s probably just this migraine thing coming on. Let’s give it a couple of minutes. If I’m still dizzy, we’ll go see them.”

My new voice is deeper than Damian’s. It sounds odd as I talk. I clear my throat to hear the sound again.

After a couple of minutes, I feel complete and stand up. “I’m alright, let’s go to the car.”

Jennifer leads the way. I study her as she walks ahead. She’s a beautiful woman, five feet seven or so, high cheekbones, straight black hair formed into a ponytail threaded through the back of a pink Nike ball cap. Her aqua blue eyes, tanned skin, blue denim shorts, pink tank top, and immaculate white sneakers with the pink swoosh is a look that you’d see on a Nike commercial. She must be in her early forties, a very feminine woman in perfect shape.

I watch her every move and take in all of the cues that she’s unknowingly sending as she walks. To me, these signals are giant billboards indicating intention, feeling, and even thought. The way someone walks, how they move their feet, swing their arms, position their head, and even move their eyes can clearly reveal their level of comfort or stress, confidence, and their emotional state. My success has depended on my ability to read these nonverbal cues.

At first glance, Jennifer seems to walk like a confident woman. However, with a closer look, I can detect that she’s unsettled. Her overall posture, expressions, hesitations, and the way she touches her hair, suggest that something emotionally significant is happening within her. Is it related to the grief feelings I felt in both her and Jeremy before the transition?

Jennifer walks toward a white Mercedes SL, presses one of the keys, and the trunk lid pops open. She places the Nine West bag inside and closes the trunk. With another press of the key, the doors unlock. As I struggle to coordinate my limbs to get into the passenger seat, she asks, “Are you sure you’re okay?”

“Yeah, my back’s a little stiff, that’s all.”

“Can I put the top down?”

I nod. She presses a button and the trunk cover whirs to attention, gradually lifting open. The roof begins its folding dance and gently places itself into the front part of the trunk. The cover silently closes with no hint that the entire metal roof is hidden within. I watch as Jennifer adjusts the mirrors and seat. In one smooth movement, she belts herself in and starts the car with the push of a button. Her hands are beautifully manicured—clear polish on firm nails. She moves the car confidently away from the curb, narrowly missing the bumper of the Honda in front of us.

As she drives away, she says, “That poor man. I wonder whether he had a heart attack. Why didn’t anyone give him CPR?”

“I think I saw him breathing; it didn’t look like he needed CPR.” I knew exactly what had happened. “I’m sure he’ll be okay.”

“How can you say that? It could have been a stroke!”

I respond with a shrug.

“It’s interesting that it took no time for the police to arrive. I wish she had gotten such quick attention,” Jennifer says with a sarcastic tone.

Not sure what she means by that. I stay silent.

I close my eyes and place my hand on my forehead, feigning a migraine as Jennifer drives us home. I take this time to think about my new life. What lies before me? How quickly will I figure out my objective? Do Jennifer and Jeremy love each other? Do they have children? What’s the nature of the grief that I had felt within them? These are all pieces of the puzzle that I will have to figure out to help them navigate through their despair.

 

***

I do not know my name; I do not know how old I am. I have memories of thousands of people from countries and cultures around the world, but I can’t remember anything about me. As I often do at the beginning of a transition, I start asking the questions that I can never answer. How did all of this start? Who am I? Where is home? Where is my family? Do I even have a family? It’s all a puzzle and I am no closer to the answer than I ever was.

The one thing I do know is that today, and for some time to come, I am Jeremy Roberts. This morning, the tingling in my hands was the sign that the process was beginning. As always, I was not sure when or where it would occur, but I knew I had to act quickly. I needed to get to a busy place with many people. I asked Carrie if she wanted to go with me to the market.    

For some reason, this time I felt that I wouldn’t have much control over timing. As soon as we arrived, it began. Carrie wanted to go to the shoe store. I followed her in. As she was paying for her sandals, the tingling—which feels like a very mild electrical shock that starts in my hands—encompassed my entire body. It can happen very quickly.

During a transition, for a brief period of time, I feel compassion for everyone physically near me. The feeling takes over my mind and body as if I’m in a thousand places at the same time. This morning I could clearly hear all the noise, conversations, and even whispers around me. I could see everything in my surroundings and smell the scents of Quincy Market: the food, perfume, body odor, garbage, Boston harbor, and even the rotting spills on the sidewalk. I took it all in.

I sensed all of the emotion—all of the pain, happiness, frustration, and sadness—within the people at the market on this Saturday morning in June. My transitions last for seconds only, yet it always seems much longer to me. It ends when I land. Jeremy and Jennifer were nearby. I felt a deep sense of sorrow and grief within them. I had to make a decision. I targeted Jeremy because of his anguish. It had to be him.

Then it happened. I jumped from Damian to Jeremy.

 

The sunlight strobes through the trees as Jennifer drives up Huntington Avenue. Billowing cotton clouds form in the summer’s blue sky. It’s a beautiful day for the beginning of this new life experience. Jennifer’s cell phone rings. She picks it up to her ear.

“Hi, sweetie. Hold on for a sec. Let me put in my earpiece.”

She puts in the Bluetooth ear bud and continues the conversation. “Where are you? Is Jeff with you? Are you coming home for dinner?”

It sounds like she’s talking to one of her children. As she continues the conversation, I discreetly reach for Jeremy’s wallet. I look through the contents once again, searching for more clues. I find his business card—Roberts & Levin Consulting Company, Jeremy Roberts, CPA, President—with phone number, address, e-mail and website. Jeremy is an accountant.

As I look through the wallet, I notice my hands—Jeremy’s hands. It’s strange when first looking at my hands in a new host. They always look and feel odd at the beginning. I can sense them as if they’re mine, but they look like someone else’s. They’re larger, a little rougher, and seem older than Damian’s. As I stare at them, I’m having difficulty controlling their movements while going through the contents of the wallet. Manipulating the papers and cards is awkward. If I look away and allow my hands to feel through the wallet, my dexterity returns. It will take me some time to coordinate what I see and how I feel in this new body.

I take out a photo from the inside pocket of the wallet; a frayed, worn picture of four people sitting on a sofa next to a Christmas tree. It looks like a younger Jennifer and Jeremy with two children. I put down the sun visor and look into the mirror. It feels like someone is looking at me but it’s my image being reflected back. Jeremy’s piercing blue eyes are staring at me. Even now, after so many transitions, it still feels unreal to look at a new ‘me’ in a mirror. I put back the visor.

I focus on that family photo again. The two little girls are maybe ages eight and ten. I assume they are Jeremy and Jennifer’s daughters. There are two other pictures in the wallet, one of a girl in her early twenties, wearing a cap and gown. She looks very much like a grown-up version of the younger girl in the family photo. She’s very pretty, with blonde hair and a huge smile. She looks so proud.

The other picture is of another young woman, perhaps in her mid-twenties, dark hair, standing in front of what looks like Niagara Falls. There’s some resemblance to the older child in the Christmas family picture. She looks remarkably like Jennifer and quite beautiful as well. On the back, there’s some writing: I love you, Daddy. Thanks for all of your help. – Jessie.

Jennifer continues her conversation as I pretend to organize the wallet. I listen carefully to her words. There’s some tension in how she’s speaking. Her intonations, mannerisms, and how her thumb plays with her wedding band confirms that she’s talking to one of her children; one of the girls in the pictures?

I take a chance. “Is that Jessie?”

She glances over at me with a surprised look and narrowed eyes that seem to be screaming. “It’s Sandy, Sandy, for God’s sake!”

Now that was a mistake. I should have known better. All these years have taught me to wait and take in much more information before offering anything other than a neutral statement. Something is terribly wrong. Why such a negative response? I look away from Jennifer, but listen intently over the noise of the wind blowing through my hair.

Jennifer lowers her voice and says, “He asked if you were Jessie. Can you believe it? I know, I know, but still…”

Jennifer stops talking about me while continuing the conversation. It’s hard to hear, but I think they’re talking about plans for the weekend—shopping and various topics. She’s not offering me any more clues.

Through my closed eyes, the bright pulsating sun creates flashes of light, and abstract images race through my mind. I think of Carrie. I didn’t know it at the time, but last night would be our last time together. It was late, maybe one in the morning. We were in bed talking, sipping wine, and listening to an Al Jerreau CD. After making love, we were still locked onto each other, our legs intertwined. With her head on my chest, Carrie looked into my eyes and whispered, “I have never loved you more.” We kissed and fell asleep.

I will miss her dearly. A wave of heavy sadness and apprehension washes over me as I find myself awkwardly sitting next to this new stranger, Jennifer, in the body of her husband Jeremy, whom I know nothing about.

After Jennifer finishes her conversation with Sandy, she turns to me and says, “What the hell were you thinking?”

I don’t respond. I wait for more information. None comes forth. We are quiet for the rest of the drive to the house. I hold my hand to my head, hoping that my error will be perceived as a result of my supposed migraine. I feel tension with Jennifer. I don’t know enough yet to begin any conversation with her.

***

        I do not have Jeremy’s memories or his expectations, worries, realities, dreams, or ambitions. I do not know any of the people in his life, their history, or their connection to him. I know nothing about his work or his finances.

For now though, I am him. I will be living in his world for some time. Although my life as Jeremy is now an empty canvas, his family, friends, and colleagues will soon paint it with colorful and intricate images. Their conversations, nonverbal cues, and even their touch will reveal their expectations of me. And from that, I will learn much about him.

I will have to learn all about his world quickly. Jennifer’s interaction with me is already giving me clues and is kick-starting my quest for information. When I arrive at their home, there will be a wealth of information about Jeremy and Jennifer’s lives that I will gather from their files, computers, and other clues that I will discover.

It will be my starting point towards understanding his life, and discovering my objective.

Chapter 2 – Home

 

Jennifer drives down Heath Street, in a beautifully area that contrasts with the high-density neighborhoods that we drove through from Boston. We pass entrances to large estates and barely visible mansions in this wealthy enclave. We turn onto a long driveway of a contemporary home set back from the street. Perfectly placed old oak trees line the crushed-stone drive. Curiously, there is a yellow ribbon on the first oak tree. I look at it as we go by.

The driveway splits into a circular turnaround passing in front of the entrance. A sculpture of a child with water cascading over a protecting umbrella is at the center of a well-manicured lawn. The fountain creates relaxing white noise as we approach. We stop at the parking area on the left side of the entrance. Jennifer parks next to a black Lexus.

I look at the construction of the stone and brick building and presume it has replaced an older structure. The mature oaks give away the property’s history. The new building seems to have been erected in the footprint of the old home. It fits the setting perfectly.

As we get out of the car, Jennifer coolly says, “I want to finish the conversation that we started this morning.” She seems emotionless and dry, like she’s reading the news.

“Sure, but I’d like to lie down for a few minutes first.” I’m hoping to buy some time to look around the house.

“Remember to take your Maxalt, I’ll meet you on the patio in a half hour. We’ll have a light lunch before my appointments this afternoon.” I nod.

We enter through the large oak double front door, which opens onto an impressive foyer. I quickly glance around to get my bearings. Light-colored birch floors lead to a majestic staircase just ahead on the left. I take in all of the images and create a mental map of the home. A central floor plan—living room to the left, dining room to the right, the kitchen must be just off to the right, behind the dining room. I can see a den just ahead beyond the staircase. There must be a study or library to the left of the den. The house is eight to ten thousand square feet, vintage 1990s, high-end.

There are probably five bedrooms upstairs with a large master bedroom overlooking the backyard. If there’s a bedroom for each of Jeremy and Jennifer’s two daughters, I suspect that one of the remaining rooms will be an office. Hopefully that’s where I’ll find the family’s files. If not, they’ll be in the master bedroom, in the study next to the den downstairs, or possibly in the basement. Files are key. I have to find them to learn more about my new life.

The house is immaculate, and understated yet elegant. A Latina woman greets us.

“Good morning, Señor Roberts.”  

“Morning,” I respond, then wait to take my cue from Jennifer.

Jennifer asks, “Carmella, could you please make us a salad with a scoop of tuna?”

“Si,” Carmella responds.

I look at Jennifer. “I’m going to lie down upstairs. See you in a half hour.”

She walks off toward the kitchen with no response. She isn’t happy. I suspect that the upcoming conversation will reveal what’s bothering her. I hope that I’m able to find something during my preliminary search to help me through that discussion.

I walk upstairs and instinctively know where I’m going. I enter the large master bedroom to the right of the stairs. It’s painted a muted green with a dark blue accent wall that’s a backdrop to the king-size four-poster bed. It’s a very large room, and it too is immaculate.

There are night tables on either side of the bed, a large plasma TV on the opposite wall, and a matching lounge chair and sofa in the corner of the room, positioned to view the TV. A large blue-green modern art painting hangs above the bed. I walk through the glass doorway to the master en suite. The ultra-modern bathroom leads to a balcony overlooking a large backyard, which has a pool and tennis court. I can see the balcony stretching along the back of the house.

I leave the bathroom and go back into the bedroom. An open door between the TV and bathroom leads me to a huge wardrobe room, which I suspect was a converted bedroom. The back wall has floor-to-ceiling sliding glass doors leading out to the back balcony. The room is painted to match the bedroom and consists of built-in closet doors that are tinted in the same colors as the corresponding walls but in a high-gloss finish. The doors respond to a slight push of the finger. They open smoothly and silently, as if by remote control.

I push one of the green doors and it reveals drawers of women’s underwear, hosiery, and scarves. As I search for documents, I open and close all of the closet doors, which conceal many drawers, hanging clothes, and cupboards. There must be fifteen green closet doors. There are fewer doors in the blue area, and they open to reveal men’s clothes—Jeremy’s clothes.

There’s a makeup area in the corner of the room, complete with a large white desk, upholstered chair, and a mirror framed by round white light bulbs, Hollywood style. A set of stand-up mirrors next to the desk are set at oblique angles to view all sides of one’s body, similar to what you would find in a clothing store.

Positioning myself in front of the stand-up mirrors, I take a long look at my new image and study my features. Jeremy is about six feet tall and fit—a good-looking man with a solid jaw, and a full head of light brown hair that is graying at the temples, combed slightly off to the side, with a part. His looks remind me of President Kennedy. I touch my face and hair. I smile, stretching my lips to see this new image respond. Like always, it feels awkward at the beginning.

I move an arm and reposition my body. I watch the image in the mirror move. It looks like someone else in the mirror is copying me. Eventually I will see me in the mirror, but now I’m seeing a stranger. Right now, I feel like I’m having an out-of-body experience—which, of course, is exactly what’s happening. It will take time for me to feel one with my new body.

I turn away from the mirror and move on.

I go back to the closets and open more doors, looking for files, notebooks, papers, or anything that I can use for information. I find nothing, but that doesn’t surprise me. Jennifer and Jeremy’s home is obsessively neat. Everything seems to have its place, and this room is clearly designated wardrobe only.

I leave the dressing room through a door that leads me back to the hallway. A quick glance around reveals a bedroom next to the dressing room. Across the hall, there appears to be two more rooms on either side of a bathroom.

I enter the bedroom next door, which is obviously a girl’s room, painted in pink with purple linens. There’s an adjoining bathroom, which, like the bedroom, is very mess

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To Charm a Prince (Book 2 Douglas Series)
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Life taught her to fend for herself.

The second daughter of an impoverished, alcoholic earl, Samantha Douglas was forced to cope with a physical impairment caused by a childhood accident. Certain that her heart’s desire—a husband and children of her own—is forever out of reach, Samantha keeps bitterness at bay and manages to retain her optimism.

Life taught him to be bitter.

Prince Rudolf Kazanov has fled his homeland to protect his English mother and young daughter. Accustomed to society’s shallow beauties, Samantha’s spirit and courage draw the prince to her side from the moment they meet. Prince Rudolf recognizes Samantha’s rare beauty that emanates from the heart.

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To Charm a Prince

by Patricia Grasso

 

Copyright © 2014 by Patricia Grasso and published here with her permission

Prologue
London, Summer 1812

This damned limp ruins my appearance.

Eighteen-year-old Samantha Douglas watched herself in the cheval glass as she crossed the bedchamber. Her blue silk gown matched her eyes, and her aunt’s maid had dressed her ebony hair in an upswept fashion.

Samantha decided that she had never looked so pretty. No one would ever guess from her appearance that she hadn’t led a pampered life as a member of the Quality. She felt like a princess . . . until she walked.

Why was I the one run over by the carriage?Why couldn’t it have been—?

Samantha banished that uncharitable thought. She could never wish what happened to her on anyone else.

Turning away from the mirror, Samantha tried to calm her nerves by focusing on her bedchamber. This one chamber was larger than the old cottage. She’d only been in residence at the Duke of Inverary’s for two weeks and was still unused to the opulence. She could hardly believe her deceased parents and her aunt had lived almost their entire lives with this luxury.

“Are you ready to meet society?”

Samantha turned at the sound of her younger sister’s voice. “I’m not going to the ball.”

“Are you ill?” Victoria hurried across the chamber.

“My limp prevents me from walking gracefully, never mind dancing,” Samantha said, her expression glum.

Hopping Giles . . . Hopping Giles . . . Hopping Giles.

Samantha recalled the jeering name reserved for cripples that was hurled at her since the carriage accident. Like an old friend, heartache for being different swept through her. The little girl who limped was always chosen last for games with other children. There was no reason to think the young woman who limped would be anything other than a wallflower.

“No gentleman will ask a pathetic cripple to dance,” Samantha said, unable to mask the catch of emotion in her voice.

“A slight limp does not make you a cripple,” Victoria argued. “We have more to worry about than your limp. If anyone discovers we’re frauds, we’ll never find husbands.”

“We are not frauds,” called Angelica, the oldest Douglas sister, walking into the bedchamber. “Father was the Earl of Melrose, and since his passing, I am the Countess of Melrose.”

“Father lost the Douglas fortune,” Victoria reminded her.

“He didn’t lose it,” Angelica corrected her. “Charles Emerson swindled him out of it.”

“We have nothing to recommend us but our wits and the Duke of Inverary’s generosity,” Samantha said. “We are pretending to be wealthy.”

Angelica waved her hand in a gesture of dismissal. “Everyone pretends to have more than they do.”

“Aunt Roxie said you’re going to marry the marquess and become a duchess when the duke dies.” Victoria sighed. “I wonder whom Samantha and I will marry.”

“I’m not going tonight,” Samantha said.

“Get Aunt Roxie,” Angelica ordered Victoria. Then she turned to Samantha. “Why don’t you want to go? You look beautiful. Think how much fun our first ball will be.”

Samantha leveled a skeptical look on her. “All my life I’ve listened to children calling me Hopping Giles,” she said, unable to keep the raw pain out of her voice. “I couldn’t bear for society to whisper behind their hands about me. What gentleman will ask a cripple to dance?”

“Sister, do not let a simple limitation ruin your life.”

“That’s so easy for you to say,” Samantha replied. “No one ever had a cruel word for you. You’re beautiful, talented, and intelligent. The Marquess of Argyll adores you.”

“You have gifts, too,” Angelica said, touching her sister’s shoulder. “You are exceptionally lovely and the kindest and most charitable lady I know.”

“Gentlemen do not value kindness and charity,” Samantha told her. “Gentlemen prefer beauty and talent and intelligence.” When her sister arched a brow at her, Samantha gave her a grudging smile. “All right, gentlemen do not value intelligence in a woman so much as her beauty and talent.”

The door crashed open. Auburn-haired and voluptuous, Aunt Roxie marched into the bedchamber. “What is the problem?”

“I told you,” Victoria said. “Samantha isn’t going to the ball. She—”

Aunt Roxie glared at her youngest niece, and then looked at Samantha. “Don’t sit down,” she ordered.

Samantha bolted to attention. “Why can’t I sit?”

“Your gown will wrinkle.”

“I am not attending the ball,” Samantha insisted, her expression mulish.

“What has changed your mind?” Aunt Roxie asked.

“Charles Emerson ran me over with his carriage,” Samantha said. “Should I and my deformed leg now attend a ball at his house?”

“That unfortunate accident happened long ago,” Aunt Roxie said. “He never intended to hurt you.”

“Accident or no, Emerson will pay for what he has done to the Douglases,” Angelica spoke up.

“Darling, you must put aside this ridiculous notion of being inferior,” Aunt Roxie said, ignoring her oldest niece. “You are not merely a limp. Don’t you want to meet a suitable gentleman and marry?”

“Find me a man who won’t mind that his bride is deformed,” Samantha said, “and I’ll marry him tomorrow.”

“You are not deformed,” Aunt Roxie insisted, her frustration apparent. “I have spent the inheritances from my three late husbands keeping you girls alive, and now the Duke of Inverary has opened his home to us. Both His Grace and I intend to secure advantageous marriages for each of you. Is this attitude of yours a poultice to my old age?”

“You are not old,” Samantha told her aunt, “and I do appreciate your sacrifice and His Grace’s generosity. Neither of you understands how daunting a task it is for me to go into society. I have none of Angelica’s blond beauty or Victoria’s free spirit.”

“You possess other gifts like a warm heart and a nurturing nature,” Aunt Roxie told her.

“Men don’t care about those things.” Samantha felt she was losing this battle to remain home for the evening. She should have feigned an illness.

“Darling, I know more about men than the three of you combined,” her aunt drawled. “Trust me, men flirt with blond beauty and free spirits but marry nurturing natures.”

“Why, thank you, Aunt Roxie,” Victoria said.

“You’ve made us feel so much better about going into society,” Angelica added.

Aunt Roxie ignored them. “Did I mention that your future husband will be in attendance tonight?”

“What do you mean?”

“I had one of my visions,” Aunt Roxie answered. “You will marry a man who is not quite what he seems, but a prince among men, nevertheless.”

Could Aunt Roxie be correct? Her aunt had been blessed with special, otherworldly talents and knew things before they happened. Was there a gentleman capable of looking beyond her flaw?

“If Angelica is marrying the marquess and Samantha is marrying a prince among men,” Victoria said, “whom did you see for me?”

“Nobody,” her aunt snapped. “You are going to die an old maid on the shelf.”

Samantha laughed at her sister’s horrified expression. Angelica joined in her merriment.

“You think too much,” Aunt Roxie told Samantha. “Emulate Victoria who never thinks.”

“Emulate me?” Victoria echoed.

Aunt Roxie gave her youngest niece an ambiguous smile and turned to Samantha. “Lose the worry and enjoy life, darling, for tonight you will experience the most enchanting evening of your young life.”

A short time later Samantha sat beside Victoria in the ducal coach. Magnus Campbell, the Duke of Inverary, and Aunt Roxie sat across from them. The marquess had persuaded Angelica to ride in his coach.

“Remember, my darlings, do not dance more than twice with any gentleman,” Aunt Roxie instructed, as their coach halted in front of Charles Emerson’s Grosvenor Square mansion.

