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In the decade since their younger sister’s death, James and Ian Lawrence have drifted apart — James to pursue a steady but humdrum career as a CPA in Kansas City, Ian to go adventuring off to Leipzig, Germany, for his doctorate in economics. But when Ian mysteriously disappears while researching the economics of organized crime, James must take a leave of absence to look for him.

Risking everything, he embarks on a perilous journey across Europe, digging into the business affairs of some very private, very dangerous people. In the search for Ian, he discovers a brewing revolution that will shock the world — and change what he sees as his own place in it.

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an excerpt from

The Price of Innocence

by Bryan Devore

 

Copyright © 2014 by Bryan Devore and published here with his permission
This sometimes happened: from time to time, Dantès, driven out of solitude into the world, felt an imperative need for solitude.

-Alexandre Dumas,
The Count of Monte Cristo, 1844

1

IAN LAWRENCE’S EYES were tired from scanning through hundreds of Internet articles. Sitting alone in the Handelshochschule Leipzig university computer lab, he couldn’t believe it was already two in the morning. He had chosen ten terms related to the economics of organized crime and translated each from English into German, French, Russian, Polish, Czech, Slovak, Croatian, Armenian, Romanian, and Hungarian. For each translation of each word, he searched the Web for articles or sites that might be useful to his research. Even though he couldn’t read any of the articles he found, he copied and pasted those with numerous key words into an online translator program so he could read a rough translation.

It was an article from a Krakow newspaper, with a picture of two women, that captured his attention. Both of them could have been models. They looked like sisters: one about 15 years old, the other about 20. The caption under the picture read, “Siostry Zoe i Miska w Krakowie cztery miesiące przed domniemanym porwaniem Miska przez handlarza kobietami.

Ian stared at their picture. Something horrible must have happened to them, because his Web search included only horrible words. He copied the article into the online program to get a rough Polish-to-English translation. As he read the translated article, his worst fears about the girls were confirmed. They were sisters from Krakow. The oldest, Zoe, was twenty-three, and the younger, Miska, was fifteen. Nearly three months ago, Miska had vanished. The police opened a major investigation, and the story got a lot of publicity in the regional papers around Krakow for a month after the disappearance, but slowly, as days turned into weeks with no breakthroughs, the story faded from the press. According to this article, the whole thing would have been forgotten if not for Zoe’s continued efforts to discover what happened to her sister. Zoe believed her sister had been abducted by human traffickers and put to work as a sex slave. The investigating authorities had uncovered an eyewitness testimony and some credit card data that seemed to support the likelihood that Miska had been kidnapped. Because their family didn’t have much money and there had been no contact from those responsible, the authorities believed that sex traffickers were to blame.

Ian tried not to imagine what had happened to young Miska during the past three months if she really had been forced into the sex slavery trade. Every ounce of humanity inside him fought against the notion of thinking about this fifteen-year-old child suffering such horrible abuse for so long. He clicked back to the article and looked again at the picture of the sisters. He turned his focus to the older sister, Zoe. He thought about her losing her kid sister to crime, just as he had lost Jessica.

That was when he realized he was going about his research all wrong. He had already read every book, paper, and interview in the academic community about organized crime. He needed to do his research on the ground level. With the people. In the dark alleys of the world, where the crimes were committed and the victims suffered. And he would start with this woman Zoe and her missing sister.

He spent the next fifteen minutes typing a long e-mail to the journalist who had written the article. It was four in the morning when he finally sent the message.

He had five hours before he and the professor’s friend, Marcus Gottschalk, met at the Leipzig train station and headed to Prague. Logging off the computer, he grabbed his leather satchel with the papers he had printed from the Internet, and walked up to the twenty-four-hour library. Like a physicist looking for evidence of dark matter in the universe, he was obsessed with discovering the theoretical link between the operations of organized crime and the legitimate corporate world. He would stay up all night if he had to. How could he even consider the luxury of sleep when so many victims were suffering at this very moment?

When the sun came up three hours later, he left the library to return to the computer lab. Logging on to his account, he saw the e-mail reply from Zoe Karminski.

*    *    *

Ian had come into Prague from the north, circling up around Hradčany Castle, which gave his first clear view of the ancient city below him. From his vantage point on Letná Hill, he could see much of the city across the Vltava River. There seemed to be an old stone bridge every hundred yards along the river. He could see the famous Charles Bridge, permanently closed to automobiles, packed with painters and meandering pedestrians. Red roofs with a dusting of snow stood along the old city walls. Looking out over a sea of Gothic and Renaissance churches, clock towers, stone bridges, monasteries, and graveyards, he felt as if he had gone back in time.

A week ago he had given the professor his dissertation proposal regarding an unexplored research gap: economic policies and strategies that governments could implement to diminish organized crime. The professor had loved it but added that this wasn’t a topic one could research in the comfort and safety of a university library. That’s when the professor told him about his former MBA student Marcus and said they should go to Prague to research his dissertation topic.

Now that he was in Prague with Marcus, he couldn’t wait to delve into the kind of research the professor was talking about.

They took a green BMW taxi to Nový Svět, to a long twenty-foot-high wall set with brightly painted residential doorways. Marcus led him up the sloping cobblestone street that curved into Loreto Square.

“This has long been a working-class neighborhood,” Marcus said. “But it has memories of greatness as well. We are very near where Einstein taught physics for years before defecting to your America, just before Hitler’s blight swept this land.”

Marcus opened a red door and waved Ian into the shadowy interior.

Inside the dim, dank chamber, Ian felt as if he had entered a vampire’s lair. Dust motes floated in the plank of light slanting in from a high window. They descended a narrow stone staircase that might have wound down to a fairy-tale castle dungeon.

With each step he took into the darkness, Ian grew more excited. But when he reached the basement’s dirt floor, his excitement turned to unease. Without needing to take another step into the underground chamber, he saw ten faces staring back at him in the flickering candlelight.

“What is this?” he asked Marcus.

But Marcus had stepped away from Ian and vanished into the shadows like a phantom. And at that moment, it occurred to Ian that he had just walked into an ambush of some sort.

Then, without warning, a dim red light turned on overhead, illuminating the ten faces. From the corner of his eye, he saw Marcus standing next to a light switch. Marcus nodded toward the group sitting around the large wooden table that Ian could now make out. “Ian, I’d like to introduce you to some people from the White Rose.”

“I . . . recognize a few of you from the university,” Ian said. “Are you all students at HHL?”

“No,” Marcus answered. “Some are; some aren’t. Some are alumni, and others have no affiliation with the school.”

“So what do you have in common?”

“Only this,” said a girl Ian knew as Florence. “The professor found us all. Just as he found you.”

“I’m taking him to the factory tonight,” Marcus said.

They seemed surprised.

“Is that smart?” Florence asked.

“He’s ready for it,” Marcus said.

“Ready for what?” Ian asked.

“You’ll see.”

*    *    *

“I’ve already forgotten half their names,” Ian said. Marcus and he had left the dungeon meeting for the cool open air of the small courtyard.

“You’ll get to know them in time.”

“And there are others?”

“Oh, yes.”

“Where are they?”

Marcus looked down and smiled. “Everywhere.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Quebec, New York, Tokyo, Shanghai, Bangkok, Moscow, Paris, London, Istanbul, Dubai, Barcelona, Rome, Mexico City, Helsinki, Rio, Cairo, Buenos Aires, San Francisco, Miami, Sydney, Los Angeles.”

“What is this, some kind of conspiracy?” Ian asked as they left the courtyard through a narrow walkway between two buildings. He could see people walking in the street up ahead.

“It’s a network.”

“A secret network,” Ian added.

“We have to operate the same way they do if we expect to damage their operations.”

They? You mean criminal organizations?”

“Yes.”

“So your ambitions are global?”

“Very much so.”

A cold gust shot down the alleyway. Ian zipped up his black leather jacket, and Marcus buttoned his cashmere coat. From somewhere in the distance came the two-tone high-low siren of a police car.

“And all the groups are like this?” Ian asked. “Ten to fifteen people? Mostly students?”

“Mostly students, yes. Change has often begun with mostly students. The size of group varies. We’re the Berlin group and we’re the largest in the world. That’s because we were the first to organize, and we helped the others recruit and develop their own chapters. But our chapter’s size is closer to fifty people. You just met a few of them. Most are still in Berlin.”

“Why are these in Prague?”

“I’ll show you tonight.”

It made surprising sense that at some point a group like this should develop from the same youthful, rebellious passions that had been at or near the heart of every revolutionary change throughout history. Still, he could scarcely believe his luck, after a youth spent troublemaking and adventuring in Kansas, to have stumbled onto what could be the great revolution of his generation. A people’s revolution against global criminal enterprise. His heart raced with excitement.