“We don’t need to be so particular about that old rule,” the duke said.

“I will not take chances with my nieces’ futures.”

What future? Samantha felt her spirits sinking at the sight of the graceful, fashionably gowned women entering the Emerson mansion. Not one of them limped. No gentleman will ask me to dance, and once I’m categorized as a wallflower, no man will even look in my direction.

The Duke of Inverary stepped down from the carriage first and assisted her aunt, her sister, and then her. Angelica and the marquess waited for them at the stairs.

“Sisters, take a good look at this house,” Angelica said, staring at the mansion.” We lived here until ten years ago.”

“I don’t remember,” Victoria said.

Instead of looking at the mansion, Samantha turned to stare at the street. “Is this where the carriage ran me over?”

“Tonight is not the time to dwell on the past,” Aunt Roxie said. “Let’s go inside.”

Samantha felt her sister’s touch on her shoulder and heard her say, “This is where it happened.”

“That day eludes my memory.”

“Emerson will pay for his crimes against you and Father,” Angelica promised.

“I hate the dirty weasel,” Victoria said.

“So do I,” Angelica added.

“No one hates him more than I,” Samantha said.

“I’m so glad that’s settled,” Aunt Roxie drawled. “Can we go inside now?”

Long forgotten memories surfaced when they walked into the foyer. Samantha remembered her parents in evening dress, kissing her good night before they went out. She could almost smell the reassuring scent of her mother’s lilac fragrance.

“Do you remember any of this?” Victoria whispered.

“Vaguely, but Angelica would remember best,” Samantha answered.

Their party walked upstairs to the second-floor ballroom. Charles Emerson, his son, Alexander, and his daughter, Venetia Emerson Campbell, stood at the top of the ballroom and spoke with guests. The orchestra played at the opposite end of the room and consisted of a cornet, a piano, a cello, and two violins.

Samantha saw Angelica and Robert step onto the dance floor. The marquess and her sister seemed made for each other. Perhaps Aunt Roxie was correct that Angelica would marry Robert Campbell and, one day, become the Duchess of Inverary.

Turning to speak to her aunt, Samantha froze as the uncanny feeling of being watched, overwhelmed her senses. She looked around but detected no one paying her any particular attention. Still, the uncomfortable feeling persisted.

And then Robert Campbell stood in front of her. “May I have this dance?”

Samantha felt her face reddening and panic rising in her breast. She wished her sister hadn’t put the marquess up to this. “Would you mind terribly if I postponed our dance until later? I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed by this crowd.”

The marquess nodded. “Whenever you feel ready.”

“I’ll dance with you,” Victoria spoke up.

“Tory, ladies do not invite gentlemen to dance,” Aunt Roxie scolded.

“I was just about to ask,” Robert said, holding out his hand to Victoria.

Angelica sidled up to Samantha. “Why won’t you dance?”

“I have no wish to become a spectacle.”

“I promise, you will not—”

Again, Samantha felt uneasy. Someone was definitely watching her. And then she saw him.

With his arms folded across his chest, the gentleman leaned against the wall and ignored the circle of female admirers surrounding him. Easily the handsomest man she’d ever seen, the gentleman in black evening attire stared at her with an intensity that made her feel weak-legged. He held her gaze captive for a long moment and then perused her body slowly as if savoring each curve. He lifted his gaze to hers again and inclined his head in her direction by way of a long-distance greeting.

Samantha gave him a cold stare and then turned away. A moment later, unable to control the impulse, she peeked at him.

He was still watching her. The corners of his mouth turned up in a smile. When he nodded at her again, Samantha inclined her head in his direction. Her lips turned up in an answering smile.

“Did you hear what I said?” Angelica asked.

Samantha focused on her sister. “I beg your pardon?”

“Never mind.”

The dance ended. Robert and Victoria joined them.

“Here comes trouble,” Robert whispered, his lips quirking.

Samantha glanced in the direction he was looking. Venetia, the marquess’ widowed sister-in-law, walked in their direction. With her was the gentleman who’d been staring at her. She hoped he wouldn’t ask her to dance.

“Lady Angelica, here is Prince Rudolf to renew your acquaintance,” Venetia said.

Samantha struggled to keep from laughing. Her sister was caught in an outrageous lie, having bragged to the other woman that the Russian prince had once proposed marriage to her.

“Your Highness, how good to see you again,” Angelica said, bluffing her way out of a bad situation. “You remember my sisters, Samantha and Victoria.”

Samantha nearly swooned when the prince looked at her and said, “I could never forget such beauty.”

“You haven’t danced with me, Robert,” Venetia said, feigning a pout.

“I was looking forward to our dance.” Robert held out his hand. “Shall we?”

Once they’d gone, Angelica said, “Thank you, Your Highness, for going along with my fabrication.”

“I suppose we were the closest of friends?” Prince Rudolf asked.

“In a manner of speaking.”

The prince smiled. “Did you leave me brokenhearted?”

“Absolutely devastated.”

Samantha studied the prince while her sister spoke with him. Prince Rudolf was as tall as the marquess, a few inches over six feet. Like the marquess, the prince was broad-shouldered, narrow-waisted, and magnificent in his formal evening attire. Fathomless black eyes shone from his handsome face, accentuated by his black hair.

Prince Rudolf turned to her unexpectedly, asking, “Would you care to dance?”

His invitation surprised Samantha. How could she refuse a prince?

“Your Highness, I suffer from an old injury,” Samantha said, a high blush staining her cheeks.

Concern etched itself across his features. “Are you in pain?”

“No, I limp when I walk.”

Prince Rudolf fixed his dark gaze on hers. Samantha felt her knees go weak and knew why he’d been surrounded by so many admirers.

“Then you will dance with me,” he commanded her, holding his hand out.

Samantha dropped her gaze to his hand. Nervous indecision gripped her. More than anything else, she wanted to dance with him.

Acting on instinct, Samantha placed her hand in his. As if he knew her fear, he gave her hand an encouraging squeeze to bolster her confidence and escorted her onto the dance floor.

Samantha relaxed as soon as she stepped into his arms. The prince danced with the ease of a man who had waltzed a thousand times.

Swirling around the candlelit ballroom in his arms, Samantha felt as if she were floating on air, and became intoxicated by the music and the man. Her aunt’s prediction flitted through her mind.

“I feel as if everyone is staring at me,” Samantha said.

“They are watching me, not you,” Prince Rudolf told her. “People are always curious about royals. By the way, you dance divinely.”

“You mean, divinely for a woman who limps,” Samantha corrected him, dropping her gaze to his chest.

“Speak to me, not my chest.” When she looked up, Prince Rudolf told her, “l meant, you dance divinely.”

Samantha felt the heated blush staining her cheeks. “You dance divinely, too.”

That made him smile. “I thank you on behalf of the myriad dance masters who tutored me.”

Samantha smiled at that.

“You have a beautiful smile and should use it more often,” the prince told her.

“People who smile for no apparent reason are considered unbalanced, Your Highness,” she said.

“Unfortunately, that is true. Please, call me Rudolf.”

“Familiarity with someone of your stature would be improper,” Samantha said.

“I am a man as well as a prince,” he told her. “I want to call you Samantha and cannot do it unless you call me Rudolf.”

“Very well, Rudolf.”

“I like the sound of my name on your lips,” Prince Rudolf said, making her blush again.

The music ended, and Samantha turned to leave the dance floor with him. The prince held her arm in a firm but gentle grip and refused to budge.

“You will dance with me again.”

Her aunt had said no more than twice with any gentleman but hadn’t specified if the dances could be back to back. “Is that proper?”

“Royalty must be humored.”

Samantha inclined her head and stepped into his arms for the next waltz. She glanced in her aunt’s direction and saw the older woman nodding at her.

Circling the ballroom in the prince’s arms felt like a dream. Samantha couldn’t help thinking that her fear of dancing had been foolish.

“Speaking while waltzing is customary, Samantha.”

“I’m sorry, Rudolf.”

“What were you thinking?”

“I was thinking you speak perfect English,” she hedged.

“Your thoughts were not about my lack of an accent,” Prince Rudolf said. “However, I will admit my mother is English and tutored me herself.”

The music ended before she could reply, but again the prince refused to let her go. “I’m sorry, Rudolf,” Samantha said. “My aunt insisted that I should not dance more than twice with any gentleman.”

“Your aunt did not intend for you to offend a prince by refusing to dance with him,” Rudolf told her. “Dancing two times with the same man applies only to commoners.”

“I am the second daughter of an earl,” Samantha said. “That makes me a commoner.”

“I will compromise.” Rudolf placed his hand on the small of her back as he guided her off the dance floor. “You will accompany me to the refreshment room and share a glass of champagne with me.”

Samantha didn’t know what to do. Her aunt hadn’t given her instructions about drinking champagne with a prince. She supposed that left her free to do what she wanted.

“I would like that.” In truth, Samantha didn’t want to see the prince dancing with another woman.

Together, they left the ballroom. She refused to look in her aunt’s direction lest she see disapproval stamped across the woman’s features.

“Strange, I don’t remember the ballroom, only the foyer and my mother’s fragrance,” Samantha said without thinking.

The prince gave her a curious look. “I do not understand.”

“I lived in this house until I was seven years old,” she told him.

“Your parents sold the house to Emerson?” Rudolf asked.

“The villain stole it from my father,” Samantha said, a bitter edge to her voice. In the next instant, she realized she had said too much.

The prince had stopped walking and turned to stare at her. Surprise had etched itself across his features.

“I should not have said what I did.” Samantha touched his arm. “Please, do not repeat it to anyone.”

“I would never betray a trust,” the prince assured her. “Under the circumstances, I cannot understand your parents accepting Emerson’s invitation.’

“My parents are deceased,” Samantha told him. “The gentleman you saw is the Duke of Inverary, and the lady is my Aunt Roxie.”

“The Duke of Inverary?” the prince echoed, his dark eyes gleaming with interest “I must hear this story.”

“Another time, perhaps,” she said, glancing around. “I wouldn’t wish to be overheard.”

Prince Rudolf led her to the stairs instead of the refreshment room. “We will postpone our champagne to walk in the garden while you relate this story to me.”

Samantha halted at the top of the stairs. “Is that proper?”

“You are safe with me,” the prince assured her. “I would never compromise your reputation.”

Samantha relaxed but began to have doubts as they followed several couples downstairs and headed for a stroll in the garden. She felt certain her aunt would not approve, but when she looked at the prince, she was unable to turn back and let him go. If she was going to live a lonely, miserable existence, she might as well have one evening to remember.

Rudolf and Samantha stepped into a summer’s night created for romance. Fog clung to the ground like a lover, but the sky overhead was clear, a full moon shining down on them. Torches had been lit, providing light for the couples who strolled around the garden. Mingling flower fragrances wafted through the air.

Rudolf took her hand in his and led her across the garden toward a silver birch tree. “Tell me about the Duke of Inverary.”

Heedless of her gown, Samantha leaned back against the birch tree. The solidness of its trunk comforted her.

“His Grace, an old friend of my father’s, opened his home to us and insisted on sponsoring my sisters and me,” Samantha told him.

“How generous of him.”

“Your Highness, you have been waltzing with a pauper,” Samantha whispered, merriment shining from her blue eyes and a smile on her lips. “I have nothing to recommend me.”

The prince stepped closer and, with one finger lifted her chin. “You have a great deal to recommend you,” he said, his voice seductively low.

Samantha stared into his eyes, mesmerized by their dark intensity. His handsome face inched closer. The scent of sandalwood, so arrogantly masculine, assailed her senses and made thinking impossible. His face hovered above hers for one brief, tantalizing moment. And then their lips touched.

Samantha surrendered to this new sensation. Standing within the circle of his arms and pressing her lips to his felt as natural as breathing. And then it was over.

“You are as delicate as a Bulgarian rose and more mysterious than Asian jasmine,” Rudolf whispered, his lips hovering above hers.

Dazed by his kiss, Samantha stared at him through enormous blue eyes but remained silent. Rudolf traced a finger down her cheek. “Thank you for the gift of your first kiss.”

That jerked her into awareness. How did he know she’d never kissed a man? Was her inexperience so obvious?

“How did you know?” she managed to ask.

Prince Rudolf placed the palm of his hand against her cheek. “Your skin burns with embarrassment, surely a sign of a first kiss.”

Samantha smiled with relief. Apparently, she hadn’t done anything incorrectly. “Tell me something more about yourself,” she said, looking at him from beneath the thick fringe of her sooty lashes.

“What do you want to know?”

“Tell me about Russia.”

“My homeland is cold.”

“You told me your mother is English,” Samantha said. ‘What about the others in your family?”

“They are Russians.”

Samantha realized he was teasing her. She cast him an unconsciously flirtatious smile. “How do princes really pass their days?”

“We issue commands to inferiors,” Rudolf told her, a smile on his lips, “while we are wearing our crowns.”

“Wearing the crown is necessary to issue commands?” Samantha asked, tilting her head back to look into his dark eyes.

“A prince should never be far from his crown,” he said, a smile flirting with his chiseled lips.

“Sometimes we princes rescue maidens like you from dragons.”

“Is that what you are doing tonight?” Samantha asked, growing serious. “I mean, rescuing me from society’s dragons?”

“Do you need rescuing, my lady?” Prince Rudolf stared into her eyes.

Samantha tore her gaze from his, feeling as if he could see into her soul and knew her deepest secrets, fears, and insecurities. Only family knew of her pain. She had too much Douglas pride to let anyone else, especially this man, see her pain.

“How do English ladies pass their days?” the prince asked, changing the subject when she remained silent.

I picked pockets until two weeks ago. Samantha looked at the prince and said, “I play the violin.”

“Will you play for me sometime?”

“I would be honored.”

“How about that glass of champagne, my Bulgarian rose?” Rudolf asked.

“I would like that very much.”

With her hand in his, Samantha walked toward the mansion. At the door, they met Angelica and the marquess on their way into the garden. Her sister appeared none too happy and cast her a look that said Aunt Roxie was displeased with her behavior.

Samantha cared not a whit. Her future loomed long and bleak in front of her. She knew the prince could never be interested in her, but he had given her an evening to remember. Perhaps more suitable gentlemen would follow the prince’s lead and become acquainted with her instead of dismissing her because of her flaw.

“Rudolf, I need to ask you a question,” Samantha said, pausing in the foyer. When he inclined his head, she dropped her gaze to his chest. “Why did you single me out tonight?”

“I love the way you look at my chest,” he said in a husky voice.

Samantha lifted her gaze to his face. He was laughing at her.

“You are a desirable woman,” Rudolf told her. “Why should I not be attracted to you?”

His answer surprised her. “But I—”

A gunshot boomed from outside the mansion. Sounds of alarm reached them.

“Stay here,” the prince ordered, heading for the door.

“I’m coming, too.” Samantha followed him outside.

They started down the street where a crowd had gathered. In the distance, Samantha saw her sister and the marquess.

“Oh,” she cried when an enormous man, dressed in black, stepped from the shadows and blocked their path.

“Good evening, Your Highness.”

“Good evening, Igor,” Rudolf said. “How is Vladimir?”

“Return Venus to her rightful owner or suffer the consequences.” With those words, the man disappeared into the night.

“What was that about?” Samantha asked.

Ignoring her question, Rudolf lifted her hands to his lips, saying, “I must take my leave now. May I call upon you?”

Her smile lit the night, and hope swelled within her breast. “Yes, Rudolf, you may.”

The prince gifted her with a devastating smile and then retraced his steps down the street. Samantha watched him disappear inside one of the coaches.

He never called upon her.

 

Chapter 1

Winter, 1813

“Alexander Emerson is so boring,” Victoria said. “I don’t understand why Samantha wants to marry him.”

“That’s a terrible thing to say,” Angelica scolded her youngest sister.

Samantha stood at the window of her second-floor bedchamber at the Duke of Inverary’s country estate. She stared at the curving brick drive and the courtyard’s three water terraces.

Tonight was a special night. Not only would her family celebrate the New Year but would also announce her betrothal to Alexander Emerson. Why didn’t she feel happy?

You don’t love him.

Samantha silenced that disturbing inner voice and sent it back to the suburbs of her mind. Turning away from the window, she said, “I want to marry Alexander Emerson because he is boring.”

She had passed a soul-searching week alone at the old cottage, trying to decide what to do. Her decision had been relatively easy, though, because a woman who limped wasn’t exactly the height of fashion.

“You should have gone to Sweetheart Manor instead of the cottage,” Angelica said, as if she sensed her doubts. “Robert spent a fortune restoring and renovating it, complete with staff, awaiting a visit from the Countess of Melrose and her husband.”

Samantha looked at her older sister knitting a bunting for the babe she expected in four months. “The cottage at Primrose Hill is closer than Scotland.”

“A complete change of scenery would have been good for you.”

“You may have arrived at a different decision,” Victoria said. “You don’t love Alexander.”

Her sister’s remark surprised Samantha. Was it that obvious?

“Father and Mother would never have expected you to marry a man you don’t love just so their bodies can rest on Douglas land,” Victoria added.

“Out of the mouths of babes comes wisdom,” Angelica said.

“Almost seventeen is not a child,” Victoria informed her sisters. She looked at Samantha. “Too bad Prince Rudolf never called upon you.”

Samantha kept her face expressionless, but her stomach knotted at the sound of his name. “Tory, you cannot have believed that a man of his esteem would call upon me.”

“You don’t need to marry a man you don’t love because you fear no other man will ask you,” Angelica told her.

Samantha lifted her chin a notch. “I fear nothing, especially spinsterhood.”

“Hello, my darlings,” called a voice from the doorway.

The three sisters watched their aunt cross the bedchamber. Aunt Roxie sat on the settee in front of the hearth. “Is everyone excited about tonight?”

“I can hardly wait for the midnight fireworks,” Victoria said. “His Grace certainly knows how to celebrate New Year’s.”

“Yes, he certainly knows how to celebrate,” Aunt Roxie drawled in a suggestive tone.

Samantha and Angelica exchanged smiles. Their wonderful aunt had recently made the duke her fourth husband, and the two seemed to spend a lot of time closeted within their bedchamber.

“Be careful,” Angelica teased, “or you’ll find your belly as big as mine.”

Aunt Roxie laughed. “Swallow your tongue, child.”

“You look young enough to become a mother,” Samantha said.

“Bless you, darling.” Aunt Roxie reached into her pocket and produced a necklace, a ruby pendant hanging on a gold chain. “I’ve brought you a gift.”

Samantha let her aunt place the necklace over her head and then looked down at the ruby. “Thank you, but what did I do to deserve this?”

“Darling, you deserve to be drenched in jewels for being your wonderful self,” Aunt Roxie said smoothly. She gazed into her niece’s blue eyes and told her, “This necklace possesses powerful magic.”

Samantha managed to keep her expression serious and the laughter out of her voice. “What kind of magic?”

“Legend says the star ruby will darken to the color of blood if its owner is threatened,” Aunt Roxie said.

“I will keep a guarded eye on it,” Samantha promised, a smile flirting with the corners of her lips.

“Remember, child,” Aunt Roxie said, putting her arm around her, “life doesn’t always turn out as planned.”

“Did you have another vision?” Victoria asked. “Can you tell me which gentleman will invite me to supper?”

“Tory, you are beginning to give me a headache.” Samantha said, rising from her chair.

“I need some fresh air.” She donned her hooded, fur-lined cloak over her blue dress and grabbed her special violin case with the wide leather strap that hung over her shoulder.

“Darling, have a wonderful time,” Aunt Roxie called. “Remember, your ruby will warn you if danger threatens.”

Samantha paused at the door. Her aunt sounded as if she was going on a trip instead of the gazebo to play her violin.

“I won’t forget.” Armed with her violin, Samantha walked down the corridor to the curving staircase. She paused when she reached the foyer and looked at the duke’s statuary of the Three Fates.

What did the Fates have planned? Whenever her aunt behaved mysteriously, something unexpected happened, and the unexpected was always a turn for the worse.

A crisp afternoon greeted Samantha. The sun warmed her face as she crossed the expanse of snow-dusted lawn nearest the mansion.

Samantha opened the iron gate that separated the lawn from the garden. The fine hairs on her nape prickled. Feeling like she was being watched, she paused and glanced around the area. Nothing seemed amiss.

Flicking her cloak open, Samantha looked at the placid star ruby. She shook off the uncomfortable feeling and continued on her way past the maze and across another, larger expanse of lawn.

The gazebo stood beyond the lawns at the edge of the woodland. Samantha sighed and seated herself inside. Scented with woodsmoke from the fireplaces within the mansion, the afternoon was a gem of blue sky and sunshine.

Why didn’t she feel happy and lighthearted? Alexander Emerson was intelligent and kind and possessed blond good looks. He was excellent husband material, and she intended to be the best wife ever.

The image of the Russian prince stepped from the shadows of her mind. Her heart ached for what could never be. Why had he asked to call upon her? If he’d said nothing, she would never have expected to see him again. Instead, she had waited weeks for a visit that never materialized.

Samantha told herself she should be grateful for that one enchanted evening. Many women never had that much. Opening her instrument case, Samantha lifted her violin and bow. Then she began to play a haunting melody that mirrored her feeling of loneliness.

*    *    *

Two pairs of eyes watched Samantha crossing the grounds. Robert Campbell and Prince Rudolf stood at the window in the duke’s study and watched the petite, ebony-haired woman walking toward the gazebo.

“Samantha Douglas is a lovely woman,” Prince Rudolf said, breaking the silence.

“Yes, too bad about her limp,” Robert replied.

“Limp?” the prince echoed, glancing sidelong at the other man. “I hadn’t noticed.”

Robert gave the prince an amused smile but made no reply. He walked away for a minute and returned to hand him a dram of whiskey.

“I would prefer vodka if you have any,” Rudolf told him.

“I’m sorry,” Robert said with a shrug.

“I’ll send you a supply at first opportunity.” Prince Rudolf downed the whiskey in one gulp and added, “Vodka is a man’s drink. Save the whiskey for the ladies.” He returned his attention to the young woman sitting alone in the gazebo. She appeared as lonely as he felt.

“Samantha will be announcing her engagement to Alexander Emerson tonight,” Robert told him.

“Wasn’t there trouble between the Douglases and the Emersons?” Rudolf asked, his gaze on the woman in the gazebo.

“Alexander is determined to make amends for his father’s misdeeds.”

“Samantha deserves a husband who loves her,” Rudolf said.

“I spoke those very words to my wife this morning,” Robert agreed. “However, unless that man makes an appearance within the next few hours, both Samantha and Alexander will be bound to spouses who don’t love them.”

Rudolf turned to meet the marquess’ dark gaze. “Samantha does not love him?”

“I think not.”