“And Dr. Hampdenstein helped put all this together,” Ian said. “Incredible.”

“He’s one of the world’s top economic professors, at one of the world’s top universities. Lots of brilliant, ambitious students come here from all over the world. Some come for a degree, some for a semester abroad, some for one of the many global seminars. And the professor travels frequently as a guest lecturer to other top schools. Many of the places he’s been, he’s found committed students eager to start their own local chapter of the White Rose.”

“How long has this been going on?”

“I was one of the first few he recruited,” Marcus said proudly. “That was five years ago.”

They left Nový Svět through a maze of uneven cobblestone streets centuries old, under a stone archway into Staré Město, the oldest part of the city. Ian felt a camaraderie with Marcus that he hadn’t felt since chasing tornadoes in Kansas with his brother. But that was nothing more than a thrill with the excuse of capturing some interesting film footage. This was different. Now he was trying to help save the world.

“You understand this could be dangerous?” Marcus said.

“I’ve been in worse.”

They went up a stairway to a large pedestrian bridge of ancient stones. Medieval gargoyles lit by antique glass lamps lined the parapets, staring out of the fog like phantoms. Ian loved everything about this world that Marcus was taking him into, though he felt a lingering sense of foreboding. He knew that whatever Marcus had in mind for him, whatever the details of the White Rose’s activities, he was ultimately being led into a world of darkness. Beneath all this beauty and history and the flocks of gawking tourists was an underworld of crime.

They had walked over a mile and were now beyond the castles and bridges and historic beauty that most visitors thought of as Prague. There were no more cafés or museums or concert halls. Marcus stopped near a large wooden doorway. Beyond this street lay furrowed fields and, in the distance, what looked like a very old factory.

Marcus led him inside the doorway, where once again a narrow stone staircase spiraled down into blackness, as if someone had carved little steps into the inner wall of a deep well. As he felt his way down the uneven steps, he held out one hand to brush against the cold stones of the wall, while his other hand slid down the iron rail bolted to the steps. At the bottom, Ian could see the dim red glow of an open doorway.

Entering, he found a dark tavern perhaps a quarter the size of a basketball court, packed with at least thirty pale-faced, black-clad Goths. Small wooden tables lined the stone walls and floors.

Marcus squeezed Ian’s shoulder and said, “You saw that factory outside?”

“Across the field?”

“Yes. There’s something there I need to show you.”

“Well, then, let’s go.”

“No, it’s not time yet. We got here too early.” He looked at his watch. “It won’t really start for at least another thirty minutes.”

“What won’t start?”

“Let’s get a drink,” Marcus said, pulling him toward the bar. “Professor Hampdenstein told me a little about your work at the university. I know you have an approach to fighting organized crime through economics—an approach never attempted before. The White Rose can help you develop and test those ideas. And in return, you can help us take the White Rose to the next level. We both want the same thing. We can help each other fight organized crime.” Marcus paused. “How long does it take to implement your ideas and bankrupt a cartel?”

“It depends,” Ian said. “If it works, two to four years.”

They found a gap in the crowd at the edge of the bar. A thin bartender with long jet-black hair was pouring shots of tequila. Her dark, sleeveless shirt exposed bare white arms with spiraling tattoos. Marcus caught her eye and ordered two vodka shots and two Denkle beers.

“The professor said that you think, with the right simulation, it could be tested in a few months,” Marcus said after the bartender moved down the line of patrons, collecting more drink orders.

“If you picked the right two criminal organizations and were directly involved, you could accelerate the process,” Ian said, leaning back on the underground tavern’s cold stone wall. “You would have to choose two organizations that already have a history of competition, preferably with some violent encounters—you’d need that underlying animosity and tension. Even then, starting a war between them will be complicated. And starting a war is only the first phase.”

“We don’t have that much time,” Marcus said.

The tavern was already a very live room, with loud ambient chatter bouncing off lots of hard surfaces, but now a Swedish death-metal song spilled from the surrounding speakers. It must be a hit in this part of Europe, because several enthusiastic patrons were screaming out the lyrics. Marcus leaned closer to Ian so they could hear each other over the angry-sounding music.

“If my theorem works, it could change the world,” Ian said. “But I need a real case study to prove it to the academic community. Otherwise, they’ll just read it with interest and debate its merit and analyze it to death and write discussion papers, but nothing will change.”

The bartender set their drinks on the wooden bar top, and Marcus paid her. When she walked back to a cluster of chatty patrons in the far shadows, Marcus said, “You sound like you believe you can get rid of organized crime.” He grinned. “I suppose the world needs dreamers.” Taking a long drink, he then set his beer down and grabbed the vodka shots, handing one to Ian. “Lucky for you, I like dreamers.” He held his oblong shot glass up to the light. “Prost und trinken.”

“To what?” Ian asked.

“This vodka we drink to forget.”

“To forget what?”

“Everything! Our childhoods and first loves and parents’ warm care and hopeful teachers and those faithful few friends we all had in our youth.”

“You think I can’t handle it—this world of darkness and crime?” Ian asked. “You think that just because I’ve studied it in books I can’t handle seeing the real, ugly thing.”

“Trust me,” Marcus said, still holding his drink up. “It’s better if we pretend to forget everything before going forward.”

“I don’t want to pretend to forget.”

“Ian, you may not realize it yet, but if you continue with me on this path, you won’t be the same person an hour from now that you are in this moment. You need to understand this before we go any further.”

Ian looked at the shot of vodka in his hand and thought about Kansas and all his family and friends still there. For the first time since leaving the States, he felt homesick. The pain and emptiness came upon him as quickly and stealthily as a nightmare can intrude on the sleeping. He wanted the feeling to go away. Marcus was right: he didn’t want to think of home. Not here. Not while journeying into the darkness to do what he felt he was born to do.

He clinked his glass against Marcus’s. “All right,” he said. “To forgetting everything.” He tipped back the shot and felt it burn his throat. His eyes watered, and his heart felt strong. He pounded the bar top twice and looked at Marcus with a sense of liberation.

Marcus finished his shot and grabbed Ian by the arm. “Now that we’re free, I can show you the factory.”

They left their beers, leaving the underground bar for the moonlit shadows of Prague’s outskirts above.

*    *    *

“Stay low and be quiet,” Marcus whispered. They were hunched over like monkeys, with their hands touching the ground as they moved up a grassy slope. The dim lights of the factory created a hazy illumination rimming the top of the final rise in front of them. The grass was wet and cold. The whole world was cold.

“What do they make in this factory?” Ian asked.

“Sh-h-h! Just keep following me. And for God’s sake, stay close!”

“What about security?”

“Not out here,” Marcus said. “They own enough police and politicians to protect themselves. They have guards near the traffic routes. They also have security around the sensitive areas of the factory. We’re safe here, but we can’t go any closer.”

They stopped at the edge of the final hill, still a hundred yards from the grounds below. Down at the large square gravel parking lot at the back of the factory, Ian could see seven pearl white limousines lined up. No people were in sight.

“What’s going on in there?” he asked.

“Just wait for it. You’ll see.”

“A meeting?”

Marcus looked at him with a volatile, almost hateful gaze. “Look, I promise you again, you’re about to see something you will wish you could burn from your memory.”

Six pairs of headlights were moving toward the factory. The vehicles pulled through the open gate, and maybe two dozen men got out. Ten men came out a sliding steel door of the factory and met them.

“It’s a meeting, all right,” Ian said. “Managers from the various business units of one organization? I can’t tell. Maybe it’s a multicartel meeting of regional bosses from different outfits.”

“That’s not what this is . . . Just watch.”

Another door opened, for a brief moment revealing the silhouettes of several people inside the factory. Three of the men by the car were laughing and motioning toward the door. Then out of the shadows stumbled three women in matching gray sweatpants and white T-shirts. They should be freezing in the cool night air, but their lowered heads and shuffling gait told Ian their senses were numbed.

“What is this?” Ian whispered.

Marcus remained silent as one of the men moved toward the nearest woman and ripped off her T-shirt. Her pale skin and large breasts were briefly visible until she fell to the dirt. He stood above her, waving her torn shirt like a victory flag and laughing to the other men.

“Oh, my God,” Ian said. “Is that what this is? Please tell me that’s not what this is.”

“I told you I would show you the greatest crime being committed in the world today.”

“No . . . not this,” Ian said. His anger was boiling inside him. “I could have handled almost anything, but not that.” His gaze fell to the dark, wet grass between his hands. “I can’t watch. Please tell me it’s not about this.”

“I told you the factory doesn’t make anything. It’s just one of the places they keep their girls. The men aren’t mafia bosses or capos here for a meeting; they’re just customers.”

“We have to stop them. We need to call the Prague police.”

“That won’t solve anything. You’ve studied organized crime. You know that law enforcement and political corruption is a large expense item on criminal operations’ income statements. Even if the police do come, it won’t fix the problem. We have something bigger in mind—something that could help stop these crimes. But if we tried to do anything tonight, we would only be jeopardizing our future plans.”

A deep pain burned in Ian’s chest. The girls looked weak and disoriented, dressed in rags that had been torn to look skimpy. Tears filled his eyes. “We have to do something,” he said.

“We are doing something.”

“What?”

“We’re watching. And we’re learning.”

“We’re just going to sit here as those men rape those girls!” Ian gasped.

“That’s exactly what we’re going to do.” Marcus laid a hand on his shoulder. “Look, do you think this is the first time those girls have been raped? Huh? Do you think they’ll even remember any of this tomorrow morning? They’re so drugged up, they don’t remember their own names. And you think these are the only girls those bastards are doing it to? Trying to stop them tonight won’t do a damned thing to stop this from happening all across the world.”

“You’re crazy.”

“No. Not crazy. I told you, we’ve been planning a big operation.”

“Why’d you bring me here?”

Marcus sat cross-legged next to Ian. “We want to combine our plan with the plan you outlined in your dissertation. That’s why the professor arranged for us to meet: your economic theories can be combined with what the White Rose is planning, and together we could really hurt organized crime.”

“The professor believes this?” Trying to imagine what those girls went through every night was too much for him.

“Yes,” Marcus said. “But the question is, what exactly would you like the White Rose to do to help you prove your theories?”

“You don’t want to know.”

“Trust me,” Marcus said. “We’re willing to consider anything, no matter how unorthodox.”

In a stony voice, Ian said, “I want to start a war between the Geryon Mafia and the Malacoda gang. A war that will bring a revolution.”

2

April 15 (2 months later), Kansas City, Missouri

JAMES LAWRENCE FELT a sudden surge of frustration and annoyance. “What do you mean, ‘missing’?”

He had stopped being concerned about his brother’s activities years ago, and looking back at the party in full swing behind him, he just wanted to get back to his well-deserved celebration for making it through tax season.

“No one knows where he is,” his mother said through the phone. “Not the university, not the U.S. consulate, not the German police . . . no one.”

He set his beer bottle on the wrought-iron table and rubbed his forehead. His mother had a knack for choosing the worst times to call. Here he was, trying to enjoy the after-busy-season party the firm threw annually after the last client tax return went out the door. The firm had rented the Have a Nice Day Café bar in Kansas City’s Westport district, and already the place looked like a small Mardi Gras festival. While all the other tax accountants were drinking and laughing inside, James stood out on a balcony in the cold spring night air, listening to his ever-fretful mother rant on and on about the latest trouble that his younger brother may or may not be in.

“Mom, listen, nothing’s happened to Ian. He always does this. You know how he is: he runs off to God knows where, doing God knows what, without telling anyone. Just give him a week. He’ll turn up; he always does.”

“No, James, you listen to me!” His mother’s voice had taken on a piercing intensity that he couldn’t dismiss. “This isn’t like before. He’s in a foreign county. We have no way to get in touch with him, and who knows what might have happened to him over there!”

“Aw, Mom, he’s twenty-four years old.”

“He’s still your little brother!”

James sighed, realizing that there was only one way to calm her down. “Mom, I’m in the middle of my firm’s after-busy-season party. What is it you want me to do?”

“I want you to come home. We need your help here. Your father and I have been trying to talk with the exchange program coordinator at K-State, but we’re not getting any answers that help us.”

“I can’t believe this!” James groaned, tensing his grip on the phone. “I’ve been working myself to death for the past three months while Ian’s been off screwing around in Europe, and now I have to drop everything just because he’s run off on a road trip without telling anyone. This is unbelievable.

“James, please. We don’t know what to do. He may need your help!”

He closed his eyes. He couldn’t refuse his mother’s request, no matter how overwrought she was. “Okay,” he said. “Fine. I can drive to Manhattan tomorrow.”

“Can’t you come tonight?”

“Mom, I’m at a party, and I’ve been drinking.” He was stalling. “It’s a two-hour drive—you really want me to try it tonight? I can be there early in the morning. Then I can meet with the coordinator at K-State. We’ll get this figured out, okay? Everything’ll be fine.”

“Your father and I have tried talking to the coordinator, but he’s not concerned—says American students skip classes to travel around Europe all the time when studying abroad.”

“I agree with him,” James said. “I’m telling you, Ian probably just went skiing in the Alps with some French girl he met at a party in Berlin. You know how . . . random he is.”

“We think you need to go to Germany, to make sure he’s okay.”

What? Mom, there’s no way!”

“James, please! We don’t know what else to do! You know your father can’t travel, and I have to stay here to take care of him.”

James felt sick and frustrated. “But Germany? This can’t be that serious!”

“Ian sent me an e-mail,” she whispered through the phone, as if unburdening herself of some great secret.

“What! When?”

“Two weeks ago.”

“Two weeks? But you said he’s been missing for a week.”

“Oh, James, you have to read it. You have to understand. Here, I’ll send it to your phone. Just hold on.”

James took a long swig from his wheat beer. An old Mo-town song was blaring from inside. He tried to think about the volume of tax returns that he and his coworkers had prepared over the past three months for their seemingly endless list of clients. The hours had been brutal—between seventy and eighty billable hours a week—and it had been mandatory to work on Saturdays for more weekends than he could remember. Oddly, though, James had actually enjoyed busy season. He was well into his third year out of college, and happy to be settling into the steady routine of a long-term career in public accounting. The more work he had on his desk, the more secure he felt, the more constant seemed the pulse of his job, and the more satisfied he felt with his professional life. And his professional life was what he lived for.

It was a far cry from his and Ian’s rebellious high school days. They had been inseparable daredevils, endlessly seeking one thrill after another. It was always about another party lived, another harmless crime gotten away with, another adventure survived. But so much had changed since those heady high school days. Even though Ian had stayed a free spirit—as they both had once been—James had found comfort in the safety and security of a steady, reliable career. Public accounting had seemed the perfect solution at the time. And it would still feel like the right choice if not for the image of Ian living the free, adventurous life that he himself had given up long ago. Ever since Jessica’s death, there seemed to be a deep and growing chasm between them as their lives had gradually drifted apart.

The flood of memories now brought James the nostalgic pain he had hoped to avoid. He hadn’t wanted to be reminded of all they had lost.

The message hit his phone, and he opened Ian’s e-mail:

My time in Germany has always been an adventure, but recently it’s more than that. Much more!

I want to tell you everything, but I’m afraid you wouldn’t understand unless you saw what I’ve seen. There is so much happening that people don’t know about! Or so much that they choose not to see. We’ve all heard stories, but until you see it with your own eyes it doesn’t feel real. But it is real! It’s terribly real!!! And I’ve finally discovered my purpose for coming to Germany. This never could have happened in Kansas!

I feel guilty about it, but I can’t tell you how exciting it is to have such a sense of purpose. I know exactly what I have to do. You see, it will all be in my dissertation. I will reveal everything, expose everything, and all through an academic paper! It will change the way the entire world looks at business and finance and trade. I will open their eyes to what’s happening. The whole world will see, and they will never again be able to look away. And then, finally, things will change forever!!!”

The e-mail ended abruptly, as if Ian had sent it on the spur of the moment. But now it was the last communication anyone in the family had from him, so James could see why their mother hung on its every word.

“What do you think it means?” she asked.

“I don’t know,” he said into the cell phone, now on speaker. “Ian’s smart as hell, but he’s always been a little crazy. It’s hard to say.”

What he didn’t tell her was that the message’s tone reminded him of the last time he and Ian had gone storm chasing: an adrenaline-fueled pastime they had pursued together many times during high school. They had been tracking an F4 tornado approaching Dodge City when the giant funnel suddenly veered from a steady path, straight toward the highway they were racing on. James had screamed for Ian to turn back, but Ian had turned to him with a crazy look in his eyes and yelled, “No! I’ve got this motherfucker!” The enormous funnel had gotten within two hundred yards of them, roaring like a thousand freight trains, before turning back onto its original path at the last moment. And as it pulled away from the road, James would never forget the sound of his brother slapping the steering wheel and laughing like a madman.