Turning his back on the window, Rudolf scanned the duke’s study filled with mahogany furniture and bookcases built into the walls. Though his gaze was on the study, his thoughts were on the woman sitting in the gazebo. Samantha Douglas probably despised him for not calling upon her, but what could he do? Other, more important obligations had demanded his attention. Perhaps if circumstances had been different—

The door swung open at that moment, and the Duke of Inverary walked into the room. Magnus Campbell was an older version of his son—tall and well-built, black eyes, black hair beginning to silver at the temples.

“Shall we get down to business?” the duke said, gesturing toward his desk.

Prince Rudolf inclined his head and sat in one of the chairs in front of the desk. The marquess sat in another chair while the duke took his place behind the desk.

“We haven’t seen you about town for several months,” Duke Magnus remarked, a polite smile appearing on his face.

“I’ve been rusticating on my new estate,” Rudolf told him.

“Where is that?” the marquess asked.

“Sark Island in the Channel,” Rudolf answered. “I settled my mother and daughter there and decided to stay for a prolonged visit.”

“You have a daughter?”

Rudolf heard the surprise in the other man’s voice and knew he was probably thinking about his young sister-in-law. “I lost my wife.”

“I’m sorry.”

Duke Magnus cleared his throat. “Your English is perfect, no trace of an accent.”

“My mother is English,” Rudolf told the older man, watching his expression. “Elizabeth Montague. Perhaps you remember her?”

Rudolf noted the flicker of recognition in the duke’s dark eyes. Within an instant, the older man had shuttered his expression.

“I never had the pleasure of making her acquaintance,” Duke Magnus said, shifting his gaze away from him.

The duke was lying. That much was obvious to Rudolf. Had his mother spoken truthfully about the Duke of Inverary? She did have many lucid moments.

“What can we do for you, Your Highness?” Duke Magnus asked.

“I have come to do for you.” Rudolf looked from the duke to the marquess. “I am not in accord with my brother. Last summer, my agents pirated a ship they thought belonged to Vladimir. Unfortunately, The Tempest belongs to you.”

Rudolf reached into his jacket pocket, produced an envelope, and placed it on the desk. “I am an honorable man with more money than I could hope to spend. Here is a banknote for the money my agents stole. With interest, of course. I hope you won’t press charges.”

Both the duke and the marquess sat in stunned silence for a long moment. Finally, Duke Magnus said, “We’ll call it a misunderstanding.”

“I appreciate your generous spirit,” Rudolf said.

Your brother and you play roughly with each other,” the marquess remarked.

Rudolf rose from his chair and looked out the window again at the woman sitting in the gazebo. Without thinking, he told them, “Vladimir wants me dead.”

Silence greeted his revelation. Apparently, he’d shocked the Campbells again. These descendants of Highlanders thought they were strong, stalwart men but could learn real brutality from his own countrymen.

Duke Magnus cleared his throat. “You’ll stay for tonight’s celebration, of course.”

The last thing Rudolf wanted to witness was Samantha Douglas becoming engaged to Alexander Emerson. “I haven’t brought evening attire with me,” he said in refusal. “As a matter of fact, I rode alone from London, so I could complete the round trip in one day.”

“Your horse needs to rest,” Robert said, rising from his chair. “We’re about the same size. You’ll borrow my clothes.”

Rudolf flicked a glance out the window again. Like a siren’s song, the sweetness of the woman playing the violin called to him. “I accept your invitation,” he said. “Would you mind if I walked outside to offer Samantha my best wishes?”

“I’m certain she’ll appreciate that,” the marquess replied, but his concerned expression said something else.

Rudolf inclined his head and started to leave. The duke’s voice stopped him at the door.

“Your Highness, may I ask how old you are?” Duke Magnus asked.

Rudolf glanced at the marquess, who looked as surprised at the question as he felt. “I will be twenty-eight on the fifteenth day of May.”

*    *    *

Trying to clear disturbing thoughts from her mind, Samantha had stopped thinking about Alexander and had let her violin take her wherever it would. Caught up in her music, she closed her eyes and poured all of her heartache and longing into her song.

“My Bulgarian rose.”

Samantha opened her eyes and stared at the prince.

Her heart lurched at the sight of his handsome face, and she couldn’t seem to find her voice.

Was he real, or was she imagining him? Why had he come here today when she was about to announce her betrothal? Was this his idea of a joke?

“I promised to call upon you,” Rudolf said, his voice intimately husky, “but you do not seem pleased.”

“You are slightly tardy, Your Highness.” Samantha steeled herself against him.

“Rudolf,” he corrected her.

Samantha placed her violin and bow into their case. Then she slung the leather strap over her shoulder and stood, saying, “If you will excuse me, Your Highness.”

“Sit down,” Rudolf ordered.

“I am not one of your—”

“Sit down, I said.”

Samantha sat down, her cloak opening with the movement. She never felt the cold though. Her blue gaze on him glinted with anger.

“I wish to explain why I never called upon you,” Rudolf told her.

“An explanation is unnecessary.” Samantha forced an insincere smile onto her face.

“Yes, I know,” Rudolf agreed. “I had an emergency.”

“A six-month emergency?”

“I needed to settle my mother and my daughter—”

“You have a daughter?” Samantha interrupted, surprised by his words.

“Interrupting is impolite,” Rudolf said.

Samantha dropped her gaze to the gazebo’s floor and noticed the star ruby had deepened into the color of blood. Was she in danger from the prince? She couldn’t credit that. Perhaps her heart—

“As I was saying,” Rudolf continued, running a hand through his black hair in apparent frustration, “I needed to settle my mother and daughter on the estate I purchased. Several other problems surfaced then.”

“I understand.” Samantha started to rise.

“I have not dismissed you,” Rudolf said, his voice stern with authority.

Samantha stared in surprise at him. Who did he think he was? The bloody King of England? And then she realized that, as a royal, no one had ever refused him anything. Apparently, the prince had led a parochial life. She would love to teach him a lesson, but she was getting engaged and had no time for games.

“You will postpone announcing your betrothal,” the prince told her.

“I will do no such thing.”

“You do not love this Alexander Emerson,” Rudolf said.

“You know nothing about me,” Samantha shot back.

“I know you are as delicate as a Bulgarian rose and as mysterious as Asian jasmine,” Rudolf said, the hint of a smile touching his lips.

“Are you proposing marriage?” she challenged him.

“I cannot offer marriage at this time,” he said. “I want to become better acquainted with you, which I cannot do if you are betrothed to another man.”

“You want me to cancel my betrothal so that you can become better acquainted with me?” Samantha echoed, arching an ebony brow at him.

Rudolf nodded. “That is correct.”

“Your Highness, have you been indulging in spirits?”

“Help. . .”

Samantha whirled around and stared at the woodland behind the gazebo. She glanced at the prince, who was also staring at the woodland.

“Help. . .”

Samantha brushed past the prince and hurried as fast as her limp would allow toward the woodland path. Prince Rudolf was two steps behind her.

“You will wait here,” he ordered, grasping her upper arm.

Samantha shrugged his hand off and kept going. Twilight had already descended inside the dense woodland, and she could barely see where she was going.

“Help. . .” The cry seemed to be coming from behind them now.

Samantha whirled around in time to see an enormous man cock a pistol at Prince Rudolf. “No,” she cried, starting toward them. Someone grabbed her from behind, but she stomped her assailant’s foot with the heel of her boot.

“Oww, she broke my toes,” a man cried.

“For Gawd’s sake, she don’t weigh more than a few ounces,” a second man said.

“She weighs enough to make me a Hopping Giles,” the first man replied.

“Igor.” Samantha fixed her gaze on the giant with the pistol.

The giant flicked a glance at her and said to the prince, “Your ladybird remembers me.”

“You are not easily forgotten,” Prince Rudolf said. “Release the woman before you shoot me. She has no part in my disagreement with Vladimir.”

Igor remained silent for a moment. “I cannot release her now that she has recognized me, but I will not murder a prince, either. If Vladimir wants you dead, he will need to do it himself.” He gestured to the path, ordering, “Turn around and start walking.”

“I’m not going anywhere,” Samantha cried, her panic rising. “I’m announcing my betrothal tonight.”

“I’m sorry,” Prince Rudolf said, “but you are not a princess. Igor would suffer no qualms about shooting you.”

Igor pointed the pistol at her as if to emphasize the prince’s words. Samantha curled her lips at him but fell into step beside the prince.

With the two men in the lead and Igor pointing the pistol on their backs, Samantha and Rudolf walked through the woodland. Her limp slowed them down, but fifteen minutes later they emerged from the woods and saw a coach waiting on the road. The sun had set outside the woodland, and dusk was rapidly darkening into night.

One of the men opened the coach door and gestured them inside. Samantha hesitated, saying, “I really must protest—”

Igor leveled the pistol at her, and Samantha climbed into the coach. The prince climbed in and sat beside her.

Igor slammed the door. A moment later, the coach started up.

“I’m sorry for involving you in this,” Rudolf said, putting a comforting arm around her. “I promise to rescue you from death.”

Samantha looked at him. His handsome face was barely visible within the darkness of the coach. “I’m getting engaged.”

“Not tonight.” Prince Rudolf gave her a satisfied smile.

Samantha leveled a disgruntled look on him and, whirling away, fell back against him.

She felt the prince’s arms going around her and jerked herself into an upright position. After giving him a warning look, she turned away. This time she held on to the edge of the seat lest she fall on the floor or the prince’s lap.

Samantha pulled her fur-lined cloak tightly around herself. How had she managed to get herself involved in this untenable situation? More important, how would she extricate herself?

She had passed her entire eighteen years living in the shadows cast by her talented older sister, who wanted revenge, and her vibrant younger sister, who wanted fun.

Nobody ever noticed her, and she had never thought she would be fortunate enough to marry and have her own family.

Along had come Alexander Emerson, who wanted to make amends for his father’s crimes against her family. Alexander didn’t love her, but he would have made a good husband.

And now? Even if she survived this, her reputation would be ruined. No man would marry her after she had disappeared with a Russian prince, not even Alexander Emerson. To think her dream had been within her grasp, and now it was slipping through her fingers . . .

Samantha lost control of her emotions. Tears streamed down her cheeks, and then a sob escaped her throat.

“I am sorry,” Prince Rudolf whispered against her ear.

Samantha felt his arm around her shoulder, pulling her close. His breath was warm on the side of her cheek, and his sandalwood scent teased her senses. She turned toward him and saw the handkerchief he was holding out to her.

Regaining control of herself, Samantha lifted the handkerchief out of his hand. “I apologize for crying. Weeping never solved a problem.”

“Tears purge the soul of negative humors,” the prince said. “I know you are frightened, but we will have an opportunity to escape.”

“I fear nothing, Your Highness, not even Igor,” Samantha told him, feigning courage. “I have no intention of waiting for an opportunity to escape. Douglases make their own luck.” Even in the darkness, she saw the white of his teeth when he smiled at her bravado.

“What shall we do?” the prince asked. “Leap out of a moving coach? We would only kill ourselves.”

“We’re going to die anyway,” she reminded him.

“I think not.”

“If I wasn’t with you,” Samantha asked, “what would you do?”

Rudolf smiled at her. “I would leap out the door.”

“Let’s do it, then.”

“The violin will injure you in the leap,” Rudolf told her. “You will need to leave it behind.”

Accustomed to the darkness now, Samantha looked him straight in the eye. “Your Highness, I and my violin are going out that door. With any luck, I can make it back to the duke’s residence in time to save my reputation and my betrothal.”

“Very well, but I will carry the violin,” Rudolf acquiesced. “Listen carefully to my directions. When I open the door, you must jump at an angle away from the direction the coach is traveling. Tuck in your head, arms, and legs so you will not be run over. Roll away from the road when you hit the ground. Do you understand?”

Samantha made no reply. His words “so you will not be run over” echoed within her mind. The memory of excruciating pain flittered through her mind. Panic and dread paralyzed her resolve to escape the coach.

“Do you understand?” the prince asked again, yanking her free of her memory.

Samantha nodded and repeated his directions. “Jump away from the coach, tucking my extremities, and roll when I hit the ground.”

“I will jump immediately after you.” Rudolf reached for the handle, but the door wouldn’t open. He looked at her and shrugged. “Igor locked it.”

“Let me try,” Samantha said, reaching across his body.

“Do you think you have more strength than I?” the prince asked.

Samantha dropped her hand to her lap and sat back against the seat. “Do you have any ideas?”

“None at the moment.” Prince Rudolf gave her a devastating smile.

“How can you be so cheerful in the face of death?” His smile irritated her.

“I am actually relieved,” the prince admitted. “The locked door precludes injury.”

“I am not as delicate as you think,” she said.

“I was considering the chance of injury to myself,” he told her.

Samantha felt the heated blush rising on her cheeks and was thankful for the darkness inside the coach. Dropping her gaze to his mouth, she recalled how his lips felt covering hers. What a fool she’d been to believe that a prince would call upon her. She would never give her imagination free rein again. However handsome the prince was, he was not the man for her.

“Our continued good health does not concern me,” Rudolf told her. “The star inside your ruby is formed by three benign spirits—faith, hope, and destiny.”

“Destiny’s spirit doesn’t seem benign to me tonight,” Samantha said, a rueful tone in her voice.

“Your destiny lies not with Alexander Emerson,” the prince said.

“Apparently, my destiny is to die with you,” Samantha said. “By the way, why does this Vladimir want you dead?”

“That is none of your business.”

Samantha couldn’t believe she was going to her grave without knowing the reason. She had the right to know her murderer’s motive.

“Did Alexander—” The prince hesitated for a moment. “Did Alexander give you the ruby?”

“That is none of your business,” Samantha said, tossing his words back at him.

“Refrain from disrespect, young lady.”

Lifting her nose into the air, Samantha moved to sit on the seat opposite him. The prince moved when she did, joining her there. When she started to switch to her original seat, Rudolf put an arm around her shoulder and pulled her back against his body.

“You cannot escape me, my love,” Rudolf whispered against her ear.

Love? His choice of words wounded her. Was this a cruel joke? Or was he trying to make a doomed woman feel better?

“I apologize for failing to call upon you,” Rudolf said. “Family obligations prevented me from doing what my heart desired.”

Samantha heard the regret in his voice against him. “You owe me no apology or explanation.”

“When I met you, I sensed that you understood great pain,” Prince Rudolf said, his hand on her shoulder beginning a slow caress. “I have suffered pain in my life, too.”

Samantha sighed. “I suppose no one lives without pain, even princes.”

“Especially princes.”

“We may as well become acquainted while we wait to die,” Samantha said. “Tell me about your family.”

“I moved my English mother and my daughter to England after losing my wife,” Rudolf told her. “Upon her brother’s passing, I had inherited Montague House.”

“Losing your wife must have been difficult,” Samantha said. “Do you have brothers or sisters?”

“I have four younger brothers,” Rudolf told her. “Vladimir and Viktor are twins. Then comes Mikhail and Stepan.”

So this Vladimir is his brother. “What about your father?” she asked. “Is he deceased?”

“I prefer not to discuss my father,” the prince said, his voice cold. He softened his tone when he said, “Tell me about yourself, little one.”

“I am a pauper,” Samantha said. “I haven’t a penny to my name.”

“I measure people by the size of their hearts, not their purses.” Rudolf tightened his embrace, brushing his lips against her temple.

“How rare for a prince to possess magnanimous integrity,” Samantha said, a smile in her voice.

The scent of woodsmoke wafted through the air into their coach. Both Rudolf and Samantha looked out the window. In spite of the hour and the cold, many people filled the narrow street.

“We are in London,” Prince Rudolf said.

He reached out to stroke her cheek and then turned her face toward his. She knew he was going to kiss her and closed her eyes as the exotic scent of sandalwood filled her senses.

His lips touched hers, claiming her mouth in a lingering kiss. It melted into another and then another. Only the coach jerking to an abrupt halt broke them apart.

“Stay alert for any avenue of escape,” Rudolf whispered.

“Why am I going to die?” Samantha asked in a quavering voice.

“My brother hates me,” Rudolf told her. “Vladimir takes after our father.”

His admission surprised Samantha, but she had no time to consider his statement. The coach’s door swung open.

“Get out,” Igor ordered.

Rudolf climbed down first and turned to assist her. Looping the instrument case’s leather strap over her shoulder, Samantha steadied herself by grasping the door handle.

No lock, registered in her mind. Samantha snapped her gaze toward the prince.

Rudolf smiled like a boy caught in a prank, earning himself a black scowl. “I saved you from yourself,” he whispered.

“Follow my companions into the house,” Igor ordered, pointing his pistol at them.

Carrying lanterns, the two accomplices led the way into the alley door of the house. Rudolf walked in front of Samantha, who was followed by Igor.

Once inside, Samantha saw that the hallway led into the kitchen. Instead of entering the kitchen, the men with the lanterns opened a door and turned to start down a flight of stairs.

“Owww,” Samantha cried, losing her balance. She pushed the prince out of the way and fell into one of the villains.

“Damned Hopping Giles,” the man cursed, shoving her back.

The force of his shove sent her careening into Igor. Rudolf grabbed and steadied her.

“Touch her again, and you will die,” Rudolf threatened the man.

“I’m shakin’, yer lordship,” he shot back.

The prince growled and moved to grab the man.

“Please, Rudolf, I am uninjured,” Samantha said, placing a restraining hand on the prince’s arm. “If they kill you, I will be alone.”

 

Chapter 2

 

The cellar smelled like a dead skunk. Darkness lay beyond the circle of light cast by the lanterns. Samantha didn’t even want to think about what hid in the cellar’s corners.

“You cannot leave us here,” Rudolf said, turning to the giant. “This room is unhealthy.”

“You won’t live long enough to get sick,” one of the men said.

“You’ll be dead in the morning,” his friend agreed.

Samantha didn’t want to die. She especially didn’t want to die in this cellar.

Rudolf drew her against his body and turned to Igor. “For the lady’s sake, leave us the lantern.”

The big Russian gestured one of his thugs to leave the lantern. Then he reached into his pocket and muttered, “Where are those damned keys?” He looked at his minions and ordered, “You get the spare keys. And you bring vodka, cheese, and bread.”

“You’re gonna feed them?” the second man asked. “That’s a waste of food and drink.”

Igor growled like a bear and stepped toward the man, who dashed up the stairs. “I apologize for the accommodations,” he said to the prince. “Vladimir will arrive in a day or two. Ah, here is your supper.”

“No caviar?”

“My apologies, Your Highness.”

“I always liked you,” Rudolf told Igor. “If you ever leave my brother’s employ, you are welcome to join my household.”

Before the big Russian could reply, one of the villains said, “Dead men don’t keep households.” The man reached for the violin case, adding, “We’ll get a few coins for this.”

“Over my dead body,” Samantha cried holding tight to the violin case, refusing to relinquish it.

Rudolf hit the man’s arm, forcing him to release it. At the same moment, Igor grabbed the man’s throat, lifted him into the air and tossed him toward the stairs.

Choking and wheezing, the man scurried up the stairs just as his friend appeared in the doorway, calling, “I found the keys.”

“Enjoy the vodka, Your Highness.” The big Russian climbed the stairs, closed the door, and locked it.

Samantha watched the prince lift the lantern high and turn in a circle as if scanning the cellar for an escape route. Finding none, he set the lantern down on the floor and looked at her.

“In a day or two, you will experience the dubious pleasure of meeting my brother,” Rudolf said. “I am sorry you have become involved in our quarrel.”

Regardless of the filth, Samantha sat down on the bottom stair. “I cannot believe I am sitting here instead of becoming betrothed,” she complained. “Alexander will never marry me now.”

“You do not love the man,” the prince said. “From what I have heard, he does not love you.”

“Love has nothing to do with marriage,” Samantha told him. “That is a luxury reserved for a fortunate few like wealthy, handsome princes.”

“Thank you for the compliment,” Rudolf said, inclining his head, “but you deserve a husband who loves you.”

“You lied about the coach door,” Samantha said, ignoring his remark.

Now the prince ignored her remark, asking, “What is Hopping Giles?”

Samantha sighed. “Saint Giles is the patron saint of cripples, and Hopping Giles is a derogatory name given to cripples.”

“You are no cripple.”

“Are you blind?” Samantha asked in irritation. “I walk with a limp.”

“Assume a respectful tone of voice when you address me,” Rudolf ordered her. “I am a prince of Russia.”

“You are a royal pain in my arse,” Samantha snapped, and then unleashed the full fury of her anger. “Where do you get the gall to correct my behavior? You disappeared for six months and then barged into my life, upsetting my plans and getting me abducted.”

“I have apologized for that,” the prince said stiffly.

“I haven’t forgiven you.”

Sitting on the stair beside her, Rudolf gave her a confused look, asking, “Isn’t one required to accept an apology?”

Surprised by his question, Samantha turned her head to stare at him. “Your Highness, have you ever apologized to anyone?”

“Not that I can remember.” Rudolf took a swig of the vodka and offered her the bottle.

“I do not indulge in spirits,” Samantha said, shaking her head. “Why does your brother want you dead?”

“Vladimir has always harbored an intense jealousy toward me,” Rudolf answered. “He wants something I have and, apparently, is willing to kill for it.”

Samantha couldn’t understand what was so important that one brother would murder another. After all, the English throne was not at stake. “What do you have?”

“I possess the Kazanov Venus,” he answered.

“. . . Return Venus to her rightful owner or suffer the consequences.” Samantha recalled Igor’s words to the prince on the night of the Emerson ball.

“The Kazanov Venus is a medallion of gold engraved with the goddess Venus holding the hand of her son, Cupid,” Rudolf told her, his pride apparent in his voice. “The piece has belonged to my family for five hundred years, always passed down from father to eldest son. Whoever possesses the Kazanov Venus enjoys prosperity and fertility.”

“Why don’t you let Vladimir borrow it?” Samantha asked.

“My brother has already stolen several of my possessio

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by Kathleen Shoop

ONE

Autumn, 1969

APRIL HARRINGTON FINALLY arrived. Nine hours, straight through. After everything that had happened, she was simply drawn there. She swallowed hard—her raw throat ached as she stared in the direction of her brother, Andrew’s, memorial site. She missed him so much that she hadn’t been able to return since the service. Nothing had been the same since he died in Vietnam.

She stood where the cypress trees bowed to one another, forming a lace canopy of foliage that led the way to the dock. Her mind worked like a camera, snapping shots into neat frames that she filed away in mental drawers. Without trying, she compared all that she saw in present time with all that she recalled about Albemarle Sound. The call of the osprey that nested above the water drew April’s attention upward. What had she done to her life?

She looked down at her French silk wedding dress. She whisked her hands over the fabric, not believing she’d driven straight from New York in full bridal attire. She pulled her veil from her hair, peering at the fine creation that an elderly woman, with her bent, bulbous fingers, had lovingly fashioned for April’s special day.