Staring at the e-mail, he could only imagine what new danger his adventurous, daredevil brother may have found at the edge of Eastern Europe. But one thing he did know: when Ian went looking for trouble he had a knack for finding it. James didn’t know what his brother had been up to for the past few months, but he was starting to get a bad feeling. Maybe their mother was right after all: maybe something bad really had happened to Ian.

The day the tornado turned away from them, Ian had thought they somehow won, as if anything could win against an F4 twister. But James believed it was because God had shown mercy on them at the last second. It had been a long time since he felt that his life was saved for a reason. Perhaps Ian really had found his purpose in Germany. And maybe now it really was James’s purpose to save him from whatever trouble he may have gotten himself into. Perhaps James’s entire life, since that day the nightmare funnel cloud passed them by outside Dodge City, had been one long, meaningless lingering until this moment, when he must follow his reckless brother toward unknown dangers in a foreign land.

His mother’s words echoed in his mind: He’s still your little brother . . . He may need your help! He pursed his lips and nodded as if giving a delayed answer to her comments. Ending the call, he killed the rest of his beer, pitched the bottle in the trash can, and headed down the balcony steps toward the alley, without a word to anyone at the party roaring inside. And for the first time in years, James felt uneasy about what the future held.

3

International airspace, North Atlantic

THE HUM OF the Boeing 757-200’s jet engines filled the cabin with ambient delta waves that had already soothed the other passengers around James to sleep. He leaned his forehead against the cool Plexiglas window, looking at the stars above the dark and quiet world below. Occasionally, he would spot a cluster of lights thirty thousand feet below—a solitary freighter or oil tanker plying between continents across the black ocean.

He had left Chicago four hours ago and was now probably halfway to Amsterdam. This was the longest flight of his life, and he felt a little nervous being outside the United States for the first time.

With tax season over, it had been easy enough to get a week or two off to go chasing after Ian. But he hadn’t wanted to take off any time at all. He liked his life in Kansas City, liked his steady, peaceful routine of jogging around Mill Creek Park each morning before getting to work on the Plaza at seven sharp. He enjoyed his thirty-minute lunches, sitting outside on the white stone terrace overlooking the giant fountain with its meadowlarks and squabbling blue jays. There was always a sense of achievement when he left work after everyone else, with the entire evening before him to watch his weekly shows, rent a newly released movie, or read. He loved the simplicity and order of his routines, so it was with some trepidation and frustration that he had left his comfy life in Kansas City for a journey into the unknown.

In his inside jacket pocket, next to his own passport, he had Ian’s duplicate passport. Duplicates were sometimes issued to process long-term student visas, and their mom had gotten Ian’s in the mail just before he vanished, so she had sent it with James in case Ian should need it to get back home.

Turning away from the window, he reached up to flick on the reading light, pulled out his bag, and began reading the pages his mom had printed for him before he left. They were the first three of the four e-mails Ian had sent their parents, and maybe they held some clue to what had happened to his brother in Germany.

He read the first e-mail:

Mom and Dad,

Life here is good. Sorry it took me so long to email. It’s been interesting getting used to life in Germany. The language is hard to learn, but I’m making progress. Many Germans under the age of thirty know English as a second language, which helps. Those who are older learned Russian instead.

I’m the only American at the university, which is exactly what I had hoped for. One of my professors was last year’s runner-up for the Nobel Prize in Economics! I plan to go to Berlin this weekend. I’ve read that Berliners, due to the city’s unique past, are very liberal. Some of the parks even have sections reserved for nude sunbathing. You’ve gotta love Europe!

I’m always trying to tell the other students about how great college football is, but they still prefer soccer. Next week I’m taking a day trip to Dresden with some other students to visit a castle just outside the city. I’ve never been to a castle before! And a few days ago, we visited a German brewery in the countryside for my strategic management course. We were there to study the production and distribution operations of the business, but we also found time to sample the different beers and got a bit drunk.

Well, I need to run. I’m meeting some students at a Biergarten for a few drinks before we head to a club in the city center. Looks like it could be another fun night. Carpe diem, right!

Cheers,

Ian

James smiled, hearing Ian’s voice in his head as he read the e-mail. He could only imagine how much fun his brother must be having. He sometimes wondered if he had made a mistake in his own life by being so cautious and calculating. His brother just seemed to float through life with such ease, never making sacrifices for the future, always having fun. His own life could easily have followed a similar path if he had made different decisions.

He read the next e-mail:

Mom and Dad,

Sorry it’s been so long since I wrote. I’ve just completed my first week of the “Transitional Economies” course. Tomorrow I’m visiting Prague with a new friend I met at a dinner party thrown by one of my professors. There’s a group of people that have a pretty different way of looking at the world. I’m looking forward to spending more time with them, and they promised they would show me a side of Prague that would “open my eyes.” The professor is helping me iron out a fairly ambitious concept for my dissertation, and he thought some of the folks in this group could help my research.

The professor also said it would be a good city to visit while considering my dissertation. He really likes my idea and thinks it has the potential to be one of the most controversial and important academic papers in years. And he’s one of the most brilliant and connected professors I’ve ever known.

Anyway, I need to get back to finishing this case study. Hope everything is going well back in Kansas.

Cheers,

Ian

Typical Ian: he had found a way to continue putting off a career by hiding in an exchange program that seemed more of an extended vacation than a serious academic effort. But something bothered James: the slight change in focus during the message. There was still the sense of adventure and discovery, but he couldn’t help noticing Ian’s infatuation with the professor who had thrown the dinner party, and the mysterious group of people he was going to see in Prague.

He flipped to the final e-mail:

Mom and Dad,

The world is a dark place. Not for everyone, of course, but certainly for too many people. And in Prague I saw the darkest of nights that I could have imagined. Not for me but for others: a forgotten group of victims.

Now I know exactly what I have to focus on for my dissertation. It will be like no academic paper ever written. I will research its dire themes firsthand—not in the libraries of the world but in the very streets and alleys of a sinister world that has hidden in the shadows for too long. I have it within my power to do something no one has ever done before.

The people I met in Prague are the most passionate and honorable I’ve known. The things they’re trying to do are revolutionary. I feel the same way Thomas Jefferson must have felt when attending the Continental Congress. My professor was right: I have a unique opportunity to help them achieve what they’ve been struggling for all these years. And I realize, this is what I’ve been searching for my entire life. Everything I’ve ever done has been specifically designed by fate to prepare me for this moment. I can’t tell you any more right now, but some day I’ll be able to tell you everything. And I promise that you will be proud of everything I’m about to do.

Love,

Ian

Proud of what? James wondered. What the hell was Ian up to? He closed his eyes and thought about the e-mail. It was the next level, evolving from the second message but not quite as excited and passionate as the one their parents got right before Ian disappeared. There was a pattern here. Each message seemed to progress toward the unknown theme of Ian’s dissertation. Perhaps the doctoral research could shed light on his disappearance. Once James arrived in Leipzig he would need to figure out what this mysterious academic paper was all about. He knew his brother well enough to know that he would risk everything on something he was excited about. And James had never seen him more excited than he seemed to be in those messages. Whatever Ian’s plans had been, something must have gone seriously wrong.

James turned out his reading light. All traces of distant ship lights on the black ocean below had vanished. It was as if he were traveling across an undefined no-man’s-land, being pulled toward a dark world that now beckoned him only a week after it took his brother.

… Continued…

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Chapter 1

1905

Des Moines, Iowa

Katherine rubbed the second knuckle of her pinky finger–the spot where it had been amputated nearly two decades before. The scarred wound pulsed with each heartbeat as her mind flashed through the events that led to its removal. Was it possible for an infection to form inside an old sore?

Don’t think about it. Just do your work.

She snatched the clump of metal from the stone saucer and scrubbed the iron pot as though issuing it punishment. She caught her forefinger on blackened beans. Damn. She sucked on the nail. With her free hand she yanked the plug from the soapstone sink then opened the back door. Hot, thick wind brushed her cheeks and forced her eyes closed as she yanked the rope that made the dinner bell clang.

With a jerk of her hip she booted the door closed and wiped her hands on the gravy-splattered apron that draped her body. A crash came from the front of the house. A ball through the window? Another wrestling match over the last “up” at bat? She dashed to­ward the foyer to see what her children were up to.

She tripped over the edge of the carpet and caught her balance, gaping at the sight. There on the floor was her husband, Aleksey, kneeling over her sister Yale. A shattered flow-blue vase lay scattered around them.

Yale burped sending a burst of gin-scented breath upward.

Katherine recoiled as the odor hit her nose.