The great blue herons screeched, their throaty voices as familiar as her breath. The toads, woodpeckers, hawks, and wolves—they set the rhythms of Bliss—the home where her family had spent every summer of her life before she left for college. She was sure she’d made the right decision to abandon Mason at the altar, but sharp guilt that she’d also left her parents at the wedding stabbed at her. She knew her parents would understand her not marrying Mason in the end, but they would not approve of her fleeing the scene.

She had worked so hard at Columbia University. A journalism graduate, she’d found her camera was her favorite way to observe the world, to tell a story. All that work—the elation she’d experienced when she crafted the perfect photo essay or framed the perfect shot, revealing someone’s soul in a single image—had been so fulfilling.

Yet she’d driven away from all of that and more. And standing there, April knew the deep regret of failure was dwarfed by what she’d seen in the photos from Woodstock, what she’d learned about life since Andrew died.

The hollow tone of wood thudding against wood made April head down the dock. The rowboat that had been carved 60 years before, shaped from one of the biggest cypress trees on the property, bobbed at the end of the dock. What would it be doing out of storage this late in the year?

She looked around as though there’d be someone there to answer her thoughts. A stiff wind dropped in and forced the waves to stand in sharp rows like soldiers marching toward the dock, bullying the boat. The gusts pressed April’s dress to her thighs, making it hard to walk. She raised her hand, the veil flapping in the wind. She opened her hand and the veil swirled around her fingertips, and then soared away.

At the end of the dock, she tried to squat, but the dress was too tight. Dammit. The dock creaked beneath her. She reached behind her and worked the buttons. It had been the one concession she’d made to her future mother-in-law; she’d had exquisite antique buttons sewn onto her otherwise decoration-free dress. She’d never imagined she’d be trying to wiggle out of the sheath on her own.

The woodpeckers and crickets performed as April reached up, then down her back to get at the last of the buttons. A wave tossed the rowboat upward, smacking it against the dock again. She took a deep breath and pulled at the dress, scattering buttons around her feet. A fresh wind broke over the mooring and blew the buttons in every direction, dropping them into the water below.

Another crash of the rowboat, and April refocused. She shimmied out of the dress then bent over and yanked the rope that tethered the boat.

The wind dropped away, bringing an eerie stillness that draped the water like a blanket. The boards creaked again. She froze. Her right foot pushed through the wharf. The dock couldn’t be breaking. Her father would never let that happen.

She pulled her foot out of the cavity and resumed pulling the rope. The creaking wood escalated into a whine, then a groan, and before she could react, the end of the dock collapsed, dropping April into the water.

It stung her skin. Its coldness made her feel as though her lungs were solid, unable to allow air in or out. She kicked hard; pulling toward the top, telling herself to be calm, a little chilly water wouldn’t hurt.

As her head broke the surface, the stiff waves pushed her up, throwing her nearly out of the water. She could see the boat was still roped to the piling—it was safer than her.

The sprays fell away as fast as they rose, and she plunged under water, brushing by a submerged tree stump. The punch of the severed cypress on her ribs almost forced her to inhale under water. She willed herself to ignore the pain and swim for the top again. She broke the surface and gasped as she stroked, head out of the water, toward the remaining part of the dock. A figure on the dock startled her. For a second she thought she was hallucinating—a man was there, kicking off his shoes and pulling his shirt over his head.

She waved and yelled before going under again. She struggled to stay above the rough water and fell back under as she felt hands around her. The man grabbed her waist and set her on his hip while he used his free arm to sidestroke toward the narrow beach.

He kicked hard, bumping her body up and down. Eyes squeezed shut, she panted and coughed up water. Once on shore, he threw her over his shoulder and headed to the veranda of the great summer home, where he settled her on the wooden floor. Lying there, her breath began to calm and the dizziness released her. She squinted at the man who was now lifting one of her arms, then the other, then one leg at a time, asking if this hurt or that.

It was him. She couldn’t believe it.

“Hale,” she said. Hale Abercrombie.

He raised his gaze from her leg.

They locked eyes. Those indigo eyes.

“Hi there.”

How long had it been since she’d seen those eyes looking back at her?

He flinched and rubbed his shoulder.

Her teeth chattered. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s nothing,” he said.

April slowly pushed herself to a sitting position. The movements made her inhale sharp and loud. She felt awful to have put him through such trouble. He had scrapes across his broad chest where she must have scratched him. She touched one of his wounds.

He pulled back. “Just a branch. Got a little too close to the tree cemetery.” Hale took her hand and turned it back and forth. His muscular arms tensed and relaxed as he moved. “Does this hurt?”

She drew her hand back and rubbed her arms to stave off the chills. “No, I’m fine.”

“You sure?” he said.

She nodded and pulled her knees up to her chest. This move caused her to groan. She covered the spot where it hurt with her hands.

He put his hand over hers. “Lie back,” he said.

She hesitated as she considered the fact she was dressed in only wet underpants and bra. Then flashes of their childhood came to mind—they’d spent countless summers running the grounds in nothing but bathing suits. He was Hale, her brother’s best friend, not some stranger.

He shifted his six feet two inches to get a closer look. His wavy, golden hair was cut close to his scalp, as any officer’s hair would be. He pressed her ribcage where the red skin was already blackening. She winced.

“Just a bruise,” she said.

“That’s not.”

She lifted her head to see what he was pointing at now. “Appendectomy.”

His eyes widened.

“A few months old.”

He ran his finger down the center of the crosshatched stitching. She pushed it away.

His gaze slid up to meet hers. His expression bore concern. He’d always been serious, but this concern was a darker, more troubled kind of somber. That made sense when she considered what he’d been through with her brother.

“I…” he said.

April felt connected to Hale—she always had. But this was an entirely new sensation—so strong and confusing to her that she had to order herself to stop feeling it. “It’s fine, Hale. Just a bruise.”

She struggled to sit up again. He took her hands and pulled.

“I didn’t mean to touch you. Your scar.” He ran his hand through his hair but wouldn’t look at her.

“You’ve touched me a million times, right?”

He nodded. “A long time ago.”

Indeed, today’s touches had evoked far different feelings than the ones that had marked their childhood.

“You’re okay? Really?” he said.

“Fine. Fuddy-Duddy,” they both said at the same time.

He met her smile with his, making her stomach quiver.

“If you’re okay, I’ll get your suitcase,” he said. “I’m on leave for a month, and I came to fix the kitchen sink. I figured since I was here, I should…well, I ought to check over the place. I took the rowboat out earlier. When the winds kicked up I came back to bring in the boat.” He narrowed his eyes at her. “Your parents—they didn’t say you were coming.”

She looked away. She couldn’t start explaining all that had happened.

“Well, your suitcase.” He started down the steps toward her car.

She scrambled to her feet, grimacing, following him.

She looked down at her barely clad body and stopped. “No luggage.” Heat rose in her cheeks. “Just the dress, my purse, my camera.”

“That white thing on the dock is your dress?”

April nodded. She should at least try to recover some of the precious buttons, if possible. He took her hand. His fingers squeezed hers, sending a chill up her spine. She looked away from him, embarrassed at the excitement that swept through her.

“It’s gone,” he said.

April raised her eyebrows. She felt dizzy.

“The wind took it. Right over the sound.” He whistled and pushed his hand through the air. “Took flight like, well, remember that big old heron we used to call Matilda?”

April smiled. Their familiarity, the tales, the troubles—all of it made her feel as though they’d crossed paths just the day before.

A fresh wind whipped the trees. April and Hale looked to the sky.

Hale’s face grew troubled. “Storm’s coming,” He squeezed her hand once more, then dropped it. She clutched her hand to her body, feeling the spot where the engagement ring no longer encircled her finger.

“I’ll grab my stuff and get the rowboat.” Hale pushed his thumb in the direction of the water.

She looked at his wet jeans, the way they molded to his thick legs. Him saving her was really no big deal. Hale had lived his entire life saving others quietly, so circumspect and aware of what people needed. So old-fashioned, she’d always thought when she was younger. Not much fun, she’d always teased him. Now she just felt grateful—fortunate that Hale had been there to comfort Andrew as he had died, and glad he happened along for her sake a few minutes before.

She couldn’t help comparing Hale to Mason. Mason and his family were philanthropists, but when they sprung into life-saving action, it was with a checkbook, not their bare hands. Who would have jumped in after her if Mason or his parents saw her struggling in the water? They wouldn’t let her drown. They’d send the butler, Henri, but of course. Hale’s family, year-rounders at the sound, had nothing in the way of money, but they were strong, steady, and loyal.

“Go in. Get warm,” Hale said.

She nodded. No clothes, no family, no husband, no job. She needed more than to simply get warm.

“I’ll come back tomorrow to fix the dock and the tile in the blue bathroom,” Hale said.

“Thank you,” she said. “For Andrew. For everything.” She’d thanked him before for having tried so hard to save Andrew, but for some reason, she felt the need to say it again.

He nodded, and then headed toward the sound, humble as ever. April made it as far as the front door and stopped. She couldn’t believe what she saw. Like an old man’s mouth, the pointing between the bricks that faced the grand mansion was gapped and jagged, leaving the house vulnerable to wind and water. She slid her finger into a hole between the red brick and released a shard of aged plaster. She turned it back and forth as though it could explain how or why her father would have neglected to maintain the house.

The wood trim around the door was pitted, the paint lifting off, curling in sections. She examined the sturdy oak door. It seemed to be the only part of the house that wasn’t falling in or marred with age. She swept her finger along the carvings that depicted the nine rivers that fed the Albemarle, still amazed at the gorgeous work a family ancestor had done.

April sighed. She had to be honest about what she was seeing—utter neglect. Regret coursed through her. In living the silver-spoon life in New York, she’d ignored her parents, their pain, what that meant for this house. She hadn’t meant to be blind to what her family needed from her. She should have made sure the house was being kept up—it had been in their family for two centuries, after all.

She shook her head. She knew the cost of the wedding had been high, that her father had had some rough times with some real estate deals over the years, but she never imagined those things meant her parents might let the house suffer. Perhaps they’d just been focused on the inside of the home and had let the outside go until…until what? She didn’t know. The guilt she felt right then twisted at her soul. What had she done?

She turned the knob, but it wouldn’t budge. She checked behind the planter for the spare key. Nothing. She swallowed a sob, and then turned her back on the door. Hale must have the key.

She turned and saw him coming with the boat over his head.

She ran toward him as quickly as she could with the sore ribs. Thunder cracked, making her move faster.

He stopped and nearly buckled under the weight of his haul.

“I can get the bow,” she said.

“I have it,” he said through clenched teeth.

She reached to lift one end, but all she could manage was to blanch at the pain that emanated from her ribs and follow behind like a little kid.

When they reached the veranda, Hale stopped. “We’ll stow it in the crawl space for the night. I have to get going.”

He appeared irritated. He flipped the boat and set it gently down on its bottom. Together, they gripped it, shoulder to shoulder, pushed it under the veranda and reset the lattice that served as a door for the space.

“Oh. The key,” April said.

Hale appeared confused. She ignored his unasked question. She wasn’t ready to explain her flight from the altar to anyone, least of all old-fashioned, always-do-the-right-thing Hale.

He reached into his pocket, and then pressed the key into April’s palm.

The thunder rumbled. She hoped she wouldn’t lose electricity.

Hale looked to the sky again, then began to move quickly, fussing with the lattice again. “Shouldn’t be too stuffy inside the house. I had the windows open earlier.”

She started toward the front steps.

“I’ll let your dad know he doesn’t need me here anymore.”

“No!” April turned back to make sure he got the message.

He snapped his attention to her, eyes wide, before his expression turned to relief.

“Don’t do that.” She straightened and crossed her arms over her chest.

She needed time to sit with her decision, to be strong and decisive when she spoke to her parents next. She needed to reassure them she could handle her life alone.

Hale raised his hands in surrender. “Okay, sure.” He cleared his throat. “Careful there. The fourth stair is disintegrating. I’ll fix that, too.” He started up the stairs to show her the rotting board.

Thunder rumbled and he looked into the sky again so April couldn’t hear everything he said until, “Don’t suppose an accomplished Ivy League lady like you has much time for carpentry.”

April forced a laugh. Hale drew away. Her hands shook. Ivy League lady. Images of Woodstock, of the wedding, of the blurred faces she saw as she ran down the aisle and out the door snapped through her mind as though she were photographing the scene.

“Hey, what’s the matter?” Hale reached out but didn’t touch her.

April shook her head.

“You’re crying.”

She touched her cheek and studied the tiny puddle of tears that she collected on her fingertips.

She felt Hale’s gaze slip down her body, reminding her she was nearly nude.

April covered her chest with one arm. She needed to get into the house so she could fall apart in private. The thunder interrupted their silence, and he abruptly started down the steps.

When he reached the bottom stair, he turned back and poked at something. April moved closer to see what he was doing. Inside a tiny circle of pebbles was a furry, black caterpillar. Hale plucked some grass and sprinkled it into the miniature fortress.

April squinted at him.

He shrugged. “Little guy just needs some shelter. ’Til the storm passes.”

She looked into the mottled sky. “I guess so,” she said, not wanting to embarrass him.

He shrugged. “I’m really glad to see you.”

April nodded. She was comforted, relieved that someone on that day would be happy to see her. The air sizzled with the coming storm. “Come in, stay for tea.” But as she spoke those words, a clap of thunder broke, and he didn’t hear.

He hopped into his Chevy and drove away, his truck winding around the house and disappearing. April pushed the key into the lock and turned it. She opened the door and faced the great marble staircase that rose up from the worn, but still stunning, cypress floors. You’ll be fine alone, she repeated to herself.

The echo of silence between the thunderclaps embraced her. She wondered if it was going to be too quiet at Bliss, if she should have just slipped into a women’s hotel in Manhattan and gotten lost in the crowd. No. She squared her shoulders and lifted her chin. She would go on with her life, and she would do so in memory of Andrew and how right he’d been about everything.

She started toward the kitchen and passed the mirror in the hall, glancing at herself. Some of her golden hair was matted against her face and the rest was plopped on top of her head like a loaf of bread, still held in place with pins and elastics. Strands sprung out all around her scalp from where she’d pulled the veil off. Mascara ringed her eyes like the great owls that serenaded her summer sleeps.

No wonder Hale had run away as soon as he knew April was fine. She considered his Ivy League crack. She knew she’d hear that, coming back to Harrington. But she hadn’t expected it from Hale. She hadn’t expected him to be on leave at all.

April took her attention from her reflection to the empty space beside the mirror. She pinched one of the naked picture hooks between her fingers, twisted, then pulled it out. She turned slowly, surveying the fifteen-foot tall walls.

Her mouth fell open. Every single one of them was gone. Each of her mother’s treasured Albemarle Sound paintings had been removed. Only the silver picture hooks remained, scattered, winking at her in the soft foyer light. Where were they? Maybe Hale knew. She touched her belly where his fingers had traced her scar.

She gasped at the thought of his hands on her, the way he cared for her. She realized the sensation sparked by his touch—this quiet luring—was not new, but now, as a woman, she recognized the sentience for what it was.

There was and had always been a special bond between them even if she’d forgotten it was there for years. She wrapped her arms around her middle. Of course they were connected. They’d shared summers, her brother’s life and, most importantly, his death.

TWO

HALE DROVE THE Chevy back toward the road but had to stop. He wiped his brow with the back of his hand, then strangled the steering wheel to make his hands stop shaking. His heart pounded so hard, he was sure he could track the rushing blood through his body from start to finish. He pushed his head back against the seat and clenched his jaw until the panic stopped.

The thunder. He hadn’t expected it to still bother him so much, not after two years. It had been a while since it had had this affect on him. He willed the terror to subside. It must have been finding April in the water, needing help. Yes, she was fine, but it had scared him. All it took was an unexpected hand on the shoulder, a door slamming, a clap of thunder… Any small, startling thing could trigger fright so vivid that sometimes, he threw up.

Dear God, please make it stop, make it stop. He pressed his feet into the floor of the truck, told himself he was grounded, he was safe. He re-gripped the wheel and said aloud, “You’re in the truck. You’re home.”

Gradually, his heart decelerated, his breath calmed, and the heat that scorched him from the inside out retreated. He could do this. He was okay.

He didn’t know how much time had passed before he opened his eyes. He looked at the back of April’s house. There were lights on upstairs. Had April seen him sitting there? He imagined her calling her dad to tell him she had arrived. He gripped his knee. The lie had been out of his mouth before he’d even consciously formed the thought. He had not been invited to take care of April’s family home.

No. He was on a month’s leave. A chance to get his head straight, his commander had ordered. So he’d come to the only place he might be able to do that…Bliss. The place he’d always found peace and plenty. Hale’s father had died when he was a baby, leaving his mother to cobble a living by watching over all the homes on the sound when the summer season was over. April’s family had become his in too many ways for him to parse. But he never thought he’d have to face April before he was ready to tell her the whole story.

It hadn’t mattered that he was awarded a Silver Star and a Purple Heart. He’d buried the medals inside the sweeping skirt of the giant cypress tree outside Bliss, near Andrew’s memorial. The idea that someone would award him for valor when his bravery hadn’t resulted in saving Andrew, well, Hale knew an empty gesture when he saw it, and he would never forgive himself for being the one who was alive.

He couldn’t sleep at night. Nearly every hour, he shot awake. The sharp screech of the missile hitting the plane rang through his head as though he was still in the rear of the F-14. He would wake standing in the middle of the room, or on the bed, feeling as though he’d just punched out of the plane. There amidst perfect safety he experienced the sensation of the entire seat rocketing out of the plane, his body shuddering as it had the very day it had happened. And as he came back to consciousness, he heard Andrew’s easy tone calmly narrating how he’d maneuvered them away from the missiles. That was what had happened every time, but once. Just once.

The part that affected him most was what happened after punching out. The ground fire. He couldn’t bear to envision it, but couldn’t shake it from his very being. The divot in his leg was nothing compared to the grooves that had been forever worked into his brain, his skin, his soul. Those memories—the missile, the odor of the fire—were creased into his core, which held onto that day, grasped onto the experience, making Hale sure that if he managed to pass a day without Andrew entering into his mind, every cell in his body would still recall his loss.

In fact, the events of that day had left him with the only thing that let them know he was still alive—pain. A fly buzzed near Hale’s ear. He swiped his hand through the air, capturing the insect. He opened his fingers and the fly flipped over on his palm and staggered back into the air, escaping to the back of the truck.

Hale put his hand over his chest. His pulse was even. He drew a deep breath. He would put his mind straight as he’d been ordered to do. He would. He put the truck in gear and started home. Glancing in his rearview mirror, a lightning strike made him jump as it lit the air and revealed the form of April at Andrew’s bedroom window.

His nerves leapt as he considered the attraction toward her sweeping through his body. He pushed away his misplaced feelings. No, April was just his best friend’s sister, and there was never any good to come from something like that. Not when she’d probably been left at the altar, and not when Hale was the reason her brother was dead.

In the kitchen, April threaded her fingers through the metal cabinet handle. She tugged and the hinges pulled right over the screws as though they were made of gelatin instead of metal. Her sadness deepened. What had been going on in this house? Had she spent too many spring breaks and summer vacations in Cayman Island resorts with the Franklins? Had Bliss always been run-down and she just never noticed?

She set the door aside and chugged down several glasses of water. She rubbed her chilled arms and went to find clothes. In her bedroom, she wiggled her toes on the worn Oriental rug. She jiggled the top dresser drawer then tilted it at just the right angle that would allow it to slide out. She dug between half-a-decade old undergarments. Girdles, for goodness sake. She’d sworn those off within the first five minutes of being in New York City.

She tried the next drawer. She held up some plain t-shirts. She was tall and angular and for the first time, seeing the small t-shirts as her only clothing option, she was grateful for her lean lines. Her closet was empty, and she needed pants.

She went to Andrew’s room. The light bulb was burned out, so she used the hall light to illuminate her quest. She excavated his drawers and found jeans she could cut into shorts. She went to the closet. Thunder continued to crash and rumble, bringing bright flashes of lightning with it. She fished through the closet and found an old tie of Andrew’s to use for a belt. She pulled a shirt from the shelf.

She held it to her nose. The aftershave smell she associated with her brother should have been long gone, but in the folds of the fabric, she swore there was a hint of him.

She buried her face in the shirt and sobbed. Her Andrew, her wise, fun-loving brother, had taught her so much about life. But it was his death that had educated her the most, that had helped make it so clear that choosing to marry Mason would mean a lifetime of awful.

She told herself not to cry that leaving him had been right, even if in the short run, it had felt so terrifically wrong. She gathered her new apparel, plucking Andrew’s old Converse sneakers off the closet floor. They would work until she figured out how she was going to reassemble her wardrobe, rework her entire life.

She sat on the edge of the tub while the water ran. She reached for the glass vial with the cut-glass stopper and opened it, inhaling her mother’s homemade orange oil. She turned it into the faucet letting the water carry the emollient into the bath.

Tucked into the water, she poked at the shiny islands of oil that floated on the surface. She patted at the bruise that formed where she’d hit the stump, then traced the appendectomy scar, thinking of Hale’s caring expression as he had stared at it.

This reminded her of the way Mason had gaped at the incision, turning grey, retching and nearly passing out, declining to assist her ever again.

It was true—the stitches had been relatively new. But with years of snapshots flipping through April’s mind, she realized how often he chose to turn away from her needs rather than step toward them.

She reclined further into the tub, her long hair floating like spider legs around her. The warm water cushioned her sore body. She would not let the loss of her almost-marriage feel like a death. Andrew’s absence and the experiences of soldiers who came home injured or simply forgotten were tragic. But April’s life, her loss? She shrugged at the thought. That was nothing.

She hadn’t felt so free in ages. Probably since the summer she’d left for college, when all was hopeful and everything she could imagine was possible. It had been at least that long.

… Continued…

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PROLOGUE

 

Jake had just finished playing a set at Billy’s and was taking a five-minute break. He caught Billy’s eye from across the room, raised his hand, and nodded. Man, he thought, I need a beer. Regardless of the fact that he’d already put back half a dozen and some shots with his brother, celebrating the fact that Megan just popped out kid number two, Jake needed another drink. These days it was all about having a good time, playing his guitar, working for his dad, and taking home some random girl he’d never call back. The pickins were slim, he noticed. Most were locals, though there were a few married chicks from the next town over just visiting to say they checked out the local scene. No one caught his attention tonight. He’d probably be going home alone.

He saw Maddie’s blonde hair weaving through the crowd, with a tray of pints raised in her hands, and appreciated the way her T-shirt clung to her curves. She’s been quiet since she came back from college, he mused. Maybe she decided drama wasn’t her thing anymore. Some said people grew up in college, not that he’d know from experience.

When his mom died, he’d decided to stay in town and work for his dad and brother over at the docks. Madison’s father, Mr. Olsen gave him a job the day after he graduated

high school and Jake was grateful at the time. He needed to keep busy. Mom’s death hit him harder than it had anyone else.

Jake had done everything he could to block out her death. A long drawn out bout with cancer wasn’t the easiest thing to remember. Drinking helped with that, as did fighting anyone and everyone that pissed him off. As that thought passed through his mind, he noticed a small ruckus starting in the middle of the bar. Marty Donaldson and Nick Jones were mouthing off to a few out-of-towners. One thing led to another and the stranger clocked Jonesy good. He hit the floor cold.

Insanity erupted instantly. Although Jake was glad he was out of the way of the flying chairs, elbows, and drinks, he thought it might be fun to join the fracas. But it wasn’t until he saw some idiot elbow Maddie to the ground that he jumped into action.

Leaping from the makeshift stage, he grabbed the guy who’d hit her. Jake’s six foot two stature easily bested the other guy by almost half a foot. It didn’t matter if it was an accident or if she was just at the wrong place at the wrong time, Jake fisted the guy’s collar, clocked him with a head- butt, and threw him into the wall. The crash was loud. The guy hit the photographs on Billy’s wall. That guy’s gonna get it, Jake thought. Billy was so proud of those photographs. Apparently his niece, the one who lived in Connecticut, took them. Billy hung up every one she sent. When he heard Billy yell, he turned to scan the room for Maddie. Fighting was going on everywhere and she was sure to get trampled.

He looked all over, shoving people out of the way, punching his way through. Finally, he found her cowering under a table with a towel wrapped around her arm. “Maddie, you okay?”

“Yeah. Son of a bitch. These guys piss me off. What the hell?” She flinched at the sound of breaking bottles.

“You’re bleeding.”
“So are you.”

Absently, he lifted a hand to his eyebrow. “I’m fine. Are you alright?”
“I’m okay. Just a small piece of glass. I pulled it out. I’ll live.”

They both looked over to the entrance. The Sheriff had shown up.
Jake grabbed her arm. “Time to go, Maddie.”
“What? Why? I didn’t do anything.”
“Yeah but I did and you’re bleeding. Let’s go.”
Jake pulled her up and led her by the hand through the bar to the stage Billy had set up. He grabbed his guitar and guided her out the back entrance. Pulling his keys out of his pocket he yelled, “Get in!”

Maddie jumped into the passenger side of his new pickup and held on as Jake peeled out of the parking lot.

 

CHAPTER 1
Five years later

Jake pulled into the parking lot at Billy’s, turned off the ignition, and dropped his head to the steering wheel. He wasn’t sure how much more remembering he could take. When Madison left two years ago, she’d taken every dream, every hope, every future Jake had planned.

He knew it had been too long for him to still be too broken to mend. Waiting two years for her to come back, just so he could confront her, was tragic and sad. But still, there he sat, trying to convince himself she’d come back, just as he had everyday for the past two years. When he was finally able to shake the past from his head, he threw his worn baseball hat on the seat and climbed out of his pickup. The graveled lot was wet with early summer rain. As he walked into the bar, Jake’s eyes couldn’t help but search the tables with tired eyes for Maddie’s familiar face. The same face that had haunted his dreams the past two years—a face that burned in his memory with a mix of emotions. She wasn’t there and despite the promises, she probably would never come back. He knew it, but that didn’t stop him from looking anyway.

Danny watched his brother walk in. There wasn’t much he could do for him but buy him a drink. Everyday, Jake would come to the bar after his shift and sit for a while. All Danny could do was show up and take part in the charade. If anyone ever asked Jake what he was looking for, he’d respond, “Nothing. Just having a drink.” But Danny knew better. Jake was looking for her and though he didn’t show it on the outside, there were small clues that let Danny know his brother was broken.

“Hey Jake! When ya gonna play us a song?” Billy, the owner of the bar would ask just about everyday even though he knew the answer.

“What’s up Billy? You know I don’t really play anymore.”

“Well, let me know when you do. The place is a tomb since you dropped the guitar.”

“Yeah, yeah. I’ll let you know.”

The conversation rarely varied. Sometimes there was a “yo” where the “hey” should be but other than that, it was more of a greeting than anything else.

Billy had been there when Jake began to crumble. He knew the how’s, why’s, and who’s. They all did. It was a small town, after all. Mostly, they all just watched and waited for Jake to wake up.

As Jake caught his brother’s eye and walked over to him, Danny noticed his little brother’s normally jet-black hair was littered with sprinkles of gray and his pale blue eyes were bloodshot. When did that happen? Not that Danny could really judge. He’d let himself go a bit over the past couple of years and carried twenty extra pounds around his middle that he couldn’t seem to get rid of. Still, he hated the fact that Jake looked so serious and dejected all the time. So much had happened over the past five years, it was hard to see all the little things.

“What’s up, Danny?” Jake’s voice pulled Danny out of his reverie as he slid into the booth across from him.

Danny passed Jake the beer he’d ordered for him. “Nothin’ much, Brother. Lookin’ a little tired around the eyes, Jakey.”

“I’m fine. They got me workin’ hard lately. How’s Megan? The boys?”

“They’re good. Been wondering when you’re gonna come around. She’s been playing around in the kitchen and she’s dying to test out her newly developed kitchen skills on someone other than us. You should come by for dinner one night.”

Megan was Danny’s high school sweetheart. They fell in love the minute they laid eyes on each other in the eleventh grade. Married right out of high school, they started a family right away and had two beautiful boys to show for it. It was a life Jake had wished for with the fervor of a preacher promising his flock a heaven bound exit.

“I know. Just been busy.”

Busy. Jake was always busy, Danny thought. Busy letting life pass him by. Busy working. Busy drinking. Busy remembering a girl that wasn’t good for him, and busy practicing a needless apology for when and if she ever returned.

“You can’t avoid us forever.”

“Who’s avoiding? I told you, I’ve been busy.” Jake avoided eye contact as he took a long drink of his beer.

“Busy, right. Didn’t you have a date with that girl from the island? What was her name? Charlene?”

Looking down at his beer, Jake prepared himself for where he knew this was eventually going. “Charlotte. And that was a month ago.”

“How’d that turn out?”

Jake’s knees began to shake as he drummed his fingers on the table. “It didn’t.”

Danny took a deep breath. He knew it would be no good trying for eye contact but he began anyway. “Look, Jakey, when are you gonna let this go? She’s gone. She isn’t coming back and if you ask me, good riddance. She wasn’t good for you then and, God forbid she comes back, she won’t be good for you now. And after all this time, you’ve got to know none of it was your fault. I know I can’t relate. Lord knows I wouldn’t want to. But, Jake, it’s been two years. You have to let her go. You have to let both of them go.”

A dark cloud passed through Jake’s eyes as he white- knuckled the grip on his beer bottle. The muscles in his jaw tightened and Danny waited for the explosion.

Jake spoke through clenched teeth without looking his brother directly in the eye. “No one asked you. She is none of your business. I am none of your business. I’ll come around when I have time. But for now, like I said, I’m busy.”

Jake downed the last of his beer, stood up, grabbed his keys, and took one last look around the bar. “You of all people should know when to let things lie. I’m sick of the pity, I’m sick of the whispers, and I am sick to death of you and dad and everyone else treating me like I’m some sort of fragile thing. I am, in case you hadn’t noticed, a grown man. I can take care of myself. Just leave it, Danny. Just leave it, her, me—leave everything alone.”

“Jake…” Danny called out as his brother turned and walked out of the bar but it was no use. Jake tuned him out. Jake always tuned him out. And now all he could do was slip back into the charade and play by his brother’s rules.

Billy walked over and sat down across from Danny. It took a few moments and a few pulls from his beer before he spoke.

“What happened?”
“Nothing, Billy.”

“Did you mention her?”
Danny played with his pint glass. “Maybe.”

“Good for you. Someone had to. And with Jake’s temper, I’m sure glad it was you and not me. You’re lucky he didn’t clock you.”

“Yeah, I know. I just can’t stand the way he can’t get past her. It’s been two damn years, Billy. She’s trouble, she’s always been trouble and I hope to God, for all our sake, she never comes back. Especially after what happened. She wasn’t there when she needed to be. Damn it.” His fist hit the table a little harder than he wanted, garnering glances from a few patrons of the bar.

Danny dropped his head and rubbed his hands over his face. “He just can’t wrap his head around the fact that it wasn’t his fault. No matter how tragic, he isn’t to blame.  And he forgets that he isn’t the only one hurting over all of it. He’s lost in his own little world.”

Billy leaned in to catch Danny’s eye. “I hear ya. Jake’s just gotta figure this out for himself. Though, to be honest, in all my years, I’ve never seen a boy fall apart like he has, especially over a girl.”

“It’s not just her that broke him.”

“I know. He’s just not the same Jake he was before.” “Some might say that’s a good thing, Billy.”

“True enough. All that fighting he done before, all that anger. At least one good thing came out of this.”
“Oh yeah? What’s that?”
Billy laughed his big laugh, the one that made him sound like Santa Claus. “At least she took the fight out of him!”

Danny’s eyes crinkled when he smiled. Billy noticed he was looking more and more like his father every day. “You’re right there, Billy. I just wish he had something to fight for.”

“She messed him up, that she did. How’s Megan dealing with it?”

“Megan’s fine. She just wishes she could do something. Jake won’t even look at her. He won’t come over. He won’t answer the phone if she calls. He won’t see her when she stops by. When he looks at her, all he sees is Maddie.

“We all want to move on, but for some reason we’re glued to Jake and his memories. I’m beginning to think none of us will move on if he doesn’t and I am sick of walking on eggshells over ghosts.”

“I never understood how two sisters could be so completely different.” Billy said. “Your Megan is an amazing woman. Her sister, however, was quite the manipulator. And after how she left, it’s a wonder he hasn’t gone completely nuts.”

Danny knew, all too well, that Billy was right. Both he and Megan had tried to convince Jake not to get involved with Maddie. Jake just wouldn’t listen and Madison just did what she always did. What no one understood was how Jake couldn’t see it. He’d known her for years. He knew what she was capable of and he knew she was no good.

Maddie and Megan moved to town when Megan and Danny were in eleventh grade. Maddie was in eighth and Jake was a freshman. She rebelled right away, unhappy that Mr. and Mrs. Olsen decided to move their brood from Philly to this podunk town on the coast of South Carolina. Mr. Olsen accepted a job running the docks. He was a hard worker and every one in town respected him right away. Mrs. Olsen ran the PTA, organized town picnics, and helped bring life back to this sleepy shore town. But Maddie wasn’t having any of it.

She started smoking, cutting classes, hanging out with the wrong type of kids. She did every thing she could to break her poor mom’s heart. Maddie was beautiful—movie star beautiful—and she knew it. By the time she hit high school, she’d developed a reputation for getting what she wanted. She dated a lot, slept around, and ran away twice before graduation. At one time, even though her sister was dating him, Maddie tried to seduce Danny. It all backfired, however, and after she graduated, she set her sights on Jake. He wasn’t interested, though. At least not then. And it made Maddie crazy. She went off to school and Jake went to work with his father and brother for Mr. Olsen at the docks. They all thought they were rid of her. She, of course, came back every summer, raised hell then left for school again, leaving everyone to clean up her mess. Then one night, a few years later, Jake looked twice and that was all the invitation Maddie needed to strike.

She was working at Billy’s bar as a waitress and, for a time, the guys who hung out there didn’t come for the food or the drink. They came to see Maddie. Billy knew she was no good but who could argue when she was filling the bar every night she worked? The night Jake noticed her, he was playing guitar on a Friday night like he had been since he was seventeen. No one really knows how it happened but Jake woke up beside her the next morning and sealed his fate for the following five years of shit.

“She’s a bitch,” Danny grumbled. “And she fucked up my brother. He’s a damned mess and there ain’t nothin’ I can do about it.”

“Sure there is. You just have to be there for him. Wait it out. He’ll eventually come to know what we’ve all known for years. And if she ever walks into this town again, kick her ass back to whatever hell she calls home now. She’s not welcome here. Not in this bar, not in this town.”

With that Billy downed the rest of his beer and walked back behind the bar. He was right. Maddie would be back and whether or not she decided Jake was worth her time, she would crush whatever remained of his heart and not think twice about it. That was her way.

Resigned to “wait it out” for now, he dropped a ten spot on the table, grabbed his keys, and drove  home to the  family that needed him and the normalcy that he needed.

 

CHAPTER 2

 

As Jake was driving home, he cursed his brother and the memory of Madison Olsen. Two years and no word from her. The day she left, he knew she was the devil everyone thought she was. He thought he knew her like no one else did. They spent three years together. Not all of it good, but not everyone can have a perfect life like Danny and Megan. When was Danny going to realize he didn’t need to take care of him anymore? When would he figure out not everyone needed perfection in their lives?

Jake pulled into his driveway, took the keys out of the ignition, and leaned back in the leather seats of his new truck. With his eyes closed he allowed the memory of that first night with Maddie to flood his brain…

***

Maddie laughed as he peeled out of the parking lot. “Jacob Morgan, you are crazy!”

Her laugh was nice and she seemed to have calmed down a bit since the last time she’d rolled into town. He’d have to ask her about it one day. For now, he just wanted to get the hell out of there before Sheriff Finley showed up and decided Jake was the cause of the fight. The assumption wouldn’t be unfounded, of course. He had been a bit of a renegade lately. His temper was becoming legendary.

Jake glanced at her sideways. “How’s the arm?”
“Fine. Stopped bleeding already.”

“Regardless, when we get back to my place, you should clean it out.”

“Look at you, Dr. Morgan! Awfully presumptuous, aren’t we? Going back to your place? I’m not that kind of girl.”

He rolled his eyes and shook his head. “Sure, Maddie. I forgot you’re a good girl.”

She took his assumption as a challenge. She’d spent years trying to get Jake’s attention and she wasn’t going to let this opportunity slip. “For your information, I have changed.”

“So you keep trying to tell everyone. Look, if you want me to drop you off at your parent’s, then I will. Just say the word.”

Maddie kept silent and Jake drove back to his place. When they pulled up he turned off the car, grabbed his guitar, and jumped out. He was halfway up the walkway when he realized Maddie was still sitting in the car.

“What are you doing? Are you coming in or not?”

With a playful huff, she hopped out of the truck. “You know Jake, I am a lady and as such, I expect a man to open the door for me.”

“You do, huh? I’ll remember that next time.” He turned away and reached for the lock with his key.

“Next time?”

“Figure of speech.”

“Right.”

They walked into the house—a small bungalow Jake bought a few years back. It wasn’t much but the mortgage was cheap and it served his purpose. He turned on the lights and dropped his keys on the table before walking back to his bedroom and placing his guitar on its stand. When he returned, Maddie was standing in the living room looking around.

“Nice place, Jake.”

“Thanks. I bought it from your dad. Let me get something for that cut.”

“It’s fine, really.”
“Then it will be even more fine when it’s cleaned up.” He walked into the bathroom, grabbed the peroxide, antibiotic cream, and a bandage. He motioned for her to sit at the kitchen table. “Have a seat.”
Maddie did as she was told and watched as Jake poured peroxide on a cotton ball. She flinched and he laughed.

“Peroxide doesn’t hurt you know. It just bubbles a bit.”

“I know. Just get it over with.”

She turned her head as he went to work on her arm. The peroxide was cool and not at all painful but she still refused to look. It wasn’t until he patted her arm and told her he was finished that she looked at his handy work.

“Not so bad, huh?” he said. “You should be fine in a few days.”

“Thanks. It feels better already. You have anything to drink?”

“Sure. What do you want? I have beer, whiskey, water…” He opened the refrigerator door and scanned its contents.

“Whiskey would be fine.”

“Whiskey, huh? You don’t strike me as a girl who drinks whiskey.”

“There’s a lot you don’t know. Pour me a double and I’ll introduce you to the new me.”

He noticed the glint in her chocolate-brown eyes as he grabbed two glasses and a bottle from the cabinet then moved them to the couch. He poured the drinks and flipped on Sports Center. Pulling his cell out of his pocket he noticed a couple of text messages from his brother. I’ll get back to him tomorrow, Jake thought as he dropped the phone on the side table.

When he finally sat down, he made sure to leave room between him and Maddie. He still wasn’t sure what was going to happen, but he had a feeling it was going to be a late night.

“So Jake, nice to see you’re still playing at Bill’s. You’re good. Have you ever thought of playing someplace bigger? Even the next town over? Tons of tourists and vacationers there.”

“Nope. I like playing here. If they want to hear me, they’ll come and listen. Hold on.”

Maddie was quiet as Jake turned up the television and listened to the baseball scores from the day. The Mets beat the Phils, the Yanks beat the Sox, and Peterson was now on the DL.

She remembered how much Jake loved baseball. Scouts were interested back in high school when he pitched. Then his mom died his senior year and he lost interest in playing. Everyone was shocked he walked away from it so easily. And instead of going to college after graduation, he signed up for a job at the docks.

“You ever think about playing again? You were good in high school. Everyone thought so.”

He looked at her sideways. “Play what? Baseball?”

“Yeah.”
His attention went back to the scores. “That was years ago, Maddie. I don’t play anymore. No big deal.”

“But you were good enough to go pro. You had a scholarship.”

“And? There are more important things in life than baseball. I’m happy now. Life treats me good. And not everyone needs to escape.”

He could tell his tone irritated her a bit. Maddie’s main goal in life was escaping this little town and doing something with her life. Like so many others, she was back with nothing to show for her time away but a piece of paper stating that she graduated from some random college. No job, no prospects, no found dreams. The grass was always greener and all that.

“Sorry. That was uncalled for.”

“No, no. It’s fine. You’re right. I escaped. Then I realized I needed to come back and make things right.”

“Make what right?”

“Jakey, you know what a terror I was. I needed to make it up to my family, my friends. Too bad no one believes me. They keep waiting for my head to spin around and vomit lies all over them. It’s fine, though. They’ll see.”

Her words gave him pause and he looked at her with new eyes. Maybe she really was trying to change. He noticed the sincerity and determination in her voice and thought twice about his motives behind bringing her back here.

“Look, Maddie. If you want to go home, I’ll drive you.”

“Who said anything about going home?”

“You aren’t stupid. You’ve got to know why I brought you back to my place.”

“You mean you didn’t just want to play doctor?”

The play on words was almost too much and he got a funny feeling in his stomach as she inched closer to him on the couch.

“Well, maybe a little bit,” he said as he took the empty glass out of her hand and placed it next to his on the coffee table. Then he switched off the television.

“I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t want to be.”

“But I thought you were trying to change?”

He was playing with her hair, looking at her mouth. “Change, yes. And part of that is getting you to finally notice me.”

“I always noticed you, Maddie. I also noticed everyone else was noticing you.”

She stood and walked over to look at some photos hanging on the wall. “Well, what if you’re the only one I want to pay attention now?”

“Well, you’ve succeeded. I’m paying attention. I’m noticing a whole lot.”

Walking across the room, he grabbed her elbow and turned her to face him. His hands slipped around her hips and settled behind her and as she reached up to playfully bite his ear. He squeezed her breast, causing a quiet moan to escape her lips. Her breath on his neck sent shivers down his spine. With her firmly in his hands and his eyes locked with hers, he stepped forward guiding her backward toward the wall. He interlocked his fingers with hers and slowly slid her arms up the wall holding them in place firmly with his left hand. With his right, he ran his fingers down the side of her body and across her stomach.

Tucking two fingers behind the button of her jeans, he tugged her to him, pushed his knee between her legs, and forced them apart. As his tongue ran softly across her lips, his thumb flicked open the button and pulled the zipper slowly down. Her head fell back against the wall as his fingers teased the top of her panties. He buried his head into the crook of her neck as his two of his fingers found a home. Letting go of her hands, he grabbed her chin, forcing her to look him in the eye as his fingers explored her.

Her arms fell to her sides and her fists clenched as the knot in her belly tightened. In a rush of adrenaline, she cried out, grabbed the belt loops of his pants, and pulled him against her.

His fingers frantic, his eyes closed, and his body moist with sweat, he kissed her hard. When he pulled back, she looked at him and whispered, “Now.”

She leaned in to kiss him and that was all it took for her to seal his fate. As much as he had tried to be distant, she closed the gap with that kiss. When he woke up next to her the following morning, she had changed his mind about her completely.

***

Pulling himself out of his memories, Jake got out of the truck and walked into his house. Grabbing the nearly empty bottle of Jack from the counter, he walked toward the back of the house. He finally turned on the lights when he reached his bedroom. Unscrewing the cap, he took a long pull. His eyes were drawn to his old guitar sitting on the stand, covered in an inch of dust. Stepping over the piles of laundry that littered his bedroom floor, he picked it up and stood in front of the mirror. He lifted the strap over his head and let the Gibson fall in front of him. It still fit as it had two years ago. The last time he played was the night before his life went to hell. His eyes burned with the memory. His throat burned as he poured the rest of the alcohol. He removed the strap and held the guitar by the neck. His eyes shifted to the stand in the corner, but as pain and heartache overtook him, he lifted the guitar above his head and smashed it into his reflection.

CHAPTER 3

 

Sun streaming through his bedroom window stirred Jake from his restless sleep. He shaded his eyes from the unwelcome intrusion and rolled his neck, trying to stop the throbbing that had begun creeping up from his shoulders. Tangled in his sheets, he pulled a pillow over his head and closed his eyes, not quite ready to face the day. He had almost forgotten what he’d done the night before. It wasn’t until he finally decided to pull himself out of his bed and walk over to the dresser that he stepped on a piece of glass and remembered.

“Son of a bitch.” He yanked a piece of mirror from his heel. Realization dawned as he looked around—he had, once again, let memories control him. For once he’d just like to be able to think about the past without feeling like he was going mad.

He surveyed the damage. The shattered mirror could be replaced, but the destroyed guitar kicked him in the gut. He fought the pain that threatened to overtake him again and refused to allow it to weaken him as it had last night. Instead, he carefully walked across his bedroom to the bathroom and took a shower. He needed habit to dictate his days or he knew he would lose it. It was important to keep busy and, regardless of his inner demons, he had to get to work. He was already running late.

Stepping outside, he felt the sun wash over him with teasing irony. He’d long since given up trying to understand why, if the day was so bright and the sun was so warm, he felt dark and cold inside.

As he backed out of his driveway, he thumbed his cell and it blinked to life. Chirps from missed calls and text messages filled the cab. Danny. His brother was probably calling to apologize or explain—or whatever. Danny was good at all that. He was the politician in the family. He could get out of anything with a few smooth words. Jake? Not so much. He was more of a fist guy. Or at least he used to be. Now, he just didn’t care. Again memories haunted him…

***

“Jakey, you want a drink?”