“She’s drunk? Take her to my mother’s!”

Aleksey looked up, his face strained.

“Just help…”

She couldn’t handle Yale. Not right then. She turned and headed back toward the kitchen. Their mother would have to res­cue Yale this time. As though being scolded from afar, her missing finger throbbed again, like a knife scraping at the marrow deep inside her bones the pain forced her to stop. Her mother hadn’t been there when she lost the finger. Her mother was never where she was supposed to be.

Katherine looked over her shoulder at the pair on the floor and clutched her hand against her chest. Yale gurgled, growing pale grey. Aleksey hoisted her and carried her to the couch.

She looked down at her smarting hand, against her heart, and clarity took over. It wasn’t Yale’s fault she was fragile. She’d been born that way. She’s your sister. Do something. She puffed out her cheeks with air and then released it. Her anger receded taking the throbbing pulse in her hand with it.

She grabbed a pot of hydrangeas from a side-table and ran out the front door, shook the billowy, blue flowers out of the pot send­ing coal-black dirt splashing over the wood planks.

Back in the house she slid onto the couch, Yale’s head in her lap, pot perched on the floor to catch the vomit. Aleksey paced in front of the women.

“She was at Sweeny’s. Alone. Men, tossing her back and forth like a billiard ball. I barely…”

Katherine covered her mouth. She had enough of her mother’s failures.

“I knew this kind of thing would happen. And, now-”

“She’s your sister and I know you love them even if you say you don’t care. Your mother’s dying. We have to help them.” Aleksey’s jaw tensed.

Katherine bit the inside of her cheek, struck by his rare disapproval of her.

“You can’t ignore this one more minute,” Aleksey said, “seven­teen years is long enough to forgive.”

Without warning, Yale bucked forward and vomited, spack­ling Katherine with booze-scented chunks before passing out again. Tears gathered in her eyes. Hand quivering, she swiped a chunk from her chin with the back of her hand then smoothed Yale’s black hair off her pale, clammy forehead.

She gulped and gritted her teeth.

“If Mother can’t take care of Yale, then it’s time for the institution.” The words were sour in Katherine’s mouth, yet she couldn’t stop them from forming, from hanging in the air, the spitefulness making Aleksey break her gaze.

Aleksey pulled the pot from between Katherine’s feet and held it near Yale as she started to gag again.

“Yale can stay here. They both can.”

Katherine rocked Yale, not wanting to let her go, but knowing she had to hold her mother accountable. She was the mother after all. She shook her head and slid Yale off her lap, patting her head as she stood.

Aleksey rolled Yale to her side as she heaved into the pot.

“I’ll call Mother,” she said heading toward the stairs.

“I recall a time,” Aleksey said as he held Yale like she was one of his own, “when you called your mother, Mama, and the word swelled with adoration.”

Katherine turned from the bottom step, her posture straight and sure, like she was headed to dinner and a play rather than to scrape someone’s vomit from her skin. She gripped the banister trying to channel the mish-mash of emotion into the wood rather than feel it.

“I don’t recall that. Calling her Mama, feeling warmth in the word. I don’t recall it a bit.” And with that she trudged upstairs to peel off the rancid clothes and to stifle the rotten feelings that always materialized upon the sight of her family, drunk or not.  

 

 

Chapter 2

1887

Dakota Territory

 

“Mama?”  

Jeanie jumped at her daughter’s thin voice. Katherine lay below her in tall sinuous grasses that bent with the wind, covering and uncovering her with each shifting gust.

“I’m hot and tired and when will Father be back?” Katherine rose up on her elbows. “I understand complaining is like an ice-pick in your ear, but I’m plum hot and plum parched and tired of wait­ing.” She jerked a blade of grass from the ground and bit on it.

Jeanie nodded and rubbed her belly. She was pregnant but hadn’t told anyone. Cramps pulled inside her pelvis. Would she lose this one? Nervous, she grabbed for the fat pearls that used to decorate her neck and smacked her tongue off the roof of her arid mouth.

She hacked up a clump of phlegm, turned her back to Katherine and spit it into the air. A sudden blast of air blew the green mu­cus back, landing on her skirt. Hands spread up to the sky, she stared at the ugly splotch marveling at how quickly her life had transformed. She would never have believed it possible before the scandal hit her own family.

With clenched teeth she wrenched a corner of her petticoat from under the skirt to wipe away the lumpy secretion. Her thoughts tripped over each other. Jeanie would not let doubt lin­ger, mix with fear and paralyze her. She would be sure the family re-grew their fortune, that they reclaimed their contentment, their name, their everything. If only Frank were more reliable. Damn Frank was never where he was supposed to be.

Arms wrapped across her body, Jeanie tapped her silk-shoed foot. They should head for water, but she didn’t think that was prudent. She’d heard people could lose direction quickly in such expansive land. That frightened her, not being in control, but she also thought perhaps the people who ended up wandering the prai­rie lost were simply not that smart or were careless. Slowly, as she ran her fingers down the front of her swelling throat, each scratchy swallow symbolized the wagonload of errors Jeanie had made and she started to understand that intelligence and survival did not always walk together.

Damn him. Five hours. They’d waited long enough for Frank. She pushed away the rising tears that grew from think­ing of the mess her father and darling husband had made for them. Be brave.

They needed to take action or they’d prune from the inside out.

“Let’s head for water.” Jeanie clasped Katherine’s hand and pulled her to standing. We can do this, Jeanie thought. Frank had tied red sashes around taller bushes that were scattered in the direc­tion of the well. Katherine wiggled free of her mother’s grasp and raced-as much as a girl could dart through grasses that whapped at her chest-over the land.

“Stay close!” Jeanie stopped and pulled her foot off the ground. She sucked back her breath as her slim-heeled shoes dug into her ankles. Katherine looked up from ahead, waving a bunch of purple prairie crocus over her head at Jeanie.

Jeanie turned to see how far they’d moved from the wagon. She could only see the tip of the white canvas that arched over it. She looked back in the direction of the well, of Katherine. The wind stilled. The sudden hush was heavy. The absence of Katherine’s lavender bonnet sent blood flashing through her veins.

“Katherine?” She must be pulling more flowers, Jeanie thought and rose to her tiptoes. “Katherine?”

Jeanie looked back at the wagon.

“Katherine!” Jeanie stomped some of the grass hoping the de­pressed sections would somehow stick out amidst the chunky high grass when they needed to return.

Katherine!” Jeanie’s voice cracked. She cleared her throat and shouted again. No answer. She shivered then clenched her skirt and hiked it up, thundering in the direction of Katherine.

KatherineKatherineKatherineKatherine! Bolting through the grasses, the wind swelled, it pushed Jeanie back as she pressed for­ward, turning her shouts back at her, filling her ears with her own words as she strained to hear a reply.

Jeanie stopped as though slamming into a wall, swallowing loud breaths hoping the silence would allow Katherine’s voice to hit her ears. Nothing. She ran again, right out of her luxurious, city-shoes, while cursing the mass of skirts and crinoline that swallowed her legs. Her feet slammed over the dirt.

The grasses tangled around her ankles, tripping her. Jeanie scrambled back to her feet and took three steps before taking one right off the edge of the earth. She plummeted into water. A pond. Jeanie stood and spit out foamy, beer-colored water. At least she could touch bottom.

“Katthhh-errrrrr-ine!” She slogged through the waist deep water, her attention nowhere and everywhere at once. The sounds of splashing and choking finally made Jeanie focus on one area of the pond. She shot around a bend in the bank to see Katherine’s face go under the water taking what little wind Jeanie had left in her lungs away.

Katherine shot back up. “Mama, Mama!” She dropped back under.

Jeanie lunged and groped for Katherine as the bottom of the pond fell away. Jeanie treaded water, the skirts strangling her ef­forts to be efficient. A bit further! The bottom must be shallow or Katherine couldn’t have bounced up as she had.

But the bottom didn’t rise up and Jeanie choked on grainy water. She burst forward on her stomach, taking an arm-stroke, her feet scrounging for the bottom. Her face sunk under the surface.

We’re going to die, Jeanie thought. Frank would never find them. Her boys!

Bubbles appeared in front of Jeanie and she reached through the murky water for Katherine. Finally, hands grabbed back, grip­ping Jeanie’s. She could feel every precious finger threaded through hers. Jeanie jerked Katherine into her body, lumbered toward the bank then shoved the floppy girl up onto it. Katherine lay on the grass, hacking and inhaling so deep that she folded over, gagging. Jeanie squirmed out and pulled Katherine across her lap, thump­ing her back until there was nothing left but empty heaves.

Silent tears camouflaged by stale, pond water warmed Jeanie’s cheeks. Her hand shook as she pushed Katherine’s matted hair away from her eyes, rocking her.

“We’ll be fine, Katherine. We’ll build a life and start over and be happy. We will. Believe it deep inside your very young bones.”

Katherine snuffled then blew her nose in her filthy, sodden skirt. Her voice squeaked. “Oh, Mama.” Katherine burrowed into Jeanie’s chest and curled into a ball in her lap.

Jeanie wiped Katherine’s mouth with the edge of her skirt, streaking mud across her cheek. She used her thumb to clean away the muck. Her daughter in need was all that kept Jeanie from roll­ing into a ball herself.

“My, my. We’ll be fine,” Jeanie said. And as her heart fell back into its normal rhythms heavy exhaustion braced her. “We’ll enjoy the sunshine all the more if we’ve had a few shadows first. Right? That’s right.” Jeanie knew those words sounded ridiculous in light of all they’d been through, but still they dribbled out of her mouth, as though simply discussing a broken bit of Limoges.

Katherine nodded into her mother’s chest. Jeanie shuddered, a leaden tumor of dread swelled in her gut. She wouldn’t let it settle there.

“Shush, shush, little one,” Jeanie kissed her cheeks. If Katherine and she lived through that they could live through anything. The pond event, as it came to be in Jeanie’s mind, was evidence they’d paid a price and would be free to accept all the treasures the prairie offered from that point forward.

“Are you crying Mama?”

Jeanie forced a smile then looked into Katherine’s upturned face.

“We’re not crying people.” Her fingers quivered as she tucked the stiff chestnut tendrils into Katherine’s bonnet. “Besides there’s nothing to cry about.”

Katherine gripped her mother tighter.

“I knew you’d save us, Mama. Even in Des Moines, I knew that no matter what, you could save us.”

Jeanie hugged Katherine close hiding the splintered confi­dence she knew must be creased into her face. What did Katherine know? She couldn’t know the details of their disgrace. She must have simply picked up on the weightiness of their leaving the fam­ily home for this-this nothingness.

Jeanie squeezed her eyes shut, trying to find the strength in­side her. She would not fake her self-assurance. She believed that kind of thing lived inside a person’s skin, never really leaving, even if it did weaken from time to time. Yes, Jeanie told herself, she was the same person she had been three weeks before. Losing every­thing she owned didn’t mean she had to lose herself.

 

***

 

Jeanie stood at the edge of the pond and inventoried her most recent losses: impractical shoes she shouldn’t have been wearing anyway; silver chatelaine that held her pen, paper, and watch; pride. Well, no, she was determined to salvage her self-respect. She clutched her waist with both hands, considering their options, then pulled Katherine to her feet.

“This standing pond water will poison us. We’ll continue to the well.”

Katherine patted her mother’s back then bent over to pluck some prairie grass from the ground.

The wooly sunrays seemed to lower onto their heads rather than move further away, settling into the west. Their dresses dried crisp-the pond-water debris acted as a starch-while the skirts underneath remained moist and mealy.

Jeanie wiggled her toes. They burned inside the holey stockings.

“Our new home will have a spring house, right Mama? Icy, fresh spring water?”

“I’m afraid, no, little lamb.”

“Oh gaaaa-loshes,” Katherine said.

Jeanie slung her arm around Katherine. “Let me think for a moment, Darling.”

The endless land looked the same though not familiar, appearing perfectly flat, though housing hidden rises in land and gaping holes that were obvious only after it was too late. All Jeanie could remember was running straight to the spot that ended up being a pond. Her heart thudded hard again reminding her she had no control of her existence.

A sob rumbled inside Jeanie, wracking her body, forcing an obnoxious, weak moan to ooze from her clenched lips. Toughen up. She pushed her shoulders down as her throat swelled around an­other rising sob.

Katherine pushed a piece of grass upward, offering it to Jeanie to chew on.

“You said you came around a bend, Mama.”

Jeanie closed her fingers over the blade of grass and wiped her mouth with the back of her hand.

“We’ll curve back around to get to the point where we can head straight back toward the wagon. Then we’ll know where the well is from there.”

They held hands, traipsed around the edge of the pond and rose up a gentle hill. From there, they could see a tree. Just one. Tall, yet knobby, as though surrendering to death a bit. But, even in its contorted form, Jeanie could see its vibrant green foliage and white blooms.

Katherine pointed.

“I forgot the world had trees.”

“Yes.”

“I’m thirsty Mama.”

“Don’t feel out of spirits. We’ll find the well. Better to ignore the thirst until then.” Jeanie wished she could take her own advice but she’d felt parched since she first perched atop the wagon seat three days before.

Katherine squeezed Jeanie’s hand three times saying “I love you” with the gesture. Jeanie squeezed back to say the same then looked away from the tree into nothingness.

They hugged the edge of the pond, following the bends back to the spot where Jeanie’s foot caught the cusp of the pond, tearing out some earth. Facing directly east, they headed back to where Jeanie thought the wagon sat.

“Get on my shoulders,” Jeanie said.

They faced each other with Jeanie’s wrists crossed, hands joined. Jeanie bent her knees and exploded upward swinging Katherine around her back. Katherine wiggled into a comfortable place on Jeanie’s shoulders and fastened her ankles around Jeanie’s chest.

“You all right, Mama?”

“My yes, Sweet Pea. All is well.” She was going to make all of that true. “Peel your eyes for the wagon.” Jeanie plodded, feeling Katherine’s weight quickly, thinking of the baby inside.

“Yes, Mama.” Katherine hummed a tune.

“Concentrate on the looking,” Jeanie said.

“The humming helps me look.”

“Well, then,” Jeanie said through heavy breaths. “Keep those eyes wide as a prairie night.”

“Wide as a what?” Katherine said.

“A prairie night,” Jeanie said. Katherine’s legs stiffened and she pulled hard around Jeanie’s neck.

Jeanie halted, absorbing Katherine’s tension.

“What’s wrong? What do you see?” Jeanie looked upward at Katherine’s face above her. She squeezed Katherine’s thigh to get her attention. Were they about to step into a snake pit, be tram­pled by a herd of cows?

“What is it?”

“A man,” Katherine said.

“Who?” Ridiculous question in light of them not knowing a soul in Dakota.

Katherine’s legs kicked-she gripped Jeanie’s bonnet making its ties nearly choke her.

Jeanie’s heart began its clunking patterns again.

“Where?”

Katherine didn’t respond so Jeanie swung her from her shoul­ders and tucked her behind her skirts. Jeanie glanced about the ground for something sharp or big. There was nothing that could be used as a weapon against a small rodent let alone a man.

Katherine clenched Jeanie so tight that the two nearly flew off their feet. Steadied, Jeanie couldn’t see anyone coming toward them. Her bare feet pulsed with pain making her feel more vulnerable. Katherine must be hallucinating, the thirst taking its toll on her.

Jeanie spun in place, craning for the sight of a man, the sound of feet, but a windblast made anything that might emit noise, soundless.

For a moment Jeanie was tempted to burrow into the grasses, hide there, play dead, anything to avoid the man, if there was a man. A new burst of sweat gathered at her hairline and dripped down the sides of her face. Katherine’s fingers delved into the loos­ened stays of Jeanie’s corset.

“Who’s there?” Jeanie yelled into the wind. She shuddered. She could feel someone watching them. She whirled again, Katherine whipped around with her.

Who’s there?” Jeanie shouted. This time her words tore through the air, the winds momentarily still.

“It’s Howard Templeton! Jeanie Arthur? That you?” A full, gruff voice came from behind. Jeanie and Katherine twisted around a final time. Jeanie’s body relaxed. If he knew her name it must be a good sign. She tensed again, maybe not. Maybe he tortured Frank and the boys and…she wouldn’t think about it. This Templeton sported a pristine black hat. His ropy limbs were strong though not bulky, not threatening in any setting other than that of the naked prairie.

Jeanie shaded her eyes and looked into his six feet two inches, meeting his gaze. A crooked grin pulled his mouth a centimeter away from being a smirk.

“Mrs. Arthur, I presume? There. That’s more proper, isn’t it? Don’t be nervous.”

“It was the wind,” Jeanie said. You scared me blind, she wanted to say, but wouldn’t. “I couldn’t pinpoint…well, no matter.” She wasn’t accustomed to making her own introductions. It felt rude to say, who are you? So, she said nothing.

Templeton removed his hat and bent at the waist, lifting his eyes. Was he flirting with this dramatic bow? She grabbed for absent pearls then smoothed the front of her dress before pulling Katherine into her side.