“Sure. A Jack and Coke would be great.”

He watched Maddie walk back towards the bar. They’d only been dating a few months but he was sure she was the one. His brother had given him a few not-so-subtle “be careful” talks. Apparently, Jake was the only one convinced that she had changed. Why couldn’t anyone else see it? Even her parents and sister were skeptical. Billy was skeptical but he’d kept her on her because she was one hell of a waitress. And Billy wasn’t known for giving second chances. At least that was something.

As Jake watched her make her way through the labyrinth of the normal Friday night crowd, he noticed a few guys walk in that he didn’t recognize. They couldn’t be more than twenty-one, twenty-two, and by their rowdy entrance, they’d been partying awhile.

Maddie appeared in front of him with his drink and gave him a quick peck on the cheek before walking over to the table where the new guys sat. As she was taking their order, one of them looked at her with a bit more than fleeting interest before leaning over to whisper to his friend. After a big laugh from the two of them, the man who had whispered caught Maddie’s attention. As he talked to her, a red flush crept to her cheeks and her lips pulled tight. Before Jake could decide what to do she walked away from the table. Shaking his head, he convinced himself it was probably nothing and started his second set.

In the middle of his second song, Maddie dropped off the order at the table and flinched when one of the guys grabbed her wrist as she began to walk away. He pulled her into his lap. She struggled to stand back up. The look on her face was indecipherable, but it was all the prodding Jake needed. He stopped playing, mid-song, carefully placed his guitar down on the stage, and strode over to Maddie and the group of guys. A dangerous calm kept him focused.

Flexing his hands, he struggled to hold his anger in. “Is there a problem here?”

His sudden exit from the stage had caught the attention of the bar patrons and it was deathly quiet as he spoke.

The man who had grabbed Maddie laughed. “Nope. No problem, dude. Why don’t you go play your guitar? I’ve got it covered here.”

Looking at the man through narrowed eyes, Jake smirked. “I think there is a problem, dude. I think you need to let her go.”

“She’s fine. Aren’t you Maddie? At least you were the last time we hung out.”

He knows her name? Do they know each other? No, Jake thought, she probably just introduced herself when she first went to the table. But the innuendo was as pointed as a knife.

Resting his hands on the table, Jake leaned in and did what he could to control himself. “I told you. Let her go. Now.”

“I don’t think so, man. We were just catching up. Isn’t that right, Maddie?”

Jake grabbed her and pulled her away from the guy. “Go, Maddie. Back to the bar. I’ll take care of this.”

“No, Jakey. Really. It’s all right. I went to college with these guys. Mark was just saying hello.”

Jake never broke eye contact with Mark. “It’s not all right. Go. Now,” he said, through clenched teeth.

Maddie protested a bit but what she saw in Jake’s face must have convinced her it would do no good. He was angry and, more than likely, he was about to zone everything out but the man and his friends. There was no reasoning with him when he got like this.

“You guys need to leave,” he snarled.

The rest of people in the bar were staring, knowing what would happen if these guys decided to stay. Billy was already on the phone to the sheriff.

“Nah. I think we’re going to stay, Jakey.” Mark said as he turned to give Maddie a head to toe once over. “We like the view in here.”

That was all Jake needed to hear. He grabbed Mark, lifted him out of the chair, and tossed him to the ground. Mark’s three buddies sprang up, and, quickly processing his odds, Jake went for the biggest one first. He knocked him into the next table with two hits to the face. Another swung at Jake but wasn’t quick enough with his punch to do any damage. Jake hit him square in the jaw with an empty beer mug he’d grabbed from the table. The last guy was helping Mark up off the floor. Jake stepped over, grabbed Mark, and started punching him in the face. The splatter of blood did nothing to detract from his focus. He didn’t hear Maddie screaming or the sheriff pull up. He barely felt anything as Billy pulled him off and the deputy slapped cuffs on his wrists. When he looked down, he saw Mark was unconscious and bloodied, his friends backing away.

Sheriff Finlay said, “Time to go, Jake.”

The last thing Jake saw as he was walking out was the glare Maddie threw at him. The last thing he heard was the ambulance pulling up as he ducked into the police car.

***

Jake shook the memories from his head and looked back at his phone.

“Not ready to deal with you today, Danny. Let’s just keep the personal out of it,” he spoke to himself as he threw the phone on the passenger seat without checking any of the messages.

Despite his inner demons, Jake was happy the sun was starting to peek through the clouds this morning. It was going to be hot, according to the weatherman, but Jake loved the heat. It made him just tired enough to crash when he got home. He didn’t think when he slept and, for that, he was grateful. He was tired of being held prisoner by his memories.

Halfway to work, he passed a girl on the side of the road kicking the tires of a Jeep. Through his rearview he noticed one of the rear tires was flat. Checking his watch, he pulled a U-turn and parked behind her. The first thing he noticed was her hair. It was wild and curly and the color of chocolate. Amused by the fact that she was yelling at the Jeep while trying to find a signal on her cell phone, Jake chuckled to himself as he turned off his truck and stepped onto the road. “You know, kicking the tire won’t fix it.”

She gave him the once over with her honey-colored eyes and her annoyance was quickly replaced by wariness. “I’ll be okay. Just have to make a call.”

“Well, since I’m here, I could take a look at it. You know, see if I can fix it.”

With one hand on her hip, she used the other to push stray curls behind her ear. “Do you actually know how to change a flat?”

Jake laughed out loud. “I think I can manage. You have a full size attached to the back. I’ll just replace it. All you’ll have to do is buy a new replacement tire.”

He had a nice laugh but she still wasn’t sure if she could trust him. “Sure. Go ahead. If you try anything, I’ll kick your ass.”

Jake’s eyebrows shot up. She was so tiny; she barely came up to his shoulders. And he wasn’t sure she could do much damage in a blue sundress and flip-flops. “I’ll do my best to control myself. You have a jack?”

She softened a bit. “I’m sorry. I’ve just been driving forever. This is the last thing I needed right now. And I have no idea if I have a jack.”

“That’s okay. I’ll grab one from my truck. Where’re you coming from?”

“Connecticut.”

Jake paused. “Connecticut is a far cry from South Carolina. You sure you’re in the right place?”

Her laugh was warm. “Of course, I’m sure. Are you gonna help me or not?”

“Yes, ma’am.”

After retrieving the jack from his truck, Jake went to work on changing the tire. It took all of fifteen minutes. When he was done, he walked around to the front and waited while she finished her phone call. He noticed a couple of suitcases in the back and a camera on the front seat.

“I’ll be there soon. Don’t worry about me. Some nice guy just changed it for me…Yeah…No. I don’t think he’s a psycho murderer. Hold on.” Covering the mouthpiece with her hand she asked Jake, “Are you a psycho murderer?”

He shook his head and she went back to her conversation. “He’s not…Yeah, I know. See you soon…Love you, too.”

She punched off the call and looked at him. His eyes were so sad, tired. “Done?”

“Done. I just fastened the other tire to the back. There’s an auto shop about fifteen minutes down the road. Chase Peterson owns the place. You can tell him Jake sent you.”

“Well, Jake, thanks but my uncle told me he’d take care of it.”

“All right. Well, have a nice trip and be careful. Get that spare replaced.”

He turned to walk back to his truck when she stopped him.

“Hey, Jake! We didn’t properly introduce ourselves. I’m Lily. Lily Burns.”

“Nice to meet you, Lily Burns,” Jake said as he reached over to shake her outstretched hand.

“Nice to meet you, too, Jake. And thanks again for changing my tire.”

“Anytime. You have a nice trip to wherever you are going.”

“I will, thanks.”

Hands in his pockets, Jake walked back to his truck and watched as she climbed into hers. She started it up, pulled into the road, and drove off. It wasn’t until she was quite a ways down the road that he started up own truck, U-turned in the other direction, and headed to work.

The momentary distraction wasn’t unwelcome. The brief encounter was actually quite amusing. Lily seemed like such a breath of fresh air that Jake had made sure he filled his lungs, in case the past came back later to drown him. He was only slightly aware of the tingle he still felt in the palm of the hand she had shaken.

At the speed he was going, he pulled into the parking lot in five minutes. Danny was outside smoking a cigarette, waiting for him. Jake watched as Danny threw his hands in the air as he flicked his butt to the ground.

“Jesus, Jake! Where have you been?”
“I had to change a tire.”
“All night? I’ve been calling you, texting you.”

“My phone was off.”
“Right, and I’m the Dalai Lama. You don’t make it easy for someone to apologize.”

“You don’t need to apologize,” Jake said as he reached into the bed of his truck to grab his bag. He slung it over his shoulder and began walking towards the docks.

“I do. Look, I’m sorry I mentioned her. It wasn’t my place. Jesus, Jake! Would you stop and look at me?”

Jake stopped and turned to face his brother. He was quiet for a minute, reminding himself that Danny wasn’t the enemy. “Look. I’m really trying here. What do you want from me, Danny? I told you to leave it alone. You’re sorry for mentioning her and yet, here you are again, mentioning her. When the hell are you just gonna leave it alone? Look, she’s gone, all right? I know that.

“I’ll get over it when I’m ready. None of this happened to you. One minute my life was making sense and the next it was shattered into oblivion. I know you keep trying but you’ll never understand. Not completely. You’re just a bystander, an audience. You get to watch my life crumble, feel sorry for me, then go back home to your wife and kids—your perfect life. I don’t need your pity, your apologies, or your thoughts on the matter. Look, I’m late for work. Just let it go, Danny. Please.”

Danny was left standing alone in the parking lot as he watched his brother disappear through the building. Aw, Jake, he thought, when are you gonna wake up? He lit another cigarette and called his wife.

“Hey, Meg. I tried to apologize to Jake. He won’t have it. I don’t know what to do anymore.”

“Sweetie, just let it be,” she said. “Jake’s a big boy. He’ll snap out of it.”

“It’s been two years! Two years! What the hell is he waiting for?”

“I don’t know. I just don’t know what to tell you.”
CHAPTER 4

 

Lily pulled into the parking lot of her uncle’s place, got out, stretched, stared, and took in her surroundings. Taking a deep breath, she closed her eyes and rolled her shoulders before she walked through the door.

There were only a few customers and the bar was exactly how she’d pictured it. The well-worn booths and aged hardwood flooring welcomed her like an old friend. The walls, a pale shade of blue, were sprinkled with photographs she’d taken over the years and sent to her uncle. She walked across the room, taking it all in, pulling her hands slowly across each table she passed.

“This is my home for the next few months,” she whispered.

Billy came in from the back, grabbed a menu, and hurried over to the young girl in the dining room. “What can I get you?” It wasn’t until she turned around that he recognized her. “Lily! You made it! How was the drive? Your tire’s okay? Let me look at you!” He spun her around, noticing just how much she looked like her mother. Even her laugh was the same.

“Uncle Bill! I’m fine. I’m fine. I’m just happy to have finished the drive.”

“I told your mom you shouldn’t have driven all by yourself. I would have paid for you to fly.”

“And leave my Jeep behind? No way! And besides, I’m a college graduate now. I can handle anything.”

“I can’t believe you graduated from college, Lily. The last time I saw you, you were what? Like ten?”

“Yeah, ten sounds about right. Thanksgiving, if I remember correctly.”

“Right, Thanksgiving. I wasn’t sure I’d see you again after that argument your father and I had over the money I lent your mother.”

“Well, I’m here now and regardless of what Dad says, I’m staying. You’ve got me for the whole summer!”

“I’ve looked forward to it. You’ll be staying at my house. I’ve made up the basement room for you. It has its own entrance and bathroom. You can come and go as you please. And as far as money, you can work here, if you’d like. A few shifts a week should keep you in some spending money.”

“And rent. I’d like to pay my way. I don’t want to put you out.”

“Put me out? Never. And I wouldn’t take a dime from you, anyway, young lady. You’re family and family sticks together. Let me get your bags. I’ll call Chase in a little bit and we’ll see if we can’t get that tire replaced.”

She watched her uncle walk out to grab her things then she looked around again. Just the summer, she thought. And then she thought of the guy with the tired, sad eyes who’d changed her tire earlier. Yeah. Just the summer.

… Continued…

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CHAPTER ONE

 

The red-and-white tent roof shuddered in the wind and rain. Ropes and canvas flapped, as if Abacus himself were objecting to his final resting place.

Rilla swallowed hard around the lump that had been permanently stuck in her throat since she’d been told of her father’s death. All around her were Carnival folk, their heads tilted upward, tears running down many faces.

It couldn’t be true. Her larger-than-life father was limitless, unbeatable. Certainly not meant to die in a stupid car crash.

Over their heads, Missy crawled along the high-wire rigging toward the top of the massive tent. The silver of her leotard sparkled under the lights, and her long legs clung to the ropes with an elegance that hid powerful muscles. Every pair of eyes in the tent watched as she completed the tradition that had been started three hundred years before, by the nine original families.

The ashes of almost every member of the Jolly Carnival who’d passed on were contained in one of the two huge round tent poles. They literally held the very essence of the Carnival. And now her bright and brilliant father was another collection of ash in the Carnival tradition.

Barb squeezed her hand; Rilla glanced at her and nodded. It was Barb’s daughter Missy up there doing the final ceremony, and she was glad it was someone who’d loved her father almost as much as she did. Rilla looked around the tent, trying to memorize the people. Everyone was there, from the newest greenhorn to the oldest hand, crowded into the massive big top. She knew every face in the room.

Rubbing at the tears running down her face, Rilla felt her anger flare again. She’d been keeping it at bay, but every so often, it burned its way up her throat. She wanted to shout at someone, hit them, cry out at the injustice.

It wasn’t right.

A violin began to play a slow, haunting melody. The tune hit the chorus and she recognized it. She tried to smile. From her other side, Christoph’s muscular arm clamped around her shoulders, and she listened silently to the rest of the ABBA song that Viktor was playing in slow time.

The song was a lovely idea, but her father would have hated the slowness. He loved the speed of the tunes by the Swedish band. He’d always said the tents went up faster to the beat of “Mama Mia.” And he’d always preferred the nickname Abba to his full name Abacus.

“He wouldn’t want you to be sad, little one,” said Christoph as he gave her another squeeze with his massive arm.

She looked up at him and took comfort in his familiar lined features. He was the strongman of the Carnival in more ways than one. “I know. But it doesn’t help.”

“No, it doesn’t. Come, we should go now.” Rilla allowed Christoph to gently pull her toward the tent flaps that would take them away from the crowds of people. His mustache twitched, and she knew he was trying not to cry at the loss of his friend.

As they walked out, a flash of blue hair caught her eye. A man stood near a side entrance to the big top, his expression a strange mix of anger and excitement. His shock of blue hair stood at attention on his head, and he wore a black shirt with matching black trousers. A ripple of unease washed through Rilla. The stranger caught and held her gaze. Then he turned and disappeared out into the storm.

Rilla frowned. She opened her mouth to question Christoph, then closed it again. Her father knew literally thousands of people. He’d been a big, charismatic personality who’d lived his entire life on the circuit. There could be any number of people she’d never met who could claim a relationship with him.

The blue-haired man might have seemed out of place, but that didn’t mean he shouldn’t be there.

She glanced back up at Christoph as they neared the exit. For the first time, she noticed the grey hair mixed with the black on his head. Her father and Christoph had grown up together, lived their lives together. The big man had helped Abacus raise Rilla when her mother had left. He was going to feel the gap left by Abacus just as she did.

“Rilla, there’s a problem.”

“Pardon?” Rilla turned, trying to focus on the scruffy boy who’d stopped her. She blinked and recognized Joey, one of the younger runners.

“There’s a man. He says…” Joey trailed off as an older man strode past him, straight up to Christoph and Rilla. He pushed out his chin and glared at them both.

“My name is Blago Knight. I’m here to claim the title of Ringmaster.”

Rilla felt the world sway. If Christoph hadn’t been holding her up, she didn’t think she would have remained standing. The momentary confusion cleared and she blinked, looking at the man in front of her. Her gaze narrowed.

Who the hell did he think he was?

“You do realize this is my father’s funeral?” she said, her voice breaking in the middle. She cleared her throat and pulled herself together. She was the Carnival leader now.

“Of course I realize it, young lady. But it doesn’t change the fact that I demand to speak to the Nine. You must convene an emergency session.”

“You’ll have to wait, Blago. This isn’t the time.” Christoph’s voice boomed unnaturally loud. Every eye in the crowded room focused on Rilla and the stranger.

“I know the rules as well as anyone, Christoph. I have to announce my intentions to the Nine immediately or it’s too late.” He glanced at Rilla. “If you stand in my way, you forfeit your rights to the Ringmaster claim.”

Shivers raced across her skin as she stared at the old man in front of her. Bushy eyebrows covered bloodshot eyes, dark and fierce at their center. The lined face was surrounded by a seething mass of white, frizzy hair. He held a black cane in one hand and an old-fashioned bowler hat in the other.

How could he have a legitimate claim? She didn’t understand. She’d never even heard of him.

A knot of tension pushed against her temple, and a headache crawled across her scalp. She lifted one hand to her forehead and rubbed at it, trying to break up the pain that was bashing around inside her head. She just needed a moment to clear her head, time to think without this grief filling her up until she was ready to burst with the pain.

But rules were rules. “Come with me. It will be informal but enough to judge your claim and if you’re valid.”

“‘Course I’m valid. Just ask ol’ Christoph here. He’ll vouch for me.”

Rilla looked up at Christoph in shock.

Her oldest family friend nodded and she realized he’d used Blago’s first name a moment ago. Of course he knew him.

But how? And why had she never heard of this stranger? “Fine.” She looked around and gestured to the others in the Nine. They would meet immediately to determine his claim.

***

Rilla paced along the narrow aisle in her caravan, clenching and unclenching her hands. “How can someone I’ve never heard of have a claim? It doesn’t make sense,” she said.

Christoph lifted his head from his hands. “I’d never have thought…” He cleared his throat. “Abba… your father would never have expected him to come back. It was so long ago.” He lowered his head into his hands again and seemed to shrink into the small sofa in Rilla’s lounge area.

“What was so long ago? What is this all about?”

He looked up again, shaking his head. “He was in the show crew, probably would have been Showmaster instead of me if he’d stayed. But he was thrown out, thirty years plus three.”

“Thirty-three years?” Rilla stopped pacing. “Isn’t that…? He tried to stop a Gift?”

Christoph nodded. “Got himself and his family kicked out. Everyone back then was shocked, especially Abba. They were tight.”

“His whole family?”

Again, Christoph nodded. “Mother, father, sister—they all helped him. He fell for the Mark, interfered with her Gift.”

She’d been told, her father had drummed it into her, but she’d never really thought… The Carnival had thrown someone out? Left them behind to survive without the help of the group? “But surely…” She stopped when she saw Christoph shaking his head. “No wonder he’s pissed.”

“Listen, Rilla, he’ll have support from some of the older ones who’ve been rumbling that you’re too young to be Ringmaster and that you won’t be able to deal with the sabotage problem.”

“It’s not against the rules to be young.” She crossed her arms and glared at him. Her father hadn’t expected to die and leave her to run things at twenty-four years of age, but she was perfectly capable of doing it.

“No, just uncomfortable for some of the older ones to accept.” Christoph heaved a sigh and rubbed one hand over his forehead.

“And some of the younger ones.”

He shrugged. “You’ll just have to prove them wrong. You’ve been raised for this, Amaryllis Jolly. It’s your family name on the sign out front, your family that survived the wreck, and your father that’s been running the show for the last forty years. Don’t forget that.”

“I can’t forget it. But…” She rubbed her hand over her stiff neck muscles.

“Don’t doubt yourself, Rilla. This isn’t the time or place. You’re the acting Ringmaster until the Carnival chooses someone to lead. You’ve got an advantage and you need to use it. You need to prove to everyone, especially the Carnival, that you’re the right person for the job, and you’ve got to do it quick. Blago, he’s a smart man. He’ll take every advantage he can get.”

“How well do you know him?”

Christoph sighed. “He was one of the old gang. We were all tight when we were kids. But I’ve changed since then. Maybe he has too.”

Rilla took a deep breath. “The Nine accepted it pretty easily.”

“What else could they say? He’s legitimate, Rilla. Him and his son.”

“His son?”

“The fella that was waiting outside the tent. Tall, dark hair.”

Rilla shook her head. How could she have overlooked the son? It frightened her that she could have missed something so simple.

“Nah, he stood back. Let his da do the talking. Blago was raised Carnival. But the boy, he’s green and he looked it. That’ll count against him, no doubt there.”

Rilla nodded. Outsiders weren’t welcomed easily.

“Where are they now?” She had to plan, to figure out how she was going to fix this.

“In the food tent, where you should be.”

“I’ll get there.” It was her father’s funeral; of course she would be there. “How long do I have?”

“‘Til the end of our stay here. Three weeks. After that, we’re headed for the Compound with a new Ringmaster.”

Rilla nodded. Winter was almost on them; they were due a rest. “Has there been a Mark named yet?”

Christoph shook his head. “Maybe there won’t be. We’ll be busy dealing with this. Maybe the Carnival will give us a break.”

“We can’t count on it,” said Rilla. “Tell Joey to keep an eye out, and let me know as soon as something happens. We can’t lose focus just because we’re in the middle of a crisis.”

“Listen, Rilla, no one expects you to—”

“What? Do what I’ve been trained to do? This wouldn’t have stopped my father, and it won’t stop me.” Rilla banged her fist against the wall. Glass rattled in the ancient trailer, and she scowled. It might be the biggest trailer in the Carnival, but it sure wasn’t the newest.

“Christoph, what happened to the Mark he fell for?” she asked.

“Last I heard, Blago married her.”

CHAPTER TWO

 

Jack sat back and watched his father as he talked to Garth, who’d been introduced to him as the guy in charge of the clowns at the Carnival. It made it hard to take the guy seriously, with a job like that, but his father seemed absorbed in everything Garth had to say.

They were in the food tent, and everyone around them was talking, eating, and laughing, a real Irish wake-style event. He glanced around the room, taking in all the different people, trying to feel some kind of connection to them. There wasn’t a normal-looking one in the whole room. Eye patches, sequins, mohawks, dyed hair, no hair, giant moustaches, tattoos, leotards, big bow ties—all of it was on show. He felt nothing but mild embarrassment at being at a funeral for someone he didn’t know and anger at his father for dragging him there.

What hurt was that Blago was talking to Garth with an energy that Jack hadn’t seen in his father for a long time. His face was lit up, and he was using big gestures and smiles all around. He certainly looked nothing like the man who’d been walking around his home so listlessly for the last few months.

Jack clenched his hand. The last year, really, ever since Mom’s death.

The noise level dropped, and Jack saw movement by the door. The daughter of the old Ringmaster, the one his father was up against, had walked in. Rilla Jolly. She stood by the door, looking around. For a split second, she looked vulnerable, like she wanted to run. But then her face closed up and she straightened her spine and frowned at anyone who dared look her way.

Jack leaned back and assessed their competition. She was small with an athletic body and had sharp, intelligent features. Her straight, dark hair was cut in a geometric bob that showed off her high cheekbones and startling blue eyes. She narrowed those eyes and glanced around the room. Her gaze landed on Jack and he stared back, startled at her direct look. She didn’t smile, but nodded slightly to acknowledge him. When she noticed Garth next to his father, he could have sworn her lips tightened.

She strode down the alleyway between the tables, and the noise level increased again. Jack let out a breath. He kept watching her, trying to understand how she could be the one in charge of the whole Carnival.

Not for long, if his father had anything to do with it.

Jack turned his attention back to Garth, thinking of the look Rilla had given the Giftmaster. Perhaps there was more to Garth than he’d first realized. He tuned back in to the conversation.

“So I said to Jackie here, we need to pay a visit to my old family, to see if they need any help. Abba, he was a great man. He’ll leave a giant hole in the Carnival. There’s no doubt,” Blago was saying.

Garth nodded in agreement, his sharp eyes wandering over the people in the room as he listened to Blago. Then he focused on Jack. “How about you, Jack? What made you decide to come to the Carnival with your father?”

He asked the question mildly, but Jack saw the sharp look in Garth’s eyes.

Jack cleared his throat and glanced at his father, wondering what the right answer was. “My father convinced me it was the right thing to do,” he said vaguely.

His father had actually lied about his intentions and conned him into coming. That was the real answer. He’d ended up in the middle of Carnival-land with the crazy folk, when he really wanted to be at home, finishing up his latest textbook manuscript for his editor.

But he didn’t think Blago wanted him to tell them the truth.

“Did he tell you much about the Carnival?”

Again, Jack glanced at his father before answering. “A few stories when I was young.”

Blago laughed, a big belly laugh that echoed around the room. “The boy’s bein’ polite. I used to chew his ear off about the Carnival. He was the only one who wanted to listen.”

Jack frowned. Sure, he’d listened when he was a kid to stories of an enchanted Carnival and a wandering life. For a long time, Jack had thought it was literally a magical Carnival. He’d been devastated when his mother had told him it was like Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny.

“It’s probably different actually being here, I imagine. Things are never the same as they are in the stories.”

Jack nodded and took a sip of the cider in his glass. “It’s very different,” he said, attempting some form of diplomacy. It was very different from the magical place he’d dreamed up in his head. Ripped tents, patched caravans, and as ragtag a group of people as you’d ever be likely to meet—that was the reality of the Carnival.

“We’ll get things sorted tomorrow. You’ll be able to help with the set-up, get a handle on how things are run.”

Jack nodded absently. What had he gotten himself into? What would his mother have said? He tapped his finger against the wooden table. It would have broken her heart and, at the same time, made her madder than a hornet. He half smiled as he envisioned his mother’s expression whenever his dad did something stupid.

And then an equally familiar ache reminded him he’d never see her face again. His frown returned and he pushed away the ache.

Jack pushed his hand through his hair, even now trying to think of a way out of this. His eyes wandered around the room. Why had his father wanted to come back here so desperately? Why had he missed this so much? He’d been better off in their nice, clean house with his wife looking after him.

But perhaps that was the point. Now that Jack’s mother was gone, there was no one looking after Blago anymore. He glanced at his father. Maybe that was what this was about.

He looked over at Rilla. It probably wasn’t fair to watch her so closely at her father’s wake. He knew what it was like to lose a parent, and it didn’t involve being particularly lucid this soon after the event. But she was sitting with the big-muscled man, Christoph, talking with her serious expression. She was one of the few in the room who looked unhappy to be there. A little lost even. He steeled himself against her. He couldn’t feel sorry for her; she was the competition. The sooner he could convince these people they were better off with his father in charge, the better it would be for everyone concerned.
***

Accepting the glass of cider Christoph handed her, Rilla took a sip. The familiar taste of her father’s brew caught her off guard. She blinked, the tears threatening to spill over. Wiping at her cheek, Rilla took a second, bigger sip. She would get through this.

“The wind’ll change on them eyebrows. Then you’ll be in trouble,” Christoph said.

“It adds character. The audiences appreciate it.” Her voice was low pitched and the tears were adding gravel to her throat.

“If you don’t scare them away first. Them eyebrows fluff up like a cat that’s cornered when you scowl.”

“Kids love a scary Ringmaster. You know that.”

Christoph nodded toward Blago. “Maybe you should be making the rounds as well. Them two are at it already.”

“It’s my father’s wake. I’m going to eat and drink and remember him as best I can.” Rilla scowled over at Blago and Jack.

Christoph’s moustache twitched. “He’d have sent you off to campaign himself if he was here. You know that better’n most.”

He was right. Her father would have been out there working the room, chatting to friend and foe alike. He could convince a crowd to follow him over a cliff. He’d often told a story where he had actually sold ice to an Eskimo.

But Rilla wasn’t her father and her talents were different. She was better at sitting and watching and listening. She learned just as much from a quick glance or an involuntary twitch as her father had from bluster and bullshit. She could—had been for years—organize everything, from the Carnival’s budgets to what and when the animals were fed.

You have to learn to take center stage, girl. I know it doesn’t come natural to you. But if you’re going to keep the Jolly name in lights, you’ve got to learn.

Her father’s voice rumbled inside her head. Rilla rolled her shoulders, trying to loosen the knots. Another sip of Abba’s cider and she felt her muscles relax. She glanced over at Blago and his son again. Garth didn’t seem to be paying undue attention to what the old show hand was saying.

His son, this greenhorn Jack, wasn’t paying much attention to Blago either. He was leaning back in his chair, hands around a glass of cider, watching the room from narrowed eyes. His face was partially hidden in shadow, but she thought she saw tightness around the lips, a line between his brows that indicated… something.

There was an aura about him that made her keep watching. He was tall, with dark eyes and an angled face that hid what he was thinking. Beside Blago, who gestured wildly, the son seemed motionless.

He was like a predator, a hunter assessing his prey.

Rilla shivered. Was that right? Did Jack, this outsider, see them as prey? She trusted her intuition, and right now it was screaming that she should run.

But she wasn’t in the jungle and running wasn’t an option. So she would do the next best thing: she would find out as much as she could about Jack Knight. Because Christoph was right. If there was a weakness in Blago’s claim, it was his greenhorn son, and the more she knew, the better armed she would be.

A light touch on her elbow interrupted her thoughts.

“It’s starting, Rilla. Look at Garth.” Joey crouched down beside her, his young face half covered by shaggy brown hair.

Her heart dropped and she turned toward Garth. Joey was right. Garth’s eyes had lost their white edges and were now totally black.

The Gift had started. A Mark had been found.

“How can it have found a Mark? We ain’t even opened yet.” Joey’s voice was little more than a whisper.

“The Carnival knows what it wants. It doesn’t have to wait for the Mark to come to us.”

“Does this mean we gotta stop the party?”

“No. But we convene first thing in the morning. Pass it around. Let everyone know.”

Joey nodded and raced off.

Rilla took a deep breath. Almost of their own volition, her eyes returned to Jack Knight. He was staring at Garth, who now had the all-black mirrored eyes that meant a Gift was in progress. He didn’t look comfortable, and Rilla wondered how much his father had actually told him. He was a greenhorn, after all. Perhaps they should have been more careful about what they showed him. Even though he was technically Carnival through his father, he wasn’t raised Carnival, and he was no different from any other Ordinary.

She watched Garth struggle with the change for a moment. It always took time for him to adjust to being able to see inside someone else’s head. However, Blago seemed to know just how to deal with him, and she let out a breath. Again, her eyes flicked back to Jack.

He was now watching her, his dark eyes filled with an intensity that stilled her breath and made her heart beat faster—just like a rabbit as it runs from a fox.

CHAPTER THREE

 

Jack sat down at a table in the big breakfast tent, scrambled eggs and toast on his plate. It was still quiet. Last night’s party had kept going into the small hours of the morning.

“That all you having, boy? You’ll need more than that to help you through the day.” His father placed his tray down on the table, eggs, bacon, and hash browns piled high.

“If I ate all that, I wouldn’t be able to move,” Jack replied, taking a bite of his eggs.

“You don’t know what you’re missing.” Blago took a big bite of the crisp bacon and chewed noisily.

They ate silently for a couple of minutes, until Jack spotted Rilla at the food table, collecting toast and coffee. “She’s not what I would have expected,” he said to his father, nodding in Rilla’s direction.

“She’d be knocked over in a high wind,” replied his father. “Don’t know what Abba was thinking, imagining a wee girl like that could be Ringmaster. Didn’t even work the room last night and had a scowl on her face half the time.”

Jack took a sip of coffee. “It was her father’s wake, Dad. Give her a break.” He watched as she headed in their direction and paused in front of the table.

He nodded. “Morning.”

“Morning. Mind if I sit with you?”

“‘Course not, girl,” said Blago, a smile on his face. “The more the merrier.”

“So what did you think of your first night back, Blago?” she asked as she pulled out the chair and sat down.

“Just like old times, my dear. Although, I had to go to bed earlier than I used to in the old days.”

Rilla nodded and took a bite of her toast. She glanced at Jack with raised eyebrows.

“It was interesting. I’ve never been to anything like it before.” Jack tried not to sound like he’d be happy if he never had to do anything like it again.

Garth ambled over to their table, a glass of fruit juice in one hand. He sat down, nodding at everyone. Jack’s heart started beating faster, the same as it had last night when Garth’s eyes had turned from being perfectly normal to the disturbing all-black orbs that were staring at him this morning. He’d only just managed to keep his cool, a distant memory of one of his father’s stories helping him figure it out. His father had put one hand on his shoulder and given him a meaningful look. It had only been later, as he lay in the too-short bed in their rickety borrowed caravan, that he’d realized the implications. If that one small part of his father’s stories had been true, how much of the rest of it was?

Even thinking about it again made him feel cold all over. The eggs he was eating suddenly tasted like sawdust, and he put down his fork.

A scrawny teenager, hair sticking up all over his head, arrived at the table. “Mornin’, Rilla,” he said, glancing around the table. He was clearly agitated, bouncing from one foot to the other as he waited for Rilla to acknowledge him.

“Joey, what’s the news?” she said.

“They put the Carousel up last night,” he said with barely suppressed excitement. “It’s a dragon.”

“What?” Rilla’s eye’s widened.

“Yeah.” He nodded, his face serious. “They were as shocked as you are now. But it was there, all right.”

“I don’t think I’ve seen a dragon, since… well, ever.” Rilla sounded awed. She looked… excited. There was a hint of a smile lurking around the corner of her mouth, the first sign of a positive emotion that Jack had seen on her face since he’d arrived. He leaned forward, studying her more closely. He was right. It did light up her eyes.

“There’s a reason we’ve never seen one, Rilla.” Garth’s voice was annoyed. “It’s a nightmare. Risky, rough, and downright dangerous.” He was staring at Rilla with his blank eyes.

Rilla turned to Garth. “Maybe. Or maybe it’s just what we need at a time like this. My father wouldn’t have been scared of a challenge like this, and neither should we.”

“It’s not going to be easy,” replied Garth.

“Can you imagine it?” Rilla’s eyes shone. “What did it look like, Joey? Was it fierce?”

Joey looked back up at her, a similar expression on his face. “It sparkled like a diamond, Rilla. You gotta see it. This is going to be one hell of a ride.”

Jack cleared his throat. “Perhaps we should have a look at the dragon?” he said. He was suddenly desperate to see if any more of his father’s stories had been true.

Rilla nodded. “Good idea. I want to see it too. Let’s go.” She stood up and looked around the table. Garth and Blago stayed where they were.

“You two go. I’ll check it out later, once I’ve finished.” Blago motioned to his half-eaten breakfast.

“Tami’s making me a smoothie. She’ll be annoyed if I leave now,” said Garth.

Jack stood and gestured for Rilla to lead the way.

 

***

“This is it,” said Rilla, gesturing to the ride in front of her. “The Blue Carousel—made by the Grimoulet brothers as a tribute to surviving the shipwreck.”

A beautifully maintained antique Carousel stood before them, bright and clean in the chilled morning air. There were intricate designs depicting scenes of the sea, and it was in tones of blue and white.

“The shipwreck?” This was a story he hadn’t heard.

Rilla turned to him. “Where it all started. Your father didn’t tell you?”

Jack shook his head, his eyes glued to the creation in front of him. “He talked about the Carnival. What he missed. The people. Nothing about a shipwreck.”

“It’s our foundation,” she said, turning back to the Carousel. “The original Nine were the only families to survive a shipwreck off the coast of New York in the late 1700s.” Her voice took on a musical rhythm, obviously reciting a story she knew well. “They were all coming to America to start a new life, and for most people on that ship, it ended in those stormy waters.”

She moved forward and crouched down to touch the mosaic at base of the Carousel. The shiny handmade tiles depicted an old-fashioned sailing ship hurtling through massive waves. Rain and wind and lightning surrounded it, battering the ship with the worst nature had to offer.

He looked closer and realized there were people drowning in the tiled waves.

Rilla’s eyes locked with his and he saw something swirling in their depths. A chill went down his spine.

“The small group of survivors was on the last three boats to be launched. Only one of the boats was actually a lifeboat. The other two had been put together by passengers from below-decks when they realized they weren’t going to get onto one of the real lifeboats. It was the middle of the night, and they became disorientated as soon as they pushed away from the sinking ship. Instead of heading toward land, they were swept farther out to sea, then along the coast. It was a simple mistake that saved their lives.”

“Everyone else died?” Jack couldn’t take his eyes off the images on the base of the Carousel. For a moment, he was convinced he could hear the screams of a dying woman amid the crash of heavy storm-tossed waves.

“Most of the boats crashed into the rocky reef protecting that part of the shoreline. They all lost their lives, drowning in the rough seas or smashed against the rocks. Our ancestors survived.” Rilla led him up the Carousel steps, undoing the safety chain that stopped everyday punters.

The Carousel’s thick central pillar was tiled in the blues of the sea, with mirrors and jewels adding an extra dimension and depth to the waves and ripples at its heart. The creatures on the Carousel’s poles all originated from the water, both real and mythical. Mermaids, dolphins, whales, and selkies watched him with jeweled eyes as he trailed after Rilla toward the back.

“And from there, they decided to start a Carnival?” Jack let doubt cloud his voice. It sounded like an intriguing tale they told the tourists. He didn’t need Rilla filling his head with more fantasy stories; he needed the real facts so he could help Blago win this competition for Ringmaster.

Rilla searched his face. He raised his eyebrows when she continued to stare.

She blinked and drew her own eyebrows together, her delicate scowl clouding her features, making her eyes darken and flash. But she seemed to come to a decision. “There was thunder and lightning in the storm that night,” she said. “It lit up the sky, giving them terrible glimpses of what was happening in the sea around them. They were petrified. People prayed to whatever gods they believed in, held on to whatever talismans they could find.”

She gestured upward and just at that moment, someone turned on the lights. Above their heads, an animated lightning storm erupted, creating a magical light show that somehow, even in the morning sunlight, created an eerie sense of being in the middle of a violent storm.

Jack shivered, his eyes returning to Rilla’s expressive face. He waited for her to continue.

“The boats didn’t make it to the shore. They were hit simultaneously by a tree of lightning that broke apart all three and threw the survivors into the water. The Nine families should have drowned. But one way or another, every person on those three boats made it to the beach.”

“What happened?” Despite himself, Jack was caught in the story. “How did they make it?”

Rilla shrugged one graceful shoulder. “Promises were made.” She trailed a hand along the tail of a mermaid, her eyes focused on the bright scales. “They survived the night and forged a bond none of them could forget.”

“But how? Who were they? Did they know each other?” Jack fired the questions at Rilla.

“Of the Nine families, five were part of a traveling circus. My ancestor Sunrise Jolly was the leader, the Ringmaster even then.” She gave him a meaningful glance that he ignored. “The other four families included the Grimoulet brothers—who built Carousels—an engineer and his sister, a chef and his wife and children, and a professional gambler.”

“That doesn’t explain anything. Something must have happened. How did they all make it to shore?” Jack placed his hand on the edge of a dolphin’s nose. It had been beautifully crafted, the lines graceful and the eye so real he was waiting for it to blink. It was even slightly warm to the touch.

He lifted his hand off the dolphin’s nose.

“It was a traumatic event. Like I said, promises were made.” Rilla gestured around her. “The Grimoulet brothers made this Carousel for the Carnival because they wanted to express what happened to them all that night. This was the only way they knew how to do it. They knew they’d been blessed. Some higher power had let them live, and they wanted to honor that.”

“A higher power? Are you saying God saved them so they all decided to become part of a traveling circus?” Jack was getting impatient. Rilla wasn’t telling him the real story, just mumbo-jumbo nonsense.

“It wasn’t like that,” said Rilla. Her face took on a closed expression.

He clenched his hand in an effort to keep quiet, but his impatience bubbled to the surface. “And what does all that have to do with the dragon?”

Rilla tapped the toe of her boot on the wooden floor of the Carousel. It was the only indication she wasn’t as calm as she appeared. She continued as if she hadn’t heard his question. “Soon after they began traveling the country, things started happening. Strange things. It took a long time to understand what it was about. But essentially, their lives, their second chance, was a blessing. One they had to pay for.”

“Pay for?”

“In Gifts. They began to help people they met along the way, grant their deepest desires, their secret wishes.” She moved forward again, her booted heels tapping on the wooden surface of the Carousel. “In return, the Nine families were able to live full and happy lives. For those of us still here—the descendants—we carry on the tradition but for our own reasons, our own blessings.”

She came to an abrupt halt, her eyes locked on the ride just ahead of them. “By the gods, he was right. It is fierce.”

It was a brilliant blue creature woven around a pole, its eyes red jewels and its serpentine skin sparkling under the lights of the artificial storm over their heads. The dragon looked almost real; even its eyes seemed to turn and stare right back at them.

Drawn by something he didn’t understand, Jack reached out a hand, only to have it slapped away by Rilla. “Don’t touch it!” she snapped. “It’s meant for the Mark and only the Mark can touch it. Anyone else and it will only make it harder for us to do what needs to be done.”

“And what needs to be done?”

“We make a wish come true.”

… Continued…

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Now, eight years later, Gracie returns to Maine for her father’s wedding. When she discovers Noah has come home to Idle Point to save the family business—and that he has a little daughter named Sophie—Gracie also discovers that nothing has changed. Their love for each other is stronger than ever, but the secrets that drove them apart still hold the power to ruin their lives.

Will past mistakes destroy their love or will they finally find happiness together… at last?

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by Barbara Bretton
Copyright © 2014 by Barbara Bretton and published here with her permission

Prologue

 

The last person to actually see Graciela Taylor on the day she left Idle Point, Maine forever was old Eb at the Stop & Pump. Maybe if she’d planned her getaway a little better—or had any idea at all that she was going to leave her fiance standing at the altar—she would have seen to it that her gas tank was full. As it happened, the needle on her fuel gauge hovered over the E and she was forced to make a right into Stop & Pump and pray Old Eb wasn’t in a talkative mood. She might have taken her chances that she’d make it to Portland before the engine sputtered then shut down, but that was too risky. The last thing she wanted was to run out of gas on Main Street and bump into Noah on his way home from the wedding that wasn’t.

Old Eb peered out from his office, and then did a double-take which didn’t bode well for her speedy getaway. He’d been around since long before Gracie was born and he’d seen everything there was worth seeing around Idle Point and a few things he’d rather forget. He was the one who’d found Gracie’s mother dead at the bottom of the ravine, trapped in that old Chevy with the horn blaring. He was the one who’d found Gracie, thrown clear from the wreck and crying to beat the band. He was the one who wrapped her in blankets and held her close while they waited for her father to identify his wife’s body. She and Eb had a history. If he had any idea what she was up to, it would be all over.

“You forgetting where you’re supposed to be?” he asked as he ambled over to where she stood next to the old Mustang she’d bought four years ago with the money she’d saved working in the kennels for Doctor Jim. “They’re down at the cove waitin’ for you, Gracie. I’d be there myself if I didn’t have to earn a living.”

She smiled, wishing she’d taken time to exchange her short lacy white dress for the pair of jeans and a sweater. She looked like exactly what she was: a runaway bride. “I’m on my way,” she said, carefully not specifying her destination. She was too fond of Eb to lie to him.

Eb checked his pocket watch. “Thought the clambake began at two o’clock,” he said. There was a sharp note of curiosity in his voice as his faded blue eyes took in her outfit. “It’s near to half-past. You can’t be late for your own goodbye party.” Eb knew that she was due to leave for Philadelphia the next morning to begin her first year of veterinary school at the University, the goal she’d been striving for since she was barely old enough to walk.

“I know,” she said, “but I’m running on fumes and…” She shrugged. “You know how it is. There was so much to do.” He was a native New Englander, same as she. Didn’t he know New Englanders were famous for minding their own business?

Eb checked her oil and cleaned her windshield while the tank guzzled down the gallons. If he wondered why Sam the Cat was grooming herself on the passenger’s seat, he never said. Gracie peered nervously over her shoulder every time she heard a car approach. A clean getaway, that was all she wanted. When the dust cleared and the hurt feelings mended, maybe then they could talk. She’d left a note for Noah on the kitchen table. She told him that she was sorry, that she hadn’t planned on any of this, but wasn’t it better to put an end to it now before it was too late?

Besides, how did you explain to the boy you’d loved since kindergarten that leaving him was the best thing you could ever do for him.

Eb screwed the gas cap back on good and tight.

“What do I owe you?” she asked as she reached for her purse through the open car window.

Eb plunged his gnarled hands deep into the pockets of his overalls. “Just get yourself a good education, girlie, then come back home to us where you belong. I’ve waited a long time to dance at your wedding. I want to see you all set up with a job and a husband and a few babies.”

He didn’t have any idea what he was saying.

You don’t understand, Eb. There was supposed to be a wedding today but I backed out. We were going to throw aside all of our plans and run away to Paris together. Can you imagine, Eb? I love him and he loves me but we don’t have a chance in the world of being happy together. His father has seen to that. That’s why I’m going to get behind the wheel of my car and get away from here before I start believing in fairy tales.

Noah had been part of her life for as long as she could remember and he had owned her heart almost as long. Even during those years when he was away at boarding school, he was never far from her mind. Not that he’d known she existed until he came back to Idle Point after his father’s first heart attack and everything fell into place. Loving him seemed as right and natural as breathing; marrying him was simply the next step.