He straightened, replaced his hat.

“I met your husband, Frank, on his way to stake a claim.”

Jeanie flinched. Where was Frank?

Templeton jammed one of his mitts toward Jeanie, offering a handshake. She stepped backward while still offering her hand in return.

He clasped her hand inside both of his. They were remarkably soft for a man ferreting out a home on the prairie. He held the handclasp and their gaze. Jeanie looked away glimpsing their joined hands. She cleared her throat and wormed her hand out of his.

She wished there had been a manual pertaining to the etiquette of meeting on the prairie. Etiquette should have traveled anywhere one went, but she could feel, standing there embarrassed in so many ways, how unreliable everything she had learned about life would be in that setting. Jeanie ran the freed hand over her bonnet, straightening it then smoothing the front of her pond-mucked skirt.

Templeton shifted his weight, and drew Jeanie’s attention back.

“I advised your Frank to jump a claim. To take up in the Henderson’s place. That family never proved up and rather than you starting from scratch, I figured you might as well start from something. Besides, I miss having a direct neighbor. Darlington Township might have well over a hundred homesteads settled, but it’s really the few closest to you, the ones you form cooperatives with, that matter.”

Jeanie swallowed hard. She eyed his canteen and had to hold her hand back to keep from rudely snatching it right off his body.

“Well, I’m not keen on jumping a claim, Mr. Templeton. I’ll have to consult my own inclination before we put pen to paper on that.”

She bit the inside of her mouth, regretting she’d lost her man­ners, her mind.

“I’m sorry. My manners. It’s a pleasure to meet you. This is my daughter Katherine.”

Katherine smiled. “Pleased to make your acquaintance.”

Templeton shook her hand then folded his arms across his chest.

“You, Katherine, are the picture of your father. Prettier though, of course, with your mother’s darker coloring, I see.”

Katherine reddened, peered upward from under her bonnet then darted away, leaping and spinning.

“Stay close!” Jeanie said.

“So what bit you with good old prairie fever?” Templeton asked.

Jeanie looked around as though something drew her attention. She hadn’t considered what her response to that query would be. Her heart burst at the chest wall. Templeton’s quiet patience, his steadfast gaze heightened Jeanie’s discomfort.

“Circumstances.”

“I know all about circumstances,” Howard said.

“I don’t mean to be ill-mannered, but…” Jeanie eyed the can­teen Templeton had slung across his body.

He rubbed his chin then slid the strap over his head.

“Frank sent me with some water, figured you’d need it, that I’d be the best person to find you.”

“Water, thank you, my yes.” Jeanie licked her lips.

He handed it to Jeanie. Her hands shook, nearly dropping it as she unclasped the catch. She would give her daughter the first drink.

“Katherine! Water!”

Katherine skipped toward them. She took the canteen, shoul­ders hunched, eyes wide as they had been on Christmas morning.

“Watch, don’t dribble.” Jeanie held her hands up under the canteen. She forced her gaze away, knowing she must look crazed, staring at Katherine’s throat swallowing, barely able to wait her turn.

Katherine stopped drinking and sighed, eyes closed, content. She held the canteen to her mother.

Jeanie threw her head back, water drenching her insides. The liquid engorged every cell of her shriveled body. She took it from her lips and offered it back to Katherine.

“You finish up,” Jeanie said, cupping Katherine’s chin, lifting it to get a good look into her now glistening eyes.

“There’s got to be plenty back at the wagon now, right, Mr. Templeton?” Jeanie said.

He didn’t reply. He squatted down, squinting at Jeanie’s bare feet.

“You’re not going another inch with naked feet and phalanges. What a great word, I haven’t had use for since, well, never mind that,” Templeton said.

Katherine’s eyes widened.

“I’ll thank you to find your manners, Mr. Templeton,” Jeanie said stepping back.

“Don’t be harebrained, Mrs. Arthur. Allow me to wrap your feet so they’re protected should you step on a rattler, or into a go­pher hole. I’ll be as doctorly as possible.” Templeton stood and unbuttoned his shirt.

Jeanie waved her hands back and forth. “No, now, no, now please don’t do…” But before she could arrange her words to match her thoughts, Templeton ripped his shirt into strips and helped Jeanie to the ground. He turned her left foot back and forth. Jeanie’s eyes flew wide open, her mouth gaping.

Katherine sighed with her entire body.

“Sure am glad we stumbled upon Mr. Templeton. My mama wasn’t trying to be dis­agreeable. She’s just proper is all.”

“Katherine Margaret Arthur.” Jeanie snatched for her daughter’s arm, but she leapt away, humming, cart-wheeling. Jeanie’s face flamed.

Templeton’s deep laugh shook his whole body. He began to wrap her foot. “These feet look to have been damaged by more than a simple run across the land.”

Jeanie bit the inside of her cheek. She wouldn’t confide her utter stupidity to a stranger.

“Let me guess,” Templeton said. “I’d say you had a little trou­ble parting with your city shoes? Perhaps? The way your feet are lacerated below the ankles, as though stiff shoes meant for decora­tion more than work had their way with you?”

“Stay close Katherine!” Jeanie shouted to avoid admitting that in fact, she’d kept three pairs of delicate, pretty shoes and only traded one for a pair of black clodhoppers. The clodhoppers that bounced out of the back of the wagon just beyond their stop in Yankton.

Jeanie flinched as Templeton bandaged the other foot.

“Did I hurt you?”

Jeanie covered her mouth then recovered her poise.

“No. Let’s finish this production and get moving.” It was then Jeanie realized she was shoeless-and not temporarily speaking. She wouldn’t be able to sausage her swollen feet into the pretty shoes and she had nothing utilitarian in reserve. Frank was a miracle worker with wood, but wooden shoes? That wasn’t an option.

Templeton whistled.

“Nice you have such a grand family to cheer you while you make your home on the prairie. Times like this I wish I had the same. No wife, no children to speak of.”

“You’re unmarried?” Jeanie smoldered at the thought that not only a strange man handled her feet, her naked toes, but one who was batching-it! A scandal in the eyes of many. Thankfully, there were no prying eyes to add this outrage to her hobbled reputation.

Templeton snickered repeatedly as he moved with a doctor’s detachment. The feel of hands so gently, though firmly, caring for her, nearly put Jeanie in a trance. She couldn’t remember the last time someone had done such a thing for her.

“There. Good as new. Until we get you to the wagon, anyway. I assume you have another pair of boots there.”

“Well, I uh, I…” She told herself to find her composure, that she was one step away from a reputation as an adventuress or an imbecile if she didn’t put forth the picture of a respectable woman.

“Had a shoe mishap?”

“It could be characterized that way.” Jeanie wanted to die. How stupid could she have been?

She turned one foot back and forth and then the other before having no choice but to look at Templeton and thank him for his assistance. Blood seeped through bandages and she nodded know­ing he had been right. She’d have been wrought with infection and open to the bone if he hadn’t wrapped her.

“Thank you Mr. Templeton. I thank you sincerely.” Jeanie put her hand over her heart.

He pulled Jeanie to her feet.

“My pleasure.” Templeton gave another shallow bow then tied an extra shred of his white shirt to a small cobwebby bush to use as a landmark, to show Jeanie and Katherine how the prairie land could work against even the most knowledgeable pioneer.

Jeanie knew she’d been careless that day, but she certainly didn’t need white ties all over the prairie to keep her from getting lost again. She’d be more vigilant next time.

Move on, Jeanie. No time for moping. Jeanie drew back and lifted her skirts. She stepped onto the fresh bandages then snapped her foot back in pain. She held her breath and pressed forward ignoring the pain.

“It’s this way,” Templeton said. “You’re turned around.”

Jeanie halted. Her face warmed further than the heat and anxi­ety had already flushed it.

“I suppose I’ve made some dire errors today, Mr. Templeton.”

“I suppose we all do at first, Mrs. Arthur.”

Jeanie puckered her lips in front of unspoken embarrassment. When was the last time she’d faced a string of endless failures? Never. She wondered if that could be possible, or if she was just making such a fact up in her mind.

“This way, my sweet!” Jeanie pushed her shoulders back, tugged her skirts against her legs and took off in the correct di­rection, Katherine beside her with Templeton just behind, gently guiding them back to Jeanie’s family, back to the life she didn’t think she could actually live with, but would not survive without.

 

Chapter 3

1905

Des Moines, Iowa

In the three days since Yale had stumbled drunk into Katherine and Aleksey’s home, the couple had made the decision that their Edwardian home, even with four children, allowed more than enough space to care for both the cancer-stricken Jeanie and Yale, who was slow. There wasn’t much to do in the way of transporting her sister and mother’s belongings into Katherine’s home for other than two trunks and some hanging clothes; they did not own a single item that needed to be moved.

It wasn’t Katherine’s decision to have them come. She resisted with all her might but Aleksey, had for the first time in their mar­riage, asserted the type of overbearing male dominance so many men reveled in regularly. He told Katherine she had no choice but to let Jeanie and Yale live with them. It was Katherine’s duty to nurse her mother back to life or onward to death and it was her job to comfort and house her struggling sister.

Katherine stood in their doorway and watched Aleksey help Jeanie, one awkward step after another, up the front steps and across the porch. Katherine may not have remembered any warmth toward her mother, any sweet, shared moments or precious mother/ daughter secrets, but she felt them from time to time, inside her skin, down in her soul, coursing through her body. Below the surface of her conscious mind was the memory of a woman she once adored. Normally when that flash of love for her mother shot through Katherine, she pushed it away, and let the resentment, the gritty hate that seemed to be layered like bricks, weigh on the goodness, squashing it out.

But now, with her mother being ushered into her home for Katherine to tend until she took her final breath, she let the shot of warm feelings sit a bit; saturate her mind, hoping the sensation would allow her to cope.

As Aleksey and Jeanie entered the front room, Katherine watched Jeanie’s gaze fall over the carved-legged mohair davenport, velvet chair, and an oil painting done by Katherine herself. The thick Oriental rug drew Jeanie’s attention, then when Katherine pushed the button, the diamond-like chandelier jumped to life, drawing Jeanie’s gaze before she settled it back on Katherine’s painting, one she’d done when they lived on the prairie.

Jeanie’s once graceful posture was hunched over an ugly black cane as her hand opened and closed around the handle as though the action soothed her. Jeanie’s brown hair, pulled tight into a bun, was thin, sprouting out of the severe style. The frail woman straightened, stared at the painting then brushed the front of her dress before falling hunched over her cane again.

Katherine told herself to find the love she wanted to feel. She took Jeanie’s elbow and helped her to the couch, hoping it didn’t smell like the old hound that often curled on one corner.

Aleksey kissed Jeanie’s cheek and took her cane, supporting that side as they shuffled to the davenport. Acid rose up inside Katherine and blossomed into full envy at the warmth Aleksey showed Jeanie-the fact that he could touch her without looking as though his skin would combust on contact, as Katherine felt hers would.

Katherine gritted her teeth as she and Aleksey turned Jeanie and settled her onto the davenport. She sighed and squinted at Aleksey. She loved him more than anyone except their own children, but this may be too much.

“I’ll get that sweet tea you made, Katherine.” Aleksey headed toward the hall.

Katherine couldn’t have guessed exactly what her mother was thinking, but the puckered lips and narrowed brows didn’t look positive.

“Well,” Jeanie said. “You’re a little late with your spring cleaning, but the place is respectable all the same. I can see you purchase things that last.” Jeanie smoothed her dress over her knees then smiled at Katherine.

“I know you mean that as a joke, Mother, but I don’t appreci­ate it.”

Jeanie scowled and Katherine flinched, waiting for hard words in return. Her mother opened her mouth and closed it then stared toward the painting with reed straight posture.

The pounding of the ice pick as Aleksey split the ice into cold slivers mimicked Katherine’s heartbeat. She took a deep breath. How could a person feel so uncomfortable with the very person who gave her life? She prayed for Aleksey to speed it up in the kitchen as time moved like a fly in honey for the two in the front parlor.

With a startling jerk, Jeanie grasped Katherine’s hand. She jumped in her seat, so surprised that her mother actually touched her. She stared at their hands then at her mother’s profile. Jeanie gazed at the moody landscape Katherine had created on that awful day so long ago.

“You were such a beautiful artist,” Jeanie said. “I remember when you did that one.”

Prickly heat leapt between their hands, making Katherine sweat with anxiety. Jeanie caught her confused expression then squeezed her daughter’s hand three distinct times. I love you. Each unspoken word was hidden in the three contractions of Jeanie’s grip. Katherine nearly choked on swelling anger as she fought the burst of tears that threatened to fall.

With her free hand, Jeanie brushed some hair back from Katherine’s face. Katherine, still as marble, wanting her mother to stop touching her, cleared her throat, feeling like she might pass out.

“Oh, I know,” Jeanie said. “So very serious you are. I was once that way…I…well. I’m sorry, Katherine. I shouldn’t have…I should have told you everything years ago, but…” Jeanie’s gaze went back to the painting. “I want to explain.”

Katherine nodded once but angled her shoulders away, trying to put as much space between them as possible. Katherine couldn’t go down that old prairie path again. It was too late for explana­tions. She would have sprinted out the door, but her legs were numb. The only energy in her body seemed to exist inside the space between her and her mother’s intertwined fingers. Hurry Aleksey. Katherine closed her eyes. Aleksey returned with a tray and tea, ice cubes clinking in the tall glasses.

He set the tray on the table in front of the women. Katherine silently begged him to notice her blood had rushed to her feet, that he should hoist her over his shoulder and take her away from this woman who, in merely touching Katherine, made her unable to render useful thought, to move, to live.

Trust Aleksey, Katherine told herself. She told herself to hope, to believe that something would be gained from this operation- from what Katherine saw as self-inflicted torture.

But, with Aleksey standing there, handing out tea, acting as though it were perfectly normal that Jeanie was there, with Yale asleep upstairs, Katherine decided she might never speak to Aleksey again.

 

Chapter 4

1887

Dakota Territory

Jeanie, Katherine, and Templeton crested a hill and stopped. Jeanie was eager to get to their wagon but relieved to give her smarting feet a break. She lifted one foot then the other, grimacing, as Templeton discussed their trek up to that point. He motioned back in the direction they had come, where he had tied a piece of his shirt to a bush, saying that even though the path to the crest upon which they stood had risen slightly and slowly, that Jeanie should always be aware of how deceptive the prairie land could be.

She turned in place, taking it in, seeing that on that sloping land the world seemed to open up but also it hid things. The fat, blue sky stretched in every direction without a landmark to mar a bit of it. Like the tie on that bush. It was gone, as though it never existed. Jeanie shook her head. So, it wasn’t just that she and Katherine had been irresponsible in getting lost earlier, it was tricky land.

Templeton walked Jeanie and Katherine twenty yards further over the slope. And as though a magician had lifted a curtain, there appeared, one hundred and fifty yards east, a small frame home and the Arthur’s wagon sitting near a crooked barn. Even from that distance, Jeanie could make out Frank, their eleven-year-old son James, and Katherine’s twin brother Tommy fiddling with the wagon wheel.

The three of them walked east as though searching for something lost in the grass. Frank swaggered; his wiry body bore his unconscious confidence. But, he tapped the side of his leg-the one outward sign that something was bothering him. His movements were like a set of fingerprints. Jeanie could pick him out of a thousand other men if they were all in shadow, she was sure.

Katherine tore away from Jeanie and Templeton, gallop­ing, twirling around to wave at Jeanie before breaking into full sprint to greet her father and brothers. Tommy glanced up at his approaching sister then carried on with his play-walking a few yards before throwing himself to the ground, shot, by some evil intruder.

And her James. Jeanie’s first born. He lagged behind, but leapt into the air as Katherine raced by him and slapped his backside, making her fall into giggles that carried over the land. James had perfected a subtle, bellow of brooding, never quick to laugh or lash out. Each of them unique though together they formed a mass of love and pride, each one inhabiting a chamber of Jeanie’s heart. If one were to disappear it would surely kill her instantly.

Templeton pointed west, past Jeanie’s nose.

“If Katherine fell into the pond I think you’re describing, you must have seen that tree.”

Jeanie nodded toward the crooked one she’d seen earlier.

“That’s the bee tree. It’s actually part of the Henderson’s, no, your homestead, now. You can’t see the tree from everywhere, but it’s an anchor of sorts. Then there’s another anchor just over there, at the far end of the Hunt’s property, a cluster of six or seven trees.”

Jeanie rose to her toes to look.

“Your bee tree and the Hunt’s cluster are the most obvious landmarks between the five closest homesteads in Darlington Township. Gifts, sprouting from the land to guide and direct us.”

Hoots of joy from Frank and the children startled Jeanie. She looked back at the family. They ran into the sun, past the sinking yolk, their bodies exploded blaze yellow, each outlined in black to mark where one golden body ended and another began.

Jeanie looked at Templeton and realized for the first time since he’d di