Noah and Gracie had been together since senior year of high school and they had stayed together despite the best efforts of their families to break them up. You wouldn’t think their fathers’ paths would have crossed very often, not even in a small town like Idle Point, but the hatred between the two men was legendary and the poison spilled over onto their children. They had learned through experience to keep their love hidden away from their families.

When they went off to college—Noah to B.U., Gracie to the University of Pennsylvania—everyone was sure distance would put an end to their teenage love affair. Nobody but Noah and Gracie knew of the weekends spent sharing pretzels on the steps of the museum in Philadelphia or strolling near Independence Hall, talking about the home they would build together, the family they would raise. Gracie would join Doctor Jim’s veterinary practice while Noah wrote the Great American Novel.

She’d heard the whispers from some of her so-called friends, the ones who wondered how a plain girl like Gracie who lived over by the docks managed to land someone like Noah. Gracie was serious and ambitious and poor. Noah was a rich man’s son who thought life was his for the taking. He’d flunked out of B.U. and if he had some game plan for his life, he wasn’t sharing it. He wasn’t serious about anything, didn’t Gracie know that? One day he’d call her up and say, “You know there’ll never be anyone else like you, Gracie, but I’ve met someone else and…”

Everyone but Gracie knew that was going to happen one day. Why couldn’t she get it through her head that she was fooling herself? Their poison-tipped words hurt but a long time ago Gramma Del had taught herself how to deflect the sting and hold her head high. They never knew how good their aim was. Noah loved her for who she was inside, not for how she looked, not for what she owned. He didn’t care that she was tall and skinny and blessed with brains, not beauty; with a heart, but not a bank account. They loved each other and up until last night she had believed that was all they needed.

Whoever thought it would be Gracie who broke Noah’s heart?

She had Simon Chase to thank for ruining their lives. He’d shown up at her father’s house an hour ago. Sixty minutes was all it took to shatter her dreams. Her future father-in-law was an imposing man, tall and white-haired and blessed with the natural arrogance of the born Yankee aristocrat. His bad heart had slowed him down but the fierceness of his gaze when he looked at Gracie hadn’t softened a bit. She had always suspected that Simon didn’t like her but she’d never imagined the depth of it until that afternoon.

Simon had connections up and down the coast of Maine and right across into lake country. Noah and Gracie had slipped down to Portland last week to apply for their wedding license, figuring nobody in the city office would pay any attention to them. They were wrong. A clerk recognized the Chase name and mentioned it to his superior who happened to mention it over lunch to a friend and an hour later Simon’s office phone was ringing with the news.

“You’ll do the right thing,” Simon had said as he rose to leave. “If you love my son the way you say you do, I know you’ll do what’s best for him. There’s really no other way, is there, Graciela?”

It wasn’t until Simon and his late model Lincoln disappeared down the road that she found the envelope propped up on the kitchen table between the sugar bowl and the salt and pepper shakers. Ten thousand dollars to leave his son alone. Ten thousand dollars to keep her from ruining Noah’s life. Apparently that was the going rate for betrayal in Idle Point.

“I mean it, girlie,” Eb was saying. “Save your gas money for when you’re filling your tank in New Jersey. Nobody gives anything away in New Jersey.”

“I can’t let you do that,” she said. “You already gave me that beautiful silver mirror that belonged to Sarah when I started high school.”

His eyes glistened with tears. “Sarah loved you like one of her own grandbabies. You know she always prayed you and Noah would end up together one day.”

Oh God. Can this get any worse? Let me get out of here before what’s left of my heart breaks in two.

She knew when she’d been bested and kissed Eb on a weathered cheek. “Thank you,” she said. “You’re very dear to me.”

Eb turned red beneath his grey whiskers. “You make us proud, Gracie. Understand?”

“I’m doing the right thing,” she said as she climbed behind the wheel. “This is the best thing for both of us.” Simon Chase had proved that beyond a doubt less than an hour ago.

“What did you say?” Eb asked but she only smiled at him. She’d said too much as it was.

She gunned the engine and reached into the glove box and withdrew an envelope thick with bills. “Here,” she said, handing it to Eb through the open window. “Now you can take yourself that vacation you and Sarah always talked about.”

Her wheels spun on the gravel as she roared out of the gas station.

“Hold your horses!” Eb’s voice floated after her. “There’s money in this envelope! What do you –?”

The last thing Gracie saw in her rear-view mirror was old Eb standing in the middle of the road with Simon Chase’s blood money dangling from his fingers like a flag of surrender.

She didn’t slow down again until she reached Boston.

 

Chapter One

 

Gracie Taylor fell in love with Noah Chase on the first day of kindergarten. She was five-and-a-half years old and so homesick she thought her heart would stop beating when Gramma told her that she had to stay there in that cold and scary schoolroom and that she wouldn’t come back for Gracie until two o’clock. She was standing near the coatroom and trying very hard not to cry when he appeared at her side. “You’d better hang up your sweater before the bell rings,” he said, “or else Mrs. Cavanaugh’ll give you a black star.” He had bright blue eyes and thick dark lashes and when he smiled at her she thought her heart would float up to the ceiling like a birthday balloon. She’d never seen anyone like him before in her entire life except in storybooks where beautiful children lived in beautiful houses with parents who loved them forever and ever.

He tugged at her sleeve and his smile grew even brighter. “Better do it,” he said. “I’ll save you a seat.”

Gracie, who never said a word unless she had to, looked deep into those twinkling blue eyes and said, “How do you know about the black stars?”

“Everybody knows,” said her new friend. “Gold stars when you’re good. Black stars when you’re bad.”

Gracie didn’t care a bit about black stars but if he thought they were a bad thing, so did she. She hung up her favorite red sweater on the last empty hook in the coatroom. Gramma Del had given her that sweater for her last birthday and she loved it. It had always seemed special but now it only looked shabby and not special at all, hanging there with the other kids’ sweaters. Their sweaters were hand-knit of the softest wool, with tiny ducks and bunnies embroidered along the edges. You couldn’t buy sweaters like that at the discount store where Gramma Del bought Gracie’s. Gracie was sure that each one of those special sweaters had been made by a mommy.

The classroom was filled with noisy, laughing children, all pushing and shoving each other like puppies in a basket. She lived out by the docks, an only child in a world of adults. Her best friends were her books (especially the ones about animals), her goldfish, and her beloved hamster named Wilbur. She felt like herself around animals, not shy and quiet the way she did around people.

Gracie jammed her hands into the pockets of her corduroy jumper. Her feet felt big and heavy, too heavy to move her into the room. Why did she have to go to kindergarten anyway? She already knew how to read and she could print out her name and her address and her telephone number with her favorite Crayola. Who wanted to sit around with a bunch of dumb kids, playing with blocks and finger paints when you could be reading about Lassie or the Cat in the Hat?

The boy with the bright blue eyes twisted around in his seat then pointed at the desk next to him. He smiled at her like it was Christmas morning and having her sit next to him was the best present under the tree. Suddenly she was moving forward, her eyes locked with his, moving right past the other kids just like she was one of them. She slid into the cold wooden seat and folded her hands on top of the desk.

“What’s your name?” he asked, leaning across the aisle.

“G-Gracie,” she said, wishing she had a pretty name like Tiffany or Marisa. “What’s yours?”

“Noah,” he said, screwing up his face like a dried-up lemon.

She giggled. Two of the other little kids turned around and saw what Noah was doing and they giggled too and before she knew it, she was right there in the center of a group of laughing children, almost like she belonged there.

 

***

It was the best day of Gracie’s life. When Mrs. Cavanaugh said, “Class dismissed!” Gracie wished she could blink her eyes and start the day all over again. She followed the other kids into the coatroom to claim her sweater and the buzz of talk and laughter all around her felt like a big hug. They all liked Noah and since Noah liked Gracie, they opened their circle wide enough to let Gracie in too. It was like being welcomed into a magic place where only good things happened and she hated to see it end.

Gramma Del was waiting for her by the gate. She had Mondays off from her job as cook for the richest family in Idle Point. “You look real happy this afternoon, missy,” she said, tugging on Gracie’s stick-straight ponytail. “Did you have a good first day of school?”

“I taught them double Dutch,” she said, bouncing in place with excitement. “We have a class parakeet and two gerbils. I had milk and cookies. We took a nap on squishy pillows and I even had my own blanket.” She hadn’t closed her eyes once, not even for a second. She didn’t want to miss a thing.

“Your own blanket!” Gramma Del nodded. “Now that’s something.” She took Gracie’s hand and they started walking. Gramma Del was old and she didn’t walk real fast which was fine with Gracie. She wanted the day to last forever. “Did you make any friends?”

“Terri and Laquita and Mary Ellen and Joey and Tim and Don and Noah.” She almost wasn’t going to tell Gramma Del about Noah. In a way she wanted him to be her very own special secret friend but she couldn’t keep anything from her grandma.

Gramma Del stopped walking. “Noah?”

“Yes,” said Gracie. “He held a seat for me.”

Gramma Del’s lips all but disappeared. “Did you know I cook for Noah’s daddy?”

“No,” said Gracie. “He has blue eyes, Gramma.”

“Well, those blue eyes won’t be around too long, missy. His daddy has big plans for that little boy.”

Boarding school.

Prep school.

Ivy League.

Gramma Del’s words swirled over Gracie’s head but she wasn’t paying much attention. She was thinking about Noah and the class parakeet and the gerbils and taking in all the sights as the other kids met up with their mommies or big brothers and sisters. Laquita was standing at the corner all by herself, looking like she didn’t mind being alone one bit. She was a very quiet little girl with a round face and long black hair that spilled down her back. Mary Ellen and Joey, redheaded twins, waved at Gracie from the back seat of a big green station wagon. Tim and Don’s big brother was yelling at them to get in the car right this minute but they were talking to Terri near the school bus. Most of the kids lived in town and had been playing together since they were little babies.

Across the street, Noah walked quietly next to a well-dressed woman. The woman looked straight ahead as they walked. Noah looked down at the ground. For some reason Gracie’s heart hurt as she watched them. That couldn’t be his mommy. A mommy would hold your hand and ask you about your day and look happy to see you again, like Gramma Del did but better.

Gramma Del was daddy’s mother. Gracie knew she did the best she could, because that’s what Gramma Del was always telling her. “You should have better than an old woman taking care of you,” she liked to say when she was giving Gracie her bath. “Things aren’t meant to be this way.” She lived out back in the small cottage behind the house and mostly minded her own business when it came to her son’s comings and goings. She looked the other way when her son rolled home smelling like beer at all hours of the day or night and only spoke up when he didn’t come home at all.

“This child deserves better,” Gracie had heard her grandma say more than once. “She deserves a real family.” Sometimes Gramma Del came into the house very late and carried a sleepy Gracie out to the cottage to spend the night. “I had a bad dream,” she liked to say as she made room for Gracie in her narrow feather bed. “Glad you could visit.” Gracie always laughed, even though she knew that wasn’t the reason at all.

Maybe that was why daddy had brought home that skinny red-haired woman at Christmastime and said, “Graciela, meet Vicky. She’s your new mother.” Gracie had burst into tears then run from the room as fast as her new sneakers would carry her. Daddy had yelled at her to come back and apologize—”right this second, young lady!”—but Gracie didn’t care. She threw herself on her bed and sobbed until her eyes hurt so bad she couldn’t see. She didn’t want some stranger coming in and pretending to be her mother. She wanted her real mother, the brown-haired woman with the gentle smile who looked down at her from the photograph on her nightstand.

Gracie wasn’t sure how she knew this but somehow she understood that she wasn’t supposed to talk about the nights when her daddy fell asleep on the floor with an empty bottle beside him or how the redheaded woman walked out one day at the beginning of the summer and took everything that wasn’t nailed down along with her. Gracie had been in her room, pretending to be sound asleep, but she’d really been watching through a crack in the door while the woman and her squeaky-voiced sister took money from daddy’s pockets and the bottles off the shelves.

No, she’d never talk about any of that. Not with anyone. People whispered enough about the Taylors anyway, about how her daddy couldn’t seem to hold down a job and how he should be ashamed to have his mother working as a cook to keep a roof over his lazy no-good head. She hoped Noah wouldn’t stop liking her once he found out about her family because if he did, she would never go back to school again and nobody, not even Gramma Del could make her.

But then maybe Noah already knew. If Gramma Del worked for Noah’s daddy, maybe Noah knew all about her family and liked her anyway.

She hugged that thought close all the way home.

 

***

“Change your clothes before you have your snack, Noah.” Mary Weston took off her hat and placed it neatly in the center of the hall table with the red feather pointing toward the door.

“Yes, ma’am.”

“Your parents will be home from their trip sometime this afternoon. We don’t want them finding you looking like a hooligan, do we?”

“No, ma’am.” He didn’t have any idea what a hooligan looked like or why they wouldn’t want him to look like one. Hooligan. The sound of it inside his head made him smile. Hoooo-li-gin. Somehow he’d bet hooligans had more fun than he did.

“Is something funny?”

“No, ma’am.”

Mary’s sour face puckered even more. “Then why aren’t you upstairs changing clothes?”

Noah didn’t have to be told again. He turned and raced up the steps two at a time, putting as much distance between himself and the housekeeper as he possibly could. He wished school could last twice as long. It was a lot more fun playing with the other kids than being alone in this scary old house. He ran down the second floor hallway, making sure he didn’t catch sight of the pictures on the wall. His mother said these were his relatives, the people his father came from, and that he should be proud but Noah was mostly scared. They were all old and angry-looking and sometimes he thought they’d reach right out of their picture frames and spank him just because they could. He’d never told that to anyone before. He knew what they’d say. “You’re letting your imagination run away with you, young man. Paintings can’t hurt you. Now stop being silly and practice your piano.”

He didn’t want to practice his piano. He wanted to tell stories about monsters who ate stupid grownups and wizards who rose up from the rocks out beyond the Point and turned lonely little boys into knights in shining armor. He had already decided that that was what he would do when he grew up. He wanted to live in a crowded house with lots of brothers and sisters and noise and music and laughter and dogs. Maybe a dog in every room and parents who let you play in the mud without getting yelled at.

Noah’s parents loved him. They told him so all the time, like when they were heading out the door for a night in Boston or a weekend on the boat. Sometimes days would go by when he didn’t even see his father and that made the rare nights when they all ate dinner together special. He watched his father very carefully and tried to imitate the way he held his knife and fork, the tilt of his head when he spoke. His father was the smartest man in the entire world and, with one exception, Noah wanted to be just like him when he grew up. He’d make sure he had plenty of time for his kids.

 

***

“What is the problem with you, child?” Gramma Del planted her hands on her hips. “There’s nothing wrong with that blue jumper.”

“It’s not pretty enough,” Gracie said, scowling at her reflection in the small white-framed mirror nailed to the wall over her dresser. “I want to be pretty.”

Gramma Del sighed and Gracie pretended she hadn’t heard the sound. She knew just what it meant. She wasn’t pretty like Laquita or Mary Ann—the face in the mirror told her that—and most likely she never would be. Her face was small and narrow. Her eyes were plain ordinary brown and big like cartoon eyes. Her clothes always looked like they’d belonged to somebody else, even when they still had Dotty’s Discount Dress Store tags on them. Even Laquita who had all those brothers and sisters had nicer dresses.

More than anything, Gracie wanted to fit in. She’d been in kindergarten for three weeks now and she had learned a lot. As much as they liked her, she was still an outsider who couldn’t quite figure out why. It was more than the lookalike dresses from the big store down in Portland and the Little House lunchboxes. Maybe it was that they all had mothers who took them to school in the morning and waited outside for them in the afternoon. Even Noah’s mother showed up more often than not, all dressed in her fancy clothes that made Gramma Del roll her eyes when she thought Mrs. Chase wasn’t looking. “Doesn’t have the sense the good Lord gave her,” Gramma Del said, tugging at the hem of her grey sweater.

Gramma Del walked Gracie to and from school most days but every now and then her father took over the job. Gracie hated it when her father waited for her at the corner in his dented pickup truck with the sign Taylor Construction written on the driver’s door. Her father didn’t like to talk much in the mornings and he didn’t understand anything about matching your tights to your jumper or why peanut butter and jelly sandwiches should be on fluffy white bread, not rye with the little seeds that got between your teeth.

But oh how she loved school. For a few hours every day it didn’t matter that she wasn’t like the rest of them. In that little classroom, she was one of the gang. She could read what was on the blackboard before Mrs. Cavanaugh explained it. At first Laquita and Noah thought it was some kind of magic trick. Then, when they realized she could read and write the looks on their faces made her laugh. She knew the mama gerbil was going to have babies before Mrs. Cavanaugh did.

Mary Ann saved a place next to her at naptime and even though she’d much rather nap on Noah’s side of the room, she didn’t want to hurt Mary Ann’s feelings so she stayed where she was. Besides, she could watch Noah from over there and not be afraid he was going to catch her doing it. She loved the way his thick dark lashes rested against his cheeks, the way he smiled a little in his sleep. Sometimes he seemed ashamed to be her friend but that was okay too because she knew that when Don and Tim and the others ran off, she’d still be there waiting for him.

 

***

Noah’s parents didn’t argue very often. The sound of their cultured Yankee voices, raised loud enough to be heard from the hallway, scared him. He pressed himself against the wall near the kitchen and tried hard not to listen but their words found him just the same.

“Del brought her here when she was a baby,” his mother said. “I don’t see the difference, Simon. She was no trouble then and she’ll be no trouble now.”

“I have nothing against the child,” his father said, “but I don’t want to open the door to her father.”

“She’s a little girl. Do you want her safety on your conscience?”

“I’ll agree,” his father said, “but only as an interim measure. Del has two weeks to make other arrangements.”

The silence was long and dark and Noah wondered what it was about Gracie’s father that made his own father sound so serious. Noah had seen Gracie’s father three times in front of school, hunched behind the wheel of a truck with swirly letters painted on the side. He didn’t walk Gracie to the steps like her Grandma Del did. He didn’t meet her at the corner like Noah’s mother. Instead Gracie’s father stayed in the car and drummed his fingers on the steering wheel and when Gracie waved goodbye he just gunned the engine and drove off without waving goodbye right back.

Noah knew that there were rich people and poor people in the world. His parents had explained it to him when he’d asked why a maid cleaned their house and her own while his mother went to lunch and didn’t clean anything at all. What he didn’t know was why Gracie didn’t have a mother or why his father didn’t like her.

His parents’ voices grew softer again and the shaky feeling inside his stomach went away. His mother appeared in the doorway. She smiled at him but he saw that her eyes looked sad. “There you are,” she said, holding out her hand. “Breakfast is ready, then it’s off to school with you.”

“Are you and Father mad?” he asked as he slid his hand into hers.

The smile faded. “Why would you ask that?”

“I heard you talking,” he said as they walked down the hallway to the breakfast room.

“Grownups sometimes sound very serious, honey, and it can sound like we’re angry. It’s just our way.”

“Is Gracie in trouble?”

She stopped and crouched down next to him, taking his face between her hands.. “Nobody’s in trouble,” she said and he noticed the shimmer of tears in her big blue eyes. “It’s just that Gracie needs a place to play after school and Del thought it might be nice if the two of you played together.”

“Here?” In his whole life he’d never had a friend come over to play and the idea made him want to turn somersaults up and down the hallway. Even his birthday parties were held at a fancy restaurant in Boothbay Harbor on the water.

His mother nodded. “Not as a permanent thing,” she said. “Just until Del can make other arrangements.”

“Can Laquita and Don and Tim come home with me too?”

“Maybe someday,” his mother said, the corners of her mouth angling down toward her chin. “Right now Gracie is as much as your father can handle.”

 

***

Sometimes Daddy slept in his La-Z-Boy with his feet pointed right at the TV screen and a shiny mountain of beer cans on the floor near the lamp with the shredded shade. Grandma Del said he worked too hard and that the sandman’s job was over before Daddy could even make it to his bedroom. He sprawled across the chair with his arms flung out over the sides and his feet hanging off that funny little leg rest that hung off the end of the chair and snored like a summer thunderstorm. She didn’t mind the fact that he fell asleep in his chair. Other daddies on TV did that too so she knew it was okay. That was how Gracie knew the way things were supposed to be.

Gracie hated the way the beer smell clung to his skin. It made him smell like a stranger, like somebody she didn’t want to know. She’d asked Gramma Del if maybe they could hide his six-packs but Gramma Del just shook her head and said the world wasn’t big enough to hide temptation from a man bound and determined to fall.

Five times in the last two weeks he’d forgotten to pick up Gracie from school and Mrs. Cavanaugh had to call Gramma Del at work. Gracie had sat quietly on the front step while Mrs.. Cavanaugh paced the sidewalk, glancing at her watch as she peered up and down the street. The worst part of all was the way the other parents looked at Gracie. Their eyes would get all big and sad-looking, and they’d quickly turn their heads away and walk a little faster.

“We’re going to make a few changes around here,” Gramma Del said as she walked Gracie to school the morning after Daddy drove his truck onto the McMahon family’s lawn and hit a sugar maple. Gramma said that Daddy wouldn’t be picking her up after school any more. From now on Gracie would be walking home with Noah and Mrs. Chase.

Gracie stared up at her grandmother. “I’ll go home with Noah?”

“Yes,” Gramma said. Her mouth was so tight the word barely squeezed itself out. “Mr. Chase said you can sit quietly in the kitchen with me while I fix their supper.”

“I can’t play with Noah? He has electric trains.”

Gramma’s grip on her hand tightened.

“Ouch!”

Gramma’s fingers loosened a teeny bit. “You are to stay in the kitchen with me, missy, and that’s an order. Mr. Chase doesn’t much like strangers in his house.” She laughed one of those grownup laughs that Gracie didn’t understand. “Except the ones on his payroll.”

***

It was said about Simon Harriman Chase that what he didn’t own wasn’t worth owning. His family had founded Idle Point before the Revolutionary War and it was his family who had kept it going through good times and bad. They had started out as shipbuilders and were modestly successful until Josiah Chase discovered a vein of tourmaline on his property and the family fortune was made. The Chase influence was still felt in shipbuilding, in tourmaline mining, in real estate, but for the last sixty years the Chase family had been synonymous with journalism. The Idle Point Gazette had achieved a national reputation for fair, incisive reporting and had the awards to prove it. Simon’s father handed over the reins of leadership to his eldest son eight years ago and so far Simon had managed to maintain the same standards of critical excellence his readers had come to expect from the Gazette.

He ran the paper, chaired the local Chamber of Commerce, volunteered his time and money to the school board, hospital, and church. He was a model citizen, an accomplished man who hated a child with an intensity that sometimes scared him.

The sight of poor plain little Graciela Taylor with her brown hair and brown eyes and skinny little body filled him with helpless rage. He didn’t wish her dead. He simply wished she had never been born.

… Continued…

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